Sorry for the long wait, but I had some writing issues.
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Beca couldn't really concentrate through the recording session.
She caught herself thinking about Jesse constantly.
Why did she do that? She should be angry at him. She should glare at him all day. Instead she sat there dreaming about him.
After three hours of working or whatever Beca was doing, she said that she needed a break.
The guys left to grab lunch while Beca stayed behind. She put her headphones on and let the music carry her away. Somewhere she didn't need to think about the whole Jesse thing. She could just listen and do nothing.
She nearly fell out of her seat when she felt a tap on her shoulder. Her eyes shot open only to see a grinning Jesse standing in front of her.
"Oh my gosh! You scared the hell out of me! What do you want?" She was still trying to catc her breath.
"A) I wanted to scare you a little. Mission accomplished!
And B) I wanted to talk to you." Suddenly he sounded shy and coy. "You know, about this thing."
"I still don't see what's left there to talk about. But I know you won't give up so okay, go ahead."
He sat down in the chair beside her and sighed deeply.
"Okay first of all I want you to listen to the entire story and don't interrupt me. In the end it will all make sense." He looked at her expectant.
She thought about it for a second but she gave in.
"I doubt that but fine."
"Thanks. So it all starts two years ago. It was nearly our anniversary, when you told me about this job offer you got. It was in LA, it was all you ever dreamed of. But I knew you wouldn't go, although you wanted to.
And I couldn't shake the feeling that I was the reason why you stayed. So I started to try to convince you to go but you wouldn't listen.
And then, a few days before our date I got the crazy idea that if I wouldn't be there, nothing would hold you back. But I dropped that thought, because I knew I could not just disappear. Well so I thought.
You were there when I had the car accident and it must have been the shock or I was still too dizzy but when I woke up in the hospital I saw the chance, the chance to set you free, to leave you without breaking up with you. Because we both know I never could have done that.
So I told the doctor to tell you that I died. I told him it was for the best of you and I don't know why but he did it.
After you left I called my parents to tell them I was in hospital and that they should play along if you called them. Everything else would be explained later. They agreed too. It was so unreal; I mean it wouldn't have worked out if one of them didn't play along.
Anyway, at that moment I really thought I would do you a favour. I didn't realise how much I hurt you because I didn't really saw the one bad thing: You thought I was dead.
I didn't realised it, I didn't until my mom told me.
She promised me to stay in touch with you so I had a way to see if you are alright. Well it turned out you weren't.
She told me how done you were with life and I would have done everything, please believe me everything to make you feel better, but there was nothing I could do.
I chose the path and I couldn't just go back. I mean you would have freaked out if I had walked into your dorm and told you everything was fine. You probably would have had a mental breakdown or something.
So there I was, I couldn't change the things that I've done, I had to live with them. And I regret doing this since day one.
Even before I heard how broken you were, because I just couldn't live without you."
When he finally came to an end Beca didn't know what to say. She just sat there, her mouth slightly opened and thought about Jesse, how he rambled on and on about how sorry he was.
"I…I really don't know what to say." Beca was still processing all that she heard.
"It's okay. You have time to think about this. As you know I'm around for the next days or so."
He chuckled a little while he said the last words.
"Yeah... ehm. Could you… could you tell the others that I went home. You can still record today. Freddy knows what to do. I'll… see you tomorrow."
Beca walked out of the room still confused about this situation she was put in. She had to find out if she could keep hating Jesse or if she could forgive him and that was harder than deciding to come to LA.
