Its been a few days since the new born battle; Jacob is healed, Nixon didn't say anything when he dropped me off, he wanted to, but didn't, to this moment, he hasn't. Word is spreading fast through the Quileute tribe about me; only to those that know the secret. Come tonight, all the members, council members, parents, imprints, even a healing Jacob; will attend a meeting, about me. From that point on, they will give me the peace and the isolation I want from them, for the most part. The conversation will build on more suspicion and curiosity about me, some will even try to mend the relationship between my parents and the tribe; succeeding in doing so. It will be a mindful, brainstorming thought filled meeting; I'll have to be laying down for this one; in private, I can see it now. . . .
"She said she sees everything, us, our imprints, our kids; everything!" Paul said.
"I wonder who I Imprint on;" Seth mumble Embry will be melted to the idea of imprinting.
"We need answers;"
"We can't force her to tell us anything;" Billy said.
"The bigger problem is; she has to be in a direct line from Taha Aki; so which family line is she from?" Leah will state; There was a clue; Billy has to know it isn't him; everyone knew it came down to Quil Ateara and Joshua Uley; and they will assume right. "So another Embry case?"
"She has to be Joshua's," Billy said, I will feel Embry and Sam's inner anger.
"How can she be? She isn't native, she has brown hair, pale skin, there is no characteristics of Native in her," Sam will say, he then will glance at his mother Allison; I feel the heart break of her marriage. They will soon find out, it's all genetics; I heard of this couple having twins; I think it was on the Murray Show, one twin was white and the other was black; and the set results came back positive of the Hispanic man.
"During the fight-" Jared will say, "I caught a scent of blood; it distracted the new born; she was close enough to the fight for it to work; and when Jacob was crushed; that thing only got his left side because of the scent; it was strong."
"In the truck she said something about not being the only one that had to distract the blood squeezers;" Leah said; "just like Bella did with the Cullen's; she cut her arm;"
"She told Bella not to cut her hand, but her arm;"
"I can assume that had to do with the safety of Seth; maybe he was going to be killed?" Sue looked at Seth; "she has been there; intervening with us, let's see there is Kim and the keys? Maybe she saw the wreck; Sue and Rachel; maybe she saw the car crashing over the glass and needles;" Old Quil will mutter.
"Claire at the Pizza place;" they all looked at Emily, this will be new news to them, "She was there that day, with her brother;" Quil will start to feel sick; Claire could have been hurt? Of course she could have been. "We lost Claire in the restaurant; when we found her; she was by the entrance door, but it was locked-" Quil and I felt a pull for him to hold his Claire; "there is no telling what could have happened to her if she pushed that door open," Quil growled tickling my throat.
"She said-" Sam will remember; "it was her that day, that called in the police and ambulance," everyone will know the day, Emily will take Sam's hand, "if that is true-she saved Emily's life that day-"
"Said she felt it-" Embry chipped in, sure did. "Said she feels everything we and the imprints, the council members- feel-anger, pain, love,"
"How can she be so connected with us?" Paul said-he looked at Rachel, knowing the car would have flipped, we both know that the flip could have killed her and Sue.
It was the question that everyone will start asking themselves, "how do we get to her?" Jacob asked; one of the main reasons I can't go around them-"she could tell us who we will Imprint on-" Wrong Jake, I can't tell anyone anything.
"We could talk to Nixon," least I saw that one coming-"ask him to invite her here? We could plan on the cook out this weekend." Sue suggested.
Billy sat back in his seat-"do you think she would come?" A crazy thought passed his mind; was I seeing this? Yeah, Billy; I am.
"No," Billy said; "I think she already knows about this conversation;" which I do, "that's how she has been a step ahead of us, she sees it before it happens." Everyone looked around; all feeling the same thing, stuck.
"Then I hope she knows we just want to thank her for everything," Kim said.
Collin will mention something I would like to know, "is there a story on something like this?" Billy trailed his eyes to the pup, "there has to be-" Collin said, "for her to know, see, feel-"
"I'll look into it-" Old Quil will declare. Luckily, he will find something, as soon as he does, I will know the truth.
"Mean while?" Paul asked, "we just let her go? Every time we attempt to go around her she drives off."
"Then don't-" Rachel said, "obviously she is scared, you have put her feelings into consideration too; she sees and feels you us; that has to be hard and scary at the same time-" yup, I appreciate that Rachel.
"So we just leave her alone?" Jared said, "we just let her-be?" Billy nodded, "what if something is going to happen only we can prevent?"
"Some how she will tell us;" Sue defended; "everything she does has a reason and she has made sure to protect all of us;" that is true. Jacob will hold his shoulder, Emily her face; Kim her chest; Rachel her neck; Quil his Claire; all thinking the same thought; what if I wasn't there to stop the incidents? My answer would be-hell.
"Joy?" I turned to see Max, I close my drawling book, ending the bonfire vision- "can we go out today?" His eyes are filled with energy, "please?" Mom and dad are fighting again; Ryan is crying and shaking in fear, I swing on the hammock; "Joy?"
