I know that chapter 8 was horrible. I'm sorry for what I did to Holly. I loved Holly when I first thought her up you can ask Makurayami Ookami. We sat there in my room when I thought up the whole idea. I told it to her. She was excited cause it sounded good. At first it was going to be a little funny story but everyone said that my first chapter was so mature and serious that I just couldn't keep it that way.
I was so happy with the fact that everyone liked it and I hadn't had one compliant. So as the chapters went on my idea of the story changed. It couldn't be humor anymore. This giant plot line formed in my head. As the year and the plot progressed the idea of killing Holly finally hit. I ran it through Makurayami Ookami, she got sad and was all not Holly. That's when the thought of a tragedy hit. I thought that if it seemed so close to a happy ending that it would make it better. I based the disappioment thing to go like my life sometimes. So close and yet so far kinda of plot.
This story does end in a happy ending I promised that to myself. It's just on vacation the people staying next to us had a girl around 12 and two other kids (12,8) The first girls mother fell down and bust her head, she's still unconcious. The other two children saw her and me and my friend heard the screaming. We stoped the woman's adopted daughter from going down. My friend and I stopped the girl from going and got the other two inside. It was sad. The woman got worse and they're going to check for activity in the brain. That's a child's fear of their parents dying so I was thinking of a parents fear since I couldn't kill Harry.
That's when the rape occured in my mind. I thought I wouldn't be able to write it becuase people like that make me sick. To think that someone could actually do that to a little girl. That's when I realized that that's how Ron would be invovled. It would fuel the anger. Before he had only harmed Harry now it was his child.
I understand why some of you would want to leave. I can see why I'm getting a bunch of flames, but for once I don't mind. I knew this chapter would make or break my story. I also knew that only really dedicated fans could stomache it just to see the end. That's what a story is actually about. The body is just the filler everyone just wants to see the end, and as a writer I promise to all that stay with this story I will produce a happy ending for the characters. Forgive me for chapter 8. If the ones that have already left never see this or even if they do I just want to apologize for how you feel and I understand it. It was a disgusting thing to happen but all my life that has been one of my biggest fears and I put it into play to show that there are people out there that sick.
I thank all of you who have read up to this point. I give my biggest thanks to those who to this blow and decided to stay with it. You are the true fans and I love you guys.
This story's sad. That's the whole point of using the title My December. It's sad.
My December By Likin Park
This
is my december
this is my time my of the year
this is my
december
this is all so clear
this is my december
this is my
snow covered home
this is my december
this is me alone
Chorus
1:
And i
just wished that i didn't feel like there was
something i missed
and i
take back all the things i said that
make you feel like that
and i
just wished that i didn't feel
like there was something i missed
and i
take back all the
things that i said to you
Chorus 2:
And i give it all
away
just to have somewhere to go to
give it all away
to
have someone to come home to
This is my december
these are
my snow covered trees
this is me pretending
this is all i
need
Chorus 1
Chorus 2
This is my december
this
my time of the year
this my december
this is all so
clear
Chorus 2 (2x)
I love and loved all my fans and ex fans. Once more I apologize.
