"Elliot, what are you doing here?" Fin asked. Elliot walked in uninvited and started to pace.
"I need to know that truth. Cragen and Munch have been calling and texting me non-stop saying that I need to call them back as soon as possible. What's going on?"
"Well, what have they told you?"
"Oh, you'll love this. They made up some sick joke that Olivia's dead." Fin looked over at where Olivia was and saw she was biting her nail. "I mean do they not understand how serious that is. If Olivia knew they were saying that, she'll kill them. I don't know why they wouldn't even think that was funny. And then they tried to say she has a little girl that no one knows about. Yeah right, if Olivia had a daughter she'd tell me…"
"ELLIOT!" Fin yelled after trying five times. "Elliot, it's true. Olivia's gone man and she does have a daughter who's sleeping down the hall." Elliot looked down the hall and looked down.
"This is real? Liv's gone?" Fin nodded. Elliot's eyes filled with tears. Olivia had to turn away; she couldn't face Elliot like that. He braced his hands on a wall and all his anger came out at once. "NO!" He punched the wall and made a hole. "No, no, no, she can't be dead." He punched the wall several more times but only made one hole.
"Pinny?" Ella asked coming out of her room with her stuffed bunny close to her chest. "Who dat?"
"It's alright honey. That's Elliot."
"You friend?" Ella asked. Fin nodded. Ella motioned for Fin to bend down. "Where Mama? No see her." She whispered in his ear.
"Check my room." He whispered back. Ella nodded and kissed his cheek before running down the hall. Fin stood back up.
"Was that Olivia's daughter or Olivia has a toddler?"
"Ella, Olivia's daughter's name is Ella. Ella Grace Benson."
"Ella?"
"As close to Elliot as she could get for a girl without it being obvious or she would've named her Ellie." Fin said crossing his arms in front of him. Elliot ran a hand through his thinning hair.
"I can't believe she's gone. I never got tell her everything. You know how much I've always loved her. I can't believe she's gone." Fin's jaw tightened and he felt a hand on shoulder. He turned his head and saw Olivia standing behind him.
"I love you, just remember that." Olivia told him.
"Can he see or hear you?" Olivia shook her head. Fin nodded and turned back to Elliot. "Elliot, the whole precinct knew you loved her."
"I always thought that as long as the divorce was final with Kathy, I would ask her out and eventually marry her. I'll never get the chance now." Elliot put his head in his hands.
"You're not the only one." Fin said under his breath. He felt Olivia press a kiss to his cheek, apparently she had heard him. "You know maybe she can still hear you. Why don't you tell her everything now?"
"It's not the same as telling her to her face, starring into those big chocolate brown eyes, and knowing she feels the same way just by her eyes." Fin turned back to Olivia. She shook her head answering his unasked question. Do you love him? "I should go. I'm sorry for barging in here and waking up Ella."
"Don't worry about it, she's probably fast asleep again." Fin said.
"I really would like to see her again. She looks like Olivia 100%. Just one question though, who's her father?" Now Fin was stuck. Does he lie to Elliot and he's the father or does he do truthful thing and say Olivia went for in-vetro?
"Uh," Fin started. He sighed and knew he had to tell Elliot the truth. "She went for in-vetro." Elliot nodded.
"Well, she's looks like Olivia and I'm sure she'll act like her too. I would like to see her again though."
"I'll call you, we'll set something up. Today was a big day for everyone, it was Liv's funeral." Those words were like a bullet his heart. He hadn't attended his best friend's funeral because he was too pig-headed to admit she was gone. Elliot sighed sadly and opened the door. He left and Fin went back into his bedroom. He saw Olivia holding Ella and rubbing her back. Ella was already asleep but Olivia kept rubbing her back. "Liv, she's asleep." Olivia shook her head and looked down.
"Oh yeah, I guess she is. I'll put her to bed." Olivia carefully got up and went to put Ella to bed. She kissed her daughter's forehead and walked out. She walked back into Fin's bedroom and saw him standing by and looking out the window. "Is something wrong?"
"Yeah, the way Elliot was talking about you. Making plans for your life and all."
"Fin, you mean to tell me you had never made one goal for us." Olivia said.
"Of course I did, I made a couple. I never said that I was going to marry you. That's like making the deal before even asking you. I know you said no but was there ever a time that you did love him?" Olivia sighed. She knew this would come up eventually; hopefully she would've had more time to plan what she was going to say.
"In all honesty, yes. When him and Kathy separated the first time, we started spending a lot more time together and I started to develop feelings for him."
"Did you sleep with him?"
"No, almost but no, when we were on a stake-out and we almost slept together." Fin looked back out the window. "Fin, you never told me that you loved me so you can't be angry that I developed feelings for someone else." Olivia said annoyed.
"I'm not angry that you developed feelings for someone else, I'm angry that it wasn't for me."
"Who said I stopped loving you? I may have developed feeling for Elliot, but I still loved you the whole time. Fin, you need to believe me."
"I'm going to bed." Fin said and got in the bed. Olivia sighed as tears gathered in her eyes and she went out to the living room. Once there she debated whether or not to go back up or stay there. She decided to go back to her apartment and look around. She unlocked the door and walked out.
