CHPT 9
Arizona's POV
The past week had been hell. As I got on the elevator, I couldn't help but feel sad about how I had been acting towards Calliope this week. After Sunday morning in the park, I had a strange feeling of nervousness every time I looked at her. Whenever I looked in her dark eyes, I always felt alive, safe, loved. But since that morning, when Sam mentioned the word wedding, I only saw confusion. We hadn't spent much time together since Sam left on Monday, only in passing at work, and to sleep at night. And that was what scared me the most. We only slept. I felt as if Calliope was so freaked out by the mention of us possibly having a wedding, that she was pulling back from me, and I couldn't handle it anymore. The elevator stopped on the main floor and as the door opened I was stopped by Teddy and Addison staring at me with questioning looks.
"You have some major explaining to do Robbins" Addison starts as her and Teddy quickly pulled me out of what I was now calling my safe haven, and both stare me down.
"And you are not stepping foot outside of this hospital until you tell us what in gods name is going on between you and Callie" Teddy adds as her and Sergeant Montgomery scold me with crossed arms.
"What are you..." I question as I try to push past the two, who have apparently been working part-time as bouncers, and I come up solid.
"Something is happening," Addison says "Your not perky, Callie is gone all bad-ass on us again, neither one of you are making any noises close to the ones I heard last Saturday night, and I don't like to see you two SLEEP in on-call rooms"
"And," Teddy adds "I know it has something to do with Sam's comment last weekend, because you turned almost robotic when she mentioned you to getting hitched"
It was then I realised that I was to blame here. My stupid comment about Sam not holding her breath. Calliope took it the wrong way. I went into robot mode because I wanted to avoid the comment. It had been less than 24 hours at that point, that I had decided that I wanted to marry her. Of course I was gonna be awkward. I didn't want her to pick up on the fact that that was the next time I wanted to see Sam and that she most certainly would be invited. How could I not have realised.
"Oh my god" I said in my revelation as Teddy and Addison's posture now resembled that of my friends instead of Calliope's bodyguards. "I have been so stupid you guys"
"Go on" Addison said with inquiring eyes.
"So last Saturday when Addison heard Calliope and I having...well...you know" I said slightly embarrassed "I realised that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with her, and I wanted to ask her to marry me and then we went to the park, and you guys were all sad about missing Seattle and Sam mentioned being invited to our wedding, and I thought she had special powers too, like it was a lesbian thing, and she was reading my mind and knew and that of course Calliope was now reading my mind and I panicked because..." RAMBLING Arizona was cut off.
"Arizona" Teddy shakes me out of my rant and Addison places a hand on my shoulder as well. "Breathe" they say in unison.
"I'm sorry, This is just how I get" I say, trying to catch my breath. I gotta find a support group for that before I really cut off the oxygen to my brain. "Anyway, I panicked because I want this to be special you know, when I ask Calliope to marry me. I want it to be a surprise. And now I've gone and screwed everything up by thinking she would never marry me because she's acting so distant, when in reality she is acting distant because I avoided the topic"
"Arizona" Addison practically jumps on me and Teddy is not to far behind "That is so exciting and the best news I have heard in, oh I don't know, forever" as they squeeze me so hard I really am worried about my brains, without oxygen, functioning capabilities.
"Now here's the thing guys" I pull out of their clutches and try to put on a serious look, even though all I wanna do is scream out at the top of my lungs how much I want to make Calliope my wife. "This is TOP SECRET. No one knows, only my parents and brother. NO Mark, No Christina, No Derek, especially No Lexie. Please do not say a word before Las Vegas next week."
"Before Vegas?" Addison questions with a conspiring look. I knew she would be all over this, and I had actually planned on telling her before now, but with the way the week panned out, I didn't have a chance.
"Yes" I reply "Before Vegas. I plan on asking her when we are there for the convention. You both know how I finally won her heart at the awards dinner last year? You can't expect this proposal to be any less can you?"
"Oh we won't say a word, Right Teddy" Addison is practically jumping now, and Teddy is no better.
"Arizona I'm not gonna lie, you had me worried for a second" Teddy says "But how could anyone ever doubt your love for each other. I guess seeing you both so out of character this week, just worried everyone a bit. But it all makes perfect sense now"
We stood in the foyer for another few minutes as I made them swear on everything that I could possibly think of to keep quiet, which in retrospect was super silly, because I trusted them both implicitly. They were on there way to Joe's and I promised I would join them as soon as I found Calliope and tried to smooth things over between us. I wasn't exactly sure at that moment how I was gonna do that, but I would figure out something. I was Arizona Robbins. And I was great.
I had one other thing on my mind in that moment, and that was the ring. I had called my Dad early in the week and told him and mom what my intentions were. They were so overjoyed that I'm pretty sure the whole city knew by nights end. My father very quickly knew my next intention would be to get my grandmothers ring. It was rightfully mine, and even thought it was a little outdated, I had big plans for it. Dad told me not to worry and he would get it to me asap.
