I am so so sorry I have not posted in a while!
I was moving and stuff,
As well as dealing with some personal things.. ANYWAY.
I want to thank the nice messages i've recieved,
They really help me get motivated to post again. So here we go!
Ash's Secret Love Affair
Chapter Eight
Everything was a mess, a sticky, stick mess,
That's the first thing Ash thought when he awoke,
Along with several rather R rated words that flooded through his skull,
The pounding in his head was unbearable, along with the sudden urge to be violently sick,
But he held that back,
He took a moment to himself, he was quite dizzy you see,
Took a few more moments to gather his thoughts,
Where he was,
How he got here,
What happened last night,
And that's when he remembered the events of the night,
Ash glanced over his shoulder and saw the other boy,
The first thing he noticed was that the boy was, quite naked,
Ash looked away suddenly in embarrassment, which in turn brought him to the realisation that he,
Was also, quite naked.
His hands shot to his crotch, hiding his not so private parts from nobody,
His face turned vividly red, and he scanned the room quickly, trying to locate his clothes,
His shirt was above the bed side table,
His jeans were beside the door,
As for his underwear, they were in a tangled mess, hiding under the bed,
Those took a while to find.
Properly dressed, Ash chanced another glance at the sleeping boy,
He was sleeping gently, chest rising and falling ever so slowly,
Occasionally scrunching his nose slightly when he breathed in,
He is kinda cute, Ash thought
Oh crap, where's Gary? Ash wondered suddenly, snapping him from his thoughts.
He made his way, quietly out of the room,
And walked slowly down the hallway, holding himself up against the wall,
Not trusting himself, incase he should fall,
He eventually reached the kitchen, and glanced around the room.
It was simply, trashed.
The cupboard doors were all hanging open,
Glasses were scattered everywhere,
And opened bottles were all over the table,
I didn't think we drank that much Ash pondered slowly,
He looked further into the lounged and saw all the guys,
Sleeping in all sorts of awkward places,
Some of the boys were hanging half off the sofa,
Some draped across each other,
Gary was snuggled into the sofa chair Ash had been sitting in last night,
He looks so peaceful, so happy there, Ash considered letting him stay there, in that peaceful sleep he was in,
But he had not told his mother where he was last night, who knows what she was thinking.
"Gary, Gary wake up.." Ash whispered quietly,
He was gently shaking Gary, really trying not to wake the other boys,
"Gaaary wake up.."
"Mmm.. Ash.. What is it..?" Gary mumbled, eyes still closed,
"Gary, um I didn't tell mum where I was, uh last night" Ash replied,
Gary's eyes shot open, "Shiit.. we didn't.. okay.. we gotta go" Gary said getting up, "Let me just leave a note or somethin for the guys"
Ash just nodded and watched him gather some things from around the room,
His phone, wallet and his other possessions,
As well as scratch down a hastily written note.
"Shit your mum is gonna kill me" Gary said, pulling Ash from the room
The walk was slow, Ash trailing along beside Gary,
Ash still felt like he was going to release all of his insides onto the sidewalk,
And he wasn't sure what to say,
Does Gary know what me and Dylan did last night..? Do I even know what happened
The walk continued slowly.
"Soo.. Did you .. like have fun or something last night..?" Gary started awkwardly,
Ash's cheeks went bright red, he wasn't sure how to respond to that question,
".. I mean, I probably should have told you the guys would have probably brought some alcohol ..
but it didn't even cross my mind when I invited you" Gary continued, oblivious to Ash's embarrassment,
Oh! He means about the party! .. Not about .. Ash chuckled quietly
"Uhh.. yeah it was fun" Ash replied,
"Okay good, I wasn't sure because.. well like, I thought they pressured you into it or something.." Gary trailed off,
He was going to say what happened at the Pokemon League.. I'm glad he didn't
"Uh no no really, I did have fun, It made me feel better than I was feeling" Ash replied honestly, trying to reassure Gary,
Gary looked over to Ash and smiled, "Oh good! Well I know the guys liked hanging out with you.."
"You and Dylan really got along hey!" Gary continued obliviously,
"Uh yeh, um yeh he was really cool" Ash muttered, focusing on the small stone he was kicking along,
Ash had no idea what he thought about Dylan. He was really sweet and nice,
And he was pretty sure he had fun last night with him,
But all of this was so new to him, the only other people who had gotten that close to him,
Either broke him emotionally or physically.
