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Hello everyone!!!
So here is chapter eight in the story and hopefully you will like it. I hope I got the message right in it and that's all I can say about this chapter.
But I do have some good news and that is that I'm planning on writing the next chapter as soon as possible now that there's a weekend and all, so hopefully it won't take too long until I update again.
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Chapter eight: I hope you're ready
It was Sunday morning and I was waiting for Ricky to come and pick me up. I still had no idea what he wanted to do since he wouldn't tell. But it felt like it would be a good thing and I was excited. It was good that he could get me out of the house for today, he truly saved me.
My parents had talked to me basically the whole day yesterday and they were mad at me for running away to Ricky's over the night. They told me they were terrified and that they couldn't get a hold of me and had no idea where I was. But it felt nice that they knew about it all now. At least I could be myself at home and I didn't have to pretend there. I told them that I had no clue about what I wanted to do with the baby which wasn't true. The more I thought about it the more sure I was that I actually wanted to keep this baby as long as Ricky wanted to. I didn't want to force him into anything he didn't want to do. I was surprised that my mum let me go with Ricky today even though I couldn't say where we were going. I had told them that Ricky was the father and I think they still were in chock and therefore didn't realize that the baby actually had a father although that was something that they soon had to face.
I saw Ricky's car from the kitchen window and got up from my chair and yelled to my mum as I headed for the door
"Bye mum" and then I opened the door and gave Ricky a small wink and then closed the door behind me and went with rapidly steps to his car and got in.
"Hey" I said and gave him a smile.
"Hey" he said as well but sounded suspicious. "Is everything okay?" he asked wondering how things had gone yesterday after he had dropped me off.
"Yes" I said "I still think they are in chock though, and hasn't realized what it means by me being pregnant"
"Is that good or bad?" He asked and trying to read my expression.
"Not sure" I said "At least not yet. I mean things can change quickly as soon as they realize that they soon might become grandparents" Ricky laughed at this but he didn't seem to like what've just told him, I didn't know what was wrong but I chose to ignore it because I felt happy today. I didn't have to hide things from my parents anymore and Ricky and I were, I'm not sure what but I think it was something good at least?
"So where are you taking me?" I asked almost jumping up and down in my seat.
"Away" he said and then started the car and I understood that that was all that he was gonna tell me.
He drove out on the highway and away from our town. I could see croplands, leas and occasionally some woods flashing by the car window. I had not a single clue where he was taken me. Then after an hour of car ride he turned off the highway and onto a smaller road that seemed to be leading into some kind of smaller town.
"Ricky, where are we?" I asked him.
"Away" He answered me.
"What does that mean?" I asked bewildered.
"Exactly that" He said as he drove into a parking lot outside a mall.
"Okay?" I said not understanding it all.
"Come on" He said and got out of the car but I stayed in my seat. He walked around to my door and opened it.
"Amy?" He asked "Don't you trust me?" Of course I trusted him; I just didn't understand why we had to drive to another town just to go to the mall when that was something that we could do at home.
"Fine" I said and got out of the car. Ricky locked the car and then took my hand and we walked into the mall. It reminded me a lot of the mall at home, this was a bit smaller but it had a more modern twist to it.
"So?" I said as we stopped at one of the ends of the mall. "Now what?"
"That" Ricky said and pointed towards a store.
"Oh no" I said as I saw the one of the signs where it stood maternity wear.
"No one we'll see you here" He said "And you can't wear those big sweaters forever, they may be comfortable but I hate to admit it, they're not so becoming" He was right. I needed these clothes but I didn't have the courage to try them yet.
"I don't know" I said hesitatingly.
"Please" he said "I won't make you wear them to school or anything unless you don't want to"
"Okay" I said regretting it before I had said it.
"That's my girl" he said and we headed into the store. But it wasn't entirely true, I wasn't his girl yet.
"Can I help you?" A nice looking lady asked us as soon as we had stepped in.
"I think we're just gonna look" Ricky said.
"Okay" The nice looking lady said "If you want any help all you have to do is ask" Then she walked away. I wondered if she was used to have fifteen year old customers. There was no way to tell she was acting very professional.
"Let's look over here" Ricky said and headed for the section that said three months.
*
"Are you done yet?" Ricky asked me as I stood in a changing room putting on a pair of pants and a sweater. They were a lot more comfortable than I thought they would be since they were actually supposed to fit my figure. I looked at myself in the mirror. And there it was my belly. It wasn't too obvious that I was pregnant but you could see it. I couldn't help but to wonder how I might look in a month or two or what about six months from now. Although, the clothes looked good, they were simple just the normal thing I would wear except that they were made so a pregnant woman could use them.
