Song: Simple and Clean- Utada Hikura (VERY AWESOME SINGER)
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"Take it back!" Kagome shouted, face painted strawberry with rage.
"I will not!" Sesshomaru barked back at her, furious and confused. "I am being kind for once, miko! Showing my emotions toward you! So, accept it as it is!"
"No! I didn't ask for it, so take it back!" She ordered, slapping her palm to her forehead when she heard three simultaneous, high-pitched cries. She'd almost forgotten that her triplets were sleeping in the room just next to their bedroom. "I'll be back." A frown crossed her thin lips when Sesshomaru nudged her to sit on the futon.
He glared at her and huffed, "I will return in a moment."
Kagome fisted her kimono, growling as best a human could. "Sesshomaru! Get back here! Don't you dare walk away from me! Uhg, you insuferable demon!" But, he was already in the next room, catering to the awakened pups. 'Baka. I didn't want your gifts for a reason. Jeez.'
When you walk away
You don't hear me say
Please, oh baby, don't go
Simple and Clean is the way that you're makin gme feel tonight, it's hard to let it go
Flopping onto her back, she held the Sapphire necklace he had given her above her head. "It's so beautiful. And I'm grate ful for it. Hm, he just doesn't understand my reluctance to accept tokens of affection. The heartless male, of course. How could I expecy him of all people to understand the way I feel, when he doesn't feel at all?" Carressing the gem, she assured herself, "I didn't have to accept it. I didn't ask for this. I was in the right...right?" Her eyes narrowed as guilt consumed her. 'He's the one who pushed it on me/ I shouldn't feel guilty."
*FLashback*
"Close you eyes." Sesshomaru demanded lowly as he stood before Kagome, a small, less rare smile on his lips.
"Why? What are you doing?"
"Come now, miko. Do not be so curious. Simply obey."
Kagome cocked a brow at him, a skill she'd learned from the very master before her, and smiled before closing her eyes. "Okay, what do you want me to do next?" She jumped at the feeling of cold metal against her neck, her eyes shooting open. Kagome couldn't help but marvel at the obviously expensive jewelry she held. "Oh, Sesshomaru, this is so, so amazing." Standing proud, Sesshomaru's smile widened a bit. Almost instantly, it was shruken by Kagome's words. "But I can't except it."
Sesshomaru's face resumed it's statue like expression as he gazed down at her intensely. "What do you mean, my miko? Of course you may accept it. This Sesshomaru did not retrieve it simply so you could deny."
"I know. And I'm sorry. But I don't think I can take this. Everday it's something new. A few dozen kimonos here, flowers there, jewelry. Sesshomaru, I appreciate it all, but when will you understand...I need you, just you. Not all of these gifts. When you're off, being all busy and lordly, I'm still here and alone with the pups. Those gifts may be your way of making up for it, but they make me feel no better."
"Kagome," Sesshomaru began, "I am a lord. I must take care of my lands. Now, accept the gifts, and be 'happy'."
"No way, Jose."
He growled at her, ignoring the unfamiliar name 'Jose'. "Why the hell are you so stubborn, woman?! I am being kind!"
Kagome glared at him. I don't care! Take it back!"
"No!"
"Take it back, Sesshomaru!"
"No, Kagome!"
*End of Flashback*
Kagome huffed. "Yes. His fault indeed." Tucking her hair behind her ear, she smirked. "Yup. It had nothing to do with me." But if that was so, why id she feel the need to deliberate on it?
You're giving me too many things
Lately you're all I need
You smiled at me and said,
Don't get me wrong I love you
But does that mean I have to meet your father?
When we are older you'll understand
What I meant when I said "No,
I don't think life is quite that simple"
'And that isn't all. His freakin' moods have been playing ping pong for the last several weeks. Pink. Ponk. Pink. Ponk. One minute he's kind, the next, rude. Then somewhat happy, then furious. I swear, everytime he walks away from me I just want to choke the life out of him. The great Sesshomaru, walking away from a human simply because he can't stand the heat of what she's saying. Get the heck out of the kitchen then! I you can't stand the rain, lift up your unbrella....Heck, if you can't listen to what I have to say, then disappear. I don't need you, LORD Sesshomaru.'
