CPOV
Feeling slightly shaky I decided to stay on the floor.
After a moment, or two, I felt a little more stable and, using my hand to help myself up, I got up off of the floor.
For whatever reason I did feel like I weighed less, I felt lighter.
Shaking my because I knew it was just an allusion I went to the bathroom door and opened it.
Not wanting to bump into Jace I ran into my bedroom shutting the door quietly behind me.
Purging left a sickly sweet taste in my mouth that I didn't like at all.
Maybe it got better the more you did it?
I walked over to my bed and flopped down.
"Wake up Clary. I'm not going to wait for you to get ready." Jon called.
Groggily, I sat up in bed and rubbed at my eyes.
The clock next to my bed read 7:10.
Slowly I made my way around my room picking out an outfit from closet, brushing my teeth, and grabbing my bag.
It took me about ten minutes to do all of that and by the time I got down the stairs Jon was waiting for me impatiently by the door.
"Come on Clare." He said gruffly.
He grabbed my hand and pulled me out of the house and to his car.
We rode in silence to the school which I didn't mind at all.
I'm not really sure why Jonathon is in such a rush this morning because he could usually care less about if we even went to school.
When we pulled into the parking lot I got out of the car and walked towards my locker like I usually do in the mornings.
I never wait for Jon to be read to walk inside with him.
It's not like he wants me to anyways, so we both walk in at separate times and go our separate ways.
I kept my head down as I made my way through the halls ignoring the glares that some of the girls shot me for dating Sebastian.
Thank God it was finally Friday.
After the party tonight I'll probably just break up with him because all I wanted was to prove a point to Jon which has been proven.
Izzy wasn't by my locker this morning which I was kind of shocked about if we're being honest.
What I was shocked to see was Jace walking up to my locker as I grabbed the books I needed for the next few classes.
He walked up to me casually and leaned against the locker beside mine.
I didn't say anything and turned around to leave when Jace reached out and grabbed my forearm pulling me back to him.
He turned me around and I proceeded to glare up at him.
"What do you want?" I asked harshly.
Jace scratched the back of his neck, "Do you want to… sit with me at lunch?" He asked hesitantly.
My eyes widened a little bit and I looked at him in shock.
When I didn't answer Jace began shifting on his feet uncomfortably.
"I don't particularly want to sit with Jon, so no." I said coolly.
With that I turned once more only to be pulled back to Jace.
"We could eat in the court yard just the two of us." He offered.
"You're not my boyfriend, Sebastian is, so stop trying to act like it." I snapped out.
Jace's face fell and then became devoid of any emotion at all.
I didn't stop to think about it.
Instead I turned on my heel to get away and not be pulled back again this time.
JPOV
As I sat in class I silently fumed and tapped my pencil vigorously earning dirty glares from a few of my classmates.
What Clary said to me this morning got under my skin?
I'm not her boyfriend, so why do I care so much?
I care about Clary because she's Jon's little sister, isn't that good enough reason?
Unlike Jon I was trying to protect Clary because to be honest Jon is sucking ass at it.
That's how many of my families were.
They were shitty at taking care of me and shitty at caring about me.
That's good enough reason to want Clary to be happy isn't it?
But then Sebastian came along and started dating her. He's going to break her heart if she lets him in; I know he will because he's done it to countless girls.
Clary did have a point I suppose, I broke many girl's hearts too, but none of them mattered.
She could break hard if Sebastian gets to her and I don't want to see that happen to her.
I have a feeling that if Clary falls she's going to be one of those girls that falls hard.
The thought of Sebastian shattering Clary made my fists tighten into balls.
I couldn't stand the thought of seeing her that broken because her brother decided to be a dumbass.
Suddenly my pencil snapped and brought me back to class.
A few of the kids sitting around me turned to look at me curiously.
My facial expression smoothed over and I just stared at the board as the teacher continued to go on about whatever she's been talking about this whole time.
My pencil snapping didn't faze her at all as she continued as if it never even happened.
She didn't even so much as glance in my direction.
The people who had turned to look at me soon turned back around and faced the teacher again realizing that nothing was really happening around them.
At lunch I didn't see Clary enter the cafeteria.
When Sebastian came over and sat down he didn't say anything about her and just talked to the team about the game tonight.
I looked over to the table she usually sat at to see Izzy, Maia, and Simon talking.
Alec was whispering something softly to Magnus and gesturing to the empty seat beside him.
That was the seat that Clary usually sat in.
Quickly I finished my peanut butter sandwich and stood up to leave.
"Where are you going Jace?" Sebastian asked suddenly.
"To go and find your girlfriend." I informed him coolly.
Sebastian's face twisted up for a minute before smoothing back into a friendly expression.
"She wants to be alone Wayland, so leave her be." Sebastian ordered.
I rolled my eyes.
Like he could possibly boss me around.
I turned to leave again when he called out, "She's not your girlfriend Wayland, she's mine so back the fuck off."
My steps faltered for a minute and I stood still facing away from them.
There was that phrase again.
You're not her boyfriend!
My mind was yelling at me to leave her alone, but I needed to go check on her and make sure she was okay.
I took a breath and continued walking away from my group to try and find my friends baby sister.
CPOV
I hurried out of class so I wouldn't run into Sebastian on the way to lunch, but as my luck would have it I ran right into him, literally.
He reached out swiftly and grabbed my arms to keep me from falling down.
"Hey babe." He said calmly and smiled at me.
"Hi." I muttered under my breath as I tried to duck around him.
He grabbed my arm and pulled me back to him, "Where are you going?" He asked.
"To the court yard, is that a problem?" I asked raising my eyebrows at him.
"Why don't you come eat with me?" He questioned.
"I don't like who you sit with, and I want to be alone." I said beginning to get frustrated.
"Why don't I eat with you?" He continued.
"Why don't you just piss off?" I asked sweetly and smiled at him, "Now leave me alone. I said I wanted to be by myself." I snapped out.
He looked at me in shock and I shoved his hands off of me.
I glared as I pushed past him and into the court yard where I went to sit by the tree I usually sat under when I wanted to be alone in my solitude.
Not many people were in the courtyard since the majority of them were inside eating.
That was fine with me; it meant less people for me to worry about bothering me.
I leaned my head back against the tree and let out a puff of breath.
The party today could not come any faster because all I wanted to do was break up with Sebastian so he wouldn't try to be my boyfriend.
Damn my stubbornness and rebelliousness sometimes.
That's just always been a bad trait of mine.
I looked at the people who were milling about in the courtyard and suddenly felt a pang of loneliness deep in my chest.
At first it started out as a deep ache which soon grew more persistent and noticeable.
All these people out here belong somewhere.
They belonged where they are now happy with their friends and being stupid together.
I don't have any friends to do this with anymore.
That's when it really hit me.
I was all alone now with no one on my side.
There was no one to care for me or talk with me, but it didn't start yesterday. This had gradually built up until yesterday they officially kicked me away and then I got slapped in the face today.
Slowly a fat tear rolled down my cheek.
Where I was sitting no one could see me, so I let the tear slowly down my cheek until it was a steady fall of multiple ones.
I sat quietly as the tears made their way down my face.
I closed my eyes and let the pain and hurt from the last few months wash over me.
At least I was until someone plopped down beside me.
My eyes snapped open to glare at Jace.
He just looked at me and didn't say anything before grabbing me and pulling me into him for a hug while I cried.
I didn't think about it, just let him do it.
So we sat there during lunch with me crying and him holding me soothingly.
Wow, I know. :/ It's been a while and the chapter's short and kind of sucks ass. I'm sorry. \: I just wanted to give you guys something.
I'm sorry.
