Suite Life on Deck
Will Everything Really Be Fine?
Words
Cody was out late at night roaming the halls contemplating his thoughts. He wouldn't look up from the ground. Everything was so disorganized. His world turned upside down and spun out of control flinging him into the smallest of places. He was flung into the darkest corners of the world and was trapped. He would yell and holler, but in the end, his voice was mute. The world blocked him out. He looked in and realized he couldn't ever have a life like any other man anymore. He was slowly sinking into a depression himself. Without Bailey, his life meant nothing. She was the thing he couldn't live without. She was his air, his heart, his everything. How could he live without his everything? The answer is: he couldn't.
The sadness was painted all over his eyes. The light his eyes once had been obliterated from the cruelty of humanity. Happiness seemed millions of miles away from him and getting further as each hour passed. He didn't want to feel this way. People say let the past be in the past, but he wanted to have his present become his past again. In the past, everything was right and when a bump in the road came, they could get over it, but now all that changed. The strength and bravery that was once built to get past that bump in the road became just a fading memory. They say true love can get through anything, but that was another lie that society created and convinced many of. If true love could get through anything, how come he and Bailey couldn't? Just because someone speaks the words you want to hear, doesn't mean it's true. They just claim it's true to make you feel better about yourself or a situation you're in. When you form a bond that makes you feel a sense of security with someone you think they would never hurt you, but those people who think they won't get hurt are wrong. People only cared about themselves and where they were going in the end. Sincerity was rare to find.
As Cody was walking down the deck he could hear the sounds of sweet lovers talking and looking up at the stars. Those people had no idea how foolish they were being…love always has an expiration date. Everything good has to come to an end. Most marriages ended in divorce anyways. People always ended up clashing with each other. People's personalities and beliefs could be so powerful that it can make someone despise you. He guessed that's what happened between him and Bailey…
All of a sudden Cody heard a familiar voice. It sounded distinctly female. He looked around trying to follow the voice and he finally saw where the voice was coming from. There stood a black haired girl with a small frame. It was Reina. She was pressed up against the railing by a taller boy and they were flirting, giggling, and kissing. The boy's arms were wrapped tightly around her and she had no problem with it. Cody then realized that the boy was Alexander. His jaw dropped when he discovered this. He was raging with fury. He asked Bailey to go on a date with him, but instead he was flirting strenuously with Reina. He felt like going over there and ripping a hole through him, but he had to cease himself from doing that. He knew if he did that, Bailey would just hate him even more. He was going to the mature thing and confab with Bailey about what he just witnessed.
Cody wanted to protect Bailey; he wanted to be her shield. He already eradicated most of the love and power in her heart enough and he didn't want someone else adding to the twinge. He had to stop her from falling in love with someone who didn't even feel remorse over cheating. He then turned around without another word or sound and started towards her cabin. He knew it was late at night, but when it came to making sure Bailey was okay, that's what mattered most to him. If she was unglued with him or not, in the end, he couldn't deny that she took up the largest chunk of his heart. Burying his emotions didn't come easily. When he looked in those deep brown eyes, he was pulled in. He was hypnotized and in a trance he couldn't get out of… a trance he didn't want to get out of.
Cody finally got to Bailey's cabin and knocked on the door. He crossed his fingers that she would believe him. That she had at least an inkling of trust in Cody and that his words would make some impression on her. She could finally see Alexander in the genuine light he deserved to be captured in. His nice guy charade needed to be terminated for good. He was going to be exposed for the person he truly is. That person was a manipulative liar who didn't take a moment to consider someone's feelings.
Bailey opened the door and saw Cody and was puzzled and nauseated by his presence all at once. She gave him a glare before she spoke and that said everything Cody needed to know. Getting her to her trust in him was going to be a challenge.
"May I help you?" Bailey said coldly. The tone she spoke in was venomous. Her words were like a snake. They slithered in his brainwaves and made him sense threat.
"I need to talk to you." Cody said his head facing the ground. He knew he was the reason as to why there was so much hostility between them. He couldn't look into those beautiful eyes knowing that he was the one who wounded her. The compunction he felt was massacring him.
"Oh, you do? I guess I should clear my schedule just to have a conversation with you, right?" Bailey snapped at him as she started to close the door. Cody stuck his arm out and prevented her from doing so. He couldn't let the conversation come to an end. He had to tell her, whether she wanted to deal with him or not. Bailey gasped from his action. "You did not just do that."
"Bailey, I know you hate me, but-"
"I don't think 'hate' is the appropriate word to use when it comes to you. What I feel for you is much, much stronger than 'hate.'" Bailey stated and Cody sighed in defeat.
"Bailey, just give me a few minutes. Please." Cody finally looked up in her eyes and that look gave her a message that what he had to say had some meaning. Bailey looked at him not knowing if she should give him the opportunity to say what he needed to, but those eyes made her weakened. She finally nodded and moved out of the way.
"You have minutes, Cody. Talk fast." She said closing the door behind him. Talking to him just reminded her of everything they've been through. The positive memories would flood her mind and then she would be reminded of how that turned sour. They weren't supposed to be together, they were two separate entities.
"Well, I saw something a few minutes ago, and I thought you should know." Cody sat down on the blue chest and moved over to make room for her. Bailey didn't take his invitation. He just wanted to take her hands in his, feel the warmth, and let her know someone did appreciate her. Let her know that people did love her… that he loved her, but he couldn't be that guy anymore. He was too afraid that if he was that guy again, he would break her. The strings that held together their friendship were cut in half. They could never be one again. "I heard you have a date with Alexander, I'm sorry to tell you this, but before you go on a date with him, you should know, he's cheating on you…I saw him on one of the decks kissing another girl." Cody said trying to look her in the eyes, but too afraid to see the hurt that would so plainly be on her face. All of a sudden he heard a laugh erupt and fill his ears.
"Wow, Cody. You think I would believe that? You don't even know Alexander the way I do. Is this just another lame attempt to hurt me again? Or are you just jealous? Either way, that's low." Bailey was not buying Cody's words. Bailey looked at Cody in another sense now. He wasn't the same to her. She always felt like he was out to get her. Out to inflict harm on her. She couldn't stand the sight of him. The one person she thought would never hurt her was out to get her the most. Everything good that ever happened to her he wrecked it all.
"Bailey, you know I would never do something like that. That's NOT me."
"I also thought killing off your ex-girlfriend in a play wasn't you either. I also thought insulting me every chance you get wasn't. People change. People can warp into a whole new person. You did that more than once. "Cody could see he was getting nowhere with Bailey. He was trying to do the laudable thing, but she obviously was blinded by the past.
"I don't know what else I can say to make you believe me, but I hope you think about what I said." With that, Cody exited the room. He wasn't going to give up. If he wanted to protect Bailey and gain her trust, he had to prove that his words were true.
