A/N: Thanks again for the reviews ^^ I'm sorry it took so long to update this story. I just couldn't get it right.. So, I don't know if it's right now, but I hope so. (I have a major writer's block, so tell me if there's something wrong with this chapter. It took me a week to write this one, lol..) Try to enjoy this one!
Casey's POV
Until now I haven't realized I'm sitting on the couch, as Alex flops down next to me. Apparently, I must have looked like I was thinking really hard, because Alex asks me about it. I just fidget with my nails. I guess it's a think I've taken over from Alex. It appears that it's possible you copy behavior from the people you love. Well, maybe this is a sign I love Alex. I don't know for sure. Okay, maybe I do, but it's hard to admit that to myself, because there are a lot of things about Alex that I don't like. For example, that she totally pretends to be someone else. Although, with me, she's different. She is herself. Well, I guess she is. Alex waves her hand in front of my eyes.
"Hello? Are you there?" Alex asks me, looking into my eyes as if I am sick or something.
"Oh, yeah, I'm sorry. Just drifting off into my thoughts." I mumble, while I look back into her eyes. I never tell her, but she's got beautiful blue eyes. If she does it right, she looks right into my soul. Doesn't happen all the time, but sometimes she does. Those are the moments I'm almost sure I'm in love with her. I think that's the thing that I love about her the most. Her eyes. Because her eyes tell me the truth. Mostly, I can tell from one look in her eyes if she's sincere.
"Alex.. what do you like most about me?" I ask her, titling my head slightly. She seems to be thinking about that question. I don't know if she has trouble finding something she likes about me, or if she's weighing off which this she likes the most.
"Well.." She pauses for an instant, shifting a little, to face me better, placing her hand on my thigh, rubbing small circles with her thumb. "There's not just one thing about you that I love.. you know." She looks at her hand, still stroking my leg. "For example.." She pauses while she looks up into my eyes. "I love how you make me a better person.. and how you always remain yourself.. No matter what other people think about you.. I love how committed and loyal you are.. And you have a strong opinion about things.." She pauses again, while I place my hand on hers and move it to my face, cupping my face with her hand, stroking the back of her hand with my fingers. "Then.. I think you're really pretty.. You have to most beautiful eyes I've ever seen. Seriously, I can drown in them if I want to. And your hair.." She brushes her hand through my hair, softly raking my scalp with her nails. "I think I have a thing for redheads.."
I smile at her as I close my eyes to enjoy the feeling of her hand in my hair. The familiar feeling in my stomach is back. I'm starting to get used to that feeling.. I want to act on that feeling. I slowly open my eyes, a little languid of the touching and I bring my hand to Alex's face. I stroke my finger across her lips, slowly leaning in to kiss her lips, closing my eyes again. I try to express myself through that kiss. To show her that I want to give myself to her.. Moments later she pulls out of the kiss, leaning her forehead against mine, looking deeply into my eyes, as if she wants to ask me if I'm okay with all of this.
"I'm ready." I slowly whisper. Her eyes dilate in a response to my words.
"Are you sure?" She asks me. She gives me this kind of look, I don't know how to describe it. As if she wants to know for sure that I'm in the right mind and thought this through. I slowly nod. "Let's go upstairs." She whispers, lacing her fingers between mine. Next thing I know, I sit of the edge of Alex's bed. Alex turns off the light and lights some candles. I'm a bit nervous, but besides that, I'm okay, I guess. She sits down next to me.
"I want you to tell me if you're not okay anymore, okay?" Alex tells me, making sure I understand what she means by softly squeezing my knee and looking deeply into my eyes. I nod to indicate that I understand what she's saying. Some people might say this is very awkward and stuff, but I'm actually pretty glad she asks me if I'm okay and talks me through the hole thing, because I'm more nervous than I would ever admit to someone, and I think it's comforting that she cares about my experience in this, and she doesn't want me to get hurt or something.
Then I feel that it's the right moment. The right moment to tell her. "Alex?"
"Yes?" She looks a bit worried, I can tell. She narrows her eyes a bit, but it's just a fraction of an inch, so it's barely noticeable. I think she thinks that I'm about to back out or something, but that's not the thing I want to tell her.
"I think I'm in love with you.." I tell her, looking up into her big beautiful blue eyes, into her soul. She grimaces, looking very happy with my confession.
"I'm in love with you too, Casey." She tells me, smiling right now. I think I never saw her smiling like that before. It's a smile that reaches her eyes. Actually, it reaches her hole body. Her hole appearance radiates happiness. She's never been so beautiful, sexy and pretty before. She's always holding back something, as if she's a tiger in a cage that needs to be a cute kitten. The power of just one simple phrase could be astonishing. I never experienced this kind of thing, and it makes me feel so fluffy inside. But I'm also proud I finally broke through the walls around her. I just want to hug Alex and never let her go. It's just a feeling I can't fight anymore.
Alex's POV
I'm still looking into Casey's eyes. Those green eyes. I could look in them all day if I wanted to, and like I said just minutes before, I would drown in them if that was possible. She had that look on her face.. I almost can't hold myself, but I try to control myself, because I don't want to scare that pretty redhead away. Then again, her lips crash over mine as I close my eyes, and I allow her entrance to my mouth. She runs one of her hands through my hair, for the first time, trying to take control over the attack. She succeeds. I'm kind of flabbergasted, so it takes a short moment, to realize she'd already unclasped my bra. Slowly, she peels off almost all of my clothes, except of my knickers, while I do the same to her clothes. I softly push her down the mattress. She looks into my eyes, as if she wants to tell me she doesn't really know what to do. I carefully lay myself on her and kiss her chastely. She deepens the kiss by licking and sucking my lower lip, running her hands up my sides, softly cupping my breasts.
