Chapter 9 :
The Jacuzzi :
That week marked Maura and Jane's third month anniversary and Jane had prepared the perfect night out to celebrate.
She made sure to take the day off she they could enjoy themselves not worrying about Jane being she was driving to Maura's palace Jane was mentally checking that everything was prepared.
"Reservations: Checked. Dress: ewwww, me in a dress : checked."Jane said to herself.
As she drove inside Maura's estate she noticed a van in front of the house and as she walked towards the house she saw a man coming out, Maura a few feet behind him.
"Hey was that?"Jane said kissing her girlfriend as she entered the house.
"The repairman, our Jacuzzi wasn't working properly."Maura replied inviting her in.
"You have a Jacuzzi?" Jane squealed already imaging them inside.
"Yes we do, on the third floor, the view from it is quite spectacular I must say."
"Let's find out." Jane enthusiastically said holding Maura's hand trying to pull her towards the stairs.
"I don't think that's a good idea, how about we watch some tv?I just made some french croissants that we can eat for breakfast." Maura objected letting go of Jane's hand as she walked towards the living room.
"Come on, don't tell me she's a prude." Jane said to herself as she followed her girlfriend.
"I'm sure you're going to love them. I learned that recipe when I was in france ." Maura replied handing a croissant to Jane.
"Thank you. " Jane replied as she took a bite at the croissant.
"So what do you think?"
"It's really good, god you're definitely a catch. What exactly are you doing with me?" Jane smirked snaking her arms around her waist.
"Well you have many qualities other then cooking Jane, would you like me to enumerate them one by one?" Maura mumbled escaping her embrace.
"Well apparently making comfortable isn't one of them."
"I'm sorry. I promise you make me feel safe and comfortable in general."
"But not right now?Is this because I suggested we tried your Jacuzzi?"
"Can we please change the subject?"
"No we can't. How can I make sure not to make you uncomfortable again if we don't talk about it?"
"That's easy don't suggest that you and I engage in any activity that would require that we'd be half naked." Maura said sitting straight on the beige sofa crossing her legs.
"Maura, I'm sorry, I wasn't implying that I was expecting a hot making out session in that hot tub…"
"Really?"
"Yes really, Oh babe, I'm sorry you took my proposition as a indecent one. I've never been in a Jacuzzi before and I was curious to try it. I promise I never wanted to make you uncomfortable . " Jane said a hand on Maura's thighs.
"Do you think you would be tempted to make a move on me?"
"Well I'm sure seeing you in a bikini would ignite my desire but I can control myself . I would never do or try to do anything that would make you uncomfortable. I hope you know that baby. "
"I know, I know, it's just we've been dating for three months now and we still haven't made any progress in that department."
"I think we have. I know you're shy and you don't talk about your fears easily, so for me the fact that we're talking about it right is definitely a progress."
"I suppose admitting my fears and facing them is the first step towards conquering them." Maura nodded.
"Exactly. May I ask what are you afraid of ?I mean you know that I won't try to jump your bones in there so…"
"I'm nervous about tonight. It's our 3 months anniversary and you have the right to expect that we take things to the next step that's why I jumped to conclusions."
"First of all, making love in a Jacuzzi isn't how I picture our first time."
"How do you picture it?"
"I picture it, in a romantic place, in a bed, with perfumed candles and nice music after a nice dinner…"
"You're such a cliche sometimes."
"Hey…I'm just trying to be romantic here."
"I know…Please continue…"
"Thank you. Well Secondly it's not because it's our third months anniversary that I have the right to expect anything from you. I know you're not ready and if I have to wait until our first year anniversary I will alright?"
"You would do that?" Maura smiled feeling her heart melt.
"Of course. I think we both know that making love for the first time is an important step just like meeting my parents is and that it needs to be done when the time is right. I think we still have a few steps to take before we're ready."
"And seeing me in a bikini is one of them?"
"Well you can't blame me for wanting to take a peek …You know so I can have something to fantasize about when I'm in my bed, alone at night…" Jane teased.
"Oh my god Jane, are you telling me you ….masturbate thinking about me?"
"Of course not, when I got home after work I'm so tired to go directly to sleep . Don't worry I wouldn't disrespect you like that, but I do have to admit that I have wet dreams about you sometimes."
"I think I can understand that. Considering that you've been abstinent for 3 months, it's perfectly understandable that you express your sexual frustration somehow, and you can not control your dreams."
"Try 5 months, babe, I haven't had sex since the first time we met, well actually it was a week before we met."
"Really?You didn't have sex between the day we met and when we kissed for the first time?"
"No, I went out a couple of times when I went MIA for 3 weeks to try to get you off my system, but I failed miserably."
