CHAPTER 9

Ok I know a lot of you are mad at me for killing Charlie but just wait and be patient I have a really good reason for killing him so just sit back relax and read to find out. And also have a little trust in me! I know where the this story's going ((well the next few chapters at least.)) so read on my fellow people and enjoy and also and thanks to the people who told me they were mad at me for killing Charlie and if you are mad at me for doing anything else please, please, please tell me!

That's all thanks!

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I woke up in a dark, room, and on a black leather couch with cold, hard arms wrapped around me.

"Bella. Are you awake love?" I could tell he was anxious, although he tried hard not to show it.

I was trying to think of what would make him so anxious but I could not seem to.

"Yes." I knew I sounded confused but I didn't try to hide it.

"Bella how are you doing? Do you feel faint at all?"

"I'm doing fine Edward" I sighed. "Why?" I rolled my eyes. Why was he acting this way?

"Bella don't you remember?" Edward propped himself up on his elbow and locked my eyes with his.

"Remember what? Edward what am I missing?

"Bella Charlie, your father died from a heart attack last night. How can you not remember?"

The memory of last night rushed back into my head. I couldn't speak or move, or even blink.

"Bella, Bella talk to me, talk to me Bella!" he was scared his voice trumbled with the emotion.

I just laid there staring blankly. I couldn't see anything. I couldn't feel it when Edward grasped my shoulders and started to shake me and calling my name. But I could feel the pain in my heart overwhelming me and the guilt that was trying to suffocate me.

I wished so much that I could take it back. I wished that I could go back in time and not tell Charlie. To not tell anyone. Not even Edward. He didn't even believe me when I told him that they were his. And I could see the hurt in his eyes when he saw me talking to another man. Wondering, no doubt, that if that was the man I had cheated with on him with. And especially not Charlie. I had killed Charlie when I told him and if I could just go back in time and take it all back. To run away and not tell anyone, not cause anyone harm or pain. I would. I would cause myself all the pain I had to. If I could just take it all back.

I managed to close my lids tight and wish with everything I was made of to take it all back.


Suddenly the cold hands griping my shoulders were gone and the voice calling my name stopped.

Cold arms were around my waist and a soft kind velvet voice was whispering in my ear to wake up.

I was confused, wait, no I was way more than confused. I had this strange feeling of dajei vu.

"Good morning love how did you sleep?"

I sat upright with a start and jumped out of bed staring at Edward. He was wearing a green hoodie and jeans. His eyes were pitch black, he looked the exact same as the day I found out I was pregnant.

He looked at me strangely then got up and stood in front of me.

"Bella are you alright?" he sounded about to laugh at my flustered expression.

I tried talking but just then a foul taste filled my mouth and I had to run to the bathroom.

And like the first time, Edward was at my side holding my hair back, and softly rubbing my back.

When I was done he handed me the water. I swirled it around in my mouth and spit it out, then drank the rest.

He opened his mouth to speak but I cut him off, just like last time.

"Edward I want you to go hunting this afternoon with Carlisle, Emmett and Jasper."

He looked at me confused, then nodded his head.

"I was going to tell you that I was going hunting with them in a few minutes. How did you know?"

"Lucky guess?" I didn't know how, but my wish had been granted and I was not going to screw it up this time. I was going to leave. I had to let Charlie live and not cause Edward any pain by telling him about the twins. I was going to do this right this time.

He looked at me strangely again but didn't say anything.

"Bella I don't think I should go anymore." He stared at me intently.

"What? No. Go Edward, go you need to hunt. Don't test your restraint to much by not hunting when you know you should." I needed Edward to go hunting so I could leave.

"But Bella you're sick and I don't want to leave you alone."

"I'll go to the doctors" I said a little too fast. He looked at me again searching my eyes for something and I knew what. Quickly I tried to make my eyes innocent and sweet.

"Ok I will leave now then if you're sure."

I couldn't speak over the lump in my throat so I just nodded.

"Goodbye then Bella. I will see you as soon as I can." He lowered his head and captured my lips with his in a light kiss. I was going to miss him so much that I could barely take it.

I wrapped my arms tightly around his neck and kissed him as hard as I could. He wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me closer. But then he pulled us apart then kissed my lightly again and left.

"I love you so much." I whispered hoping he could hear me.

"I love you so much more Bella." He yelled back.

As soon as I knew he was really gone I ran to my room and pulled my duffle bag out and started throwing my clothes and other things I needed in it. I snatched my sock full of money and put it in my pocket and ran down stairs. I fond a piece of paper and wrote my goodbye to Charlie. Then I wrote one to Edward and ran it back up to my room. I put it under my pillow and went down stairs, then ran to my car and got in. Then I drove off to anywhere but here.


(Edited by readingdancer)