Maybe Just Maybe...
This update is long overdue, I know! I am sorry, I have no excuse apart from university life and reaching deadlines...I hope I still have readers and I hope you enjoy this chapter. Sorry once again for the delay. Disclaimer – The OC is not mine.
Chapter 9.
As she sat on the plane, Alex was beginning to get nervous; she wasn't even sure that Marissa wanted her the same way she did but she had to try. She could feel that something was forming between them and if there was one thing Alex hated, it was not knowing what that was. She wanted answers from Marissa now, before things escalated. Alex's heart was drumming in her chest – if this did not go as she hoped she would be utterly broken. She gripped onto the armrests as the plane descended and she knew she had a long flight ahead of her.
Meanwhile, in London, Marissa had distanced herself from the others and nobody could conclude what was wrong with her. Even Summer had tried approaching her, and asking what was up but Marissa remained silent, keeping the news to herself for now.
'You know I'm here for you Marissa. Whatever it is, it will come out eventually!' Summer said huffily, as she strode out the room.
Come out.
Marissacould not even fully comprehend what that meant. If she and Alex became a couple, then she would have to. She did not know that she was ready for that; it was too overwhelming. All these thoughts were running riot in her brain and she couldn't make sense of them all.
Why am I feeling like this? It has never happened before...
Marissa started to cry silently, curling up on her bed. Ryan walked past her room and heard her. Tentatively, he knocked on the door.
'Can I come in?'
'Sure' Marissa said, wiping away her tears.
Upon seeing him, she knew she could find comfort in him... He sat down next to her and asked if she was ok.
'I-I'm fine, I just...' Without thinking, she pressed her lips to his. She was confused.
Ryan pushed her away.
'What do you think you're doing?' His tone was harsh. 'I thought you loved somebody else? And not of the male variety...'
'Ryan, I'm confused! You were the only true person in my life that I could depend on... These feelings for Alex are so new to me, I don't know what to do!'
'Well don't come on to me looking for an answer! You need to figure out what you want from life Marissa! You can't keep running back to me!' Ryan raged.
'I'm sorry ok?'
'Sorry? Oh that makes everything ok...' Ryan said sarcastically. 'One minute you tell me you want to be with someone else, and I find out it's Alex and that you're in love with her... Then you come onto me? Make up your mind Marissa, once and for all!'
With that, Ryan stormed out leaving Marissa sobbing on the bed. She knew that everything Ryan said was true – She had to make up her mind. It was just going to be harder than she thought.
Alex's plane had landed in London and she was excited yet apprehensive at the same time. Never had she flown on her own anywhere before, to a strange city to declare her love for a girl or may or may not reciprocate her feelings. It was madness.
Still, no turning back now.
She had managed to find out where exactly Marissa was staying from the concierge at the desk, and now all she had to do was get there, without being caught by Seth or Summer. Luckily, they were out.
Alex walked through reception, growing more nervous by the second. She received a key for Marissa's room, and it was in her hands now, shaking.
When Alex knocked, Marissa thought it was Seth and Summer coming back from the London Dungeons, but upon opening, she was dumbfounded.
'Hi' Alex said.
'Hi.' Marissa stuttered.
'I think we need to talk. Can I come in?' Alex asked.
'Yes we do. Come in, it's good to see you... Wow, I never expected for you to come all this way...'
'Well, we have some stuff to figure out, if we want to be together... I mean, are you? Do you...'
'I do.' Marissa replied straight away. 'I want to be with you Alex, and I have been going crazy over my feelings for you... It is all so new to me and intense!'
'I get that.' Alex smiled and took her hand and they sat together on the sofa.
A few minutes later, Seth and Summer returned.
'Alex...' Seth was surprised.
'Hi you guys.'
'What areyou doing here?' Summer narrowed her eyes.
Alex looked to Marissa, who blushed and looked at the floor.
'And where's Ryan?' Seth asked, looking around.
Neither Marissa or Alex answered.
How were they going to explain this one?
A/N: I'm off to Spain tomorrow, so really wanted to get an update in before I went! Again, I am sorry for not being able to post sooner. I hope you enjoyed and please review. Thank you =)