"I'm done" I said and came out. Ricky went quiet as he saw me.
"Is it that bad?" I asked him worried.
"No" He said "It's just that this is the first time that I can actually see that you are pregnant" I knew this wasn't a good idea.
"I'm gonna go and change and then we can go home. I'm sorry…" I said and turned around and was on my way into the changing room.
"No" Ricky said "I like it. I like the clothes"
"Are you sure?" I asked.
"Yeah, you look beautiful" he said and then leaned in to give me a kiss on my mouth. I kissed him back and it made me feel warm.
"This feels weird" I said and examined myself in the mirror yet again. "I have known that I have been pregnant and so but I was beginning to get used not seeing it right in front of me and wearing this, it just makes it all a lot more real"
"I understand" Ricky said "I mean this is the first time I truly understand that you are pregnant"
"Because you got the proof right in front of you" I mumbled.
"Exactly" He said.
"Is that bad?" I asked him worried. I was afraid that this might be too much for him. I was afraid this might be too much for me.
"I don't think so" He said. "Do you?"
"No" I said and turned around to face him. "I'm not used to it that's all"
"Do you think you ever will?" He asked me. "To this, having a baby and all"
"I'm not sure" I said honestly "But I'm gonna do my best" I put my hands on my stomach. I knew I had no other choice than to try.
"I guess that's all we can do" He said and walked to stand behind me so he could see our reflections in the mirror. "Our best"
"Yeah" I said happy and sad at the same time. I looked at our reflection. It felt so strange to see Ricky and me and then me being pregnant. This wasn't how I had thought my life would turn out. Having a baby at the age of fifteen, I don't think anyone would have thought that this is how my life would turn out. My life has changed forever and there's no way back.
"But you like the clothes?" I asked Ricky after we had stood there for a moment trying to break the silence.
"Yes" He said "Love them" and then gave me a smile.
"I guess I should buy them then" I said uncertain. I wasn't too sure though if I was ready to wear them. But I guess that Ricky would understand that.
"Okay" He said "Then I have some other place I want to take you"
"I'm just gonna go and change back to my old clothes" I said and went into the changing room. Once I had closed the door I took a deep breath and then started to take off the pants.
*
We stepped out of the store and I had my new clothes in a bag in my hand. I had no idea what Ricky had planned next buying toys, who knows? He had taken my hand as soon as we had paid and now I just walked wherever he walked.
"So what's next?" I asked him looking around as we walked through the mall. He ignored my question and instead asked me
"Hungry?"
"A little" I said lying. The truth was that I was starving.
"Good" Ricky said "It's time to eat" We walked into this little pizza place at the end of the mall. It was quiet and cozy. We took a table at the far end to get as much privacy as we could.
"What are you in mood for?" Ricky asked me "It's all on me"
"Hmm" I began as I read the menu with a small smile. He was being so nice to me today, really showing me that he was there for me and I needed that. It was hard to decide what I wanted to eat, it was too much to choose from and I was afraid that I might choose the wrong thing in Rikcy's eyes. "Why don't you choose" I said
"Okay" He said "Don't blame me if I get it wrong"
"I won't" I said and chuckled quietly. The waitress came and took the order from Ricky and then came to bring us our drinks.
"So this is what you had planned for me?" I asked him. "Take me to the mall and this"
"Disappointed?" He asked and seemed kind of bummed as I had asked him that. I guess I didn't realize how much effort he had put into this.
"Not at all" I said quickly "I just didn't know what to expect. And this was defiantly not in my imagination"
"No?"
"No" I said. "It's like you're showing me this whole other side of you that I didn't know existed"
"What side?" He asked unsure.
"All I know is that you're not the guy I thought you were at the beginning of this semester" I looked down at the table and thought back at how used I had felt coming back from band camp. I felt kind of bad thinking of it and I knew that it was wrong to Ricky to bringing it up; I mean he had obviously proven to me that he had changed.
"I guess you have changed me" Ricky said and took my hand.
"Me?" I asked him warily.
"Yes" Ricky admitted. "You make me wanna be different and when I'm with you I feel different"
I still hadn't given him an answerer to his question about me being his girlfriend and I was just about to say what I wanted as the food came in and interrupted us. We started to eat and I didn't feel like it was the right time to tell him. I wanted it to be more personal or something. Maybe the problem was that I had lost the courage to tell him. Which in a way was weird because I'm pretty sure that he would want to hear what I have to say to him, right? But it would have to wait.
