A/n: Ft does not belong to me.

Dark awakening

Summary of chapter: The string of events which lead Natsu towards insanity

Quick note: Read chapter 2 if you have not. It would help you to understand this chapter.

Words in italics are flashback.

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Opening a small wooden door with a creaking sound, he entered his house. Making his way to his bed, he hauled himself up on it and settled down with his back on it. Shuffling a bit to gain a comfortable position, he dangled his feet down the side of his bed. Folding his arms and placing them under his head, he looked up at the ceiling. The ceiling was coming apart in a small crack and it looked like, it probably would not hold on to the next rain of the year. He moved on his side and faced the attached table on the right side of his bed. A picture of Lucy, smiling in a baby blue one piece dress was placed on the table. His eyes flicked in pain and he closed his eyes.

Wandering his mind back to the time when he had actually tried to inform the guild about his condition, a memory rushed back to him. All his feelings from back them crashed over him and he felt sore as if they were fresh wounds. He winced from the memory, his heart clenching in sorrow.


He had taken upon Lisanna's offer, but his heart could not accept such betrayal. He had not known what the other members had seen in the guild but he did know one thing, they would believe him if he explained his situation to them. He knew it that they would stay by his side and help him. He knew it very well.

He walked into the guild hall with determination and strolled up to the guild bar. Facing Mira, he ordered his regulars and sat down on the nearest available stool. The guild hall filled up with people, but it was strange, he could not find Gray or Lucy anywhere. Searching left and right he decided to wait for a bit longer. The person whom he wanted to answer the most to was Lucy after all. He did not want to lose his one and only true love on the basis of some shabby misunderstanding.

His last conversation with Lisanna was proof enough that the guild might have witnessed their kissing. Even the memory made him disgusted. He sipped from his cup and looked up as Erza took a seat beside him. Avoiding an eye contact and even skipping on her usual greetings, she ordered a cake. Silently munching down on her breakfast she steadily ignored Natsu. Natsu looked at her from the corner of his eyes but said nothing. He was waiting for the members of his team to arrive, and then he would start his tale.

Swirling the liquid in his mug he was about to take another sip, when he heard it, the sound which changed everything. He heard a heavy moan coming from the doors behind the bar, the transparent door being incapable of concealing the companions it held. Natsu rose from his seat and slowly made his way to the back door, leaning forward, he squinted his eyes to see through it. The scene in front of him, made the blood in his veins to freeze. Eyes widening in horror, he saw the way in which Lucy's and Gray's lips moulded with one another.

Rage consumed him and he crashed through the door. Fisting his hand, he threw a punch across Gray's face and he landed a distance away from Lucy. Lucy scurried up to Gray and held on to him, shouting at Natsu for hitting her boyfriend. Natsu stood shell shock. The word 'boyfriend' rung in his ears just like the chiming of thousand bells. He looked up at them in disbelief and ran away from the guild. But the thing that he was unaware of, was the act which Lucy and Gray were feigning.

After this incident he had tried multiple numbers of times to tell them about his situation, but he failed to no avail. He would often glance at the duo of the celestial and the ice mage sitting at an isolated table. Often they would exchange smiles and hold hands, making Natsu's heart ache in jealousy. But despite all of these, he had decided to accept their relationship, reprimanding himself on breaking Lucy's trust and convincing himself on being not deserving of Lucy's heart.

Natsu had thought that he would live with the pain of letting her go, on the basis of her happiness. He had believed that he would be capable of accepting her new relationship without a hitch, but the truth was bitterer than that. He started to slowly lose the sanity of his mind. The nagging feeling of keeping the guild in darkness of the situation, made him guilty. But he opted on not opening his mouth. Partially because he did not want to ruin Lucy's happiness and partly because he was scared of the threat that Lisanna had adorned him with.

He knew very well that he was capable of protecting Lucy, but the fact that he still had a soft spot for Lisanna was true in itself. He still adored her as his childhood friend and hesitated on hurting her. He thought that she would calm down in a while and then she would rectify her own mistake. In one sentence, he believed in Lisanna. He believed in the fact that she was tired of some endeavour and would return back to being herself. He believed that she was in the dire need of some time. Little did he know how wrong he was and that he should have confronted the guild at that point.

Natsu tried to work along with the arrangement, thinking that the situation would improve eventually. Days turned into weeks and weeks turned into months, but the situation worsened with the passage of time. Lisanna grew more obsessed with Natsu, even going to the point where she would not allow him to leave their shared bedroom. She would ask him to stay with her for hours and would boycott his chances to visit any guild member. Natsu's frustrations kept on increasing, piling up on each other making a dormant volcano inside his mind, ready to explode at any moment.

Finally the day came when the volcano exploded. It was the day of their mission. A mission in Fiore, the mission being the catching of a dark guild in session. Natsu travelled along with his team, because this mission had the requirement of the help of a particular fire dragon slayer. He had gone through the mission very well and throughout the time had noticed the new lovers exchanging smiles. But everything changed after that particular occurrence. They were running after the leader of the guild, when Lucy tripped over a rock, Gray held her tightly before she fell down and they tumbled to the ground together.

