Ah, so I am finally updating again. I'm sorry for the like month and a half wait, but I needed a little break. I got sick a while back and I was just like "you know what, let my brain rest for a second and let the writers block take over" and while I was taking a break I was able to find some inspiration for this chapter and some of your are going to shocked by what I was capable of picking up. It does indeed involve Psyche but don't worry, nothing bad, but I did mention this situation beforehand so if you know what I'm talking about then yes, yes it's happening so Enjoy~!
"Psyche, are you sure you'll be okay staying here alone? You weren't feeling well yesterday and I can stay here with you if you'd like," Delic suggested and Psyche looked up at the host and shook his head.
"Won't they get mad if you stay home again? I don't want you to get in trouble." He watched as Delic studied his body with confusion before shaking his head.
"Psyche, I have a question. It's very important and you have to anwser honestly," he said and Psyche looked up at him before nodding slowly.
"Yeah?"
"You're not on birth control, are you?"
"Izaya, haven't you already contacted everyone he knows? Wouldn't it be best to just wait for him to come back?" Shizuo suggested, watching as Izaya rapidly typed on his laptop searching for information of his missing triplet. He stopped to look up at Shizuo who was looking down at him with great worry. He didn't like to worry Shizuo. It caused him to feel almost unsettled and as if he were hurting the faux blonde and that's the last thing he wanted to do.
"You haven't eaten since yesterday. Take break. He's been gone for almsot a year now. I understand that you want to find him but he'll come back. Psyche loved you and once he knows that you'll probably be worrying about him, he'll be back."
"Yeah, you're probably right." Izaya shut his laptop before standing from his seat to joing Shizuo who was sitting in his bed in back of two bento boxes.
"You made these?" he asked and Shizuo nodded, opening both of the little containers to show the content. Izaya face beamed when he saw the ootoro in his portion and smiled at his lover.
"Aw Shizu-chan, I love you~!" Izaya chirped before breaking he chopsticks and started to eat.
"I love you too," Izaya heard the doorbell ring and he looked up at Shizuo who was as curious as he was.
"Is Tsuki supposed to come?" he asked and Shizuo shook before placing his own chopsticks down.
"No, he's at the art studio," Shizuo said and Izaya sighed, assuming that Roppi forgot his keys again.
"I always tell him to just tie them on a lanyard, he never listens." Izaya said, walking to the door, opening it before noticing that it wasn't Roppi at all.
"Izaya-nii," he heard a bubbly voice say and he stared at Psyche with wide eyes before noticing a little bundle in his arms.
"Is that a baby..." he asked breathlessly, completely ignoring the fact that Psyche was even gone. Not only did he return but he returned with a baby. Why did Psyche have a baby?!
"Psyche, whose baby is that?" Shizuo asked, wondering if Psyche had found the child, knowing that the little raven wasn't one to just leave anything helpless to die.
"H-he's mine," he whispered and Izaya stared at Shizuo wide eyed. How am I going to explain this to my parents?! To Izaya's surprise, his father was walking behind Psyche with a very shocked expression as well.
"Psyche?" he said, causing the raven to turn around to show the man his now grandson. When Shiro saw the baby, he looked up at Psyche's sad expression and he hugged his son, careful not to crush the infant who was sleeping soundly.
"Don't worry, I'm not upset. Come inside, hurry and explain what happened. I'm just glad you're safe," he said and Psyche nodded, walking in with his son and his things before they closed the door behind him.
"So, how are you? Are you here to stay or are you leaving again?"
"I'm staying... I had to come back for Mizuki," he said and Shiro rocked his grandson before nodding and petting the babies soft raven hair.
"Is he Tsugaru's?" Izaya asked and Psyche flinched at the question before looking down at the cup in front of him.
"N-No," he whispered and Izaya looked at Shizuo in shock. W-was he...
"Psyche, did someone rape you?" Izaya asked and Psyche looked up quickly, almsot spilling his coffee.
"N-No! No, it wasn't rape! It was consentual," he said and he sighed, "He just works at night and he told me to decide if I was ready to go home and I missed you guys so I said yes. It was hard for me to be raising a baby alone but for me to get pregnant was a complete mistake. I was just careless." Izaya could hear the regret in his tone and he was curious of who the baby's father was.
"Psyche, who's his dad?" he asked and Psyche looked down at the ground again.
"I c-can't say." he said and Shizuo saw that Izaya was getting even more worried about Psyche, but the fact that he wouldn't tell him hurt him. Psyche had promised Delic not to tell Shizuo or the others that he was with him. He said that they'd be angry with the fact that he hadn't contacted them to tell them that Psyche was safe. He also said that they'd say he was taken advantage of him. Psyche told him that Izaya would guilt trick him out of finding out who Mizuki's father was and Delic said if it happens to come out, it was completely okay. Delic did want to be there for both Psyche and Mizuki, but he worked all night and that's when Psyche needed the most help and that it were best for him to leave.
"I'm doing this for you baby, okay? I just feel like I'm putting all this responsibiliy on you and you're basically a child youreself. I feel bad for doing this to you, but you haven't had any sleep since he was born." Delic said, rocking Mizuki as Psyche sat on the bed with his head resting in his hands. He looked over at Delic and he lifted his head. He had bags under his eyes and he looked extremely tired. He hadn't cut his hair in awhile so he had it tied back in a pontail. He had dyed his hair blonde a while back but now only the tips of his hair were blonde. He looked over at his son and at Delic before nodding.