When you walk away
You don't hear me say please
Oh baby, don't go
Simple and clean is the way that you're making me feel tonight
It's hard to let it go
Mentally, Kagome was still ranting and raving when Sesshomaru trekked back into the room. Glancing at him for a moment, she simply looked away and spat, "What?"
Sesshomaru sighed inaudibly, settling on the futon beside her. "As you know, the pups have been cutting their fangs. Two in each mouth have sprouted and are paining them." As he had expected, Kagome shot up, but he pulled her back down. "They are fine. I've lulled them back to sleep. It wil last for perhaps another few hours...Why will you not simply accept my kindness, my gifts, tokens of my feelings, Kagome?"
She sighed. "It's so hard, Sess, takinng care of three demon pups. They run around. They cry. They all want their milk at the same time. And since you're not here, I have to do it by myself. If I felt comfortable with your servants, I'd let them help...but they seem to be angry with me because I am a human who has your heart. They've attempted to harm me. I cna only imagine what they would do to our pups. In addition to that, I'm always so busy, I don't have to to relax anymore. Sess, I'm losing my mind."
"Kagome, no one claimed that parenthood would be simple."
"But there's Rin, and Shippo. And then my own three biological pups...Sesshomaru, I'm getting so confused.
The daily things
that keep us all busy
are confusing me
Kagome cast her eyes back at him. "Oh, Sesshomaru, do you even care?" Large eyes were filled with frustrated tears as she looked upon him. "Do you?" She choked back a sob.
Sesshomaru's eyes widened slightly, and he drew her into his arm, pressing her face against his chest, and his own face into her hair. Though muffled, you could clearly hear him speak, "There is no need to question, Kagome. And my gifts were to show you just that. There are many moments when I wish to be here, with you, my tenshi, with our pups. But if I do not keep my lands safe, and scout information on Naraku, that puts you and our pups in danger. I would rather miss a few moments, than to hve you leave my side. Understand?"
"Uh-huh," Kagome nodded and sniffed.
thats when u came to me and said,
Wish i could prove i love you
but does that mean i have to walk on water?
When we are older you'll understand
It's enough when i say so,
And maybe somethings are that simple
Kagome looked up at him, her bottom lip quivering. "Then stop walking away when we fight. You scare me. I always wonder if you'll come back, or if you'll ever just leave and never come back. I'd hate that so much."
Sesshomaru smiled a little, stroking her head. "I would also dislike leaving you and never returning. You have nothing to fear. I am here for you, my Kagome, always."
"You swear?"
"Hai. I've already told you that you may trust this Sesshomaru."
When you walk away
You don't hear me say please
Oh baby, don't go
Simple and clean is the way that you're making me feel tonight
It's hard to let it go
Kagome smiled brilliantly, cheeks spread wide to show pearly white teeth. "And you're going to hold me forever?"
Sesshomaru's small smile faltered for a nanosecond, though Kaogme did not notice. "Hai." 'But you are human, Kagome. You will die. Allow me to mate you. I am not the halfbreed. I would never so foolishly allow you to leave my arms. You must not allow his faux pas to determine whether I will harm you or not.'
"Good." She hesitated, then added, "But what of the future?"
"The future is ahead. there is no way to know what will occur. We will know when the time comes."
"Okay." She grinned at him. "Then we'll wait to see what lies ahead."
Hold me
Whatever lies beyond this morning
Is a little later on
Regardless of warnings the future doesn't scare me at all
Nothing's like before
"Kagome, have you ever considered mating this Sesshomaru?" He knew he was going out on a limb, but he just had to know. Had to know if she evern considered it, ever played around with the concept.
She blinked, her smile fading as she looked down, ashamed. "Hai."
Sesshomaru frowned. Though it was the answer he wanted, he did not understand the reason for her change in emotion. 'Odd little miko.' "Why do you look away, miko? You do not fancy the idea?"
"Hai. I do."
"Then we must mate tonight." He nuzzled the top of her head.
"No. We musn't. I can't be tied down just yet. No. Not yet. And there's something else, in my chest, telling me not yet, but later."
Sesshomaru did not like the thought of waiting, but he considered it for a moment. "Yes, then. Later. And once we have mated and you are demon, we will not have to part until death. And even then, the other will follow soon after." He drifted off, cuddling his miko.
Kagome whimpered. 'That's what I was afraid of.'
