Rin gasped for breathe, what happened? She didn't know all she knew was that suddenly she was in lord Sesshomaru's grasp, being held tightly. She hugged him back, feeling like she hadn't seen him in forever, yet knowing somehow that he loved her and wanted to be her mate, to live with her forever.

"Please believe me Rin" he whispered

"I…I believe you Sesshomaru, I love you so much"

"…….. I love you Rin"

Chapter 9- forever forever I'll wait for you

Sesshomaru said he's goodbyes to his mother as did Rin, and soon they were on their way back to the eastern castle. Rin looked up at Sesshomaru; who was holding her close to himself as they rode atop off ah-un. Her face grew red as she gazed upon him. His golden eyes stared straight ahead of them as if looking for anything that just might try and take her away from him. She couldn't believe it he loved her and she loved him, and soon they would be mates forever and ever.

It was the saddest yet happiest week of her life. She felt the warmth of her beloved Sesshomaru shelter her from the chilly breeze. She snuggled closer to him, as close as she possible could. And felt him wrap his arm around her tighter, in a more protective and loving way.

Sesshomaru stared straight ahead, wishing the journey to the eastern lands to take forever. For he still had to say goodbye to Rin and return to his lands to destroy Nuraku. He had no clue how long this would delay him from seeing his beloved again. But he knew he could not bring her with him. He…he just couldn't lose her again, he wouldn't lose her again.

And to do that she would have to stay behind. He did not know how he was going to tell her he had to leave her and that she must wait for him, even though he knew not of the length of time it would take, it may take weeks, months, even years before he ever saw her again. He told her he loved her and she said she loved him too. Would she wait for him no matter how long it took? Would she stay loyal till his return? Or would she grow tired of waiting? Would she believe his words were nothing but lies? That he did not love her?

His mind spun with confusion. He didn't know what to do. Take her with him and risk her life? Or leave her behind and risk losing her love? What to do what to do. Sesshomaru had no clue. He felt Rin look at him; he felt her heart race with excitement. Another question popped into his head. Could he possible leave his lands? Give them up and rule the eastern lands instead? No that was not an option he could never abandon the lands of his father, he could never abandon the people (demons) of his land, to suffer in the hands of Nuraku. Nuraku even thinking of him pissed lord Sesshomaru off. Nuraku would pay for what he did to Rin. He would pay for how he hurt her! He would pay with his very life. Nuraku was going to die at the hands of lord Sesshomaru and no one else.

"Lord Sesshomaru?" Rin's soft voice came to him

"Rin you do not have to address me as such just call me by my name"

"Oh right…."

"What is it you wish to ask?"

"Nothing Ma'lord-…. I mean Sesshomaru I just wanting to thank you for everything you have done….thank you so much Sesshomaru not only have you saved my life once but twice"

"Do not thank me Rin, I did what my inner being said was right, I…couldn't bare to lose you I dare say it Rin this is so unlike this Sesshomaru you are the only one I have ever spoken to in such a way, the only one I deem worthy of just calling me Sesshomaru the only one I can say my feelings to….I don't know how but you wormed your way into my icy heart but you have and you have shown me the meaning of love"

He looked down at Rin. Her big chocolate eyes looking up at him, as they seemed to sparkle in the night sky. Soon their face came closer and closer. Until Sesshomaru felt the softness of her lips upon his. He kissed her and to his surprise she kissed him back. Time seemed to stop, the world around them disappeared and only their bodies were in the darkness nothing else matter to them but each other at that very moment.

The kiss ended when they suddenly heard the cheering of people. They broke away quickly, as they realized they were back at the eastern palace. Rin's face was red, best Sesshomaru's face was emotionless. Though it amused him that Rin would blush because of such a thing. The people who had survived Nuraku's attack juts happened to be at the docks upon their return.

Sesshomaru didn't care anymore if anyone knew of he's love for Rin. Then it hit him, how soon he would have to leave her… he looked down at her smiling face and put a fake smile on for her. Though his eyes held nothing but sorrow for tomorrow morning he would be leaving her, for her own good.

Rin looked up at Sesshomaru and saw he's smile, but something was wrong he's eyes held nothing but sorrow with in them, she couldn't understand why though, because at last they were in love and together again and had just arrived home.

"Sesshomaru something troubles you" Rin said looking up at him with worry

"Nothing of the sort, my dearest"

"Then why do your eyes hold sadness?"

Sesshomaru's eyes went wide she could read him so well now. She knew he was up set so to say. But for what she did not know yet. The servants cheered as they landed on the ground. Rin was their new queen, and she was now safe at home. They lead queen Rin and lord Sesshomaru to the castle and then to their chamber, which was the only chamber that was not damaged the night the castle was attacked. They were alone now. Sesshomaru knew this would have to be the time to tell her he had to leave but would return for her some day.

"Rin I…."

"Oh Sesshomaru we are alone at last!" Rin interrupted as she flung her self into his arms "now we do not need to speak to each other in a formal manner instead we can talk to each other how we wish"

She smiled at him as she pulled away from him and went over to the only bed. Where she then laid down on it. Sesshomaru did the same. He lay down beside her on the bed and rolled over to where he was facing her. They looked into each others eyes, with great passion. Slowly the space between them became smaller and smaller until there was no space left to separate them from each other. Their lips met in rough dance, battling for dominance and she lost, submissive to him. The kiss broke only for a moment as Rin blew out the candle lights and letting the darkness hide their secret.

It was sunrise, time for Sesshomaru to depart from his love. He looked at her neck where he had left his mark. Claiming her as his own. He leaned down and kissed her soft forehead. She smiled in her sleep. He then walked about the chamber collecting his clothing which littered the ground all about them. Once dressed he left another note upon her and took one last look before he left the room.

(Rin)

Rin awoke mere seconds after Sesshomaru left. She had heard the door close behind him and feared he was leaving her forever. She then noticed the note which lay beside her. She began to read.

My love,

I'm filled with sorrow for I must return to my lands in order t defeat that bastered Nuraku. I do not know how long I will be, my love please wait for me…. I love you ever so dearly and I would take you with me. But I could never live with my self if something went wrong. Rim I don't want to lose you yet again. I will return to you my love I promise you that. And until I return not a day will go by that I would not be thinking of you. The mark on your neck is proof of my return. My dearest Rin I pray you find it in your heart to forgive me for leaving you yet again like this. I only ask one thing…please Rin…wait for me.

Signed Sesshomaru.

In a flash Rin grabbed the nearest clothing which happened to be her night dress, and ran out the door slipping it on as she ran down the hall. She ran hard though last night really took a lot out of her. She had to say good bye to her love. Rin bolt up the cliff once again. Scanning the ocean and sky for her beloved Sesshomaru. But he was no where to be seen, he was gone already, that quick… and she didn't get to say goodbye to him.

"forever, forever I'll wait for you to return to me my love….forever, forever I'll wait for you" she said to her self as tears fell down her soft face.