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I like how my mirror is progressing I'm excited to see it grow, it means I'm growing, more people I meet the farther I get away from my father, maybe once I fill this mirror I will have enough friends and places to go so my father won't hurt me, I mean It will hurt when we have to move but I've changed I can make friends now I'm not the mysterious girl that all the rumors are about, there are probably rumors about me here but I don't care they don't affect me.

I pull out my sketch book and I draw, I draw characters from my favorite book Fault of Our Stars (If you haven't read this book yet, do it! Spoiler don't read the details, skip to next paragraph if you haven't read it) It's a common picture of them laying on the grass but more, Hazel who strangely looks like me by the end, is glowing, looks healthy, doesn't have the tube around her ears, she has a cigarette in her mouth with her eyes closed, the grass lively under her and the sun shining above her. Augustus weirdly looks like Caleb, I'm starting to get weirded out by my own imagination, is lying next to her bone decade, he has ragged old dirt stained clothes, the grass is dead under Augustus, the grass dead below him, and there is no sun above him. They both are dead but Augustus died before Hazel. I wrote below the picture "It's a metaphor" in big letters.

I briefly flip through some old drawings I have in this book, very morbid, but I love it, I'm a very morbid person, almost always do these drawings of mine mean something, to me or some deeper meaning.

I go down stairs to get food, not in the mood to cook I order Chinese food, in thirty minutes it's here, I pay him grab my food and go upstairs. I turn on the T.V. and It is Law and Order Special Victims Unit, one from the newest season, I missed last weeks episode so I flip it to something else, nothing, so I go to my Roku, watch last weeks episode, it's the one where Olivia is kidnapped, by the time this episode finishes I've finished my food open my fortune cookie "Look at the bigger picture lucky numbers 4 6 10"

That is weird but maybe it is for the better, writing it out will help, I find my journal I threw on my bed a while ago, I open it grab my glue and I glue in the picture I saved to put in here, the next available pages are in the back, I'll have to get a new journal soon, glue the pictures in place write a brief description below them, then the next available page I begin to write:

Since I moved here it has been really chaotic, and I have a feeling it is only going to get worse, I'm really worried, I don't know what to think, I found some great friends, I think Percy and Caleb like it here better than any place before. I don't know when we will move but I hope we stay here for a long time. Since I've moved here, I have learned to fight, made great friends like Lynn, Christina, Will, Marlene, Uriah, Zeke, Shauna, and Four I hope I never lose them. Eventually I will have to tell Four and Lynn everything maybe it will make it easier but now I want to keep my thoughts to myself, I feel stronger then when I talk about it, like I have to feed off my pain to have strength, if tell people does that really mean I weak and can't handle it? I don't know, maybe one day I'll find out, right now I just don't want to bother anyone. Problems I need to work on, Al I gave him a wrong impression, and I need to fix that. There is no hope fixing anything with my Father, we will have to see where this goes.

It's late I'm too tired to write anymore so I go put my journal in its secret place, and go to bed.

I wake up grunting, I don't want to go to school but I drag myself out of bed anyway shower throw on blue skinny Jeans and an over sized black top with strings holding the back together I don't even care that it shows my bra in the back. I'm not in the mood for makeup, I throw my hair in a messy bun and let some fall down

I run down the stairs don't bother with breakfast and leave it doesn't take me long to realize I forgot my shoes, but I don't care enough to run back in and get them, I'll go barefoot all day. I get to school a little later than usual because of my bare feet but I left earlier so I'm ok.

I get to my locker and pull out my essentials for the day. I close my locker turn and see Shauna holding a pink tutu, blonde wig and a wand, I'll ask the dare during lunch if it doesn't happen before I'm not in a mood to be social now.

I walk to class the bell rang right after I walked in so people trickled in after me, everyone is in class except Four and Zeke, and as I think of this Four comes in with the biggest grin, I don't want to talk to anyone now, or today but I probably couldn't make it that long, so

I give up and ask "What?"

the bell rings "You will see" He says

The teacher ssshs us, Study is nothing special we just sit there doing homework or whatever we want but the teacher is strict about quiet, Ms. Mathews, the social science teacher, I have her here and Psych, half hour into the class we hear a faint voice its yelling but far away, getting closer, I see Four ignoring it but he is smiling like he has been since he walked in

"In… Barb… orld.. I'm…" The voice calls out

It gets close enough for everyone to hear and Four is all but falling out of his seat laughing hysterically.

