Hey guys! So there's going to be a flashback at first of Caroline and her ex-boyfriend. Also I just wanted to wish you all a happy new year! Thank you for your support -B?

Chapter 9

-Flashback begins, 7 years ago-

It was my Junior year in University of Arizona, and I was full of ambition and hope. I made a few good friends that I could depend on while I was in Arizona, I also found a guy. His name was Jacob Rivera, he was a part of the Mayan charter in Tucson, and even though I knew it was wrong to be with a Mayan, I was young and naïve. I was infatuated with him, I thought he was in love with me but the real terminology would be he was obsessed with me. He was overprotective, overwhelming, overbearing but I decided to stay and settle with him because in all reality he was my first love. I couldn't get him out of my heart even if I tried. I was walking with one of my friends from school named Brice and I heard a motorcycle come out of nowhere and I looked to see who it was. I grabbed my pistol from my purse and held it tightly but let it go when I saw it was just Jacob. He stomped up to my friend (who is gay) and started to get in his face. My friend backed off and I tried to stop Jacob from attacking him.

"What're you doin' con mi mujer? (With my woman)", he growled but I pushed him away.

"Stop it Jake! We were just talking, you don't need to freak out!" I hollered but he completely ignored me.

"Nah babe, he was lookin' at you, checkin' you out 'n shit. Ain't that right puto? (Bitch)"

Brice flinched and became visibly uncomfortable when Jake started to get closer to him. Brice took a step back and put his hands up in defeat.

"Look, I don't want any trouble-" Brice pleaded but Jake was fired up.

"That's a little late ain't it chingamadre? (Motherfucker)" he stared down Brice and I tried to get him to calm down. He socked Brice in the face and I shrieked in terror.

"Jacob, STOP IT!", I yelled but he continued to punch Brice in the face. Blood covered his face and I pulled him off of Brice.

"Is that all you got? What a pussy" Brice spat out and started laughing. I felt Jake tense up and he was set ablaze with a anger.

"The fuck you say?!", he roared and pushed me away. He started to beat him to a pulp and I tried to break them up. I got all my strength and pulled him off of Brice and he stood up and stared me down. His eyes were filled with anger and a few tears escaped my eyes. I shoved him in rage and started to scream at him.

"You're such a possessive asshole! I hate you!" I cried and he took a step closer to me. I inched backwards until I hit the wall with my back and he punched the wall next to me. He stormed off angrily and I exhaled trying to contain my tears. I rushed to Brice and he was cleaning himself up.

"Brice, I'm so sorry", I told him and he wiped the blood off of his lip.

"If you're really sorry, you'll get as far away from that psycho as possible. You shouldn't stay with a guy like that, you deserve more."

I helped Brice up and he walked away without saying anything else. I was tired of losing friends like this, Jake had a serious anger problem that only got worse when it came to me. I went back to Jake's apartment to pick up my things and he was there waiting for me. He was sitting on his motorcycle staring everyone down as they walked past. He saw I was there and he got up and tried to apologize. I grabbed my key to his house and walked past him to the door.

"Care-" he called to me but I closed the door behind me. I went to our room and started to pack everything that was mine, diaries, clothes, shoes, the whole shabang. I got 2 suitcases full of my things and walked outside.

"Where the fuck you goin'?" He sneered and I glared at him.

"Don't worry about it, I ain't your girl anymore. We're through Jacob. I can't believe I wasted my time on someone like you", I growled and he got closer. He pressed his body against mine lightly and he smirked at me.

"Eres mi mujer. Tu eres mio, y si yo no pudeo tener tu, nadie pude. ¿Entiendes?" (You're my girl. You're mine and if I can't have you no one can. Understand?)

"No, I'm not your girl, we're through. ¿Entiendes? Dejame en paz o voy a matarlo. No me llamas, no me hables, no me mires- (Understand? Leave me alone or I'm gunna kill you. Don't call me, don't talk to me, don't look at me-) I hissed and he pushed me against a wall. I tried to breathe but he was trying to choke me out. I grabbed my pistol from my purse and pressed it against his temple.

"You gunna shoot me now? Huh? You think you're tough?!" He screamed and crushed me against the wall even harder. I could feel myself getting dizzy and I took the gun off of his temple. I pointed the gun at his thigh and shot him in both legs. He screamed in pain and I kneed him in the groin.

"Don't you ever come near me again! Or the next bullet is going in the head", I pistol wiped him and took his keys to his truck. I turned off my phone so that I couldn't be tracked and I stayed with my friend in her apartment right next to campus which was extremely convenient. I hid successfully from Jacob, I changed my number, deleted all social media of mine, I wanted him out of my life completely as soon as possible.

FLASHBACK ENDED

"…my ex is in town and wants to see me…" I told Juice and he sprang up.

He grabbed his gun and his knife from the night stand. "Juice, I'll handle it-"

"No. Trust me I'll deal with it babe, if he sees that you're with me now he'll back off-"

"No Juice, don't talk to him! It's dangerous and it can cause a big mess!"

"Is there somethin' you're not tellin' me here?"

"Juice it's just that…I…" I choked up and trailed off. I knew he was going look at me differently when he found out that I dated a Mayan.

