A/N- this chapter has slight abuse so it's a possible trigger for some enjoy!

"Oh my god I'm so sorry!" A lower female voice said as 18-year-old Regina stood there covered in coffee. Her eyes were wide and she was looking down at her now ruined dress. "I..shit let me buy you a new dress." the girl said and Regina was about to snap. Her head whipped up but she faltered as she laid Eyes on the pretty blonde with crystal blue eyes in front of her. She reminded her so much of Emma apart from her eyes.

Her physique was similar to Emma's, she was toned and well built and her heart ached for blonde she left all those years ago "it's okay." she whispered. The girl smiled and Regina blushed, "I'm Regina" she said holding out her hand which the blonde took without question "Maleficent.. but most call me Mal." she winked.

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Regina sat at her desk with her head in her hands and her eyes closed tight. She fought back tears and images of her and Emma kissing.. of what happened, they flooded her mind and her heart clenched. She had cheated on Mal, and that wasn't even the worst part. What was worse is that she wanted to do it again. She wanted more from Emma, all of her. "What am I gonna do?" She whispered.

She couldn't just throw her entire relationship out the window for some girl.. but Emma wasn't just some girl. She was Emma.. her Emma. The girl that always took care of her, always made sure she was safe and loved and god how she missed her. She needed Emma more than she needed air.

She ran her hands down her face and looked up at the empty classroom, she leant back in her chair and sighed. She knew she was in a bad place, she knew she was safe with Mal, not anymore. Things with her weren't always so bad, actually the opposite in fact. Mal use to be sweet and loving and kind. She use to kiss Regina; hold her, love her, cuddle with her. But something changed a few years back and if she was honest with herself, Regina knew the reason she had stayed this long. She was waiting for the girl she use to know to come back.

She shook her head, she couldn't leave her. She couldn't give up, not yet. Packing up her things she left the school and headed home. Immediately she showered getting all of Emma off her and she sat in the bottom of the shower and cried. Her Heart was so torn and she hated it.

Finding her composure a while later she got out and slipped into a sexy black and red lingerie set and she made Mals favorite and she lit candles in the apartment as well as turning on some soft music and she waited for the older woman to come home.

Regina stared at herself in hall mirror and looked over herself. She didn't ever wear stuff like this but she had to admit she looked good. Her phone went off and regina went to check it. Her heart jumped in her chest seeing Emma's screen name and she open it with shaky hands.

E- I miss you baby girl

Regina's resolve was wavering, Mal never said stuff like this to her. She deleted the message and slammed the phone down. She stormed into the bedroom grabbing a pillow, she screamed into it and dropped onto the bed.

Mal opened the door to the apartment and Regina jumped hearing the door slam. Composing herself she went to greet her with a seductive smile "hi baby!" she purred and Mal frowned turning to see Regina and she raised a brow "what're you wearing?" She asked and looked around the apartment. Was she missing something? It wasn't their anniversary so..

Regina's face fell but she schooled her features and walked closer to her and took her hand leading her to the couch. "I missed you." she said biting her lip. Mal was about to speak when Regina grabbed her and pressed their lips together. Her hands slipping into the older woman's coat to push it off and then she pushed Mal down onto the couch and straddled her hips. Mals eyes went wide and Regina kissed her again hard and Mal growled against her lips and pushed Regina off which caused her to fall onto the ground rather hard and she hit the back of her head of the table and she whimpered looking up at her girlfriend.

Her eyes flooded with tears and her lip quivered and Mal looked down at her and rolled her eyes "I'm not in the mood for this tonight Regina. I'm tired and I've had a long day." She got up and went to get a whiskey and coke and Regina got up on shaky legs and went into their room and put on a long coat and grabbed her purse and phone and she walked back out past Mal without even looking at her. "Where the fuck are you going?" Mal asked "I'm not cleaning this place up so I suggest you put your shit down and clean up all the crap you put out."

Regina stopped by the door and turned to look at the apartment. Candles in all the right places and a dinner cooking on the table. Regina set her purse down and blew out the candles and grabbed them putting them away and she dishes Mal up a plate and put the rest away. "Regina.." Mal sighed but Regina didn't answer she walked back toward the door and Mal caught her wrist and spun her around and kissed her hard slamming her against the counter which caused a pain to shoot through her hip and she whimpered against rough lips.

She was forceful and rough and Regina cried. Tears streaked down her cheek and Mal pulled back feeling the tears. "Jesus Christ Regina make up your mind!" She snapped and Regina looked down which got her a slap to the face and all she wanted was to get out of there. She was so rough and Regina was craving Emma's sweetness.. her tender loving touch which she'd never get from Mal. "I can't do this." she whispered and she grabbed her stuff and she ran. She ran out of the building and into the cold night. She got her keys out and she got in the car and drove to the spot that overlooked the town and once there she sat on the hood.

She spent so many nights up here, just thinking. Wondering what it was that had changed in her and Mal's relationship to put them where they are now. Wondering what she had done wrong, what she had done to make Mal hate her so much. Whatever it was she knew it was her fault, she didn't deserve to be loved, she didn't deserve to have Emma love her, she'd do the same to her. She'd turn Emma against her somehow in some way.

She let it out, and she cried. She cried for the love she lost all those years ago, she cried for the love she found with Mal and the love she lost with her just the same, and she cried for the love she found with Emma that she couldn't have.

And there she stayed till the sun came out the next morning. The tears subsided sometime in the night and her skin almost had a blue tint to it from being so cold. On weak legs she carried herself back to the car and she got in. She flipped the heater on and she drove to the one place she had been avoiding since she came out. Her mother's house.

