A/N: Wow so it's been awhile since I updated this! Nearly a month! This song was actually one of the ones that made me want to even start this novel and it plays a huge roll in the plot so I wanted to take my time and write it well. It is entirely in Shizuo's POV because… well you'll see why. I hope you enjoy this chapter because it is one of my favorites so far… Shizuo's POV By the of burn of your eyes Looking on as I'm starting to realize
I can see where you are
I can tell you're enjoying it so farA sudden movement against my chest woke me up. I looked down to see the flea in my arms. Wait hadn't we just had a fight? Suddenly all of the memories of last night's argument flooded my mind. I had made the decision to stop seeing him. As I looked down at the sleeping informant I saw that he had that stupid fake smirk plastered across his face like he always does. Wow so even in this guy's sleep he can't be genuine? Izaya had dragged me along with the hope that he loved me only to poke fun and push me away last night. And now he's lying here smirking? The little bastard knew what he was doing and enjoyed it! God I hate this man!
I would love to escape, but now I'm boundSo why am I still in his bed? I know Izaya is a jerk that just uses people's feelings to get what he wants from them so why don't I leave him alone? He's already hurt me so why am I still here?
I'm a pawn in your game and this is checkmateIzaya has me right where he wants me. Although he basically treats me like shit (the cut on my chest still hurts) I wouldn't hesitate to die for him… As the roses lift their heads to catch a glimpse of my demise And they are breaking on my shore So I'll waste these nights for a while And this is where my heart is cold and torn As I hear the words you said last night It's a thrill I can't shake But it's hard to erase the feelings I've drawn I was caught in an awkward silence Broken down by the sound of your prelude that you played To open our symphony I've been sleeping with the sunrise watching hours pass away But now I'm waiting for your call While I throw these vending machines like you care at all So I'll waste these nights for a while And this is where my heart is cold and torn As I hear the words you said that night As the roses dip their heads a little further to the ground Will we make it through the fall Cause I don't wanna fall with you I'm trying We're dying, I'm taken by your hope-filled lines They're well designed and dragging me along I've be waiting for this chance and I'll be gone
You'll be throwing lies around like ocean waves throw down the tides
And the rescue team won't save me now I'm out too far
But I'll be holding onto you forever
The butterflies are creeping through my spine
Yeah I know we've been writing a mistake
Do you want me to say that I can't stand to be without you?
That I love you or some shit?" His words still rang through my head…
Incidentally I'm just waiting for the dusk to kill the day
But I'll be holding onto you forever
I'm falling for them every single time
There's a season change and all the pinks and whites have turned to brown
Are we gonna make it through this fall
I walk over to the bed and kiss his forehead for what I know will be the last time.
Well there you have it! The most angsty chapter yet ne? This marks the beginning of a new story arc so be prepared for angst angst angst! The song is called Roses and Butterflies by Making April and as usual I've changed certain lyrics *cough* while I throw these vending machines like you care at all *cough*. I would like to thank anyone who has favorite, followed or (the best) reviewed this story! I love you all! I haven't had any reviews for the past two chapters though :( Please please please review even if it's just as simple as "I like it" or "I hate it". I need to know that somebody's reading this!
