Chapter 9
Displaced Emotions
Ginny walked the beach for hours. Just thinking and looking out at the massive ocean. She found a spot where the ocean broke onto huge rocks sticking up a few feet in the water. She took her sandals off and held her dress up as she walked out and climbed up onto a large rock. She could feel the spray of the ocean as the waves broke at the base of the rock.
Ginny couldn't stop thinking about what Draco had said. He keeps making comments and brushing them off, She had read that half of what people say as a joke was actually the truth, she would never get the truth out of him. The sun was beginning to set, she figured she had better make her way back to the house before it got dark.
Ginny was walking up the path to the house when Draco came storming out.
"Where the hell have you been !" He yelled
" I was sitting on the rocks that are..."
" In the ocean !"
" Yea its so beautiful, just on the ..."
" What were you thinking climbing on rocks in the ocean Ginevra ?"
" Why are you yelling at me ?" She furrowed her eyebrows at him. She had given up trying to anticipate his reactions because she was always wrong.
" Ginny, You could have gotten hurt, I didn't know where you were.
"I don't need you to save me, I had my wand"
" It's dangerous on those rocks, if you fell in the water you could have died. Do you understand that ?"
" I was fine Draco"
" You didn't even come back for lunch"
" I wasn't hungary" She shrugged.
" You need to take better care of yourself. Now come inside it's getting cold and dinner is ready."
" You don't care about me, Your worried about the maybe baby. Just be honest for once"
" The maybe baby ?"
" Yes Draco thats what it is. We still don't know " She said yelling at him and waving her hands in frustration.
" Unless merlin decides to answer my prayers and I get my period !" Draco's face contorted in an expression of embarrassment and disgust at her words mixed with anger.
" Don't ...um ...thats just ..." He stammered shaking his head.
"Oh grow up ! You might be a father !"
" OK...OK ...fine just calm down. Come inside and have some dinner. You must be hungary."
"Fine"
" So Draco can we please have a serious discussion ?" She asked while they were eating dinner that night.
He set his wine glass down and surveyed her a moment before answering.
" Yes I think the potatoes are undercooked" He said smirking at her.
" Alright Malfoy" She said throwing her napkin on the table and getting up.
"No wait Ginny, sit down I'm sorry" He said grabbing her wrist. She gave him a deadly look that told him that he better let go. He did and she sat back down.
" You have my attention" She narrowed her eyes at him.
" I want to know what's going to happen if..." Her voice trailed off.
"If your pregnant" He finished
"Yes. We aren't married, We aren't even in love. I think it would be best if we just ..."
"No ! absolutely not. We will do no such thing."
" Draco please be reasonable. I'm not going to let you dictate my life."
" I don't want to dictate your life, But you can't be suggesting that we ..."
" Fine ! What's your brilliant idea ? "
" Well obviously I want you to have the baby"
" But what about my life ? I can't pretend to be your wife forever."
" What do you want to happen ?"
" Well if I had a choice I would not be pregnant. However if I am seeing as we are not married you couldn't stop me from ..."
"Do not say that again !" He growled at her, cutting her off.
" You can't stop me !" She yelled.
" Oh yes I can Ginevra I promise you, if you even try I guarantee you will regret it and you know I can make good on that threat." He saw fear flash across her face, he almost felt bad. He couldn't have her get rid of their child, she would never stay if she did. Tears were welling in her eyes.
" I knew you didn't care about me. I'm just a pawn in your games. The rich using the poor." She wiped her face with her napkin and quietly made her way back to her bedroom without another word.
A few moments later there was a knock at Ginny's bedroom door.
"Go away" When he knocked again she didn't respond so she wasn't surprised when he just walked in.
"I said go away Malfoy !"
" I want to talk"
" No, I gave you a chance to talk. You made your feelings clear."
"I didn't mean to be so hard on you. I just...I don't want to dictate your life but I can't let you get rid of something I've wanted for so long."
" Draco If you really wanted this you would have a wife to bare your children."
"Not if I hadn't found the right person."
"You still haven't."
" Are you telling me that a baby would mess up your life so much that you would actually get an abortion ? I never pegged you as a heartless bitch Ginny"
" I heard hermione mention it before but I don't exactly now what it is." She sat up on the bed and pull her legs to her chest.
"Wait here I'll be right back" He stormed out of the room without another word. A few minutes later he returned with a big leather bound book. He threw it on the bed next to her.
"Open it, to page 56."
" What is it ?"
" Its a book about medical procedures from our library. Just turn to page 56. If you want an abortion I think you need to see what it is." When she made no move toward the book he opened it in front of her.
" Look Ginevra. They kill the baby Ginny. They don't do this in the magical world so you will have to go to a muggle doctor, it will hurt. They will remove the child from your body, Killing the baby, killing the poor innocent child who is counting on you to keep it safe." He said in outrage putting emphasis on the word killing make her flinch each time he said it.