*
We walked towards Ricky's car so we could go home and once again we walked hand in hand. It felt freeing walking together with Ricky on a parking lot knowing that we wouldn't have to worry about a single person that we knew might see us. We were far from home and no one form school would be here.
"Amy, Ricky" I knew that voice and I sighed. "Hi" the voice said from behind us and I guess we weren't as alone here as we thought. Ricky looked at me and then we both turned around and I let go of Ricky's hand quickly.
"Grace" I said and faked a smile. It wasn't that I didn't like her. I mean, I didn't exactly know her. It's just that I didn't expect to run into her here. No one from school were supposed to hang out here. That's the whole reason why Ricky had driven for over an hour just to get here.
"What are you doing here?" Ricky asked her. But I don't think it bothered Ricky as much as it did to me that we had run into her.
"They were low on people who could help the kids at the church over here with their homework so I volunteered to help out" She said with a big smile. "What about you?" she then asked.
"We're…" I tried but I didn't know what to say.
"Amy needed a ride to pick up her new instrument for school" Ricky lied. "And I was the only one available in the class with a car who could drive her today" Thank god, Ricky was a quick liar.
"Okay" Grace said. "Well, it was nice to meet you. But I gotta go. I'm suppose to pick pizza for the kids and I don't want it to get cold"
"Of course" I said and smiled.
"See you in school" Ricky said and we both started to walk away.
"Hey, Amy" I heard Grace say and I turned around. "I heard about the rumors and I'm sorry. I don't believe in any of them. I just wanted you to know that" My heart dropped. She was being so nice and I had no other choice than to lie to her.
"Thank you" I said. "I guess you shouldn't believe in all that you hear" I tried to ignore Ricky. I knew that this wasn't only about me anymore. It affected him almost as much. I ignored him on the way back to the car and I guess I had made it pretty clear for him that I wasn't interested in talking about it, at least not today.
*
We sat once again in Ricky's car outside my house. This was beginning to feel like a common place for the two of us.
"Thank you for today" I said "It meant a lot and I needed this" It was true, this day had given me some new insights on things and I had realized that Ricky would actually be there for me, although I knew that before as well, but now I was more certain of it now.
"It meant a lot to me too" Ricky said.
"I know"
"Amy" Ricky said genuinely "The reason why I wanted to take to do some shopping and why we went so far away was because I wanted us to be able to do it in peace. I wanted you to feel how it would be not having to worry about others for some time" I felt a tear slipping down my cheek. But this was a different tear than the ones I had been crying lately; this was a tear of joy. What Ricky just had told me and what all he had done today actually had meant just made me realize how much I actually wanted him. And I was glad that I hadn't given him the answerer to his question over lunch. I was glad that I had waited because this moment was the perfect moment.
"Ricky" I said and looked over at him. "I have been thinking" I gave him a big smile.
"Good thinking?" He asked me but I was sure he knew what I meant.
"Yes" I said and couldn't stop smiling. "My answerer is yes"
"Yes to what?" He asked me.
"Oh, shut up" I said "You know what I mean" I leaned in and kissed him on the mouth. I gave all I had into the kiss and so did he. It felt like there were flying sparks all over the car and as his lips touched mine everything seemed perfect and I knew that as long as I got Ricky everything would be okay. I moved my hands higher up and they began playing with his hair. Ricky's hands started to go lower and lower and then he wrapped them around my waist pulling me closer to his body. Then we both slowed down a little and then we let go of each other.
"Wow" Ricky said "That was…" He was right that kissed had been intense and absolutely wonderful.
"I like you Ricky" I said keeping the smile on my mouth "And I would love to be your girlfriend" Although, we had acted like a couple all day, but who cares. This would mean that it was out in the open.
"So you like me?" Ricky asked.
"Yep" I said.
"Good" He said and returned my smile "I like you too and I would be a lucky guy if you would want to be my girlfriend"
"Then I guess you're a lucky guy" I said and gave him a quick kiss on his mouth, before I started to get out of the car.
"Wait" Ricky said and grabbed my hand. "Do you have to go so soon?" He asked me.
"I guess not" I said and got into the car again and closed the door behind me. I hated to say goodbye to him so I wouldn't mind some more alone time with since he was boyfriend and the father of the baby that I was caring.
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