After settling in to my tent, I had officially claimed it, I was finally able get a moment to myself after these crazy few days. I still couldn't believe that Amy was gone; she was one of my best friends in the camp we had girl talk all the time. Now who am I supposed to talk to about this stuff, Lori, hell no she'd somehow complicate things, Carol, no she's not stable right now and I don't blame her, Andrea, no just no she annoyed me more now than before because of what she did to Dale. I just sat there thinking about everything and finally the tears came out, and they just kept coming for a good hour. The next morning after getting ready I joined the rest of the group. I found out the doctors name was Hershel, and he had two daughters Maggie and Beth and there were a few other people living on the farm also. I also found out from Glen that one of the men, Otis, was the one to accidently shot Carl in the stomach. I may not like Lori but I felt bad for her and Rick they shouldn't have to go through this, ever. After a while Rick came out, looking really pale, and said we should continue looking for Sophia, so for the next couple of days that's what some of us did while others set up our new camp. I was walking around one day exploring the property when I overheard Hershel say we weren't going to be staying here, Rick made some kind of deal with him for now so we could stay.
"Hey," I said to Carol one day, I hadn't spoken to her in a long time.
"Hi," she said looking out the window of the RV.
"I just want to tell you I'm sorry about everything and we will find Sophia," I said feeling a bit awkward in her presence.
"Thank you," she said looking at me this time.
After my conversation with Carol, I walked outside to find Daryl so we could go look for the little girl. I'd found him in the little camp he set up for himself away from everyone else. He was getting ready to leave from what it looked like.
"You goin' out soon," I asked sitting on the log by his tent.
"Yea' I can't sit here no more," he said picking up his bow.
"Can I come with you?" I asked getting up as he started to walk away. He was always walking away from me and it was starting to get extremely annoying, and I was getting tired of it. "Dude why do you do that," I asked jogging to keep up with him.
"What," he asked looking forward.
"Walk away from me when I'm talking to you. I really don't get you Daryl Dixon," I said shaking my head. i decided I was going with him whether he liked it or not so I made sure I had my knives, which I had taken to bringing with me, my bow was all the way back at my tent and I didn't want to go get it. He didn't answer me.
"Daryl! Hello I'm talking to you," I paused "Ugh! You know you're so hot and cold dude. Just a few days ago you were telling me you were concerned about me and now you won't give me the time if day. I have to like chase you just to say hello," I said almost running into him because he stopped all of a sudden.
"Why don't you just leave me be," He spat at me still not looking at me. "I don't talk to ya 'cause I don' want you around. Ever thinka that," he asked me with acid in his tone.
"You don't mean that," I said my face turning red. "Look me in the face and say it," I said backing up a bit.
He turned around his face with the slightest hint of red and stared at me. So I just stared back at him waiting for him to make the first move. But he didn't do anything, so I turned around and left to do other work in the camp.
"Wait," he finally said defeat in his voice.
"What," I said in my fake nice voice.
"Come help me look for Sophia," he answered me putting his hand through his hair.
I smiled because I got my way again and bounced over to him with I smile, but I didn't forget about what we were just talking about. Once inside the woods he was in hunting mode and we didn't talk much; he was extremely focused. As the days went on we went into the woods looking for Sophia not finding too much until Daryl found a small house where she could hide. Upon inspection we found a small blanket in a closet that she could fit in, that was good enough evidence for him. It was great to find that but it really didn't mean too much but I was optimistic about it. Back at camp everyone was settling back into their roles. Daryl and Carol have been getting to know each other over the past few weeks, I'm not saying I'm jealous because I love Carol but I would really like to hang out with Daryl again, outside of the woods. Every day we would go into the woods and look for the lost girl, every day we didn't find her I grew less and less hopeful but I remained confident. On a personal note, Daryl and I have not talked about anything substantial in a very long time and he was acting cold towards me again; I was ready to give up on him. We were walking out of the woods one day when I couldn't take it anymore.
"What's your problem," I asked stopping near the tree line my voice steady.
"Whatda mean," he sighed.
"Why do you treat me like this? I thought we were over the you being an asshole to me stage in our relationship," I told him as we continued walking to his camp. I decided I should just put it out there. "Daryl. I li" he stopped me.
"Don't say it," he said walking over to me.
"Why not," I asked a little hurt.
"Cause you don' mean it," he said looking down.
"Yes, I really do. Besides you can't know what I do and don't mean," I said feeling sorry for the man standing in front of me. I walked over to him I put my hand up to touch his face but he flinched away. "What happened to you to make you like this," I asked.
