CHAPTER 9

Amy got up from the couch and quickly straightened her clothes, unable to understand what had just happened. The man who had kissed her passionately, only a few moments ago was completely unknown to her. She couldn´t determine if she was scared or if she wanted to continue as far as Sheldon wishes to go.

Sheldon didn´t know how many minutes had passed when he knelt and picked up Amy´s glasses or what remained of them. He examined them carefully, they´re completely ruined.

"Please, forgive me Amy!; I don´t know what happens to me. This is not who I am". Sheldon admitted, looking at the floor in embarrassment. He was hearing a voice in his mind, which sounded disturbingly similar to his mother telling him he should be ashamed for acting like an animal, while another voice asked him to continue what he just started.

"It's okay, I have an extra pair of glasses at home; I think I better leave right now". Amy was looking for her purse and her car keys, but with her blurry vision, she could only see shadows.

Sheldon knew that Amy couldn´t see clearly without her glasses, and she needed them to drive; it was obvious when he saw her inability to find her purse and her keys, even though they were right in front of her.

"Are you looking for this?" Sheldon was holding her brown purse and her car keys at less than 10 inches from Amy´s face.

"Yeah, now I can go home!". Amy said taking her bag with a very imprecise movement.

"Amy, I know that you suffer from myopia and astigmatism, it would be irresponsible of me to let you drive in this conditions, it´s unsafe", Sheldon said with a patronizing tone. "I´m so sorry, I accidentally broke your glasses".

Sheldon was right, Amy couldn´t drive without her glasses, "I guess I can call a cab", she said, shrugging her shoulders.

"Amy, it´s 2:30 a.m., and… nothing good happens after 2 am. It's dangerous", Sheldon continued.

"Then, what do you propose?. I mean, you can´t drive, let alone after drinking iced tea and coffee". Amy added matter-of-factly.

Sheldon looked down at the ground, then he looked back at Amy, and he suggested doubtfully: "This may sound like a crazy idea but, you could stay here with me."

Amy couldn´t believe her ears when she heard him. Sheldon wanted her to stay with him for the night at his apartment, just the two of them. Was she dreaming? She had imagined everything?.

"I don't think I make myself clear. I´m saying, you can spend the night at Leonard´s bedroom, after all he is going to stay with Penny, so he wouldn´t mind if you sleep in his bed. You must be tired and tomorrow we have to continue our discussion about your trip to Stockholm. I'm not fully convinced, yet." Sheldon said, feigning a casual tone.

For a moment, Amy had forgotten about her trip to Stockholm, the mention of it felt like a bucket of cold water thrown at her face. Only six days left until her trip. She could never have imagined Sheldon´s reaction. Actually, she thought her travel wasn´t a big deal. Was she using denial as a coping mechanism?

"Well, it´s not a bad idea. Good night Sheldon!", Amy headed to Leonard's room.

"Are you going to sleep, just like that, I mean, wearing your Star Trek uniform?. Please Amy, don´t embrace anarchy, I´ll lend you my pajamas". Sheldon said while he accompanied Amy to Leonard´s bedroom.

Amy sat on Leonard´s bed, even though she couldn´t see clearly without her glasses, she could notice the room was tidy, with shelves full of books, action figures and collectible objects.

Knock, knock, knock, Amy. Knock, knock, knock Amy. Knock, knock, knock, Amy. The door was open but Sheldon couldn´t help knocking as he always did. Amy smiled when she heard his voice. "Here you go. These are my emergency pajamas and a new toothbrush, you can keep it", he told his girlfriend as he handed her the red plaid flannel pajamas.

"Thanks Sheldon!", Amy added, giving him a shy, goodbye kiss on his lips and taking a lock of hair away from his forehead. "Sleep tight!"

"I sure hope I can", Sheldon said nervously, "I… I hope you reach REM sleep, Amy" Sheldon swallowed hard and closed the door. He ran to his bedroom.

Amy put on Sheldon´s pajamas. Their fabric was so soft and warm like a caress upon her skin, they smelled like him. The pajama pants were obviously meant for a 6 feet or taller person, so she decided to wear only the shirt, which was long enough to cover her mid-thigh. Although she was exhausted, she couldn´t sleep. She couldn´t stop thinking of Sheldon, kissing and touching her over the couch, less than an hour ago. He almost reached second base. Hoo!