Now to find Calliope and possible get in a little make up sex before Joe's. I had been on edge so much this week, going without Calliope's touch, was not going to be an option. Ever again. And after I ask her to marry me next week, I will be putting that in my vows. As I dug through my purse for my phone, an all too familiar voice made my heart miss 3 beats, as I looked up and came face to face with Liam.
Callie's POV
I couldn't believe my eyes. If I hadn't already felt like my heart had been ripped out this week, I am pretty sure it was beating on the ground now, as I looked down from the sky walk into the foyer at the scene now unfolding.
"Who is that?" Mark questioned as he stood next to me and proceeded to catch me as I felt my knees buckle from under me.
"Liam" I said feeling both jealousy and anger "Its Liam"
This week had not been great for Ari and I. After her little freak out at the mention of marriage, I really started to doubt how she really felt about our commitment to each other. I knew she loved me, but was that enough. We had both been really distant, and I felt her pull away a little more each day. I gave the ring to Mark on Thursday, and told him to hold on to it until these feelings passed, but now, seeing her wrapped in her ex-fiance's arms, I didn't know if I would ever get it back.
"Callie" Mark held me while he looked back down to the foyer "This is not what you think. Arizona loves you and you guys are just going through a rough patch" he pulls me up right and I can't bare to look over the rail one more time.
"I need to get out of here" I say as I walk away from him, and in someway, her. "Take me to Joe's"
"Callie, I think you have had enough don't you" Addison says to me and she thinks I'm not coherent enough to see her give Mark the eye. They are both my best friends, and when Addison can't be here, he fills in for her. I'm pretty sure they have it worked out that way.
"I'll decide when I've had enough Addison" I look at her, and then to Arizona, who's eyes look even more distant then they had been this week. Probably because of Liam, I think to myself and down whats left in my glass. She had arrived about an hour after Mark and I had got there, in which time, the alcohol has been steady flow. I wasn't drunk, but I was certainly not feeling any pain. No pain of thinking Arizona doesn't want to marry me, no pain of seeing her in her ex-fiances arms, laughing, showing him her dimples.
"Calliope" Arizona reaches out her hand and lays it on top of mine. I can see the hurt in her eyes but I look past it. "I'm really tired and I think we should go soon"
"You go if your tired" I say to her and motion to Joe for another drink "I'll be home when I'm ready"
She reluctantly pulls her hand back and I watch her eyes start to fill. I wasn't trying to hurt her, I just didn't want to feel hurt anymore.
All eyes suddenly shift from my half drunken state, as Christina appears, also looking to not be feeling any pain.
"So you guys need to help me win a bet" She takes a seat at the end of the table and helps herself to one of my shots. My shots. She'll be refilling that.
"Meredith thinks sex is better if the guy is not shaven, and I'm not talking about his face" as she motions to Marks nether regions. "I believe its better if he is. Thoughts?"
Why did I have to drink so much? Why didn't I get up and leave when Arizona asked me too? I'll always regret the next words out of my liquor filled mouth, as long as I live.
"Why don't you ask Arizona, she's slept with her fair share of men. Any recently Ari?" as I look over to her, tears are streaming down her cheeks as she gets up and leaves the bar without a word, without a glance. Mark takes one look at me, and its a look of disgust as he follows right behind the woman who's heart I just destroyed.
"Callie Torres" Addison's voice is loud and stern. "That's enough" as she takes the drink out of my hand and slams it down on the table in front of her. I can feel my stomach start to turn and its contents start to make their way back up, running to the bathroom just in time to see my heart and soul hit the porcelain bowl in front of me.
I sat at the bar for an hour after that. Water and coffee was all I was aloud to drink, as Teddy and Addison yelled at me, cried with me, and convinced me to go home and fix what I had broken. I opened the door to our apartment and instantly felt sick again. I knew what I was going to find behind our bedroom door. My beautiful girlfriend, the love of my life, in pieces. I had let my emotions get the best of me. When Sam first showed up here, sure Arizona was a little jealous, but we talked about it and we were ok. I see Liam, and I crack. I can't even trust in our love for one another, that he is just like Sam. An ex. I open our bedroom door and my heart breaks at what I find. Our bed. Our bed that is still made. Panic stricken, I turn back to the living room, not having any idea where Arizona could be, to see Mark standing in the door way.
"Here" he turns to leave and he's obviously not impressed with me as his tone is filled with anger and hurt. I follow him across the hall into his apartment. He stands in the doorway of his bedroom and motions for me to look in. I walk towards him slowly, as my own tears start streaming down my face, even before seeing her. I reach him and turn to look in at his bed. Arizona is curled up against a wide awake Lexie who is softly rubbing Arizona's blond hair away from her face. Her red, tear stained face. Her breathing is shallow, and I can still hear a slight sob in her breaths. I feel myself break, as I turn away and into Mark's chest.
"Fix this" He says, as his arm wraps around my waist in comfort. "You two have blinded everyone so much with your love for each other, that I don't want to see ever again as long as you two are in my life. So fix this."