" Draco stop !" She was crying, pushing the book away but he forced her to look at it.
"No look, This is what you want to do to our baby !" He knew she wouldn't look at the book, He was trying to scare her, He wasn't even sure if what he was saying was true but he knew the pictures would be enough to change her mind.
"Stop Ok I won't ! I didn't know...I never thought about it that much. I won't, I could never " She sobbed. He sat down on the bed next to her and pulled her into a hug.
" OK, Ok I'm sorry, I'm sorry I shouldn't have done that." He rest her head on his shoulder and petted her head soothingly.
" I'm going to take care of you Ginny. You'll want for nothing."
"Except love, Draco what's going to happen to me and my baby when you find the woman you want as a real wife ?" He didn't answer. He didn't know what to say and he dare not tell her the truth. That she was the woman he wanted as a wife and mother to his children.
" Nothing I will always have feelings for the mother of my child." Ginny furrowed her eyebrows at this " no matter who she is " He quickly added.
" I'm tired Draco, I think I'm just going to go to bed." She burying her head in her arms. Draco made no move to leave.
" That was my polite way of asking you to leave." She said, her head still turned away from him.
" I just need some time to think, Draco ...please."
" Fine, I'll leave" She got off the bed and pulled out her wand, Draco quickly grabbed it from her.
" You can't apperate !" He yelled.
" Give me back my wand !"
" You can not apperate if you are ..."
" I wasn't going to ! " She snatched it out of his hand.
" Get out Draco. Get out before I hex you to hell" She pointed her wand at his chest but before she could say the spell he grabbed her wrist and pushed her back towards the bed.
" I will not be spoken to that way in my own home."
" Bugger off Malfoy ! We both know you won't risk hurting me." He glared at her before grabbing her wand back and storming out of her room. Before she could do anything about it she heard the door click, She was to tired to fight anymore.
Draco stormed into his stormed into his study, muttering a string of obscenities under his breath. He threw himself onto his chair and ordered the house elf to bring him a fire whiskey. He downed it in one gulp and smashed the glass against the wall Before barking orders at the house elf to bring the bottle.
He was still sitting in his chair with the bottle in his hand when Lucius came through the floo.
"Father what are doing here?"
" Checking on you and your new bride of course."
"She's asleep" He took another swig of his whiskey.
" Its still early and it's your honeymoon, What is going on here Draco, You should be otherwise engaged."
"Well if you thought I was otherwise engaged then why did you come here ?" He said in between sips.
" Because the elf had to apperate home to find another bottle of firewhisky and I thought you needed to talk." He pulled the bottle from Draco's hand and poured himself a glass and setting it out of Draco's reach.
" She's driving me crazy. She yells and cries thats all she does. All we do is fight." He leaned his head back and pinched the bridge of his nose.
" This is an emotional time for her, you need to be nice. Your mother was so...."
" She doesn't even know yet ! thanks to mother." He yelled.
" Then why are you fighting ?"
" Because she doesn't want the child, father !"
"What ?"
" She doesn't want it." He said again.
" She wants to abort her husbands child ! Why would she want to do that ?"
"I...I think I scared her out of an abortion but ... I took her wand and locked the door when I left."
" Draco are you insane ? You locked your pregnant wife in a room !"
"Maybe pregnant !" He added quickly.
" Draco Lucius Malfoy your mother will have your head. If you screw this up..."
" Screw this up for you ! You want a grandchild but she isn't ready for a baby. Now she may not even have a choice. You may have screwed this up for me !"
"Screw up what ? You love her ?" Draco sighed heavily before answering.
"Yes"
" You want children with her ?"
" Yes"
" So I see no problem, however I will not deny what your mother did was wrong."
" What if she leaves ? We have been fighting so bad"
" We will just make it perfectly clear to her that it is unacceptable for her to leave a Malfoy, let alone when she will be taking your heir with her."
Draco sighed heavily "Believe me Father I am trying my best, she just , I don't know. Infuriates me more then anyone I've ever met. Yet I can't stand when she is angry with me, She left this morning and I didn't know where she was for hours, she occupied my every thought until she returned."
Lucius gave a low chuckle. He walked over to his son and patted him on the shoulder.
"Thats love son. Thats love when its new, and you don't know how to handle it. Displaced emotion usually manifests itself as anger."
Draco dropped his hands from his face.
"So what do I do ?"
" You calm down, remind yourself why you love her, apologize and then do it all over again tomorrow. Good night son"
"Good night father, thanks for the advice." He said as he watched the older man floo away. Draco checked his watch and decided it was to late to go to Ginny tonight and stumbled his way to his bedroom.