Was what they did last night okay? Is it wrong he wanted to see Dylan again..?
"ASH KETCHUM! . !"
"Mum! Again I am sorry! We were at Peter's house watching movies and we all fell asleep.." Ash defended himself,
In reality, It was not a complete lie.
"You still should have called me first! I had dinner ready for you for hours! You had me worried sick!" Deliah yelled back,
"Miss Ketchum, I am sorry, it was all my fault. I told Ash to come, I should have asked you first,
I just wanted him to hang out with me a little bit longer.." Gary trailed off guiltily,
Deliah's face softened, a look of understanding crossed her face,
"Oh, okay well thank you Gary. Ash I left your dinner in the fridge if your hungry,
I um, need to go do some washing" Deliah muttered, leaving the room.
Ash watched her leave, a bit confused as to what just happened.
"Hey Ash, I'm gonna get back to my grandpa's.. Thanks for coming last nig.." Gary stopped mid sentence,
Cut off by Ash's unexpected hug
"Thank you Gary, I had a lot of fun" Ash said releasing Gary.
"Uh.. yeah right. Seeya Ashyboy..!" Gary stuttered, leaving the house.
Ash wasn't sure why he just hugged Gary, maybe it was the fact Gary just saved his ass,
Or the fact Gary made him feel wanted again.
He wasn't sure
All he knew was that he stank, he needed a shower badly.
Warm, that's the way Ash liked his showers.
He hated it when the water was too hot, it made his skin go all a yucky red colour and burnt him,
When it was too cold he got goosebumps.
Warm was perfect.
The water felt amazing, washing all sweat from his chest, and
Ash realised, the dried sticky stuff Dylan left on him last night.
The thought of it made his privates stir,
Dylan did make him feel good, made him feel amazing.
The feeling of his mouth around him.. It was incredible.
He wondered where he learnt all of that..
He couldn't help it.
He had gotten hard.
Now what?
Well he stared at it,
It felt awesome when the running water would hit it directly,
He grasped it, quite firmly,
It wasn't like Dylan's touch, but it felt good.
He felt the entire length, the wetness of it, the smoothness,
Ash leant against the wall of the shower, he couldn't help himself,
Replaying the images of last nights event in his head,
He felt sexy,
"Ash.. Ash honey..?" Deliah muttered, opening the door slightly,
"MOM!" Ash shouted, pulled from his fantasy, trying desperately trying to cover himself,
"I'm sorry sweetie! Though I don't know why your embarrassed.. I did wash you til you were 3 remember.."
"MOM! Get out!" Yelled Ash desperately
"Okay! Okay.. Well please hurry up, and come downstairs. I need to talk to you sweetie" She giggled, shutting the door,
Ash sighed, might as well get out now.
10 minutes later Ash made his way downstairs, fidgetting with his oversized white shirt,
His mother was sitting by their kitchen table patiently.
"Honey, take a seat, we need to have a talk sweetie" Deliah gestured quietly,
Ash thought it was a bit strange, but took his seat anyway,
His mother smiled at him lovingly, trying to find the words to say,
"Baby, you know I love you right? You're my world, and I don't know what I would do without you.." She said
"Uuuh yeh? I know that mum" Ash said, feeling very confused,
"Good, honey I am just feeling a little concerned.. Ever since.. whatever happened at the Pokemon League,
You've been acting very strange.. It scares me a little bit.. You barely come out of your room, not even to eat..
Sometimes skipping meals completely, which is not you at all! And like last night, you have never not told me where you were,
Even on your pokemon journey I knew where you were.." She trailed off,
Ash began to feel cold,
She wants me to tell her about .. that night. No, no I can't. No she will hate me..
"Sweetie? It just worries me seeing you like that.."
"N..No, mum no I can't, you don't understand. I can't tell you.. Or anyone.." Ash stuttered,
"Ash sweetie, please we need to talk about this.. I don't know what to do, how to help you.." Deliah trailed off helplessly
"No.. Mum no you will hate me. Everyone would hate m..me.." Ash began sobbing
"Ash! Don't cry..! Please let me help you.." Deliah cried out, rushing to her baby, and throwing her arms around his small figure,
"Don't touch me!.." Ash screamed at her touch, pushing her away, and making a run for his room,
Not even giving her a single glance as he rushed past her, tears streaming down his cheeks.