Driving to the big mansion Regina sighed and a shudder wracked through her body and she got out and made her way to the door and she knocked. Moments later the door was pulled open and there stood Cora Mills in all her regality and she stopped in her tracks.

"What in the blood hell happened to you Regina?" She asked and pulled her daughter into the house. She was shaking and she looked up into Cora's eyes. "I'm so lost mother." she whispered showing weakness in front her mother was something that was frowned upon but Cora gave her a soft look. "Oh my daughter.. I'm so sorry." she whispered and pulled Regina into her arms and Regina's eyes widened "wh/what…" she stuttered in shocks and Cora held her tighter and Regina broke. She sobbed against her mother who just held her, her own eyes rimmed with tears.

She thought she'd never see her little girl again, it had been seven long years. When Regina came out officially Cora has reacted.. badly to say the least. Things were said that a mother should never say to her child and Regina left and never came back.

Regina was led by Cora to the couches and they sat down, the maid getting them tea. "Reigns darling, what has happened?" She asked holding her hand and Regina stared at Cora "are you sick?" She asked and Cora shook her head. "No.. not anymore I was. I had cancer." she squeezed her hand and Regina gasped "mother! Why didn't you tell me!" And Cora waved it off "stop changing the subject child. Tell me what's happening!"

Regina was gonna argue but the look Cora gave her made her wince. "I.. I don't know. I was happy with Mal.. for a long time, I thought I loved her. But these last years.. have been bad as you can see." she whispered motioning to the bruises and Cora growled "she did this?" She asked to which Regina nodded "yes.. but I.. I'm not happy and I'm scared mother.. for so many reasons I'm scared. I could be happy with someone else.. but what if I turn her against me just as Mal has turned against me." she whispered and Cora cupped her daughter's chin "not everyone will hurt you. Maleficent of sick.. but that doesn't mean this new person would hurt you."

"I don't wanna ruin her. God Emma makes me feel like a kid again, like a lovesick teenager!" Cora's eyes narrowed "Emma? As in.. Emma Swan? From storybrooke?" She asked incredulous and Regina nodded. "Yes.. the same." She looked up into her mother's eyes and she scoffed with amusement.

"Regina.. if that girl still loves you to this day she's gonna treat you right." She said shaking her head and The younger brunette frowned at that "what do you mean 'still'?" She asked and Cora sighed. "Regina.. I knew how you both felt about each other when you were young and.. at the time it's not the life I had wanted for you. That's why we left. I thought I was going the right thing. Saving you from that life but.. I was wrong. It's your life and I'll accept anything you decide. But Emma always loved you Regina."

Taking all this information in Regina paced around the living room. "What do i do?" She asked and her mother stood "the first thing you need to do is get out of that place you live. Come with me Regina." she said sternly and she walked to her safe and opened it pulling out money. "Take this and get an apartment. Today. And I will have furniture delivered upon the hour." She said and Regina shook her head "I can't..I. She'll never let that happen."

Studying her daughter for a moment seeing she really was indeed afraid she nodded "come" she said grabbing her keys and her daughter by the wrist. "Where are we going?" She asked and Cora grabbed her purse and they went to the garage "to get you out."

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The first thing they did was buy a condo near the college and near Emma's and against Regina's wishes her mother paid for it and now they were sitting in the car outside her and Mal's place and Mal was home. Cora looked at her daughter. "Remember this dear. Your lover is suppose to love you… not harm you." she said and Regina nodded softly. She had told her mother about everything in the car and Cora was very unhappy to say the least.

She got out with her daughter and entered the building and Mal was passed out on the couch with a bottle of whiskey and Regina rolled her eyes and she went to pack and Cora went to the kitchen and grabbed a pitcher and filled it to the brim with ice water and she walked over to Mal and cocked her head to the side before pouring the freezing liquid down upon her which made her scream and shoot up and she came face to face with Cora Mills and her eyes widened and she fell backwards tripping over the couch and Cora sneered at her.

"Hello dear." she snapped and Regina came out with a large suitcase of her stuff and Mal stood up "Re/Regi.. what's going on?" She stuttered and Regina softened at the nick name. The name she use to call her. "I.. mal." Cora saw through the game and threw more watched at her "away from you and your abuse game darling. That's where!" Cora said walking past her and Regina stared at Mal. She looked so confused and sad "Regina.. don't leave.. please. I love you. I need you!" she pleaded and her heart clenched and she walked toward her.

She reached up and cupped the taller woman's cheek and tears streamed from her eyes "I think we need space.. it might be good for us Baby.. I can't take this anymore." Mal grabbed her hand and held it to her cheek "I'm sorry.. please I didn't mean it. I know I was wrong I know I shouldn't have hurt you I'm sorry!" she begged and she grabbed Regina and pulled her tightly against her and buried her head into Regina's neck and regina whimpered. Maybe she shouldn't leave.. she looked at her mom who was glaring at Mal. This is what abusers do. This is how they trap you and she knew it having dealt her with it herself first hand when she was young. Regina looked back at Mal "baby I have to do this.. we need to work on us, our own problems. And if we can fix them then maybe we could live together again. But I.. you scared me tonight. You could have hurt me badly when you threw me off and I hit that table. I could have died!"

Mal looked over at the table and looked at Regina and then at Cora and she nodded. There was no talking with Cora here. "I'm so sorry.. I do love you Regina." she whispered and Regina nodded "and I love you." she whispered and she kissed Mals lips softly and she grabbed her bag and left with Cora and once in the car she broke into a million pieces and she wasn't sure if she could ever be fixed.