"It's just what?"

"He's a Mayan! There happy? I dated a fuckin' Mayan from the Arizona charter." I blurted out and he stayed quiet for a moment. My heart dropped and I felt like shit for just telling him like that. "…I was young, stupid and I thought he loved me-"

"A Mayan Caroline? Really? You might as well have dated a fucking Niner!", he exclaimed and I sighed.

"Juice. If you don't want us to be together anymore then I understand…it'll hurt me but I'll understand." He looked at me directly in the eyes.

"You still got feelings for 'em? Be honest."

I looked him in the eyes and held my gaze. "I put a bullet in both of his legs, stole his car and left him for dead. The only thing I feel for him is disgust, he's a possessive asshole who mind fucked me for 3 years. He hit me, put me down all the time, tried to kill me. But you're not like him. You're the only guy that can make me feel this way, make me feel like I'm sane again. Like I'm whole. You're the only one for me Juan Carlos, I swear. I. Love. You."

He laid his head on my lap and exhaled deeply. I stroked his head softly and traced his tattoos with my fingers.

"You mad at me?" I asked softly and he stayed quiet. He shook his head and we sat in silence for a while.

I got up and was going to walk to the kitchen to get breakfast started but he stopped me. Juice grabbed my wrist and pulled me down. He pressed his lips against mine in a heated kiss.

"Fuck that guy, whatever happened back then doesn't matter now. You're mine", he growled and I threw his shirt off.

"All yours", I breathed heavily and Juice hovered over me. He smiled cheekily at me and I wrapped my legs around his waist and pulled him closer to me. He bent down and we locked our lips again, this time slower but with more passion. He crept his hand under my shirt and I moaned slightly.

"Juice -"

Suddenly his phone started ringing and he groaned loudly. I let my leg lock go and be picked up his phone grumpily. He looked at the phone and rolled his eyes and answered.

"What? I'm kinda in the middle of somethin'" He snapped. "Fuck you Chibs. What do ya want? Seriously? Okay we'll be there in 10", he hung up and grabbed his shirt and cut. "Gemma got in a car crash and she's in the hospital", he said while putting on his shirt.

I threw on random clothes and we left within minutes. I hopped on Juice's bike and we rushed over to the hospital, Chibs was standing outside waiting for us.

"Sup lassies, looks like someone had fun", he winked at me and gestured to Juice. I looked at his neck and saw that I left a huge hicky. I blushed and we all went inside together. I saw Bobby on a stretcher surrounded by all the guys. I went to the front desk and asked what room Gemma Teller was in and they wrote it on a piece of paper. I went down the hall and bumped into someone by accident. I stepped back and took a close look at who I bumped into.

"I'm sorry-" I said but my heart dropped. I bumped into Jacob.

"Hola bonita." He mischievously smiled at me and I glared at him.

"Jacob. What a surprise", I said sarcastically and he laughed.

"Did you get my message? I wanna talk about us."

"There is no us Jacob. Now fuck off", I hissed and he smirked at me.

"You know…when you get all mad like that it's sexy as hell", he whispered in my ear.

I was about to push him away but someone did it for me. I turned and saw that Juice was in Jacob's face and I gasped.

"The fuck you doing with my girl?" He shoved Jacob back further and Jacob snickered.

"Your girl? She's mine ese." Jacob shot back and got closer to Juice.

"Ask her. I'm her boyfriend. You're just her pathetic ex."

I got between them and grabbed Juice's pistol from under his shirt. I cocked the gun and pressed it to Jacob's temple.

"You remember what I said last time? Don't make me go through with it. And we both know I'll shoot", he backed off and had his hands up.

"You better watch your back ese." Jacob growled and walked away.

Juice seemed tense and I caressed his cheek softly. In my mind I wanted to believe that Jacob would leave me alone but my heart knew that wasn't possible. Half Sac came up to us and saw me holding a gun caressing Juice's face. He looked at us funny and I handed Juice his gun back.

"Is everything okay here?" He asked and I sighed. "Peachy. How's Gemma?"

"Fine, she's a little scraped up but she's gunna make a full recovery."

Juice finally spoke up and Sac actually seemed surprised he finally talked.

"Tell Clay I'm gunna go up to the cabin with Caroline for a few weeks. It's personal, tell him to call me if he needs me", he stated and grabbed my hand. He yanked me away and I waved goodbye to Half Sac hesitantly and we got outside. We got on his bike and he revved the engine.

"Juice?", I asked and he took off suddenly, I held on tightly. We got to his apartment in no time and he unlocked the door.

"Juice? Will you tell me what the hell is going on?" I groaned and he handed me my bag full of clothes.

"It's not safe for you to be here because of your psycho ex boyfriend, and I know you won't want to leave me here while you go to the cabin so I'm goin' with you."

I didn't know how to feel, this trip could go one of two ways. Either Juice would be anxious because he's away from the club or we would have romantic alone time. He locked the door behind him and we walked to his car he had parked in the front. We got in the car and started to drive and he turned on the radio.