The voice is Zeke

"Undress me everywhere! Crap I can't remember the rest of the song, I HATE YOU FOUR!" he yells emphasis on the hatred toward Four

Zeke walks into a hysterical class he tries not to look up he is really red I can barely stop myself from laughing once he comes in, then he sits right next to Four and I calm down once I can't see his face.

Eventually the class stops too looking back occasionally and snickering. The teacher doesn't say anything, he will most likely get called to the Principals office later fifteen minutes later I see Zeke pass Four a note, Four rights something brief and hands it back, I try not to look but it is hard after Four dared Zeke or at least had a part to play, Zeke is going to get Four back.

Zeke face lights up and writes again, before too long he returns the note, Four reads it and bites his lip, then nods at Zeke, I don't think they realize I was looking so I look down hoping they won't find out. Four places the note on my desk, Great, I open it up

Let me talk to the teacher then follow me out please

I nod and Four gets up, I watch as Four walks to the teacher and talk to her she looks in shock and outraged, Four is tomato red, and the teacher regains composure, and waves him off he looks at me I get up and follow him before I walk out

"I'll give you eight minutes you two you better hurry and get back to class" Mathews says in an irritated voice but she smiles in the end

Zeke bursts out laughing and he is silenced the class is really confused

"What did you tell the teacher, and why do I have to follow you?" I ask

"I told her what I was supposed to tell her" he says scratching the back of his neck he is really nervous I can tell

We stop in front of the janitors closet, and he opens it up and holds the door open for me

"I told Mathews I had to play seven minutes in heaven this very moment with the love of my life" he can't even look at me as he says it

"Zeke dared me, to play seven minutes in heaven with you and tell the teacher" he says

"Good for you" I say as I walk in laughing he doesn't budge from holding the door open

"We don't have…" he starts

"It's a dare and Zeke would find a way to make it worse if he found out we didn't" I grab his shirt and pull him in trying to be playful, but I don't know what I'm doing.

Another act of Tris, the door shuts Four tenses, he kisses me first standing stiff. I kiss him and rub his back trying to calm him down, he only relaxes a little, I have to pull back for air, he isn't calming down, and it is getting me worked up

"Are you… afraid?" I say in between kisses, He kisses me again

"Not of you" he calms down a little more

I still feel extreme tension in him he tries to kiss me again and divert the attention I kiss him again I pull back for air it feels worse being in this small box

"of what?" I say barely audible

I slip my tongue in his mouth and he relaxes, he doesn't answer but I guess I knew he wouldn't when I took it a step forward, he puts his hands on my hips and plays with the hem of my shirt and I run my fingers through his short hair

he now is trying to taking control seeing how far he can go or he is losing control, I may have initiated this but I don't want it to go that far so I have to take the lead let him know how far I will go, I push him against the wall lightly and I kiss him with more force, and he lets go, of the hem of my shirt and places his hands back on my hips

I grind in to him he moans as the door flies open

My head turns Four just stares at the ceiling, It's Peter and Zeke, WHY PETER!

I pull away from Four and walk out of the closet, Zeke and Peter are laughing barely standing on their two feet

"Common, Mathews will be pissed if we don't hurry" I say as casually as I can like they didn't just open the door to me grinding against Four and Four moaning in a heavy make out session.

I turn around about to walk to class

"Guess she isn't all that stiff Peter" Zeke Proclaims

I stop dead in my tracks causing Someone to bump into me I turn around

"Stiff?!" I say pissed

"Peter was calling you Stiff on our way to get you under Mathew's orders so don't be made at me!" Zeke says looking at me then turns to Four when he explains he was ordered too.

Four is pissed as I am but I'll assume it's for opening the door, instead of Peter calling me stiff, how did I even warrant that nickname? Zeke and Peter walk past me Four is still standing in front of the closet, he at least got out and the door is shut

"common Mathew's will be mad if we don't hurry" I say I turn around

"The small space" he declares

I don't get it

"That's why I was afraid" he adds

"Oh and I just assumed one of your Four fears was intimacy or something" I say joking

Hoping he doesn't catch on, he laughs and we walk back to class, Zeke and Peter are already in their seats from before opposite sides of the room why did Mathew's pick Peter? Four and I take our seats where we sat before, next to Zeke.

Four passes me a piece of paper

Truth or Dare? Tris

I write back

Dare don't make me regret this


A/N I hope you guys liked the lucky numbers, and enjoy Tris's/Beatrice's conflicting personalities I'm not making her multi personality disorder just showing a transition between her personality of who she used to be in her abnegation life and changing into a Dauntless personality. Send me dares you want to happen and they will be incorporated into the story!

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