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Chapter Nine
Arriving at the resturant Stevie sunk into the chair the young waiter was holding out for her and reached for the menu in the middle of the table, she began reading through it, trying hard not to look at the man sitting opposite her, she hated him for what he had done to her but deep down she knew she would never love anyone as much as she did him. When she did steal the odd glance at him he was staring intently at her, his eyes looking sad, she knew he felt guilty and he would probably never forgive himself for what he had done either. He smiled slightly "What do you want to drink Stevie.. I will go to the bar" her reply seemed harsh but no more than he deserved "Diet coke". He nodded as he rose to his feet "Do you mind if I have a beer?" she stared up at him "You have never asked before... dont let the fact you slept with my best friend turn you into a gentleman". She saw his eyes fall to the floor as he made his way over to the bar. She glanced through the menu once again before sneaking a quick look at him, she watched him down a couple of shots before picking up their drinks and walking back towards her. He placed the drink infront of her and smiled "One coke". She glanced up at him "Diet?". He closed his eyes "No I forgot... sorry.. I can get you another..". She grabbed the coke as he reached for it "No dont bother... it was probably ordering the shots that made you forget eh... but you always have put yourself first". He remained in silence for a few minutes just watching the hurt in her eyes "Thats not far Stevie..." he paused "You know how much I love you... you are first you will always come first Stevie". She diveted her eyes from his, suddenley feeling guilty, about what she didnt know, he cheated on her and yet she felt guilty. "Stevie dispite everything that has happened... I will always love you". She glanced back to her menu "I will have the thai chicken and a portion of chips.." she replied as she lifted the coke to her lips. He nodded rising to his feet "Ok.. I might have that too.. sounds good" she interupted "I wouldnt trust my judgement... Im not a very good judge of character". He smiled slightly before walking off once again.
At the pub the couple rested down next to each other "Bella... if we are going to give this another go... I need to know what happened between you and Smithy.. I need the truth". She sighed "Can I get a drink first?". He nodded as he rose to his feet "I will be back in a minute". He moved over to the bar and ordered a bottle of wine before returning back to Bella, he rested down next to her and smiled as he poured some of the bottle into the two glasses. "What is it you want to know Nate?" she asked. He smiled slightly "When did it happen?". She sighed "A few years ago... he was planning to ask Stevie to marry him.. and he came to ask me for my opinion on rings... we got drunk..". He interupted "So you were drunk?" she nodded and he cut in once again "So he took advantage of you?". She took a sip of her drink "No.. it would be so much easier for me to say it was all Smithys fault but..." she paused taking another sip of the drink "It was me Nate.. I came on to him... I took him to bed and I completly took advantage of him". He sighed "Why... was I not enough?". She shook her head placing her hand to his "It wasnt that at all... I was lonely and fed up... I just needed someone.." she paused staring at him "And it never stopped you with all the other women... how many were there?" she asked. "Does it matter" he replied. She shook her head "Not really... I just wondered?". He nodded slightly "Five". The number came as quite a shook to her and she nodded slightly feeling even more sad at the number. "Im sorry" he smiled. She nodded "Me too... I guess we are about even.. as Smithy is your best mate" he cut in "Was". She stared at him, his eyes focused on the second glass of wine he was pouring for himself "What?". He turned to her "He was my best friend... he isnt anymore". She sighed "Please dont take this out on Smithy... I already feel awfull for telling Stevie... that night he was so out of it... he didnt even finish.. he passed out and it ment nothing to him.. I have come onto him since and he has knocked me back... I came onto him on the boat and he knocked me back again.. it was a mistake...". He nodded before rising to his feet "Lets go and get some food".
Smithy placed the last of his dinner into his mouth and smiled to the small blonde oppiste him, she placed another mouthfull into his her mouth and he smiled at her still nearly full plate "Stevie... you have to eat baby..". She stared at him "Dont call me that". He smiled "Call you what?". She glared at him "Baby... please dont call me baby..". He sighed "You have never had a problem with it before.." she interupted "Well can you blame me Smithy... do you have any idea what you are doing to me I just..." she paused staring at him "You no what I have to pee" she rose to her feet and he grabbed her wrist and smiled as she turned back to face him "Are you ever going to be able to forgive me Stevie?". She smiled slightly pulling her arm from his grips "I honestly dont know Smithy... I cant stop seeing you and her all over each other". She turned and headed towards the toilet, once inside she stared at her reflection in the mirror, her stomack was swollen and her face patchy, she looked a mess but she was hurting so much, as some more tears slid down her cheeks, she wiped them away cursing herself, she was Stevie Moss and she was strong and could get through anything.
