My infuriating shallow jerk

Disclaimer: I own nothing, except my OC characters and that's debatable

Pairing: James/Logan

Rating: M (I promise sexy times later)

Warnings: Smut language

Dedicated to BtrCutie for making me flail

A/N: I actually thought of making you guys stew on last chapters' cliffhanger, didn't you know I'm evil? But you guys are so awesome I just had to start writing as soon as I could (also I woke up with almost the exact same morning Mohawk as the one James posted on his twitter a while back.) So the final important OC makes his appearance here. I guess you all know who it is? Bet you're going to hate him. Well tough cookies for you I have a villain fetish. MWAHAHAHAHAHA!

"Excuse me, did you ask me something?" Logan fumbled with the keys and turned to face the person who seemingly came out of nowhere and knocked him out of his dreaming haze.

The young man standing in front of him was just a little taller than Logan and he had the same color of hair, but that was where any similarities between them came to an end. His hair was less spiky, except for his bangs that stylishly stood in front; his shoulders were broader than his, his clothes gave out the shape of a muscled toned body that made Logan look like he had never worked out on his life. A red t-shirt, a pair of black pants, expensive designer shoes and a leather jacket. Logan couldn't see his eyes; the sunglasses he wore were in the way. He looked like he owned the world, like James often did when he wore that mask of arrogance but there was something off, and that something killed any attraction Logan would normally have because the guy was breathtakingly hot, maybe the fact that Logan was in love was what saved him.

"I asked if James is upstairs." The stranger had a sardonic smile on and Logan found it funny.

What are you some text definition of bad boy?

"No I think he's at the gym at this hour." Logan tried to sound casual but that smile was a little too much for him it made Logan come out as rude for a reason he just couldn't put his finger on.

"Derek's not upstairs either I take it, or are you his new replacement?" The way he phrased the question made Logan feel he was insulting both him and Derek, but his brain finally noted something and instead of answering he started questioning back.

"Wait a minute, how do you know I live with them? Who are you?" Logan didn't even try to hide the nagging anger which started to boil inside of him.

"Oh, I'm sorry forgot my manners...I'm Kyle." He extended a hand but that venomous smile easily betrayed both facts that he was neither regretful or was he forgetful. Still Logan took it in a brief handshake. He also took a mental note to disinfect his hand from the slime he felt oozing on his palm later.

"Name doesn't mean anything to you does it?" It was really pissing Logan off, he kept asking questions but anyone with eyes could tell he already knew the answers.

"Logan and no it doesn't. Are you James's friend? And how do you know I live with him?" The guy broke into maniacal laughter and Logan couldn't control his fingers that immediately clenched forming fists.

"Let's go with former coworker. And I know he doesn't lend the rest of the building, so you have to live with him you have keys after all." Logan was a little taken back, he thought James owned only the loft, but really he hadn't seen any neighbors why would Logan come to this conclusion knowing how fickle James was with his money anyway?

"Except I'm wrong and you don't actually live here...Maybe you're his boyfriend." Kyle's tone was lower, grittier; he took off his sunglasses and stared appreciating Logan with deep blue eyes, like Logan was a new commodity. Logan felt small; the anger was replaced with fear now.

"No I live here." Something held the rest of the sentence in Logan's mouth, he didn't want to clear if he was dating James or not.

"Not my business anyway." Evidently Kyle didn't mean that either and somehow Logan understood that too.

"Would you tell Jamezy I'm in town?" That was it the last straw, Logan snapped and turned back to the door while Kyle went around his Mercedes convertible and reached for his own but still waiting body solid for Logan to answer before getting in.

"Sure." Logan said coldly he heard the car engine roar and turned for one last look.

"Bye Loggie." Logan prayed for Kyle's car to break down on a bullet train's tracks.


It was another hour before Derek came home Logan was in his room, door left open trying and failing to study, because the echo of Kyle's voice kept ringing in his head.

Jamezy! What the fuck creep. His name is James not Jamezy. And did he have to call me Loggie? Bet you they slept together at least once. I'm jealous again. GOOD! I'm telling James this time. I am going to tell him I want him and he can tell his boy du jour to fuck off and never show his face here again. Jamezy! I should have decked him!

