So, I had a crappy day at work. Then I have to do this chapter and I have always hated them at the CDC. I seriously thought about glancing over it, but I'll suck it up and get it over with. Also don't forget the poll I have. And I have the best name picked out for the baby I'm so excited. Anyway on to the story.

Chapter 9

I was holding Mia trying to calm her down, shots were always an eventful time. She rears back in my arms.

"Owie mommy! It hurrrts," she sobs sticking her arm out where the Band-Aid was in the crease of her elbow. "Kiss it mommy," she says with big tears running down her face. I kiss it and glance at Rick he looks torn. We both had to hold her down in order for Jenner to get her blood. She screamed bloody murder and kept saying it hurts daddy. I honestly didn't know who to hold her or Rick. I thought I would have to do the same to Ella, but she just sat there staring straight ahead while her blood was drawn.

Jasmine gave us a wide birth as did John, but I think that was more so for his wife. We were all sitting around eating and some drinking was going on. Jasmine and John had quickly ate and then headed to shower and go to bed, but everyone else was drinking and joking around.

"Here you go Auntie Jo. Oops I forgot you can't have this. Looks like I'll just have to drink it myself," Bobby says with a grin. I glance at Rick and he hides a half smirk.

"Bobby, last I checked you weren't twenty-one yet," Rick says in his stern cop voice that just, does things to me. Oh, that man is wicked. Not only is he getting payback on my behalf, but he knows exactly what that voice does to me. The smile slips from Bobby's face and his eyes get big.

"You're not serious, Rick? Age doesn't mean shit now," he says, only to cause a deeper scowl to appear on my husband's face for his language. "I mean stuff," he corrects.

"Age doesn't mean 'stuff' now," Rick says. Bobby is sweating now. Finally, Rick cracks a smile and Bobby releases a breath. Everyone else chuckles.

"Don't tease my wife," Rick says while throwing his arm on the back of my chair. We were having a good time laughing and talking so of course Shane had to ruin it. After he had Jenner tell us what happened to everyone else it was a somber mood after that. We all decided to head off to bed after we took showers. I gave Mia a quick shower, poor thing was falling asleep while I washed her hair. Ella had already showered and was curled up on a cot and was breathing deeply obviously asleep. I laid Mia down on the other cot we put in our room earlier. As soon as I had put Mia down and covered her up Rick wrapped his arms around me. I smiled. Rick got one of two ways when he drank. It he went out drinking with the guys he got emotional, but if I was with him he got horny.

"You heard Jenner we shouldn't waste hot water. Lets shower together," he says sloppily kissing my neck. I don't argue.

He quickly falls asleep after our shower activities, but I head up to the kitchen to see if I can find any chocolate. When I go past Shane and Lori's room I hear them yelling at each other.

"I heard you! I know exactly how you feel. And apparently how you still feel about," I hear Shane yell, but I keep walking not wanting to eavesdrop. Thank God, Bobby offered to bunk with Carl. He shouldn't have to hear that.

I reach the kitchen Only to come face to face with my sister. She freezes as do I. Then she glares at me and tries to leave.

"Jaz, wait," I call out reaching for her. She stops and turns to face me. The look she gives me causes a fist to clutch my heart.

"You know I went to your room to apologize, but then I heard you and Rick in the bathroom. It's like you don't even care. You just lost your niece and you still decide to screw Rick's brains out. Oh, but I forget that is your fail safe coping mechanism. I mean thank God dad died when he did or you might not have slept with James and had Ella," she sneers. I pull away I cover my mouth.

"How'd you know it was James," I breathe out.

"Oh, please it was easy. I was so disgusted with you. That was Daddy's best friend. He was nearly twice your age. I remember you mooning over him when Daddy got sick. Does Rick know? Does he know you threw yourself at a married man? Does he know that Ella had a half-sibling not my a year later," she says.

The truth is, she has no idea what happened that night. None. I hear a gasp in the hallway and see Ella standing there with tears running down her face.

"Ella," I say and step forward, but she runs off. I turn to Jasmine, but even she seems upset about what happened. I slap her without thinking. Her hand goes to her cheek and she looks at me with a shocked look.

"You have no idea what you are talking about! You have no idea what you have just done," I say in a deadly voice. I turn and run after Ella. I find her hiding in the rec room. I sit by her and put my arms around her.

"What she said it isn't true. Some of it is, but not all of it. When you're older I'll tell you if you want," I pause, "Rick is your dad. He's known you your whole life. He's the one who scared away monsters, who taught you to ride a bike, who spent a whole month building a tree house for you and Carl. He's the one who spent a whole weekend pushing cookie sales for girl scouts so you could go to camp. No matter what anyone says HE is your dad. But, if you ever want to know about the other man I will tell you. Just when you're older. You won't understand now," I say on the brink of tears. She looks at me with silent tears sliding down her face and slowly nods her head.

