LAST CHAPTER!

I was a bit disappointed that I only got 1 review on the last chapter Thank you Beth Becker for the review!

Enjoy.


Becker

I stand and watch the fire burn. I've always liked the way a flame has danced, ever since I was small. The way it moves and how it glows... It's always amused me how something so beautiful can be so murderous. At a younger age I would get a candle, light it and put it by my bedside at night. I would watch it for hours on end until I fell asleep at long last. When I woke up, the candle would be half-melted and mysteriously unlit. My parents would always be in bed and the windows and door would always be closed... So how could the candle be put out?

I lean into Jess.

"Why do we have to burn both creatures again?" I whisper and notice her shiver in the autumn cold.

"We are burning the one from the future because we don't want Philip getting his hands on it, just incase... and Abby wanted to give the second one a proper goodbye, since we killed it and it did nothing wrong." she explained, turning back to face the fire. The glow of the rising sun and fire made the outline of her face noticeable and made her skin glow a beautiful colour.

I look down past Jess at my other teammates. Conner is perfectly fine and is able to leave hospital. Abby is in the best shape out of the lot of us. Matt's arm will be in a sling for a very long time. The doctors say I came out with the worst injuries. A smashed skull, cuts on my face, two broken ribs, and a sprained ankle, plus cuts and bruises all over. I should really be in a hospital bed resting, but I never have had a thing for hospitals. They're too white and too... clean, they smell funny. Lester has put us all on medical leave, me the only one not going to do as I'm told and not stay at home. It's funny how so many rules and orders I follow and take to the extreme, but how many I disobey as well.

I turn and start to walk towards my car, one of the big, black 4 by 4's. I limp slightly, and I know that the others are all thinking the same thing – Is he okay to drive? I smile through the winces of pain as I get to my car. I open the door and hop in. I slam it shut and start the engine. The radio springs to life. A drum comes through the speakers then after six seconds so does a piano, creating a nice beat.

Lovers and liars, a fantastic piano rock band. Just so happens that my favourite song comes on the radio. I look in the mirror back at the others.

Broken record on the stereo
Shattered glass from a past I can't let go

There is a shattered past that I can't let go of. So many times, I've failed at the job that I was trusted to do. So many times, I've done the wrong thing, acted stupidly... I turn on the engine... Cutter, Sarah, Abby, Conner and Danny. People get hurt and I'm meant to protect them...

Hope to hell this is the last time
I hope to hell this is the last time I ever hurt

And I do hope that this will be the last time that I hurt inside - physical pain is something I can handle, but the mental pain, it is something I find hard to live with each and every day. However, I know that I will never stop hurting. Not now, and not ever. The pain will always be there like The Darkness... But like The Darkness, I can fight against it, and rise above it.

What more do you expect from me?
There's nothing left here to burn
There's nothing left here to burn

Each and every day I wonder what people expect from me. What they expect me to do. I know what I am expected to do with my job, but what do people personally expect of me. Do they expect me to be the hero every time? To be the one that always get hurt? The one that always blames himself and never lets anyone get too close to him?

And I've given you every part of me
There's nothing left here to burn
There's nothing left here to burn

I have given every part of myself to the ARC and the team. I almost don't have a social life I give so much to the ARC (this really annoys my family). I have fought creature after creature, stayed in hospital bed after hospital bed and done paper work after paper work for them (there is far too much paper work in this job).

A broken heart tried hard to make it whole
but the memories won't seem to let you go

And my heart is broken and I have tried so hard to make is whole again, to be able to walk into the ARC and think 'Hey, this job isn't all that bad'. However, I cannot, because my memories won't let me think that. The job has its moments, but this job is what makes my life bit-by-bit, hard to live with. I try to be positive, but when someone else dies, it gets harder and harder.

Hope to hell this is the last time
I hope to hell this is the last time I ever hurt

There is nothing left here to burn. Many things that should be forgotten cannot be forgotten, and maybe, just maybe, that's a good thing. As what has happened during my life is what has made me who I am inside. Bad things happen, and I shouldn't be so stupid as to let those things bring me down so low that I can't rise up again. I have a team to protect, and I can't have anything get in the way of that, not even my feelings.

I feel slightly bad for just getting in my car and driving off. I should really stay and help clean up when the fire goes out. I don't feel that bad for the fact that the team want me at home resting. I'm not very good at sitting still... I should actually be in hospital resting really. Down the road, I come to some cross roads. I sit here and let the music swarm around my head.

Go straight ahead and go home

Go back and help with the fire

Go left and go to hospital

Go right and go to the ARC, do paper work and then hit the gym

Four choices and I can only choose one. I love fires, but love working out. I dislike sitting still, but hate hospitals. However, I should rest at home (for the team), but a hospital will give me medication to make me get better and quicker.

I drive the car the way I want to go.


Sadly, it is over. I'll let you decide which way Becker went. Also, I highly recommend the song that was in this chapter. It is truly brilliant!

If anyone would like to know a little bit about my next story then do say so in a review (say if you would like to know or you might not get told). What I'll say now is, that it is a Becker and Lester fic

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