"There's our resident genius!" Derek was standing in the entrance of Logan's room, Logan hadn't even noticed he came in, and quickly turned away from his book to make sure that it was indeed Derek not Kyle. He settled down and smiled warmly to his roommate.

"Hey buddy. How was your day?" Logan asked, he stood up and they walked to the living room falling next to each other on the couch, Derek had this proud look on his face and it took Logan a few seconds to remember why, he had a great first day at school and his friend was happy for him.

"Not as good as yours apparently." He started to poke Logan playfully but Logan didn't react much because Kyle had come along and made him forget about all the self-confidence he had gained.

"I had a good time at school sure." Derek stopped teasing now worried with Logan's grim expression.

"Something happened?" Derek looked at Logan noting his unrest.

"This Kyle guy dropped by earlier." Derek lost all color from his skin but before Logan could take in the reaction James's voice came from the entrance door booming.

"WHAT!" Both Logan and Derek stood up from the couch to face James whose gym bag hit the floor with a strong thud, he held some groceries on the other hand but he firmly kept on to those somehow.

"Did you say Kyle?" He looked at Logan with piercing hazel eyes Derek took a step back feeling the tension rise, Logan's heart begun skipping beats.

"Yeah... he came looking for you..." Logan saw that James was mad somehow, some insecure part of him was scared it was with him.

James slammed the door set the groceries down on the floor and rushed breath panting towards Logan, Derek mumbled something about calling Brianna and left for his room, he knew James had to do this alone, it was his story to tell.

"You met Kyle?" The worry on James's face was such that Logan immediately wanted to hug him, but he held it back he wanted explanations first.

"Yeah, he came up to me when I was coming home." James fell on the couch an amalgam of fear and panic. Logan was desperately thinking of a way to help him calm himself down.

"Did he tell you anything?" James was shaking now and Logan couldn't take it, his jealousy got the better of him.

"Tell me what? James who is this guy? I've never seen you like this." James took a breath gave Logan a dreaded stare and quietly mumbled his answer.

"My ex-boyfriend." Logan wanted to stay calm, composed but now he was more angry than worried.

"You told me you slept around, no serious boyfriends!" Logan glared daggers but James let the comment slide, he grabbed Logan by a wrist with both hands looked deep into his black brown eyes and started to beg.

"Can you please sit down and listen to me, this is important, please Logan, please?" Logan couldn't deny him, he seemed so scared and broken, he took a long breath and did what James asked.

"I didn't tell you because...because he hurt me Logan, he cut me up really deep." James stared at the floor, Logan finally didn't care about if it was the right or wrong thing to do, he took James's hand in his own like the morning they kissed showing him he was there right next to him.

"Take it from the top." Logan asked James nodded biting his lips.

"I met him a couple of years back at this photo shoot; it was lust at the first sight couldn't take my eyes of him. I flirted shamelessly but the only thing he did about it was smile and ignore me so I tried harder, no results. I gave up when we wrapped up. I was changing back in the dressing room, when he sneaked behind me locked the door and attacked me, threw me on the floor kissing me, no it wasn't kissing exactly hardly any lips involved just tongues..." Logan didn't want to hear details but James squished his hand, then Logan steeled himself because he caught on that details were important.

"We did it like animals the first and every time that followed...I'm sorry Logan I know this is hard for you to hear, but the sex was so mind blowing it was like a drug and he knew it. So after the first time we exchanged phones and I asked him out. He got dressed and left didn't see him in weeks. He took over my mind. Possessed me somehow. I called him the next day the number he gave me was fake. That didn't stop me I searched the internet, asked around. Found a few things about him, his mother was some high fashion magazine editor his father was an actor. It hit me we came from similar backgrounds I wanted to meet him even more it started to eat me up..." Logan could see where this was going James fell for the bastard first physically then emotionally, he finally understood what was off with Kyle, he was James, James without a conscious.

"I learned he was going to this party, I got myself an invitation decided to face him, moment I saw him in the tux I went up and drugged him to the bathroom. I was ready to get back at him by fucking his brains out. He had me begging at the end. I was on my knees begging for him to let me give him a blow job. It was so sick Logan the way he looked down on me. And yet I couldn't stop..." James sounded hollow now, disgusted with himself. Logan felt anxiety taking over.

