"What?! NO! It's not possible!" Yuki looked down to the floor in confusion trying to make sense of all that was being told to him by the doctor. He could find no explanation, it couldn't be. His hyper active singer couldn't be gone! "You're lying! You're lying!" He yelled looking up from the floor shaking the doctor by the shoulders, Hiro and some other doctors stepped forwards to try to pull him away.

"I'm sorry Mr. Uesugi." The doctor said. "There's nothing else I can do." Yuki was shaking as he pulled away from the doctor. "The wound wasn't infected, however the loss of blood was too great and the haemorrhage from the body's attempt to abort the child made him loose a lot more blood. We managed to give him a sufficient amount of blood to place him in a stable condition but I'm afraid there's nothing I can do. He's brain dead." The doctor finished. He placed a hand on Yuki's shoulder in reassurance. "Your child however is recovering quite well... You should focus on her for now, whilst we focus on Mr. Shindo. It's the only thing you can do." He said. Yuki simply took several steps back and dropped on one of the waiting chairs, his head in his hands in desperation, hoping that this was all just a bad dream and that he would wake up soon, with Shuichi beside him, ready to start recording those poorly written songs he does.

"Can I go see him?" He asked softly.

"There's no problem, please come this way."

OOOOOOO

Yuki walked into the room slowly, the doctor closed the door behind him so he could be with Shuichi alone. There he was. Japan's greatest rock star rivalling with his very own idol, Ryuichi Sakuma. In a coma, a tube introducing oxygen into his lungs as he was incapable of breathing on his own.

Yuki slowly walked towards the singer's bed and pulled the chair that was there closer to the bed. He reached out and gently held Shuichi's hand, before closing his hand tightly on it afraid the other would disappear if he didn't.

"Hey Shu-chan..." He whispered. "The doctors say you can't hear me... I don't believe that. You..." He chuckled softly at the memory. "... You always make it your job to impress people, to amaze them with that strange way of yours... so I know that somehow you can hear me." He took a deep breath and looked down for a moment as tears filled his eyes for looking at his lover's state. "I'm sorry." He cried. "I'm sorry I couldn't stop this from happening. For not protecting you. God..." He looked at Shuichi pleadingly. "Please Shuichi, please. I know I'm not the best lover, I know I'm never good at expressing my feelings for you, but I promise! I swear that I'll be the best lover to you from here on out. I love you, I love you so much. Please. Please just come back to me!" He cried breaking into uncontrollable sobs, Shuichi's unresponsive hand still intertwined with his own. He pulled Shuichi's hand to his lips and kissed it lovingly yet desperately. "Please..." He whispered. It took him another five minutes of sobbing before he managed to control himself to speak once more.

"Shu-chan... wake up... wake up so you can see our child. She's beautiful. She has your hair Shuichi. Wake up so we can take her home and be a family... so you can spoil her rotten and I have to put up with the both of you annoying me. Shuichi... I can't... I can't raise her on my own. I can't go on without you." He whispered. He got no response from Shuichi. All that could be heard was the sound of the machines claiming that he was still alive... but only just.

"I'll wait as long as it takes for you to wake up." He whispered softly. "I wont give up on you Shu-chan. So please don't give up on us. We're all missing you. And our baby wants to meet his other father too." He said softly. There was a slight knock on the door and Yuki turned to see a nurse.

"I'm sorry sir, but visiting hours are now over." She said. Yuki nodded slowly and turned to Shuichi once more. He stood up and bent down to kiss his lover on the forehead before once more kissing his hand and caressed his face gently. He pulled himself away from the singer finally and left the room.

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Mika smiled as she walked into Yuki's apartment. Her brother looked as bad as he felt but at least he had the strength to carry on living instead of being depressed all the time and drinking himself to death. The crying bundle in his arms was doing wonders for him.

"She... wont... stop... crying..." He said and Mika chuckled softly taking the baby into her arms.

"She's probably just has a little bit of colic. You did say you fed her and checked her diaper right?"

"Yes, she's fine, now please get her to stop crying." He said as he walked into the room and threw himself on the couch to sleep.

"I thought we were going to the hospital." She said.

"We are... I just need... some sleep..." He mumbled falling asleep soon after.

Mika smiled gently as her little brother slept. His face was still that of a child's. In their sleep absolutely no worries can be seen, and that was Yuki's face exactly. She looked at the baby girl that had lowered her cries to small whimpers. "You've exhausted your daddy, you bad girl." She said and smiled. "Now let's go change that diaper your daddy didn't check twice." She said and went up to the nursery. "I wonder when your mommy is going to get to see you." She mumbled as she changed the little girl. She only yawned and tried wiping away the wet feeling off her cheeks to no avail. Mika smiled sadly and picked her up dressing her up to go to the hospital.

"Come on, let's go." Yuki said from behind her.

"Oh Eiri... you really should get some sleep." She said. He shook his head putting on his jacket.

"I'll be fine." He said and took the little bundle putting on her jacket. "... I promised Shuichi I'd take her today."

"Eiri..." She said softly placing a comforting hand on his shoulder.

"Let's go Mika..."

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Yuki walked into the room with Mika besides him.

"Hey Shuichi." He said softly.

"I'll leave you alone." Mika said passing Eiri the baby.

"Thank you sis." He said and Mika smiled.

"I'm going to go talk to the doctor."

Yuki walked to the side of the bed the little girl asleep in his arms. "Hey love..." He said softly kissing Shuichi on the cheek. "Look who came to visit." He said placing the baby carefully beside him. The baby yawned and opened her eyes reaching out to grab Shuichi's hair. Yuki chuckled and pulled the baby's hand away. "She's grown a lot since she was born hasn't she? The doctors still say that she's smaller than she should be but she's perfect for me." He said. "Her christening's going to be in a month... I asked Ryuichi to pick out a name for her, I know you would have probably asked him the same. He's been very excited. You have to wake up so you can come with us." At that he had to stop talking for a while as anguish was threatening to flow through him as he thought of the possibility of the other not waking up.

The baby girl gurgled drawing attention to herself and Yuki looked away from Shuichi and looked down at her.

"You're happy at seeing daddy aren't you?" He said softly. He held the baby close and didn't notice as he started falling asleep.

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

"It's been four months doctor, there has to be some sign of improvement." Mika said.

"It's like this every month Miss. Seguchi. There have been no signs of recovery, and when there are it's because he's going to wake up and it's going to happen quickly. When there's a reaction we'll contact you." He said.

"Isn't there anything you can do?" She asked softly.

"I'm sorry. All we can do is wait." She said.

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Mika smiled sadly as she saw her brother sleeping in the chair in a rather uncomfortable position but holding the baby girl close. She walked over to him and looked at Shuichi.

"Wake up soon Shuichi. We're all missing you." She then turned to Yuki and shook him gently on the shoulder so he would wake up. "Hey sleepy head, wake up. We have to go soon." She said and Yuki opened his eyes and looked at her for a long time before realising why she was there and where they were. He turned to Shuichi who still slept soundly.

"What did the doctors say?" He asked softly. She kept quiet and Yuki knew. "To wait." They both said at the same time.

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Yuki sighed as he lay the baby down on her crib who got comfortable and carried on sleeping. "It's been a long day hasn't it little one?" He said softly and left the room to go to sleep on the couch. He hadn't been able to sleep in his bed since Shuichi disappeared; it just didn't feel right without the singer beside him anymore so he picked the couch over the bed.

"Come back to me brat..." He whispered to the quiet apartment before falling asleep.