"Ash.." Deliah's voice faded away as Ash ran up the stairs
Ash slammed his door shut and collapsed onto his bed,
The thoughts he had been trying ever so hard to block out began rushing though his mind,
You're disgusting. You let him use you. You're nothing. You deserved to die.
Richie would never want you, of course he wouldn't. Why would he. Your PATHETIC
Ash pulled the closest pillow into his chest, squeezing it as tightly as he could,
Begging it to soak up the dark thoughts and feelings he was experiencing.
He was a mess, tears streaming down his face,
He couldn't even cry out, his throat was totally dry,
It pained him to even try to cry,
He just laid there, twisted in his sheets, sobbing uncontrollably,
Dark thoughts twisting his mind.
He had no concept on how long he had laid there,
It could have been hours, it could have been minutes.
Decided it was time to move, he tried to get up,
It was a struggle, he felt exceedingly weak.
But he raised himself from his bed,
Feeling drained he got to his feet and looked around his room,
Everything was the same as it had always been,
Yet it was completely different.
Everything seemed, less colourful to Ash. More dull even.
He found himself staring into space, it seemed the best thing to do.
He wasn't thinking much now, his mind had exhausted itself.
He just stood there, in the centre of the room, staring at his wall.
As if he had never seen it before.
Everything seemed as if it had slowed down,
Looking over to the other wall was his mirror, he could see himself clearly in it.
God you look disgusting, why do you even try.
It was that voice again, he hated that voice, but he knew it was right,
He was disgusting.
Staring at his reflection, he wanted to punch it, it smash it to pieces, but thought better.
Then his mother would begin asking about that too.
Then he remembered the conversation with his mother from earlier on,
How he couldn't bare to have her touch him,
Her touch sent shivers down his spine,
It made him feel cold,
Like it was.. his hands.. touching him,
Destroying his innocence.
He had to get out of that room, he couldn't breathe.
He knew he should feel terrible for what happened,
But in truth, he didn't,
He didn't feel.
Hours past, Ash still remained on his bed,
Curled into the fetal position.
It was dark outside, a light breeze floated through his window, making him shiver,
But he didn't want to put on a jacket, he wanted to feel cold.
Maybe a walk will clear your head
Yeah. A walk may be nice, moms asleep.. so I should probably sneak out my window..
Ash landed on the wet grass with no problem, he was very fit after all.
You'd think he would feel guilty for sneaking out, but he didn't
He didn't even feel.
Ash began to walk, with only his black shirt and blue jeans on, it was a bit chilly,
But Ash enjoyed that.
He walked, and walked the streets, not even knowing where he was heading,
He just had to walk.
It was well past midnight when Ash came upon an old swing set in a park.
He sat on the swing, and rocked himself slowly,
It was relaxing,
"Hey kid, what are you doing over there..?" Came a voice from the darkness,
Ash snapped his head in the direction of the voice, and noticed a single man standing by the playground gates,
"Uhrm, noffin. Just sittin I guess" Ash mumbled back,
"Aha.. Right, you with someone? Your out late dontcha think..?" Stated the older man,
"I guess.." Ash trailed off, staring the man in the eyes,
"You sound pretty down kid.. hey look, I don't know your name.
My name is Richard" Stated the man, coming forward and extending his hand
"..Ash" he replied, not raising his arm, but keeping his eyes locked on the older man's,
"Right.. well anyway, like I was saying, you look pretty down. If you want, i've got this,
I don't know if you know what it is, but I find, it's the best cure for feeling down!" Richard laughed,
Holding forward a clear bottle
It's the same bottle as Peter had last night! Ash thought to himself
"You don't have to have any, but the offer.. woah!" exclaimed Richard,
As Ash finally moved and took the bottle from his hand, and took a large drink.
"Well, it's good to see movement in that small body!" Laughed Richard,
"Look, its freezing out here, and as I see it, you got no where to go..
I've got a lot more of this stuff at my house, if you want.." He trailed off,
Ash just took his hand and began walking..
"Let's go mister..?"
NO! Ash don't go with the strange man! :O
Silly Ash..
Well! I do apologise it's not as long as the previous chapters..
But I wanted to get a new chapter out to you guys!
I am honestly finding it really hard to do this.. but I love it..
Oh and If you guys haven't realised,
the italic sentences are what Ash is thinking..
So yeeehh. I really hope you enjoyed it! PLEASE let me know what you think,
I really appreciate any form of review. Make me feel good ! :)
As always, have a wonderful day..