I stand and Max sighs in relief; he can't wait to be sixteen to move out; which he will, with uncle John; that will be his ticket to college and a life out of La Push.
Max rushes to the car and I go get Ryan; his trembling body embraces me like a cub lost for months with out affection.
I grab his bag and I leave the fighting couple to not make it right; why do I hope they will?
I put Ryan in the back seat and buckle him in, Max plays the sex channel, his own playboy magazine through the stereo.
I can see Nixon coming to the park from seeing my old beat up car. I can look forward to this meeting.
I pull out of the drive and leave the argument right where it all started.
Max jumps out of the car and runs to the swing set; Ryan fast asleep; I pull out my book, Quil is with Claire, at her graduation; finally able to be together, even after her crush on a school boy.
I unlocked the car just as Nixon enters the vehicle, so many questions he wants to ask. His mind tired of the thoughts racing through his mind; quicker than any newborn. "How's your hand?"
"Its fine-" I mumble.
"Just tell me-are you-"
The gift of visions-"no I'm not suicidal-" he sighs in relief, "it was a accident-"
"Does it have to do with-just tell me-are you apart of that gang?"
"No-" I answered slowly closing my drawing book.
"Are you apart of the council secret?" Silence answered his question, "what is it-what is it that they're hiding?"
"It's not my secret to tell." He sighs open the door, but closing it better.
"How did you get involved? My own parents know and I don't,"
"I wish I could tell you," I kept my eyes ahead of me, "I just can't- I'm sorry,"
"Babe," he took my hand, I look at him, "I am not mad that you won't tell me, heck I probably don't want to know," he took a breath, "for the most part, Sam has been taking care of the land, but he is trouble, and I don't trust him after what he did to Leah-" of course anyone that knew of the situation, would think that; but as fate would have it; he did do the same; as if I don't know about Lisa, his ex wife and current interest. "Listen, I have secrets, stuff I don't want to tell you-yet. I hope our relationship grows enough that I can tell you stuff-" I already know. "And you can tell me stuff-" I smiled.
"In time-" I muttered, he laugh agreeing.
"Your name is as popular as Bella Swan," he laughed, our fingers intertwine; our future is stronger together when we are just considered friends; "I knew when you talked you have sexy voice;" he smirked, typical man. Truth is, we wouldn't be together as a couple for long; his wife would return pregnant and want him back; she will seduce him and he will cheat on me with her, and find out it wasn't even his; he will repent and we will be okay, because I already know; and until then- I can't tell him.
"You okay?" He asks, I smile and nod, this kind of stuff really makes me depressed in a way; is there any faithful person? "I am glad we got to talk."
"Yeah-thank you for stopping by," he kissed my cheek and got out; waving at Max as he leaves. The meeting is about to happen, and for the next few days I will avoid them; the only day I can go to Billy's and talk, is when Jacob has ran away; it's right before Bella's wedding.
But until then- I can't be around him. Ryan starts cooing himself awake, he'll be hungry; Ill go ahead and get him a bottle for the ride home. Max will come running because he swears Ant Man is tracking him through the bees, ah- the imagination of the young, the knowledge of the innocent.
Going home; I have to gun it; the meeting is just a couple minutes from now.
Pulling into the house, I already know mom is going to scream and blame me-peachy. "YOU LITTLE," and it will go on.
For seventeen years, I have hidden how I feel, no one knows who I am, no one knows the time I have spent crying in my room, no one knows how many times I have lost hope and been let down. No body knows the times where I want to snap but for the sake of everyone around me; but I have to keep myself together, so I don't. No one knows the thoughts that go through my head, how lovely, depressing, angry, sad thoughts I have. Nobody. Knows. Me. So to see my mother yelling how ungrateful, lazy, a problem, it's all my fault, I am the reason this family is falling apart, I was the mistake, and the hidden thoughts that her mind didn't process, I was the abortion that got away, and she regretted that; and to just snatch Ryan out of my hands; it definitely hurts to just say okay. All so a huge fight and dad won't have a heart attach.
In the end I am just tired, physically and emotionally; I hope that by just letting it go; I'll have more piece with my self. But I know mom, she is going to try and apologize; and I will forgive her, but like my visions I will not forget.
Max stands stunned along with my father; Ryan screams for me as she put him in his car; dad rushes and snatches the baby, mom starts yelling, I quickly make my way to the house; followed by Max; I disbanded to my room shutting the door. The meeting is still going on; my head is throbbing and body trembling as I lay down, taking deep breath; focus Gen, focus.
The meeting goes as I saw it earlier, exactly like what I saw it, all the way to the point where Max interrupted my thoughts.
Now its time to set things straight, more actions are going to be changed, with me being involved. But that all can wait for the new day ahead. The day is over, like predicted the night has came, this day is over what is done is done. They say to have good thoughts and start tomorrow with a brand new light; how can I have good thoughts if they are all about strange faces? How can I start tomorrow with a brand new light; if I already see that light? How can I make it new?
This life I see; will be as of the ocean, it will be calm and beautiful at times, and other times it will be rough and ridged; but I know the cruise has just begun.