"Yeah, my my dad works from home. He will probably take care of him while I'm at school. But what about when they question me about him? I can't just say 'I ran away because I was pregnant and Tsugaru was the father but he hates me now so he obviously wasn't going to like his baby'. He's not even Tsugaru's son Delic! He's yours a-and..."
"Psyche, don't cry. Just don't tell them that he's mine. Keep it a secret okay? I'll give you money for him and I'll pick you up every Sunday to see him. I want to be in his life as much as I can." he said and Psyche looked up at Delic teary eyed. He didn't know if he could trust Delic's words. He knew about his work and how much he felt that he's been lied to, but now that they have a baby together they're stuck with each other forever because of him.
"Fine. I'll leave. I was planning on leaving when I found out I was being used but I knew that I couldn't just wander home pregnant eitehr," he mumbled and Delic looked at Psyche confused.
"Used? Psyche what are you talking about?"
"Delic, do you really love me?"
"Of course I love you Psyche! If I didn't love you I wouldn't have let you stay when I found out you were pregnant!" he yelled, startling Mizuki and the little baby started to cry.
"Well, the guy at your club said you were just using me for a quick fuck to get your mind off of this other guy. He said I looked just like him and I was just a replacement because he rejected you!" Tears were now streaming down Psyche's face and Delic looked at him with worry.
"Psyche, I love you. I really do but we can't be together. What happened between me and Hibiya happened a long time ago. What I did was wrong and you know that. I shouldn't have made you fall in love with me okay? I'll be honest. But... I have to tell you why I'm breaking up with you and then when I tell you, you have to go home and fix it," he said and Psyche looked at him confused.
"What?"
"Tsugaru called me looking for you, and he's sorry. He didn't mean to hurt you and he loves you. He said he wants to make everything normal again and he won't give up. I lied to him and said I didn't know where you were. This was when you were going into labor..."
Psyche remembered Delic's words clearly and sighed, shifting on his bed anxiously.
"Izaya, do you think that Tsugaru will take me back even if I have Mizuki?" he asked and Izaya looked at his brother before shrugging.
"I'm not sure, but he waited for you. He said he doesn't care how you feel he wants you back."
Izaya made a bottle for Mizuki and started to feed the newborn, holding it carefully making sure to support his neck in the process.
"Orihara Mizuki hm? Cute name. Can I spoil him?" Izaya asked, smiling at Psyche who giggled at Izaya hitting him playfully with a burp cloth.
"I guess you're going to be his favorite uncle huh Izaya?" The boys laughed quietly, careful not to make Mizuki cry and Izaya sighed.
"I missed you Psyche, I felt like I should've followed you or something to make sure you were okay," he said and Psyche sighed, lying back on his bed.
"I wasn't planning on running away Izaya," he said and Izaya gave him a questionable look.
"I was just walking around, thinking about how I could prove to Tsugaru I wasn't cheating on him. I was actually on my way home when I walked inti someone I knew and they offered me their home and I took it." Psyche sighed, rolling over to look at Izaya and Izaya was watching him patiently.
"What I didn't tell dad was that I slept with him the first day. I only did it to cope with the pain, but when I tried to leave, he wouldn't let me. He started sweet talking me into living with him and said when I feel like I can bear seeing Tsugaru again, I can go. I got over it in a week, but I fell in love with him and I didn't want to go. Then I got pregnant, and things changed. He became more fearful and worrisome about me, giving me all this attention I wasn't used to. When Mizuki was born, I was raising him by myself practically all the time and he said he felt bad to put all this responsibility on a teenager, and told me to go home."
"So, he really seemed to love you huh?" Izaya asked, taking the empty bottle out of Mizuki's mouth and going to burp him.
"Yeah, but no matter what, when I saw him, I couldn't stop feeling as though I were betraying Tsugaru," there was a soft knock on the door before a small voice came from the otherside voicing it's pressence.
"Psyche, it's me Tsugaru, Shizuo told me..." he said and Psyche looked at Izaya worriedly.
"Don't worry, it's okay," he said and Psyche nodded.
"Come in," his voice came out so small that he couldn't even tell if he spoke or not. The door opened slowly and Tsugaru came in and immediatley looked at the baby then at Psyche.
"What's his name?" he asked and Psyche was shocked, not ready for the question.
"M-Mizuki," he said and Tsugaru smiled.
"I love that name," he said and Psyche nodded.
"I know." there was silence between them and Izaya decided to leave the room, taking his nephew with him to give them some time alone.
"So, I just want to ask, if you'll let me help raise him with you.. I know he's not mine, and I'll be completely okay with whoever his father is, even though I already have an idea of who it is," he said and Psyche looked up.
"What do you mean?"
"Psyche, he has that hair color you know. The auburn brown color? Only the Heiwajima's have it. It was Delic, wasn't it?" he asked and Psyche looked at him wide eyed before looking down.
"I thought so. Well, are you and Delic still dating?"
"No, he broke up with me after he said that you wanted me back," he said. Psyche looked up at Tsugaru with teary eyes.
"And.. I'm sorry I didn't push him away Tsu-chan. I didn't mean to make you mad..."
"No Psyche, I'm sorry for putting you through this."
And here's this shitty chapter. Goodness gracious can we just take a moment to understand that I am awful at this sort of thing? I even thought about rewriting it but that would just delay it even more and it's been a month and a half. Lemme upload it. I promise, the next chapter will be flawless! I'll see you guys and don't review. Just... save me the heart attack.
