"You deserve to be with somebody who makes you happy. Someone who won't complicate your life. Someone who won't hurt you. He's the better guy, Meredith. Finn's the better guy." He sighed as he sat down on her bed.
"Derek…" She could feel her eyes welling up.
"I'm walking away." He stood up and walked out.
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"So what time do they let us visitors start visiting in the morning?" He asked.
"You shouldn't do that." She sniffled as her eyes filled with tears.
"I don't mind."
"No really, Finn. You shouldn't do that."
"So it's Derek?"
"I'm so sorry."
"Can I ask why?"
"You're a great guy, you're a wonderful guy. And you may even be the better guy. But…"
"He's the one."
"I really wish he wasn't." She wiped a tear from her cheek.
"He's going to hurt you again. And when he does, I'm not going to be here. Take care of yourself, Meredith."
She was startled awake as her door opened. Her eyes slowly opened as the door shut.
"Hey." He smiled at her. Meredith winced at the sight. "You okay?"
"Leave, Derek. I don't know what happened, but I you had a wife. A wife? Seriously?" She took a deep breath. "Until I sort this all out… Stay away from him."
"Meredith…"
"Get out!" She yelled causing him to retreat from the room. She laid her head back and sighed letting her eyes fall shut.
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Christina pushed her salad around the table. Meredith was sitting back against the bed that was in the sitting position picking through her salad. They were both quiet as they ate unsure what to say.
"How did my mom die?" She asked. Christina stopped chewing what was in her mouth and looked up. Dropping her fork, she swallowed her mouthful.
"You remember that?"
"The details are fuzzy. I remember a ferry and cold water and… Waking up and Derek said she was gone."
"She…Her heart stopped. She had coronary artery disease and tachy arrhythmias. She died not too long after we diagnosed her."
Meredith nodded as silence fell over them. Tears glossed over her eyes. "I just want to remember, Christina." A couple tears rolled down her cheeks. "Everything is so choppy and doesn't make sense. Derek's there. And then he's gone. And I'm alive. I'm dead… I don't know what has happened. And I know you aren't supposed to tell me anything… But… I need to know. Am I happy, right now… in 2008… am I happy?"
There was silence for a few minutes before Christina nodded. "You are happy. So happy it makes me sick sometime."
Meredith giggled despite the tears. After a few minutes, she spoke again. "Why was I in Boston?"
"I don't know… You wouldn't tell us. You just said you had to deal with your mother's past."
Meredith looked confused for a few seconds, but her face cleared and gave way to concern. Christina didn't notice as Meredith looked down at her feet.
