"Hey" Alex said softly. "I- um, I heard what happened to you."

"You did?" April asked shocked.

"Yeah" he answered. "I'm- I'm so sorry."

"Um, it's not your fault" she said coldly as she shifted uncomfortably.

"Do you want me to get a doctor?" he asked nervously.

"No! No, please don't do that. They keep asking me questions."

"Okay, okay" Alex said softly. "Hey, it's okay, I won't get anyone. I can leave if you want."

"No" she said. "It's okay. You can stay. It's just- I don't want to talk about what happened."

"That's fine."

"I didn't remember it" she said after a moment.

"What?"

"I didn't remember it. Then that doctor talked to me. Now I remember it. I didn't want to remember it."

"I'm sorry" he said sympathetically as he put his hand on her arm. Then he looked down as if to question if he was doing something wrong.

"It's fine" April said. "You can touch me; I'm not going to break."

He looked at her nervously for a moment before she spoke again.

"Do you think it to?"

"What?"

"They think I'm crazy. Do you think it too?"

"No" he said. "I don't think you're crazy at all."

"Good" she sighed. "Jackson does."

"No" Alex said softly. "He doesn't think you're crazy, he's just worried about you."

"Yeah" she sighed. "How is he?"

"He's a wreck" he admitted. "You can tell he really cares about you."

"I care about him too" April said, her voice breaking. "When I thought those guys were going to kill me… He was all I could think about. But everything's such a wreck now."

"Hey" Alex said softly. "I know it's going to take a while for you to get better, but speaking from experience- when you find that person, that person you think of when it all hits the fan, that person who's willing to take care of you no matter what- hold on and never let go. No matter what."

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"How'd it go with April's parents?" Derek asked as Meredith joined him and Christina in the waiting room.

"They're going to try to get here as soon as possible" she said as she put her cellphone in her purse.

"How was telling them?" Christina asked sympathetically. "Brutal?"

"It felt a lot like talking to a patient's family. I almost forgot it was April I was talking about for a minute."

"Hey" Jackson said as he joined them in the waiting room.

"I thought you were going to try to get some sleep" Meredith said softly.

"I couldn't" Jackson said as he rubbed his forehead. "Every time I closed my eyes I saw April's face after she found out that she was…"

"April's awake" Alex said as he sat back down in the waiting room.

"What?" Jackson gasped. "You went in there?"

"Yeah" Alex admitted.

"How is she doing?" Derek asked urgently.

"She's pretty shaken up. I guess when the doctor talked to her, she remembered what had happened."

"Son of a bitch" Jackson shouted. "Why the hell did he do that do her? She was having a hard enough time with this as I is!"

"Where are you going?" Alex asked.

"To see April" he answered as he ran off.

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"Hey" Jackson said breathlessly as he ran into April's room.

"Hey" she answered coldly. "How many of them know?"

"What?" Jackson asked as he moved closer to her.

"How many of them know about what happened? You called Alex, who else did you call?"

"I didn't call Alex" Jackson explained softly. "Meredith called you, I told her you were here."

"Did you call my parents?" she asked choking back tears.

"No" he admitted, "but I think someone else might of."

"I asked the hospital not to" she scoffed. "But, maybe it's for the best…"

"They love you" Jackson said softly. "They want to help you, just like…"

"Just like you do?" she asked.

"Yeah" he smiled. "How are you doing?"

"Not so good" she admitted as she fought tears.

"Alex told me that you remember."

"Good Lord is everyone talking about me!?" she said as she started to break down.

"No, no" he said shaking his head vigorously. "Hey" he said softly as he grabbed her hand. "I just want to help you. Talk to me."

"And tell you what!?" she snapped. "Last time I talked to you, you tried to have me shipped off to the psych ward!"

"I'm worried about you April. I'm so worried about you."

"I'm not going to tell you" she said crossing her arms over her chest. "I'm not going to tell you what happened, so if that's what you're looking for-"

"I want you to do whatever is going to make you feel better" he said gently guiding her face in his direction. "If that means talking, fine. If that means going back to sleep while I sit here with you that's fine too, just please let me do something April- please."

"They wouldn't let me leave" April said through tears. Jackson held her hand tighter, shocked that April was finally opening up to him.

"You must have been really scared" Jackson said sympathetically as he choked back his anger at the men that had hurt her.

"I thought they were going to kill me. I thought I was going to die…"

"You didn't" Jackson said softly. "You're still right here April, you can still have such an awesome life."

"Yeah" she sighed as she rolled her eyes.

"It's true" he urged her gently. "God April, you can have anything you want. You can do anything you want-"

"All I want is to feel better."

"I know" Jackson said as he stroked her face. "You will. You will."

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