"It doesn't matter," he said finishing the walk to his camp. I was so tired of this game he was playing.
"Yes it does, to me it does and stop trying to hide how you feel dude. This game is starting to get ridiculous now," I said my voice starting to squeak.
He didn't say anything. That was it I was done, forget it there was no getting through to him. I got up from the spot I was sitting and started to storm off, but he grabbed my arm and pulled me back towards him holding me tight against his chest. I started to breath faster when he closed the gap between us and crushed his lips to mine. This wasn't unlike our first kiss; in fact it started out exactly like it, except the roles were reversed. He pulled away from me and said "does that clear things up" to which I didn't answer with words I just pulled him down to my height and continued where we left off. As he deepened our kiss he slid his hands from my back down to underneath my ass where he lifted me up, so I did my part and wrapped my legs around his waist as he walked over to his tent. Yeah, it was still pretty light out and people probably saw us, but honestly right now with Daryl on top of me I did not care what anyone was thinking. As I ran my hands down his bare back I felt the scars that lined his shoulders and wondered what has this man been through, but I put that though aside because things were getting pretty hot in that little tent of his. After all was said and done and were where both breathing heavy I couldn't help but look at the beautiful man sitting next to me, scars and all. He handed me my clothes and I got dressed.
"Maybe one day you could tell me what happened to you," I said pulling my shirt back over my head.
"Naw, I won't" he said pulling his pants on but he was smiling.
"Whatever man," I said I didn't want to push anything right now. I couldn't keep the stupid smile I had off my face because that was everything I'd imagine it be.
We walked out of the tent and over to the camp to see Maggie yelling at Lori for something; it sounded like she said baby killer. Oh my god was she pregnant! What a dumb ass! That's when the thought hit me.. That could be me. I had to be more careful next time. The whole night I could help but smile and people noticed, but I just told them some lie; well everyone but Glen. I told him about my experience and he told me about his, it's funny I never would have thought I'd be talking to Glen about this. The next day I woke up and got ready for my Sophia search with Daryl, but he told me he was going to take one of the horses out and go himself. It hurt when he said he was going alone but everyone needs there alone time he just picks weird times.
"Will you be careful out there? You don't have my ass out there to watch your back," I said smiling
"Yeah I will be," he said putting his cross-bow over his shoulder.
"Okay good," I said disappointed. Before I could say anything else he grabbed me and pulled me in for a hug; I smiled as I pressed myself against him. He let go and turned away, but I wasn't done with him yet I pulled in his shirt and turned him around planting a kiss right on him.
"Okay you could go now," I said smiling at him.
"I'll see ya later," he said smiling as he got on the horse.
I left the barn to find Rick standing close by and he just smiled at me and I returned it. The rest of the day went by with doing work of some sort I spent some of it with Dale listening to some of his elder wisdom. It was getting really late when I realized Daryl wasn't back yet, Rick was asking if anyone saw him; nobody did. I was starting to get worried now, I hope he is okay.
"WALKER," we all heard Andrea yell "I can get it.
Rick told her no don't do it as he and the other men ran towards the field. All of a sudden a shot went off and I saw the walker go down, but something wasn't right we heard Rick scream NO. The guys dragged the body over and my fears came true, a beat up Daryl was being dragged over.
"Is he dead," I yelled as I ran up to them.
"No he's just passed out, the bullet grazed him," Rick answered me.
I just watched them drag him into the house for Hershel to help him. My emotions went from sad to scared to angry to completely pissed off. I knew exactly who to blame for that, the dumb bitch Andrea, she's been going on about using her gun since we got to the farm. When she finally uses it she goes and shoots my man! Oh hell fucking no!
"Andrea!" I yelled stomping up to where she stood. " What the fuck is wrong with you don't you listen!" I continued.
"I didn't know it was him I swear!" she said back to me.
I didn't want to hear her lame ass excuses I was more than over her ass and I was seeing red. I clenched my fist pulled back and swung I connected with the side of her face knocking her to the floor. My hand hurt like hell but it was so worth it. Dale said I should calm down she didn't mean it but I didn't listen to him. I walked back over to her and she pulled her gun out at me, I backed up and put my hands up for a second she won't I thought to myself.
"Pull the trigger. I dare you," I said my voice unshaken. She did nothing but stare at me "I thought so,"
I turned around and walked away, Dale was saying something to Andrea but I didn't stay to listen. Glen said as I was walking to the house that I was awesome and he couldn't believe I did that. I just shook my head at him all I wanted was to go see Daryl.
