Waking Up

Days went by so slowly my restraint that kept me from fleeing to the shadows of my room was tested every second I felt Emmett's gaze on me.

He never left the living room, he made it so much harder to ignore him. Everyday I'd set myself on the couch and pretend to read a magazine or if no one was near which barely happened I stare at the wall and let the wound vibrate with pain.

Emmett would set himself on the chair as far away from mine and try to start conversation, it hurt me even more to see him fake a smile and try so hard to get me to talk to him. It took my whole will to not wince or show any emotion when I answered, always with the shortest response possible.

After awhile I figured he would give up and go find someone that could give him what he deserved, these hopes helped a little but they mostly brought more suffering. I didn't want Emmett to love anyone but me…

He was so faithful, I mean I was pretty but it wasn't like I'd give in and be able to love that way. I wished desperately that I could but it wouldn't happen, dieing seemed a better choice then to go through that hell, again……..

Today was very odd though, I sat in the living room the whole day, with my eyes closed and waited for Emmett to bound into the room.

When I finally opened my eyes it was dark out, he hadn't come the whole day… maybe he had finally realized he couldn't be with me.

My chest ached with pain as this possibility soaked in, it felt like my dead heart had been torn wide open.

I was muffling my sobs into the couch cushion when Edward came in.

" Rose, why make yourself suffer, your both crazy about each other……… I don't get wh-….Oh"

I wanted to completely disappear I had so carefully kept most of my horrific past from Edward, he knew parts but not all of it

. "Rose you don't give him enough credit, he wouldn't care you know….he hasn't come out of his room all day, he thinks you hate him."

I felt like tearing him apart, did he know what I was going through , so Emmett could be HAPPY

"Edward, thanks for your advice but please…..just leave."

"but..Ros-"

The glare I gave him knocked his worried gaze right off.

I turned my head back to the cushion, as he practically whispered

"Don't give up your one chance at happiness… you won't always have the option"

I looked to where he had stood only to give my confusion to a bare wall.

What did he mean anyway??

Did Emmett finally find someone else… or was he going to??

I quickly shoved this thought to the back of my head I couldn't handle more pain right now.

With a quiet sigh I went upstairs just like every other day. Day after day went by and Emmett no longer visited or came out of his own room, horror seemed to never leave me as I waited for his foot steps for three days.

Every day ended the same, Edward gave me a worried glance but said nothing, and then I'd wallow in my room for the rest of the night.

The next day was even stranger, I came down to grave faces everywhere I turned… the only one missing was Emmett.

I turned to Edward "Is Emmett still in his room",

He looked at me and mouthed Emmett's gone.

The whole world seemed to freeze as Edward answered my jumbled thoughts,

"He came down to the kitchen and said he was leaving and then……… he left, like ten minutes ago."

My legs where running before I knew where I was going, as I broke into the front yard the passing breeze told me he was about five miles away.

I was setting myself up for more heart break, I started to slow down until I saw him about thirty feet away.

My hand was on his shoulder when the word crumbled out "Emmett…". I gasped as he turned toward me, all humor was gone from his glorious eyes, they were blank and hard with no feeling in them at all.

" Rose…." he sighed my name, like it was effort to talk at all.

"Emmett, don't leave" my voice came as a squeaky cry.

Something glinted in his eyes as he answered "Rose, I thought I could heal you but all I'm doing is making it worse…….I can't stay, its killing you."

Common sense and any outcomes left my head as I saw his face twisted in pain and agony, I had to see him smile again.

"Emmett your helping…..its me…not you" I was sobbing, my words where so slurred I thought he would ask me to repeat myself when he turned and whispered

"I'm sorry, Rose".

All my doubts seemed small now compared to me never seeing him again, defeat tainted my voice

" I love you, Emmett'

I fell forward into steel arms and with a gasp looked up into never ending eyes.

A/N: hey the pollis still up so the next chapter will be either Emmett's point of view or Rosalie's continued.., hoped u liked the chapter I put it up because i didn't want to leave my very supportive fans waiting. Thanks for the reviews guys it helps so much!! vote now on the poll and more will come!! Till then

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