A/N: Here's the next chapter back in Renesmee's POV. Thanks for the birthday shout outs and reviewing. It means a lot.
"Jacob? What are you doing here?" I quickly closed my robe, feeling so embarrassed that he was seeing me like this. His grin just got wider, when I took that approach. Stupid idea
"It's a little late for that now, I've already seen everything." His eyes roamed my body and for some strange reason I liked it, no I loved it. When he looks at me I don't feel scared or disgusted, I feel good and that's not a great thing for me. I got back to the situation at hand…Jacob
"Well good for you." I turned around from him to shut the door. I wanted no interruptions with my time with Jacob and anyone could walk by. "So I guess you see now I was lying…" He cut me off with his laughing.
"Oh...You won't believe how I found out." He leaned back on the couch and patted the seat next to him, indicating I sit down. So I did, I just hoped no one walked in on me not doing my job.
"I took my ass to the dance studio, which isn't far from here and asked one of the teachers there 'May I speak to Ren' she told me a Ren doesn't work here. So I kept on asking and asking, thinking that they misunderstood, but no you lied." Jacob looked at me with hurt and disgust. "So I gave up, which is probably what you wanted…" Now it was my turn to interrupt.
"No!" I whispered-yelled. "I wanted to see you, but I can't. My life is a mess; I live with a drug dealer. I'm a stripper and you've got a career and everything going for you. I'm not going to mess that up for you!" Jacob leaned over and my heart stopped… it felt so tight, because of how close he was to me. I made sure he couldn't tell what he was doing to me by being this close.
"What…I don't get a say in who I want to get involved with? I'm not putting any pressure on you, but I have a say in who I want to talk to, if you don't want to talk to me…"
"No! I want too and I still do, but I'll be damned if I let you get caught in the crossfire. I can't get you out of my mind, Jacob…"
"What crossfire? Does it have something to do with that dude you're fucking around with…?" He closed his eyes and calmed himself down. "I'm sorry. You don't even know me and I'm acting like a possessive bastard that's known you for a while..." He leaned away from me and settled back on the couch. "I just feel something strong for you…Damn I'm fucking up." I heard his whispered the last part to himself, while shaking his head.
I feel the same way about him, but I just can't act on it. It sucks that he paid that much money to see me, and all I was going to do was reject it. An idea popped in my head in how I should repay him. To do something that wasn't in my character only Blaze's character, but I had to do something to wipe that frown off his handsome face, once and for all.
"I feel it too, Jacob." I slowly as I got up from my seat and walked a little bit over to stand right in front of him. "Let's just forget about last night, okay. Let's focus on now and what you've paid for." I opened my robe once again, but this time I let it fall to the floor and I kicked it off... I hope that my eyes were as lustful as his. I bit my lips and placed my hands on my hips looking at him. Jacob's eyes looks like they wanted to pop right out of its sockets.
"I didn't pay for this; I just wanted to talk to you." He voice was a bit of a stutter, but he got it across. "Put your robe back on." I can tell he didn't want to say those words, but he was being a gentleman, I didn't want him to be a gentleman. For the first time ever I really, really wanted to do this.
"What if I don't want to?" I spoke in a seductive voice. "What if I want to do this, Jacob?" I got closer to him, so close to him that I can feel his body heat radiating off mine. His eyes narrowed as he took a long deep look at my body, it felt so good for him to look at me like that, but he didn't touch me. I wanted him to touch me.
"Ren, if you don't stop right now. I'm going to explode… don't play with me like that. Put your robe back on." His dark eyes looked into mine and I saw what I wanted to see pure lust… Darkness inside of him that I want to explore.
I stepped closer to the point where my legs brushing against his legs. He leaned back on the couch and motioned for me to get closer so I hopped up over so my legs were on each side of his hips. My hands leaning on his chest for support. I was finally getting a chance to do what I wanted to do back at his place.
"So you're going to explain to me why you didn't tell me the truth?" His hands were on my hips as he gently squeezed and I moaned quietly, and got confused I thought we're just going to enjoy this.
"I thought we weren't going to talk about that right now?" I asked and my hands went into his hair. Yes I was really getting into it.
"I paid to talk to you. Yet, here you are straddling my body looking sexy as hell… It's something I've been thinking about as soon as you walked out of that shower, is just an added bonus." He licked his lips and gripped my hips to pull me closer. I smiled at him and slid my hands to the buttons of his shirt and un-did two of them as traced the skin there.
"I didn't want to tell you the truth, because I thought that you would feel disgusted that you picked up a stripper who was basically running away from her owner. Which is almost true in a way, but I was ashamed." I didn't look at his face; I focused on his chest as a distraction.
He tiled my chin up with his finger and looked into my eyes. "I noticed that you look down when you're nervous. Do I make you nervous?" Yes, but I wasn't going to tell him that. His warm breath breezed onto my face; it almost made me feel relaxed. Like there was no reason to be nervous with him.
"Do I?" I asked back. He scooted himself up on the couch, bring me with him.
"You do. I was mostly nervous that you wouldn't come, but seeing you waltzed up in here ready to do something, made all that nervousness disappear." He teased at how I introduced myself.
