AN -- ok sorry about the shortness of Chapters, but its how i do things :)
"Can I talk to you Alice?"
She jumped up from the floor, giving Jasper a quick peck on the lips and then started to walk down stairs, I followed her out to the river where she sat on the edge on a rock, letting her legs dangle in the water.
"What's up?"
I sat down next to her on the rock, letting my legs hang into the water, watching as all the fish scattered away.
"I don't know what to do anymore Alice, I try to give her space, but still be there for her at the same time and she keeps shutting me down and cutting me off. I can't do this anymore."
She looked at me, sadness glowing in the depth of her golden orbs.
"Maybe instead of going to her, you should let her come to you… she will come around eventually, I'm sure of it."
"But how sure, I mean you can't be completely sure about her, not anymore."
"I wonder why that is…" She pondered, but I didn't have the patients for this.
"Alice…"
"Huh? What?"
"What do I do about Bella?"
"Oh… wait for her; maybe she isn't ready yet, fair enough right? So instead of trying to take control of the situation, let her take the lead, and just follow what she does, see where that gets you."
"Thanks."
She just smiled at me before getting up and walking into the house. I got up after her and made my way up to my room to relax for a while.
After a few hours of listening to music and reading I heard a car approaching the house. I went down stairs to see who it was that had arrived.
"Edward!" I heard Alice call as I walked down the stairs. I looked to her side and smiled when I saw Bella standing looking very timid. I then looked over to where she was looking and saw Emmett and Rose playing twister, both in an interesting position.
"Whose stupid idea was this?" I asked already knowing who it was and looking directly at Alice. I chuckled as I saw everyone point to her. Then suddenly somewhere between the laughter and the one-hand-ness Rosalie managed to slip and fall right on top of Emmett taking him down with her.
Everyone erupted in laughter and Emmett pulled himself and Rose up and walked started to walk away from the mat.
"My turn! My turn! My turn!" Alice was jumping up and down on the spot excitedly, then she grabbed Jaspers hand and pulled him to the mat while he passed Rose the Spinner. Rose and Emmett sat down on the couch and Bella made her way to sit on the ground near the twister mat.
I wasn't sure why she sat down on the ground, because there where two other couches in the room. I wasn't sure if she sat on the ground because she didn't want to have to sit next to me, or just because she wanted to. I was still standing near the stairs, not exactly sure where to sit.
She looked up to me suddenly and smiled, patting the spot on the carpet next to her. I walked over to her and sat down next to her smiling as she watched Alice and Jasper get ready to start.
"Right hand Red" I heard Rose say from behind me and the couple complied. We had been watching them for a while before I noticed Bella getting a bit restless. Soon enough, she grabbed my hand and pulled me out of the room, and upstairs to my bedroom.
She closed the door behind me and I sat down on my couch. She walked over to my CD player hitting play.
"Sorry, I was bored."
I smiled at her, letting her take the lead, just like Alice had told me too.
"Ok, here's the deal, I talked to Carlisle, and although I don't think I can trust you with my heart again, well not yet at least, it doesn't mean we can't be friends does it?"
I simply nodded, she was in charge.
"Right, so I thought we could hang out up here and catch up, or whatever."
"Ok" I said, waiter for her to start.
"Ok…"
There was an awkward pause for a second, while I waited for her to start with something for me to go on.
She sighed and plopped down on the couch next to me.
"Why can't this be easy?" She asked annoyed.
"When has anything been easy for us?"
I hadn't meant for her to hear it, I was so used to be able to say things quietly so that she couldn't hear, but this time she defiantly could. But what I had said was true, it has never been easy, there was always something in the way, something trying to tear us apart. It would be great for a while and then something would happen, another near death experience for her, another attack from a vampire; it always somehow had something to do with me thought, no matter what.
But it was all worth it to know that she was still alive and healthy. I had missed her so much, and I loved her so much.
Love… it's a strange thing isn't it? But it was well worth it; well it would be if she ever took me back at least.
I looked over to her and saw she had her eyes closed, she looked so peaceful and relaxed, it was nice to see her like that, I hadn't since we got back to Forks.
There was laughter from downstairs as Jasper finally fell; he had grown tired of it. Then I heard Emmett start up the stairs towards us, he was going to ask if we wanted to play a game too, and I was interested in seeing what Bella would say.
He knocked on the door lightly.
"Come in"
He opened the door slightly and poked his head in.
"Are you sure it's safe?" he asked sarcastically, although he was slightly wary too.
Bella picked up one of the pillows from the couch and threw it at his head, he laughed before he stepped into the room.
"You two can have a go at twister if you want."
"No, I think I'll kill myself if I tried." Bella stated simply.
We both started to laugh at her, knowing it wasn't possible.
"You think I'm kidding? I'm not."
That just caused us both to laugh harder.
"Ok, well were all gonna watch a movie then."
Bella and I both stood at the same time and started to walk out of the room. Emmett grabbed her wrist stopping her; he wanted to apologize, so I left them alone and headed downstairs. I sat on the one couch that wasn't occupied. Bella and Emmett came down the stairs then, Em sat next to Rose and she cuddled into him, Alice and Jasper were doing the same.
Bella came and sat down next to me on the couch, she was close enough that her thigh was brushing up against mine. The lights went off and the movie started to play.
There was a sudden intense feeling to reach out and touch her, somehow, just one touch, but she beat me to it.
I felt her hand grab mine and I looked up at her completely shocked, she was holding my hand! I had to fight so hard right then to stop myself from pulling her to me and kissing her like a mad man. She just smiled at me and turned to watch the rest of the movie.
The whole movie was torture, I had no idea what she was thinking, and all I wanted to do was hold her in my arms, like I used to when we watched movies together, but I wouldn't, because I was going to let her make all the moves, even if it was excruciatingly painful.
The movie was finally finished and the lights came on, she dropped her hand out of mine instantly, I guess she wanted to keep things on the down low for as long as possible, but unfortunately for her, Alice had seen. I gave her a stern look trying to warn her with my eyes.
Relax, I'll leave it, I'm just happy something happening.
I smiled, knowing that she was behind me on this all the way. Everyone started to go their own ways as soon as the movie had finished. Emmett and Rose went upstairs, Alice and Jasper went outside, and Bella and I were left sitting on the couch.
She smiled at me lightly before she got up and beckoned for me to follow her. I stood and followed her through the house, surprised at how well she remembered it all. She stopped suddenly in front of my piano.
"Will you play for me? I miss it."
I smiled at her before I sat down gesturing for her to sit next to me. She did so and I started to play her lullaby. As her lullaby came to a close I made a transition into Esme's favourite and just like clockwork, as soon as I started to play it, Esme was in the room watching me. She was standing next to Bella with a hand on her shoulder, smiling down on her, she was so happy to have Bella back, she was like a daughter to her, and I knew it hurt her a lot too when we had to leave.
The piece was coming to a close and Esme left giving us some privacy. Bella stood up as I stopped playing.
"I should probably get home, I have pets to feed and stuff…"
"Pets?" I asked raising an eyebrow.
"Yes, just because I'm a vampire doesn't mean I can't have pets."
"What kind of pets?"
She smiled at me slyly.
"Fish"
I laughed light-heartedly and soon she joined in with me.
"I'll see you at school."
I wanted so badly to ask her to stay, to ask her if she wanted a ride in the morning, to ask her anything that would prolong her leaving, but I knew better, so I let her go, and watched her drive out of the driveway, waving to her as she left for the night.
The second she was out of my sight I felt a strange emptiness take over again, the same one that was always around when she wasn't, it was an emptiness where my heart should be, because no matter what she thinks or says, she has and always will have it.
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