PARADICHLOROBENZENE

"And then I realize... This is all just hypocrisy, isn't it? What is my life even worth?

I don't even know that... I don't know anything anymore"

002

All throughout the investigation, the young teen of sixteen pondered about the case and about Kira. To a normal person's eyes, what Kira did is normal; those who have done such dastardly deeds are, indeed, to be punished. The price to pay for killing someone is by returning the favor and killing them. It was the natural order of life, there's nothing special about it. Why do people even fuss about it? Why did the Investigation team fuss about it? Why did the SPK fuss about it?

And then she thought about the whole thing in general. What's so darn great about Kira anyway? Why focus on him alone? Can't they just work together? No, in fact, can they just even forget about Kira and focus more on the more important matters? They're criminals; most of them kill without a heart! If they decide to have a heart now, then they should be doing nothing else by now, or not even do it at all! It's their own decision to kill, to murder, to plunder, to rape, to do these things. It's their own choice, and Kira was just doing what they deserve to do. Why do they even want to save these people anyway?

But then she also thought about how they are also human beings like everybody else, that there might be some who is just scammed... some who only do this probably because they are either out of their noggin or that they have nothing else to return to. They do these things because they have no other option; the life dictates them to do if they want to survive. If they want to live, to survive this world, to actually move on, then they are free to choose whatever choice they make since, hey, even if it's only out of impulse they're damn rather do it and not regret about it than not do it and regret it later on in life.

All of these are mere hypocrisy Kei have thought, laughing and angry at the same time on how in the world she manages to think such things. They are not silly, in fact they are spot on, but they are indeed quite mad of her to even consider such thoughts.

Kei didn't gave up on the case not because she wanted to help- oh, no, she doesn't want to be called a hypocrite in the near future for that- but because she do seem want to see what will occur afterward. She already knows who Kira is, but all she needed is a confirmation and then she would let the other people take care of the rest. Besides, she's not really the one who is solving the case; she's merely lending a hand so she doesn't have any credit with it whatsoever.

Behind the seemingly-normal facade and lifestyle, what they don't know is that she is casually solving the pieces together, guise as a mere impulsive intuition a normal teenager would refer. She was mad, yes, but in a cunning way.

"By the way..."

She turned her head a bit as Near somehow took something from his pocket, pulling out a stuff toy that she seem to be fond of the first time she saw it in his toy box a year ago.

"I'll keep an eye on this a little while longer, don't you think?"

"You can keep it; I'm not interested with that anymore."

Childish.


She ponders the logic of the case, why they even seem to focus on it in the first place knowing that it may do well to the country if criminals are being killed. For some reason, she saw the point of what Kira is planning, but another point she saw is the morality of it all. Then again, she would be a hypocrite if she claimed that what Kira does is bad; but she never said she agrees on him in the first place.

As she grows old, Kei seems to starting to grow quite mature and ponder that maybe the case is best left to their hands. She's only stating her own opinion about it, so why would she even lay a finger to that? You can say it's a mixed feeling.

DISCLAIMER:

I don't own Death Note, its characters or anything within its universe; Tsugumi Obha and Takeshi Obata owns them. Also, the title and the first line of the lyrics are based on a song of the same title by Kagamine Len of the software VOCALOID.

The only thing I claim here is my own character and this fanfiction. Read, Review and Message would be much appreciated.