I end up holding her like that until she fell asleep. I have to carry her to bed. It's been a long time since I've had to carry her, Rick always makes it look so easy, but my baby isn't a baby anymore. Rick ends up finding me in the hall. I guess he woke up and came looking for me. He raises one eyebrow at my predicament, then sees my face and his eyebrows draw together in concern. He grabs her out of my arms and we walk back to the room.

After we lay her in bed. He grabs my hand and leads me to our bed.

"What happened," he says still holding my hand.

"Jasmine," I choke out. He immediately stands up in anger thinking that my sister yelled accusations at both me AND Ella. I pull him back down. "No, no. She brought up James," I say. He looks at me with a disbelieving look.

"Why the fuck would she bring him up," he says angry again.

"She knows," he raises and eyebrow. "She knows James is Ella's father, but she doesn't know the whole story. Ella heard her talking," I whisper even lower at the last part. Rick shoots up again, but I don't pull him back down.

"I'm her dad," He whisper shouts, " no matter what, I'm her dad. I'm the one who held her when she cried. I'm the one who went to the father/daughter dances at school. She may not have my blood in her veins, but she has my name and my heart! How dare she even bring up that waste of space that calls himself a man!" The whole time he was talking he was pacing back and forth running his hands through his hair. I stand up and wrap my arms around him. He slowly, ever so slowly returns the favor.

"I know. And I told Ella as much. She understands that, but I told her," I swallow, "I told her if she wants to know I'll tell her, when she's older though." He tightens his arms around me.

"I don't want her to not see me as her dad anymore," he says in a broken whisper.

"You will always be her dad. No matter what," I say looking in his eyes.

"Daddy," we hear a little whisper from Ella's cot. It's the first thing she's said since Abby and I feel like crying even more. We look over and she's still asleep.

"I'm here baby. I'm not going anywhere," he bends down and kisses her temple. He sweeps her hair away from her face and just rests his hand there for a bit. She sighs in her sleep and seems to go into a deeper sleep.

"Come on Rick. Lets sleep. I'm totally exhausted," I say. I have dreams about walkers and James.

I wake up more tired then I was when I went to sleep. I look around and Rick must have got the girls dressed. I only than realize I'm sweating. The air conditioner isn't working when I head out to the hall I notice everyone poking their head out. How long was I asleep?

"Babe, I go get some food from the kitchen. I have to talk to Jenner, somethings going on. Here take Mia," Rick says putting Mia's hand in None and kissing my temple. I get dressed and pack all of our stuff plus all the bathroom supplies. I have a feeling we won't be staying long. I set all of it by the door.

"Come on Mia let's go to the kitchen," I say. She smiled and grabs my hand. When we get to the kitchen everything shuts off. I run down the hall only to run into a big steel door. I can't hear or see anything. I start banging on it, but nothing happens. I turn around and see Mia staring at me. I scoop her up and go back to the room. I don't know what to do. I don't want to go to far and get lost. Most of the building is shrouded in darkness I barely found it back.

A few minutes later I hear door steps running. I pop my head out and see Daryl and Shane running and gathering their stuff followed by everyone else. Lori has Carl of course.

"Where's Rick and Ella and John and Jasmine," I tell out.

"Get your shot woman. Their coming," Daryl yells. I pick Mia up then along some bags over my shoulder. Bobby comes by and grabs the other two. I smile at him, but he doesn't smile back.

"Come on we have to run," he says seriously.

"Rick and Ella," I say scared. I can't leave without then, but no sooner than I said it then I see Rick running carrying Ella. I also see John carrying Jasmine over his shoulder and she telling at him and slapping his back. Rick grabs my hand and we take off.

We make it to the top level and Carol hands Rick a grenade. It's able to get is though the bullet proof glass we run to the cars and I'm still confused why we're running. I notice Dale, Andrea and Jacque aren't with us.

"Rick we're missing people we need to wait," I say.

" We can't it's gonna blow up," he calls over his shoulder. We make it to the van and put the girls in them Rick pushed me on top of them. I see him glance over at the jeep for Carl then he lays down on top of me.

I once say to close to a cannon one fourth of July I will never forgot how deafening the sound was. It had to be the loudest sound I had ever heard, but the CDC blowing up near that twice over and then some. And then the heat came. This blast of warmth that felt like hell itself was breathing on you.

We lost Dale, Andrea and Jacque, but when I look back I see Andrea and Dale's head pop up from behind a military barricade. No Jacque. We all quietly settle ourselves into our vehicles and drive away. I looked in the review mirror and had a flashback of driving away from Atlanta all those weeks ago. I looked over and seen Rick. No it's different now I had Rick and as long as we stayed together or would be fine.

Authors note: so you know that stuff that Rick said to Jenner in the show well John said that instead. I don't see my Rick as being so depressing. I'm sorry if this chapter sucks I really did not like the CDC part in the show so I tried to speed it along. Oh and next chapter is the last chapter to answer the poll. Only one person's voted. I mean I will make that one person happy, but I want others to have a chance as well. Haha thanks for reading please review of you can