Natsu looked at them as they tried to get up from their position, but a cut on Lucy's leg hindered her movement. Natsu took a step towards them, but Gray slapped his hand before they could touch Lucy. He bent down and picked up Lucy in the mimicry of a bridal style. Placing an arm round her shoulder and the other below her knees, he straightened himself. Scoffing at Natsu he scowled dramatically,

"She is not yours anymore. Now she belongs to me. Stop laying your filthy hands on her body. You cheated on her once and made it hard enough for her" Gray's face turned sour "Go and play with your new lover, don't come between us and make yourself more disgraced."

Natsu was taken aback by the response of Gray. He had never imagined that Gray had hated him that much. But that was not the thing which clicked the madness in him, the only thing which tuned him insane was the referral of Gray on the owning of Lucy. The words 'Lucy belongs to me now' were like the worst nightmare of his. Suddenly all the defenses that he had carefully crafted around his troubles, shattered into various pieces and fell down. His volcano erupted and his face twisted in rage. His teeth clenched together and his mouth opened with a snap. Emitting an angry growl he fisted his hands together and almost flew at them with rage. Yanking Lucy forcefully down from Gray's arms, he took a hold of her hair, pulling her towards him with force. He crashed his lips down on hers in a rough kiss and pulled away immediately pushing her down to the floor.

He snickered and emitted a bark of dark laughter. Looking up at his teammates in front of him, he opened his mouth

"I will snatch her back from you. Heed my words Gray, I will take her back. I will use all methods to have her back" his face twisted in a maniac grin "and I will make sure that when I do so, there would be no one to protect her." He finished with determination.

Gray's eyes widened in horror and immediately narrowed with anger, he rushed towards Natsu with an ice block covering his fist, Natsu's hand lit up with fire and their fists collided with one another extinguishing in a puff of mist.

Erza ran up to the duo fighting in the middle of the street, she held her sword tightly in her hand and cut through their attack with a swish. Placing her hands on their shoulders she pulled them apart and hit each of them, sending them crashing to a few meters away. She turned on her heels and taking a hold of Lucy, she situated Lucy on her own her shoulders in a sitting position and walked away to the train station.

Since then, he had stopped visiting the guild. He would stay back at home and whenever Lisanna came to visit, he would roughly bang into her. He would relieve his frustrations through her. He decided to distance himself from the guild. He feared the monster in himself. He knew it very well that he would inflict pain on Lucy. In his current mental condition, he knew that he would bring painful memories to the guild members. But his condition worsened every single day.

His rising desire to get back Lucy and his frustrations of seeing Lisanna every time beneath him, made him insane. He desired back her warm hands, her loving eyes her soft lips and her beautiful body, each and every time to be disappointed by the lustful gaze of Lisanna. He hated himself, he hated Lisanna and more over he loved Lucy. He loved her so much, so much that he hated her. He hated the fact that she was in arms of another man. He hated her because she did not confront him even for once. He hated her and loved her so much that it was painful.

These feelings grew inside him like a raging monster, until one day, he gulped down his frustrations in a chunk of alcohol. That night he did not go to his house, instead he barged into Lisanna's apartment. Making his way to her sleeping form, he picked her up by the ends of her short hair. She was startled out of her sleep and a strangled cry left her lips as she stared into Natsu's rage and hatred filled face. Natsu tore through her garments, and ravished her in hatred. He forced himself on her in the most painful way that night, bruising her, hitting her, biting on her flesh and finally ramming into her with brutal force. Lisanna cried throughout the process and afterwards ran towards the general direction of the guild for safety.

Natsu had had enough. He was not satisfied no matter what he did. Not satisfied, no matter how much he distanced himself. That night, he had decided, the ultimate sin of his life he would commit. He would get back Lucy and make her his prisoner. He laughed into the night.


Natsu laughed a hoarse laughter. His freshened memory had given him the chance to be reminded of his revenge. Getting up from the bed, lightly strolling towards the attached table, he picked up the framed picture of Lucy. Strolling back to the bed, he plopped down on its soft mattress. Looking at the picture in his hand he touched his throbbing member, and like the many times before he proceeded by pulling it out from his bindings.

Taking the large erection in his hand he stroked lightly, hissing at the pleasure. Stroking it slowly for another five minutes, he increased his pace and very soon enough he was vigorously pumping his hand up and down. Looking at the smile in the picture he closed his eyes and remembered her soft lips. His erection throbbed in response. He remembered her soft touch, her soft body…his erection bulged at the tip and a white spurt of semen shot out from it. The white thick liquid spread all over Lucy's photo and covered her eyes with it. Natsu's lips curved up in an excited smile and he chuckled darkly his eyes hazed in lust.

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