God this is us. I felt the same way when he gave me the hair cut. No wonder he pulls back every time we get close, he feels the same way I do insecure and vulnerable, no it was worse for him back then, he was younger, alone. He hasn't mentioned any friends. And Kyle was so relentless. I have Bri to hold my hand now.

"Anyway after that we actually went on a real date. I was right we had so many things in common, it made me feel that I finally had someone who understood me, the sex was the same though just physical. For him at least..." Logan kept asking himself again and again, why James didn't stop, pull back see that this was bad for him. But he knew the answer, James thought he found his guy, and love can't stop until it runs its course.

"I stopped screwing around with anyone else, tried to work as much with him as I could. Book the same jobs and everything just so we could spend time together, that was hard, that was when it started." James felt anger now he looked at Logan eyes blazing.

"I did a lot of runaways, big shows too, he was a great model but he's not tall enough to book something like that. I wanted to please him, make him happy, so I either turned down jobs or did everything in my power to get him a spot. And the bastard started acting like a real boyfriend then. I fell for it. GOD I'M SO STUPID!" He pulled himself up and away from Logan, he gave the coffee table a hard kick knocking it over, the glass surface broke and filled the floor with shards.

Derek came in the living room in shock Logan though was calm. He stood up slowly and wrapped his arms around James's waist, he gave Derek a gesture to leave and he returned back to his room closing the door behind him.

"You're not stupid, you were in love and it consumed you." Logan placed his head on James's back listening to his raging heartbeat. There was no jealousy left anymore Logan didn't want James like that. Didn't want to hurt him or use him. Didn't want mind blowing sex, he wanted to stay like this, listening to James's heart beating loudly in his chest.

"I was stupid Loggie, still am..." Surprisingly the tears that had formed in the hazel eyes fell not because of the past, but because James felt Logan's warmth running in his body. He turned around to face him, the crook smile drove all the demons away, Logan kept James in his embrace.

"I showered him with gifts of course and he did the same just to keep me hooked, I introduced him to my mother in hope that maybe now that I had a steady boyfriend everything else in my life would magically fall into place. She told me not talk to her again until I had broken it off." James laughed Logan made a face.

"That of course had the opposite result with me. I did anything and everything he said. I had a lot of friends from the business he had me break all contact. My life revolved around him and only him. This kept going on and on for more than a year. Then God decided to give me a break." Logan let James go and they sat back down on the couch they still held hands though, it was an automatic reaction.

"My career started to fall apart and I didn't care anymore, Kyle was a rising star and I found myself in his shadow. It started to bug me. He kept going abroad for work and I stayed home with absolutely nothing to do. I started to think that I needed something else in my life..." He started smiling and so did Logan.

"Acting." Logan beamed.

"Yeah I talked about it with him, that I needed a change of pace. He really didn't care; I thought he didn't take me seriously. So he was in Rome for an event and I took the opportunity and started looking around for a good drama school. I called him excitedly when I found one and he got angry. He tried to change my mind he even used solid arguments doing it. That was his mistake. I thought he cared; I thought if I failed he would pick me up and comfort me. I bought this building the same week I enrolled in school." James made a panicked face remembering that Logan thought he only owned the loft.

"Do you actually have any money left?" Logan chuckled.

"Still filthy rich and spoiled sorry." No reason for Logan to tell him that the asshole had already spilled the beans on that.

"Anyway, he went back to being cold when he saw I was serious about this but this time I caught wind of it. I actually faced him about it, he shrugged it off. I moved here half-heartbroken still hoping we could work it out. Then I saw some photos online of him and an actress at some club sucking face. Didn't have the courage to fight him over the phone, so I went to this college party a pledge house was throwing. Guess who I met there?" Logan pointed at Derek's room laughing at the idea of Derek as a pledge.

"I got drunk and started to bitch about my cheating boyfriend Derek was so annoyed that he threw me out of the party, he got me home though slept on the floor because he didn't want to leave me alone and I had hardly any furniture yet. It was the nicest thing anyone had ever done for me. He gave me some advice on what to do, but mostly he made fun of me and my life, it woke me up, it made me realize how pathetic I had become. When Kyle came to check up on me I was ready to break it off. He saw it coming informed me he was bored anyway and I was of no further use. He left without allowing me to say a single word. Derek threw a plate at him he wasn't fast enough; Kyle was already out the door." James gave out a sigh Logan could tell he had bottled the things left unspoken but frankly Kyle didn't deserve his spit.