Sheldon was in his room, lying on his bed and trying to sleep. It was impossible. He imagined what would have happened if he had the courage to continue what he just started on that couch. He considered himself a coward. Amy will go to Sweden in a few days and who knows when she was coming back. "I hate goodbyes".

"Cooper, be a man and do what you gotta do! You know you're dying to do it!", Again the voices in his head kept him in tension. This voice that sounded very similar to his father´s, gave him the goosebumps when he remembered how abusive and violent he was. He had promised himself that he would never be like his father.

"No, Sheldon, you can´t let your instincts control you, you're a homo-novus, a higher human being", he told himself trying to calm down.

Sheldon knew he wasn´t crazy, because his mother got him tested, nevertheless he didn´t feel that sane at the moment. "Maybe I need psychiatric help", he thought aloud.

"Oh, Dear Lord, I think a glass of water would make me feel better", Sheldon said, getting up from his bed and walking into the kitchen, without making any noise so he wouldn´t wake Amy up. His lips curled into a half-smile at the memory of his girlfriend.

Sheldon poured himself a glass of water and took a sip. "Well, I don´t feel better. This is not working at all", He decided to go back to bed.

Along the way, the sound of the bathroom door opening, made him look back. It was Amy. Sheldon turned his eyes to see his girlfriend. If the Star Trek costume had caused him an arrhythmia, the red plaid pajama shirt threatened to cause a heart attack.

Amy was standing there in front of him with that garment. The shirt was revealing her cleavage in a way he had never seen before. The dim light that filtered into the room, also allowed him to see Amy's legs, they´re smooth, shapely as if they belonged to a fine Greek marble sculpture. "Ohh, Vixen!".

Sheldon's eyes seemed strange and different; Amy felt very uncomfortable with the look in his eyes, and crossed her arms over her chest. Thank God she got her legs waxed that week, she thought.

Sheldon felt as if his blood reached a boiling point, he fought so long against his feelings and now he couldn´t take it anymore. Uh, oh, it was time, there was no going back, and Sheldon was lost. Amy had beaten his logic.

Amy continued walking to Leonard's room as if she was trying to escape from him. Sheldon followed her, and just as she was closing the door, he took her hand and leaned her against the wall.

"I can´t take it anymore, you don´t know how long I have fought against… this". Sheldon whispered to Amy´s ear.

Sheldon was holding Amy´s hands as he leaned to start a soft kiss, which increasingly crossed a thin line that he never imagined he would. Sheldon's hands caressed Amy's body gently as if trying to memorize every inch of her skin, he was keeping his eyes closed and perceiving the scent of her perfume. He kissed her neck.

When his heartbeat was getting too fast, he had to stop for a few seconds to breathe and try to relax. He looked at Amy; she was radiant with the flush on her cheeks and her disheveled hair. "Amy I don´t know what this is; I don´t know what I'm doing. If you want to, we can leave it like this. I certainly don´t know how to proceed. Sheldon told her, with shyness in his innocent blue eyes.

"Sheldon, I don´t know what to do either; all I know is that… I'm in love with you, like I´ve never thought I would be and I want to be with you forever". Amy confessed.

Slowly, Sheldon guided Amy to his room; they both sat on the bed. Sheldon continued kissing Amy with increasing intensity. ─ To hell with all those stupid conditions of the Relationship Agreement!

Amy couldn´t believe what was happening. She was with Sheldon, kissing on his bed. ─ Is this a French kiss?, she thought, pleasantly surprised. Where did he learn to kiss like this?. Well, he really is a genius.

Sheldon gradually applied more intensity in his kisses and caresses, until he had Amy lying on his bed. ─ Why did I have to use these glow in the dark Star Wars sheets, now she´s going to think I´m immature. Sheldon was genuinely embarrassed.

Amy noticed the evident hesitation that crossed the mind of his beloved Shelly Bean, and sincerely told him: "It´s okay if you don´t want to go on with this, I understand. I can´t force things, if you're doing this because you're afraid of losing me if I go to Stockholm, then I don´t want to continue"

Sheldon couldn´t comprehend what he experienced, maybe because his brain´s blood flow was redistributing to other areas of his body located further south or maybe Amy was right and he wanted to prove she belonged to him, and he didn´t want to lose her.

"No, I wanna be with you, here and now", Sheldon affirmed.