The couple had just been shown to a table at the far side of the restaurant when she left the toilet, she froze when she saw him with his arm wrapped round her shoulder, how could everything just go back to normal for them when her and Smithys marrige was in ruins, she stormed over and watched as the pair glanced up "I will never ever forgive you for what you have done to me.. I thought you were my friend". Bella rose to her feet "I am so so sorry Stevie... you couldnt believe how guilty I feel". Stevie lifted the drink infront of her and chucked it in Bellas face "Well it isnt good enough" before storming to the exit. She was well aware that everyone was staring at her, and that Smithy was hurrying to pay the waiter so he could chase after her. Once outside she moved along the short road leading to the beach before sinking down onto the sand. When she felt the soft hand on her shoulder she snapped "I dont want any more excuses". She glanced up as he sunk down next to her "Im not here to make excuses for them..." she smiled at Nate "I thought you were Smithy". He nodded "Give it five minutes and Im sure he will find you". She wiped the tears from her eyes and smiled at him "How is this not hurting you... you are sitting there like they have done nothing wrong". He nodded "I know Stevie... and it is killing me.. but I have cheated on Bella.. I cant judge her..". Stevie interupted "Well I have never done anything to hurt Smithy... he is everything to me.. I wouldnt of ever done anything to hurt him". Nate placed his arm round her shoulder as the tears began to roll down her cheeks "Listen.. what they did was out of order.. and I am not gunna make excuses for either them.. if you choose to never forgive Smithy that is your choice but..." he paused as he turned to look at her "Bella said she came onto Smithy... that he was out of it.. and she totally took advantage of him". Stevie stared at him "He says he doesnt remember anything..". He interupted "Im not for one second condoning what either of them have done... but is it worth chucking away your marrige.. your future for what was a stupid drunken mistake that Smithy doesnt even remember... and Bella said she has tried since to seduce him since and he knocked her back". Stevie smiled at him "It doesnt make me feel any better". Nate placed a kiss to the top of her head "It is your choice.. you have to do what is right for you and that little baby.. but just think about it before you chuck it away". She smiled as he rose to his feet and helped her to hers "So you have forgiven her?". He nodded slightly "We have both made mistakes.. and it will not go back to normal over night but I would never forgive myself if I let her walk out of my life" Stevie smiled at him "Have you forgiven Smithy?". Nate shook his head "Not yet... but I will..." he paused as he lent down and placed a kiss to her cheek "What you need to ask yourself Stevie is.. would you rather deal with his mistake and live with it... or live without him... see you soon". She watched him walk up the beach, passing Smithy at the edge of the road, she sunk back onto the sand waiting for him to arrive at her side.
He walked quickly back along the road and smiled as his girlfriend appeared from the exit of the restaurant "Where have you been Nate?". He gestured down to the beach "I went to make sure Stevie was ok". She interupted "She just chucked a drink over me..". He nodded "Dont worry I will buy you another one". Bella glared at him "That is hardly the point.. she has ruined my dress.." he interupted "Well you have ruined her marrige.. its no more than you deserve..." he paused for a second glancing back down to where he had left Stevie "You know what... I have lost my apetite.. Im going home... you coming?". She sighed "Nate... we are ment to be getting back on track". He nodded "Yeah.. but it is gunna take more than a stupid dinner and you telling me all the little gorey details to make it better... are you coming or not?". She watched him walk down the road before chasing after him.
Smithy sat down next to her on the sand and passed her the small bottle of water from his hand "I got this for you... I thought you'd be thirsty" he paused waiting for any kind of response which didnt come, she took the bottle and unscrewed the top and took a few sips. "Stevie... do you want a divorce?". She turned to him "What?". He took her hand in his and smiled slightly "I have made a huge mistake Stevie and I honestly dont know if I can ever make this up to you... so I think its for the best if we give up now.. I want to do what is best for you and the baby". She took another sip of her drink as she stared out at the calm sea "So walking out on us is for the best?". He shook his head "That isnt what I am saying Stevie... I will always be there to support you in anyway you need... but you can do so much better... you deserve better.. you are so amazing Stevie.. I never understood why you wanted me anyway..." she glanced up to see the tears streaming down his cheeks. "I wanted you because I loved you..." she paused as she lent up and wiped his tears away and he turned to look at her "I love you". He smiled at her, the weakest smile she had ever seen stretched across his gorgeous face "I love you too Stevie.. more than any thing". She nodded "I know Smithy... I dont want a divorce.. I want us to work.. for us to be a family". She rested her hand onto her bump "But we cant just do this for the baby.. I need to know I am the most important person in your life". He stared at her, his eyes giving nothing away as she watched him. He placed his hands gently to her cheeks before leaning down and placing the most gentle kiss to her lips, as he pulled away she forced her hands into his hair and pulled his lips back down onto her. She layed back onto the sand and felt him lean over her, his lips moving down her cheek bone and onto her neck. She sighed, although she still hadnt forgiven him and she didnt know if she ever could fully, she knew this was the only place in the world she wanted to be. In his arms.