"I went through the break-up motions, didn't eat, didn't sleep, didn't shave..." Logan let a giggle escape.

"Derek has a photo stashed somewhere." James chuckled.

"I'll ask. So that was that, you haven't seen him since?" James shook his head.

"We run into each other a couple of times. I tried to put my life back in order mend some friendships that mattered from the fashion world. I was weak, caved in, we fucked the first time. But by then I knew Brianna she took drastic measures. She called Brooke." Logan thought James's mom was an uncaring bitch and maybe she was, or like his own parents she was just sneaky about helping her son.

"She told me she had come across Kyle's parents and she learned that they had disowned him. He wanted to be a top model so hard that he stole their money, used their names to book jobs, they weren't even speaking to him when we were dating. That explained why I never met them, I never found out who he actually talked to when he said it was his parents. He probably was cheating on me from the start. That was the last nail on the coffin." James got up and went to get a broom leaving Logan alone so the revelations would sink in. When he came back and started to pick up the mess he had made Logan had a serious face on.

"These aren't his clothes right?" He pointed at the black v-neck James had given him for school ready to tear it off if James's answer was affirmative.

"God! No Logan chill! When I see something I like in a catalog or a store I buy it as a gift for a friend and save it until a holiday or a birthday. You have the same build as a cousin of mine! For God's sakes..." They both laughed and Logan got up to help with the cleaning.

And after all you've gone through you still give away freely. Still you go to lengths to serve people, to be useful. Oh, James I love you so much.

"James..." He grabbed the broom from James's hands and made him face him.

"I lied about Brianna, I told you first about dad. I'm sorry I was jealous." Logan let go and turned around, he picked the groceries up and went to the kitchen. He started to unpack feeling James stare on his back.

"You're cooking tonight Loggie." James made Logan smile.

"Sure, whatever you want." Logan battled with himself if this was the right time to ask James out or not. But now he also felt they needed to move slowly again, especially with Kyle in town lurking in a corner. James picked up the broken coffee table and left momentarily to throw it out. Derek hearing the door close came into the living room.

"Everything alright did he tell you who Kyle is?" Logan threw him a panicked side glance.

"Get that picture of him with the beard, I want to see it!" Derek dashed back to his room not wasting precious time.


The only conversation they had while they ate the chicken Logan had cooked was to talk trash about Kyle, well Derek talked Logan laughed James was mostly silent.

"That's a plate and a table he owns me now." Derek said voice menacing

"Umm no, both were mine..." James informed trying to lift his spirit from depression and fear appreciating the effort Derek made.

"My brothers' stuff are as good as mine." Derek made sure to look at Logan too just so he knew he was included.

"Speaking of stuff, James can I ask you something?" Logan's throat became dry, he had decided to throw the ball in James's court, he was the one facing a crisis, Logan didn't want to push but he also feared that Kyle had the power to easily come between them and he wanted to fight for his chance.

"After you cooked the best marinated chicken in the world, anything for you Logan." James winked at Derek just to piss him off.

"It's really awful; he's trying to mess with you Loggie." If looks could kill James had just murdered Derek in cold blood.

"Call him that again and I'm feeding you to Kyle." The threat made Logan burst into laughter.

"Why? You call him Loggie all the time." Derek asked confused, James was actually about to answer truthfully but Logan scared that he'll lose his courage busted in the conversation.

"Anyway can I get back to my question? JEEZ! James can we go shopping when you have time, I need new clothes." Logan literally didn't breathe for the time it took James to answer. James saw it, he also saw the begging puppy eyes, he took a deep breath of his own praying that he read between the lines correctly.

"Sure. It's a date." They stared at each other smiling, bursting full of happiness cutting themselves off to their own little private world, the one they thought they had lost forever. Derek still didn't get it.

As they both formulated plans in silent communication across town in an expensive suite of the very same hotel James used just the other day to hide himself, whiskey in hand looking out from the window towards the direction James's apartment was smiling content with himself, Kyle also made plans of his own. Logan was not included.