I moved my legs apart wider to accommodate him as he positioned himself between them. I'm not sure if he thought I wouldn't be able to handle the weight of his body on top of mine; but he was holding himself up on his elbows, which had moved to each side of my stomach. Jon pressed romantically sweet kisses around my stomach as he worked himself up my body. The act made my stomach quiver each time his lips made contact with my skin; and I felt Goosebumps appearing on my arms. He took time with each nipple; nipping at them and running his tongue over them again. I let out a soft moan as his mouth continued to trail kisses up to my neck; where he stopped and let his tongue run a long line up to my earlobe. Once his mouth arrived at the earlobe, he nibbled lightly; his hot breath hitting me as he exhaled. As he nibbled, he murmured "You're just so fucking beautiful, Sam…I mean Jessie. I'm sorry!"
I looked at him amused, who could blame the guy; it's not like he had known any of us very long. It is a very complicated situation. Can you imagine dating or sleeping with a person who could be any one of three people at any given time? Honestly. That he was even able to remember both names, I figured he was doing well; certainly wasn't going to bust his balls over a name. Unless he had called me Emily; sorry, I don't care how hot you are. Being called the name of the 5 year old alter during sex is just plain creepy; instant mood killer. I realized quickly by his face that he truly felt bad about calling me by the wrong name. I grabbed his face and pulled him into a kiss. "It's ok. Not the first time it's happened, I doubt it will be the last." I ran my hands down his muscular back and rather enjoyed myself as I squeezed his ass. The reassurance did the trick; because within moments and with no warning Jon thrust himself into me. It made me cry out; as I said, it had been awhile since I had the opportunity to have sex. Jon was perfect; he filled me completely, making contact with all sides. He started to thrust slowly; moving his hardness in and out, hitting my g-spot with each stroke. I could hear myself moaning; but all I could do was run my nails down his back. He was moaning also; I heard him murmur something about how good I felt and how tight I was. I'm sure I murmured back that he felt incredible; if I didn't I should have. I started rocking my hips up towards his to meet his thrust, matching the rhythm I let him set. At some point he gave up all hope of holding himself above me and we were chest to chest. I looked up and realized he was studying my face. I gave him a wicked grin and caught his bottom lip with my teeth. I know I have a biting fetish; well ok, more like tugging. Based on the pair of teeth impressions that were now on my shoulder and neck; I decided he must find the same thing sexy. He moaned into my mouth as our pace quickened. I have no idea how much time passed; but we were both covered in a sheen of sweat and besides our moans, the only sound that could be heard in the room was the sound of skin slapping against skin. I felt the same warmth growing inside me like a wild fire and I could tell that Jon was close to the edge as well. We were thrusting wildly into each other and I heard him curse and tell me he was going to cum. Just hearing him say the words and feel that one last hard thrust was enough to send me spiraling down into another orgasm. We came together; the feeling of our two bodies becoming one body in that moment was more blissful than I can describe. I could feel his heart pounding in his chest as we both took loud, gasping breaths. "Thank you!" I moaned to him as he dropped his head to my shoulder in exhaustion. I felt him slide out of me; and moaned at the sudden emptiness. We laid there against each other quietly for a very long time. I smiled as he let out a contented sigh and brushed my wet bangs off my forehead. I smiled and we exchanged another passionate kiss; before he rolled to the side of me. Jon was smiling and though I smiled back; I was waging a war in my head. I wanted him to stay the night; I'm a bitch, but I am not a woman who sleeps with a man and then tosses him out the door. Unfortunately, I am also very aware that I may not be here in the morning; or even a few hours. It was risky to invite him to stay; Sam would most likely be not only surprised but embarrassed to come forward again and see Jon naked lying next to her. That was the best case scenario; the worst case was Emily coming forward for one of her late night journal readings, only to be traumatized and frightened by the stranger naked beside her. I doubt highly I would be able to ever apologize enough to the little girl for being the cause of that; especially since she depends on me to be her protector. The internal battle must have been showing in my face; I felt Jon pull me closer to him and hold me tighter.
"What is it, are you having regrets about having sex with me? I promise to not be upset; just talk to me." He said softly as he hugged me.
"I want you to stay the night…but it's so fucking complicated!" I let out an exasperated sigh. "I may not be here; and if Sam or gods forbid Emily…" He kissed my forehead and cut off my sentence.
"They wouldn't know what happened until they read the journal and by then it could do a lot of damage. I understand…well…I'm trying to understand. I do get what you're saying though and based off what Sam told me; it probably is a better idea for me to go. It's nice to know you'd want me to stay though." Jon started to sit up and already the bed felt empty. "Since I'm not sure when I'll see you again Jessie; it was amazing and I hope we can do it again sometime." I can tell you it only makes me feel slightly better that he is smiling. Jon got out of bed and started dressing; I got out of bed to at least walk him out and get one more kiss.
With the sheet wrapped around me; I watched him walk down the hallway towards the elevator that would take him up to his room. I went to the bed and sat down; picking up the journal. Sam deserved to know that I had sex with Jon; in case it was awkward with him afterwards, I prayed (for the first time) that it wouldn't be. Picking up the pen and writing a quick entry:
Jessie – We were attacked by the Authority; Payback for letting Jon out of the closet. I took care of it; I doubt there will be anymore issues! Jon came back with me to the room. We had sex.
I didn't figure I needed to go into any more detail than that. I then went in and took a cool shower.
