That night, I sat by my window, too scared to fall asleep. I looked outside my window. All I could see was the dark forest. For some reason, my view was comforting. I rested my head my pillow, tears were rolling down my cheeks and I made no attempt to wipe them away. I always thought that part of me was missing; there was a part of me that had been taken away from me. Having Jacob around me changed everything. I guess that's what imprinting does to a person. It felt magical to have Jacob next to me. But now, I hated him. I didn't want this, my mind was made up. I didn't want Jacob Black in my life.
I didn't fall asleep. I merely waited for sunlight. My eyes were tired after crying for so long. My mother came in a comforted me for hours but nothing could make me feel better. I needed to tell Jacob about the way I felt. I ran downstairs and dialed Jacob's number. The wait was agonizing, until finally, someone picked up the phone. Jacob. 'Hello?' He sounded tired. I looked at my watch, eight thirty. I took a deep breath 'Jacob?' 'Renesmee, hey are you okay?' He asked, anxiously. I blinked back the tears. 'Jacob, we need to talk.' 'Okay, I'll come over to you window…like that night we had our secret meeting…remember?' I felt the hot tears burn my cheek. I recalled that night's events. That was one of the best nights of my life. 'Okay' I said, and put the phone down.
I vowed to myself that I wouldn't let my feelings for Jacob get in the way of what I had to say to him. My parents always said that I had a strong mind. Maybe my strong mind was powerful enough to overcome the effects of imprinting. I would just have to wait and see.
I waited in my room; in my mind I was rehearsing my speech to Jacob. There was a soft knock at my window. I walked up to it and my eyes met the wonderful sight that was Jacob Black. My heart skipped a beat. I swallowed hard and focused my attention on unlocking the window. Concentrate Renesmee. 'Hey, took you long enough to open the window ehh?' said Jacob, smiling at me. 'Mmmmm. Listen Jacob, I need to tell you some very serious things so please come inside my room.' I said, opening the window fully. I watched him silently as he gracefully slipped through my window. 'What did you want to talk about?' He asked, sitting down on my bed.
I touched my forehead, searching for words, but none came to mind. It's funny, I planned out everything I was going to say; every single detail except…the beginning. I took a deep breath 'Jacob, I have thought long and hard about this whole situation between us and I have made up my mind.' I was surprised at how convincing I sounded. I was truly radiating my anger on Jacob. 'So? What's you decision?' He asked, playing with my pillow, smiling at himself. 'You think you know the answer? Well, just to confirm, I don't want anything to do with you.' I said, angrily. Jacob looked up at me, shocked and confused. 'Renesmee, I don't understand! You were fine with it! What changed your mind?' He yelled, getting up from my bed and walking over to my window. 'Jacob, what made you think that I was okay wit everything? I am utterly furious with you! You have wrecked my life! Thanks to you, I will never experience love, I will never experience heart break! I will never feel what it's like to be human!' I screamed, fresh tears rolling down my cheeks. 'Renesmee, you're not human! And what normal human being wants to experience heart break, huh? I thought I was doing the right thing!' he yelled over me. 'Thanks for reminding me, I'm not human.' I said bitterly. 'Doing the right thing? For you, maybe, but not for me. You have ruined everything.' I said, staring coldly into his eyes. 'Oh yeah? Well, you didn't seem to feel that way when we kissed and spent that night on your backyard tree! What happened to you? What changed your mind huh?' He asked grabbing my hand. I pulled away 'My heart' I whispered. 'Oh please Renesmee, don't give me that crap! It was your little friend wasn't it? Claire. That little vampire-bum-licking, good for nothing human' He said. I could feel the poison in his words. My brain blew up into a million pieces. 'No one talks about Claire that way, especially mangy mutts like you' I said, in a dark voice.
Jacob looked hurt and angry. 'Well, whoever it was, I'm glad they did so! I don't want you in my life either!' said Jacob. My heart weighed a ton. Those were the words I wanted to hear. 'There's just one problem…I've imprinted on you, remember? You can't just stop your feelings for me.' I turned around. 'What do you mean? You can't stop your feelings for me either!' Jacob smiled 'On the contrary, I can, but you can't' my body slumped and my jaw dropped open 'What?' I screamed. 'It doesn't happen often. Usually, the imprinter and the imprintee, if you'd like to call it, end up together. No one rejects it, unlike you just did.' In that case, all I have to do is leave and move on. However, I wish I could say the same for you.' I shivered, Jacob sounded so…cynical.
He walked up to me and gently touched my cheek. 'Renesmee, have you ever felt… empty? Like there is part of you that's missing?' He asked, softly. I closed my eyes and whispered 'Yes, I feel like that a lot' 'It's a side effect of imprinting. If I leave you, you'll feel like that for the rest of your life. Even if you move on and find love, nothing will overcome that feeling.' I shut my eyes as his fingers traced my neck and shoulders. 'So? Are you going to leave me or not?' I asked coldly. 'Renesmee, as mean as I sounded, I love you too much to do that to you' said Jacob taking my hand. 'Well, in that case, do you have another plan?' I asked, taking my hand away from him.
Jacob looked down at his feet and sighed. 'Yes, there is one other way of "undoing" this whole thing' I laughed 'you're not suggesting some sort of time machine are you' I asked, sarcastically. Jacob looked hurt and angrily at me. 'No, I am not' I suddenly felt bad. 'I-I'm sorry Jacob.' I touched his shoulder. He looked up at me. 'Are you sure you want to do this Renesmee?' He asked, sounding anxious. 'Yes' I said calmly. I was absolutely sure. 'Fine, then there's only one way to do this.' He said. 'Great! So… what are you waiting for?' I asked. 'Is it some kind of ritual or something?' I asked, confused. Jacob walked over to my window 'Yeah…something like that. Just one problem… to do this "ritual"…We have to go to, um…' I went over to him. 'Where?' I asked. 'Somewhere quiet? I know the perfect place.' I said smiling at myself. 'No, Renesmee' said Jacob, exasperated 'to do this ritual we have to go to…Forks'