"Well I'm happy to hear that."
"I only had eyes for you. Now would you tell me the other reason why you don't want us to try that hot tub…"
"Sometimes I hate that you're a police officer and that you know me so well."
"I know I shouldn't use my professional skills for personal benefits, but it's obvious that something is bothering you. I'm here to help you Maura but you need to talk to me."
"I just…I guess one of the main reason why I haven't offered myself to you is because I'm not comfortable in my body. I mean my breasts are too big for my size, my feet are too small and…."
"And I'm gonna have to stop you right here. Maura, you're…perfect ."
"No I'm not. Perfection doesn't exist."
"Well I think perfection is in the eyes of the person looking at it right?"
"I suppose perfection is subjective."
"Exactly and my love I found you perfect. You breasts are the perfect size for your body shape, your feet are adorable. You don't have an once of fat, but you have nice curves. I'm in love with your body and with your heart and your brain of course."
"Thank you. I think you're right, we have several steps to take before making love. If my main issue is my body image maybe I should reveal myself to you, just a bit. Do you think you can teach me to feel more comfortable with my naked or half naked body?"
"Of course I can. I'd understand If you don't want to do this . We talked about it and you admitted one of the reasons why you weren't ready to have sex yet. That's a terrific progress, we don't need to go further."
"I know. I want to do this. How about you go upstairs, second door on your right, you will find a cupboard full of brand new swimming suits. I'm sure you can find one you like and then please turn the Jacuzzi on. I will be joining you shortly." Maura said as she walked towards the door.
"Alright.."
Half an hour later Jane found herself wearing a simple black swimming suit . She turned on the Jacuzzi and waited for a while before sliding in.
"Alright Jane, this is going to be a challenge. Up until now you did everything you could to avoid putting yourself in an arousing situation. In a few minutes Maura is going to be here with you, half naked and you're gonna have to behave yourself. You obviously can't act like you're indeferent otherwise she might think you're not attracted to her . God the thing that woman makes me do.." Jane said to herself nervously chewing her lips.
A few minutes later Maura arrived wearing a white robe.
"Oh God, look at how gorgeous she is." Jane said to herself as she marveled at Maura's beauty as she was walking towards her.
"I know I'm supposed to show myself but can you please close your eyes, I promise I'll do it later."
"Of course sweetheart." Jane replied closing her eyes.
Feeling confident that Jane wasn't going to open her eyes Maura's took the robe off and quickly slid inside the bathtub.
"You can open you eyes now."
When Jane opened her eyes Maura was sitting at the other side of the tub, her legs lifting up against her chest.
Jane could see the discomfort in her girlfriend's eyes and was determined to make her feel comfortable and be as appropriate as possible.
"Hey, come here sweetie, I won't bite you."Jane said offering her hand to Maura preferring to let her come to her rather then coming closer to her.
So Maura slowly moved closer to Jane making sure that her body was covered by bubbles. The closer she got to Jane the faster her heart was hammering in her chest. It was a mix of anxiety and excitement. Yes Maura found herself excited by the idea of Jane being half naked a few feet form her.
"Here you go." Jane said as Maura was now so closed to her that she could kiss her to comfort her and reward her .
"The temperature is perfect, I don't like when it's too hot." Maura smiled trying to make herself more comfortable.
"I just turned it on. You look beautiful by the way." Jane said as she let her fingers wander on Maura's arms.
The two women were so close that their knees were slightly touching. As Maura felt Jane's fingers on her skin she started to feel shiver down her spine. She felt safe knowing that Jane wouldn't do anything she wasn't ready for and that thought alone was comforting her.
As Jane was looking deep inside Maura big brown eyes, she suddenly realized that Maura was the one. She realized that she was truly in love with her and that she genuinely wanted to take her time with her and so everything in her power to make things work.
"I love you Maura." Jane whispered as she slowly leaning over gently kissing Maura's generous lips.
"I love you too Jane." Maura replied as she slowly opened her mouth to welcome Jane's tongue.
As the two women were kissing, wandering their hands on each other's arms and naked backs they felt overwhelmed by a flow of emotions. Both women always felt lonely in their lives : Maura always felt unable to connect with people despite her numerous travels and speaking 5 language fluently. On the other hand, Jane despite the multitude of women that she had shared a bed with always felt alone in the universe convinced that she wouldn't never found the half of her soul that was missing. Luckily both women had found each other and now felt complete for the first time in their life. Actually as they were holding and kissing each other they felt like their two bodies and souls were melting into one….
So guys what do you think?It wasn't too hot but it's a first step right?Next chapter will go a step further:)
