Hello guys in this chapter Edward will not see his dad yet the meeting will be in the next chapter in this chapter there might be more mentions of bella and it will mostly be Edwards thoughts anyway I hope you enjoy . Please leave a review if you have any feedback and thank you for reading!
The bell finally went , although to be honest I'm sure I actually paid any attention. I never really liked school I always did alright test wise but when I went home it was the constant taunts from Phil if I did well in test so I just threw my reports in the bin. I rushed out the classroom and took the 40 minute walk to my house.
Alice and well everyone else always offered me a lift . I just told them it was a short walk home , I didn't want to burden any of them . I've always been a very independent person aswell . However I still have no idea how to bring up the subject of going to the Cullen's house for a weekend.
What have you got to lose Edward...
After a forty minute gruelling walk I make it home , praying like every day that the door is locked but it wasn't. I don't even know how Phil gets paid he hardly does any work. I walk through door slamming it quietly. I then tiptoe past the kitchen not even feeling the slightest bit hungry. When I notice Phil staring at me... Okay?
I don't really know how , or even why really but I just feel a fleck of confidence rise through me.
"Look Phil well you see I was invited to spend the weekend with my da-Carlisle and well I had to accept" I stutter through feeling the confidence disappear
"you know it might be a little good if you realise that there only pitying you and I get a weekend without having to cater your scrawny ass go ahead"he snarls at me.
i nodded and took that as a yes ,but I couldn't help but shake my head at his comment. Cater really because you hardly give me more than Apple . I sent Alice a quick text saying for her to send me her address so I can walk. I packed my backpack nervously with several hoodies and other clothes that were loose fitting except from my jeans . There wasn't really much else in my backpack ,oh shit I nearly forgot. I run to the bathroom and take out my pain leg was still in overwhelming pain for Phil's fist, I cup some water and swallow a tablet. Which quickly numbs the throbbing pain .I hate taking medication, though I always have, I had the choice of taking anti anxiety medicine but I hated how it made me feel. I shake off the memory just as my phone pings . It's from Alice she says it's no problem for me to pick her up but she also sent me a text with her address. I quickly text back telling her it's fine , I swing the backpack over my shoulder and walk into my mothers room.
I look down at fragile frame felling tears threaten to flow from my eyes I place a kiss on her forehead. I look back at her once more and rub my eye on my hoodie.
I make my way out of the house not bothering to tell Phil I'm gone to be honest I was surprised at how easily he let me go. I slam the door and walk back out and check Alice's address. I follow the directions Siri kindly tells me .
Parter a while I feel the anxiety rise in my throat and I try my hardest to shake it off. I've been avoiding my family for years I don't want them t be disappointed with the real me or feel like they are burdened with me. I bet they only invited me out of pity, I try to calm my anxiety attack down as I struggle to catch a breath.I sit down on a nearby bench and close my eyes waiting for the attack to stop. After twenty minutes it has finally stopped although the anxiety in my stomach now makes me feel sick.
I feel the bile rise in my throat and I can't help but throw up against the side of a oak tree , I throw up several times however all that comes out is stomach acid. I dry heave for a few minutes until I feel a whole lot better, more refreshed I guess . I carry on with the walk now feeling absolutely exhausted I pick my pace up letting my thoughts take over.
I feel like I have grown a lot closer to Alice and Emmett the pats few weeks but with becoming closer means more lies. I hate lying but it's the only way out. It's like When they ask me how's my mother I force a smile that never quite met my eyes an tell them she is great, even though in reality I haven't had a conversation with her for two years. She Just sorta mumbles ,sometimes I wonder why Phil stayed with her or didn't even get her medical help but then I remember it's Phil !he likes to be in control. Stop,I know what your thinking I would have gotten help for her but who was I go to Phil wouldn't give me the money . We swapped roles It was almost as if she was little kid and I was the adult .I brushed her hair ,fed her and so on I just hope Phil helps her this weekend sometimes she does get out off bed but every time I allow my self to be hopeful for even just a second it's quickly destroyed .
I walk through a path until I see something that looks like a forest. What the fuck they live in a fucking forest .
I check the address real quick making sure it's correct. It is ,well that's werid I can't help but think of the movie about forests and how people went in and never came back. Maybe that's why they invited me...
I walk to a massive gate and pull it open realising it's unlocked and my jaw drops in awe of their I mean just wow . My house is a reasonable size but there house is a fucking mansion. I walk past the water fountain. Yes you heard me right they have a water fountain and I can't help but still feel slightly creeped out by the location. I knock on the giant door only then realising I should have rang the bell .
Oh well a few minutes later I hear light footsteps and the door opens .
I am met by the sweet smell of cookies. There leaning against the door is Esme she hugs me and I awkwardly pat her shoulder I never been great with physical contact but Esme always felt so motherly .
"Come in Edward ,there are cookies on the counter feel free to grab one" she softly speaks. I nod my head and follow behind her. I look down at the cookies but decide not to take one since my stomach is still churning from my panic attack . Just as I was about to answer her I feel a big giant attack my giant pulls back and I realise it Emmett.
"You came,so what do you think of the house" he bellows as always
"it's huge but the whole living in the forest thing, that is creepy" I shiver
He Chuckles thunderously
"come on up you can sleep in the spare room" he yells again popping my ears.
Damn man can he never whisper.
i follow him up the never ending stairs until we reach a bedroom . "This is yours dad always kept it incase.." He looks back at me with a solemn face.
i nod at him, but to be honest I'm surprised once again. I walk into the bedroom already finding it a lot more homely than the one at home . I look around ,double bed a wardrobe and a few pictures of me. Which sort of shocks me for two reasons ,reason one I hated people taking photos of me as a kid I still do now but i guess I have more reasons to, two I did'tn think he,d actually keep them.
"anyway drop your bags on your bed and come see my room prepare to be amazed bro" a big grin appears on his face and he's returned to his normal happy bubbly self. Some one I always longed to be...