"You know, I'm excited for our little vacation Juicy. I don't get you to myself like this", I winked at him and he grabbed my hand while he had one hand on the wheel.

"Me too babe. Let's just relax and forget about everything for a while, 'kay?"

I nodded and we started to play would you rather.

"Would you rather go sky diving or have feet for hands for a week?" I asked and he laughed loudly.

"Where the hell do you come up with this stuff? Uh... sky diving. Having feet for hands would freak me out." He shivered and I giggled. I heard one of my favorite songs on the radio and I turned up the music. I heard the song "So into you" by Fabolous featuring Ashanti.

"I love this song!", I exclaimed and got excited.

He started raping Fabolous' part and I sang Ashanti's part. For the first time, we didn't have the club to distract us, we had each other's full attention. We got to the cabin and I picked up the key under the matt. My dad was away for a while for club business so he put the key under the matt just in case we needed to get inside. Right when we got inside Juice pushed me against the wall and pressed his lips against mine. He slid his hand under my shirt and I squirmed under his touch.

"You wanna continue where we left off", he asked and smiled devilishly.

I smirked at him and put my lips centimeter away from his, I felt his warmth radiate from his skin.

"Juan", I whispered and he raised his eyebrows.

"Yes baby?" He asked and his hand roamed slightly under my shirt more.

"You're a horn-dog", I breathed and walked away from him. I laughed loudly and turned on the TV, he chuckled to himself and sat next to me. I was flipping channels and I felt his eyes on me. I turned my head and caught his gaze. He smiled widely at me and I snuggled with him, he wrapped his arms around me. We watched random Tv shows for a while until we finally fell asleep in each other's arms. I loved the feeling of having Juice all to myself, I wasn't in competition for his attention. We spent a few days like this and we were never happier. For the first time I felt like we were a normal couple. On the third night we stayed at the cabin I woke up to the door handle rattling and I grabbed my purse getting my taser ready. The door opened slowly and I started up my taser and Juice sprang up at the sound.

"Babe?" He asked groggily and I at the door. I rushed up to it and swung it open. I was faced with a shocked Opie and Happy. Juice got up and went behind me and Happy laughed.

"A taser kid? Really? If I had a gun you'd be done for", Happy lectured me and I rolled my eyes.

"Guys it's like 7. It's too early for this", I sighed and they walked in.

"It's 10:30 Care." Opie said in a matter of fact tone and I shot him a look.

"What's the matter? Is everything okay?", Juice asked concerned and I grabbed beers out of the fridge for the three of them. They all opened their beers and started to discuss the club matters and I went into the room. I looked at my phone for the first time since we got to the cabin and I saw that I had 24 missed calls and 36 messages; all of them were from Jacob. I rolled my eyes and blocked his number from my phone. I deleted all the messages he sent me and I put my phone back angrily. Why he can get me angry so easily I will never know. Juice walked in and started to pack his things and stared at me.

"We gotta go back, I have a mandatory meeting at the clubhouse...You okay?"

"Yeah…" I trailed off and started to pack my things. I was angry that Jacob was bothering me and I was sad that our vacation was coming to an end. I walked out with my bags and Opie grabbed them from me. He threw the bags in the SUV me and Juice drove in and I sat in the passenger seat. Juice sat in the drivers seat and we started to take off.

"Jacob blew up my phone…so I blocked him." I told him and there was silence again.

"Is that what was bothering you?"

"Yes and no", I sighed and put my hair in a ponytail. "I just wish we could've have more time alone."

"Me too baby, but I'm a part of the club. I have to go to the meetings."

We sat in silence again and he grabbed my hand. "We'll do it again okay? I had fun with you", he kissed the back of my hand and I smiled slightly. The car ride was bitter sweet, and we got to the clubhouse in an instant. I got off with my things and saw that a towing truck was passing by the lot. Chibbs walking towards a van that they picked up and I ran towards him. He sat in the drivers seat and turned on the car. Juice was behind me and I called out to Chibbs.

"Hey Chibbs!" I called and he turned on the engine.

"Hey Sweetheart-" he yelled but stopped suddenly. I heard a ticking sound and my heart stopped. "Shit!" Chibbs yelled and tried to run away.

"Chibbs!" I yelled and ran towards him and there was a huge explosion that pushed me back. I fell on my arm and it was sore afterwards. "Chibbs", I whispered. Everything sounded fuzzy and my eyesight was sort of blurry. I heard a high pitched buzzing noise and looked at everyone rushing to Chibbs. Blood was gushing from his head and I couldn't catch my breath. I felt like I was back in Donna's incident and I started to hyperventilate. Everything was spinning and I was feeling light headed. Tears stared to fall from my eyes and I was shaking uncontrollably. I noticed that Juice was trying to talk to me and I looked at him.

"Baby? Baby look at me. Breathe, Caroline breathe." He tried to calm me down and I shakily took a deep breath. He wiped the tears from my eyes and I nuzzled my head into his chest. I sniffled and he held me tightly. He hushed me and rubbed my back gently, as he tried to calm me down I looked over and saw Chibbs laying on the floor. I had a gut feeling that this was going to be the start of something very bad, and I hoped Juice and I wouldn't be in the middle of it.