"You'll be okay." I whisper in her ear. "Just tell me if I have to stop." I add, as I run my hands over her body. She nods. I think I'm completely sure that I'm a lesbian, because this feels so much better than touching a man. A woman is so much softer and more delicate and, hell.. I'm surprised I can think clearly right now. Once again, I capture her lips with mine, while I run one hand through her hair. When I pull away from the kiss, Casey places her hands on both of the sides of my face.
"Alex.." She whispers, looking deeply into my eyes. "I trust you.." I feel warm inside as she says that.
"I love you." I whisper, and I kiss her neck. I shift a little to her side, leaning on my leg, to grant myself better access to the nervous redhead. I pull my leg a little up, to put some pressure on her crotch. Casey flushes a little, as a reaction to the sudden sensation between her legs. She lays her hands on my back, softly raking her nails across my skin. I run my fingertips across her skin, tracing off to her breasts, softly pinching her nipples. The redhead flushes a little more because of the touch. I trail my fingertips to her stomach, circling around her navel, and moving to the hem of her knickers. I run my fingertip across the hem, and I sense her goosebumps. The muscles in her stomach tighten, responding to the sensation on her skin. She arches her back a little, but just a slight part of an inch. I kiss her neck again, trailing off to her earlobe, taking it between my teeth, running the tip of my tongue across it.
I leave a trail of wet kisses across her body, from her earlobe, to her collarbone, to her chest, and so her breasts, going further to her navel, and finally slowing down in her most intimate zone. I run my tongue across the hem of her knickers. I feel her breathing change with every touch, every sucking and licking.. I sense she has a hard time breathing right now, and she bucks her hips a little. I run my hands up her inner thighs, teasing her a little, before sliding up to the hem of her knickers again, hooking my fingers behind them, softly pulling the last piece of clothing off.
I lay down next to her, kissing her lips. Her eyes are closed, probably to focus on her breathing a little more, and she smiles at the sudden peck on her lips, or at least, how much you can call it a smile. She seems really aroused.
"Alex.." She pants. I kind of grin internally, because I got her this way. "Please.. It almost hurts.." She pants.
"Don't worry, honey.. I'm gonna release you. Ready?" She nods, so I kiss her lips again, adjusting myself back next to her and slowly running my hand across her body, to the place she really needs me to be right now. I carefully slide my fingers between her slick folds, feeling the wetness I created. I feel the muscles in Casey's body tighten a little more, as far as possible. I softly run my finger across her clit, trailing off downwards, dipping my fingers inside her. She presses her pubic bone against my hand, so I take that as an invitation to enter her with two fingers, and massage her clit with my thumb. I watch Casey's face as her breathing becomes more ragged and shallow as I increase my pace. It's just moments later when I feel her muscles tighten around my fingers and she just stops breathing for a while. When she's done, I lay down next to her, kissing her lips. She slowly opens her eyes and looks into my eyes.
"Hmm.." She moans. "For someone with little experience, you did really well." She whispers, her voice husky from exhaustion. I stroke a strand of hair behind her air, as I kiss her lips again. Those beautiful, full lips. I count the freckles on her face, but there's just too many. I've never seen her so relaxed like right now. She pulls me to her, wrapping her arms around me. I lay my head on her chest, listening to her heartbeat. Little by little, I hear her heartbeat steadying at a normal rate.
"No regrets?" I ask her, already knowing the answer, but just wanting to ask.
"No." I can feel her shaking her head. "It was good to me.. and you're just.. amazing." I smile. "You're pleased by yourself, Cabot?" She asks me, chuckling a bit.
"I don't know where you're talking about, Novak." I tell her, trying to sound a bit offended, but I just know she knows me better than that.
"Oh, I think you do know damn well what I'm talking about." She points out. I don't see it, but I can hear she's smiling like crazy right now.
"Well, I just think you're really happy with me, and not yet realizing how much." I grin again.
"Who says I don't realize it?" She sounds cocky. "I mean.. there is a beautiful hot blonde lying next to me, who saw more of me than everybody has ever seen.. And made me feel like no one ever made me feel.. So I guess I'm pretty happy.. But I don't know, maybe I have to leave it up to you to decide that."
"Well.." I start. "I think you're damn right. And enjoy that moment, because I'm not gonna say you're right for so many times more." I grin. "You love me because I'm just fucking adorable." Casey chuckles in response. "What?" I ask her, trying to sound surprised. "Ain't I?"
"What if I told you, you are adorable, but just not if you say it yourself? Sounds pretty weird, you.. Blonde." She's still trying to sound cocky, but I can hear her trying to hold back laughter. "I mean.. If I say it, it sounds cute.. But if you say it, it just sounds like you're a narcissist."
"I am not!" I say, a little indignant, but before I can say something more, Casey places her hand on my mouth to shut me up, laughing like a little schoolgirl. Well, she is a 'little' schoolgirl, so that might explain something.
"You take it far too seriously, Alex." She teases me, so I pout my lips, when I realize her hand is still on my mouth. I lick her hand, to get it off.
"Ew, Alex!" She exclaims. "That's gross!"
"Says the woman who just got spit on her whole body." I say cocky, looking far too happy with my comment.