I blushed hard and bit my lip. "Yeah, I never did anything like this since I worked here. It was only stage performances and giving lap dances in public. So you're my first." The last part came out very lustful for my taste, but I can't help but be like this around him. He wiggled his eyebrows and I blushed harder.
"So, how do you really feel about me being a stripper? That's the reason I lied. I was ashamed that you we're going to say something about it, I mean everyone is entitled to their opinion." His hand reached up from my left hip, to be on my neck as he caressed.
"I'm the last person on earth to ever try to talk down on what you do for a living, or how you get by." I gave him a small smile as he continued. "I wasn't this guy that you see in front of you years ago. I had problems with school, skipping, and other shit. I had to work hard to get this. I didn't come from a rich family or a good one in fact. So, you were wrong you could've told me. I'm not perfect, so I don't judge. There must be a reason?" Can this man get any more amazing? Here he was basically understanding what I do and puts himself in that category.
"There is a reason. I want to go back to school and finish getting my bachelor's. I wasn't able to so… now I want to go back and I need the money." My fingers still tracing his skin. It was so crazy how we're so comfortable around each other. Here I am straddling his hips and his hands are running on my neck, to gripping my hips now and then, and he would touch my bare stomach. It wasn't only sexual, but it was nice kind of like a friendship on a higher level.
He nodded. "So why did you leave?" His tone had a bit of an edge to it; I knew that question was coming sooner or later. I dreaded this question the moment I saw his face.
"I told you earlier my life has consequences, and I won't put you in that." I sneered. Jacob face neared mine and it almost made my heart stop again.
"I don't give a damn, Ren. I don't understand why women want the fucking douche bags? You could've left a note or something. Look I'm not going to tell you what or what not to do with your life ok." He thinks I want Felix?
"Listen Jacob, I don't want Felix. I'm so fucked up that I can't even put you though that, it's not only Felix, it's me that you need to stay away from. I'm toxic even to myself." Damn it! I said too much.
"What do you mean by toxic to yourself?" Jacob's face was full of concern and that's the last thing I wanted to do, I just wanted to be in his lap talking about other stuff not this.
"Nothing!" I jumped. "Forget I said anything ok." I rush him out of that question; I wasn't ready to talk about it.
"How can I just forget, Ren? I know something it up with you, it might have to do with that guy or something else, but you can't keep it bottled up forever." I was getting pissed, beyond pissed that he was figuring out that something is wrong with me, so I hoped this works, but I don't have a choice.
I reached behind my back and tried to unclasp my bra, but Jacob caught on quick and raced his hands behind me to stop it from happening.
"What the hell are you doing?" His hands nearly crushing mine underneath, but I didn't mind. I wanted him to drop what I have kept secret and doing something outrageous was going to do that.
"Doing my job." I shrugged. "I can't have you pay me $1000 with seeing nothing, so let go so I can show you." He moved up to me so my breasts were pressed against his hard pecs, and mine harden in seconds, with his hands still holding me captive. I'm so hopeless and yet what he was doing to me was only making me like it.
"Fine, I'll drop it for now, just don't take it off." His voice sounding somewhat determined.
"Alright." I rolled my eyes and nodded. He let go of my hands as I fixed the back of my bra, and getting settled back in his lap. Jacob looked at me with a smirk on his face and shaking his head.
"What?" My hands going back to his slightly opened chest.
'You're a handful that's all. You were going to take off your bra, just to get me to drop it?" He raised his eyebrow at me. "How did you think that was going to work?" Jacob's hands moved down to grip my thighs as I moaned a little. See how we go from friendly to sexual.
"Like it's working now?" He grinned. "Why you don't want to see me bra-less?" I teased, but I really wanted to know.
"Actually I do, but like I told you earlier I already had seen you. I was at the bachelor party for one of my friends. He's getting married soon." Oh so that's why he's here. "But, I don't want to feel uncomfortable, since I'm your first private dance..." He couldn't tell how free I feel.
"Jacob, the last thing I feel is uncomfortable. I'm touching your chest and your hands are rubbing all on my body and I didn't have to beat the shit out of you, yet." He chuckled. "I feel better now, that you're here. I've been missing you since I left I didn't want to do it, but I promise I won't do it again." I was serious about that, now that we've got this closer to each other verbally and physically I didn't want to let him go.
"I missed you too." He ran his fingers down my arm. "So you want to be friends first? Get to know each other more." I smiled at his gesture, but I wanted to do things to him that wasn't so friendly.
"Sure, I like that idea." I agreed. I moved my escaping hair that was falling into my face, to the back. Jacob was staring at me for a minute before he spoke again.
"Why did you…um dye your hair? Not that it's bad or anything, it's really hot on you." I giggled at his way of not trying to be rude, but compliment at the same time. "I just like your natural hair color, because it was a much different color that I don't see from others."
I pushed my hair back and blushed at him. "Thanks, but it was for the Blaze character you saw on stage. According to those people, I needed the hair to make it complete." I rolled my eyes at the reason to dye my hair.
"Blaze? You came up with that name?"
"Yeah, in a way. It just came up along the way, not really a big time story to discuss." I looked away from him to the wall. I heard Jacob exhaled as he leaned back on the couch; his warmth was away from me in seconds.
"He gave that you that name right?" Jacob folded his arms and placed them over his head looking up at me.
I nodded. "It's not a big deal; he's the one who introduced me to this business. You're not mad are you?" Feeling stupid for asking that question.
He laughed. "No. Why should I? You were or are involved with him. I was just getting comfortable to the couch; you know I'm not as young as I look." I had to laugh at that one, Jacob was at least fifteen years older than me, but that just makes it even hotter with the age span.
I decided to tease him a bit. "Mmhmm you are a bit of an old man. You need me to go help you up? I don't want to walk over my elders." I giggled. Jacob grabbed my waist with each of his hands and pressed me flesh against his body. I gasped softly at the sudden move.
"No thank you, I think I can handle your ass." He whispered against in my ear. "Got anything more to add?" He said huskily. I was having fun with this, with him. I haven't felt this way in years.
I leaned over as I was near his ear and I had a firm grip on his biceps that were bulging under my grip. "Well let me see you try. Don't hurt yourself." My lips brushed gently over his ear and smiled.
He playfully growled and gripped my waist tighter and before I could say anything else, he flipped me over on the couch and his body was right over mine. His eyes were wild with excitement and I'm sure mine's was too; I was acting like a kid again and apparently so was Jacob.
"So what you got to say now?" he chuckled lightly.
I spread my legs apart, which made Jacob's lower region fall in between. I felt him grow under me, but I didn't make any facial expressions or noise as I felt him grow harder and harder. So I moved my hips up to his and pressed against him harder than I intended, he felt so good against me that I couldn't help it.
"I've got nothing to say." I gave him an evil smile.
He shook his head. "You're a big tease you know that?" He chuckled. "Want to know how I deal with teases?" He began to tickle my sides at fast pace. I was uncontrollably laughing and trying to tickle him back, but there was no use.
"Jaacccob, ssstoopp!" I giggled and he laughed along with me. He kept on tickling me until he finally had enough. As I was trying to calm myself down, Jacob's hand caressed my cheek and his thumb lightly pressed my bottom lip. I stood still and stared at him, as he stared at me. It was so silent in those few seconds, that I was ready to lean up and kiss him, before I knew it he was leaning down towards my face. I was so anxious for this…
Caught up in the moment, we didn't even hear the door open until it was slammed against the wall. I looked over to see Felix's red face and shaky arms. My eyes widen in horror of what Felix was going to do to me. I knew that Felix always got mad when he thought I was flirting with other guys, but this time I really was and enjoying it.
I leaned up to get back further away from him, but Jacob's hands were tight against mine as he threw me behind him.
"Ren! What the fuck is this? I told your slutty ass not to be flirting with these men. They don't give a fuck about you!" I began to hyperventilate behind Jacob; he had one hand in mine behind him squeezing to get me to get calm. The other was in front of him, halting at Felix.
"Hey! You need to calm the fuck down! You're scaring her!" I was holding onto Jacob's hand for dear life, having no intention in letting go.
Felix's eyes shot to Jacob's and he saw how he was protective of me. "Who the fuck are you! She's not suppose to have private dances, I forbid her! This piece of trash just disobeyed me!" I did the dumbest thing and reacted.
"You don't fucking own me! I do what the hell I want! I'm so fucking done with you and you degrading comments! He…" I pointed to Jacob. "has more respect for me than you'll ever will! I was with him last night! Yes, I was a complete dumb ass to even go back to you!" Jacob turned around.
"You don't have to say anything." Jacob said rubbing my arm. I shook my head and touched his hand over my arm.
"Yes I do." I looked over to see Felix even redder, like a burgundy color.
"For the past year, I've kept up with your abuse both physical and verbal towards me. I… am in the vulnerable state that I'm in put up with it! Well no more I'm finish and you're out of my life!" Felix rushed over to grab me, but Jacob punched him in the face and he fell onto the floor. I tried to run out, but Felix recovered and grabbed my leg in a tight grip. I tried to yank myself of it and tried to kick him, but I kept on missing.
I fell onto the floor and hurting my kneecaps. The throbbing was so heavy that I couldn't even pick my legs up and run. I heard grunts and yells coming from both Felix and Jacob. Felix finally got over to me and yanked my head up by my hair and made me look at Jacob. He was beaten so badly, but Felix face was badly bruised too. He had a purple eyes and his mouth was bruised on the side as was his cheek.
"See that's what happens when you fuck around, Ren. I beat the shit out of them." I found my legs becoming less heavy and took that chance to knee him in the balls, but I missed and he smacked me across my face.
I was getting so dizzy and almost blinded by that hit, that I didn't see Jacob come over and pulled me away from him, but Felix grip was so tight around my arm there was no use.
"You lost your fucking mind! You don't hit a woman like that." Jacob stepped on his toe hard which cause him to not only let me go, but he viciously threw me, and I fell head first against a table that I didn't see there when I got into the room.
Before I knew it I blacked out…
