Chapter Nine: Pie
Kurt's P.O.V
Sebastian sat on the other side of Blaine eating his turkey as he watched us open our presents. I kept my arm tight around Blaine's even when it was one of our turns to open a gift. I received a new Gucci sweater from Carole. One that I would sadly have to take back because it was meant to be tight but would show far too much side blubber. I got a three hundred dollar gift card from my Dad and Finn. I knew that was coming, Dad never knew what to give me and Finn was helpless at shopping. Rachel got me a copy of Broadway's greatest hits. Telling me to warm up my pipes for next year when we would move to New York and be on the next edition of the CD. Sebastian snorted but covered it up with a cough. Having him here was completely ruining my Christmas.
Blaine received a pair of candy cane striped pants from Rachel. My dad and Carole had already given him the bow tie which he was now wearing. Finn gave him a pig that he could pay two dollars a month to keep feed so he could be dinner to a bunch of kids in some third world country. Carol got one too. But they both accepted it graciously. Sebastian leaned over and offered Blaine a piece of turkey. Blaine reached up to grab it but Sebastian silently insisted on feeding him. I got a look from my father who was now starting to see why I didn't like Sebastian so much.
The rest of the night went on, Blaine sat between me and Sebastian. His hand was on my knee but that was all the cuddling I got. My stomach rumbled and Blaine looked at me.
"Hey honey you up for seconds?" He asked and I shook my head telling him that I had ate too much and had a stomach ache and that's why he heard my stomach. He nodded before announcing that he wanted pie.
"Mmm pie sounds good." Sebastian said and Blaine smiled over at him. "But I'm only going to have one piece or else I'll be the size of a house." Sebastian said as he and Blaine left to go to the kitchen. I touched my stomach as I heard Blaine and Sebastian laughing over his last remark. Blaine was laughing at me! Tears of shame stung my eyes. I looked down at the gum wrapper ring which was starting to feel like a joke.
Hours went by and the festivities continued for everyone but me. I stayed on the couch until one by one our guests went home. Rachel was first giving everyone chipper goodbyes and saying that she enjoyed spending Christmas with us. But she needed to get home to her family for Hanukkah celebrations. She and Finn practically had a make out session on the door step before they had to be separated by my Dad.
Sebastian was next, almost three hours later, unfortunately. Blaine and I walked him to the door. Not because we cared about being hospitable, well maybe Blaine did, I just wanted him OUT! "That was a great Christmas Kurt. A little cheap for my taste but my mother taught me to always compliment the hostess so…" He said as he touched my arm, I jerked away and gave him a glare. "Maybe we can do it again next year?"
"Oh I highly doubt it." I spat, Blaine looked between us but said nothing. Sebastian gave me that stupid smile.
"I see." he said simply then looked at Blaine. "It was nice spending the holidays with you Blaine." he said and Blaine gave a small smile. "Maybe we could go ice skating on my family's pond sometime?"
"I don't know Sebastian." Blaine muttered softly. Sebastian smiled and reached up to fix Blaine's collar. I wanted to break his fingers. Couldn't he just leave already! "You think about it, and let me know cutie." He said before leaning forward and kissing Blaine on the mouth. Blaine shot back but Sebastian just smiled. "You two have a Very Merry Christmas." He said with a wink at me before leaving.
Nothing happened for a whole two minutes. My world stopped spinning. Blaine just stood there by my side looking out at the snow as Sebastian's tail lights faded into the distance. That was it; that was my worst fear being awoken right in front of my eyes. I knew how this story played out from here. No matter what I would ever do I was never going to be thin enough, hot enough, interesting enough for Blaine. I mean Sebastian had just kissed him. Next thing they'll be boyfriends and I'll just fade out of the picture. Blaine isn't mine anymore. It's over! I stood with my mouth open and tears sat in my eyes. Blaine looked at me his eyes wide.
"Kurt," he said softly but that's all he got out before I threw his coat into his chest and pushed him out into the snow. "Kurt! Please! Listen to me!" He yelled through the wood. I covered my ears as the tears poured down my face.
"Kurt?" My dad said as he came into the hallway. He heard Blaine on the other side of the door. "What happened?" he asked and tried to touch me but I backed away.
"LEAVE ME ALONE!" I yelled at the top of my lungs. My Dad watched me as I looked at Carole and Finn who had come in behind him at the sound of the commotion. "JUST EVERYONE LEAVE ME ALONE!" I cried as I ran into the next room shutting and locking the door behind me. I leaned against the door and cried my broken heart out. Sobbing loudly and uncontrollably, I had cried more lately then I ever had in my entire life. I slid down the door and buried my face in my hands as my whole body shook with sobs.
I don't know how long I cried like that. My dad had tried once already to get me to come out but I just lay on the floor and cried. Suddenly my stomach rumbled and I closed my eyes. No! I thought but my stomach just seemed to rumble more. "No!" I moaned as my arms came to wrap around my middle. Closing my eyes tight I tried to fight the over powering hunger.
"MMMM pie sounds good!" "Are you ready for seconds?" "This turkey is so moist." "Want a lick?" "Kurt we need to make sweet potatoes for Finn they're his favorite." "Sugar pie," "Pumpkin", "Sweet pea." "How about a pretzel." "Want a sip?" "A medium Hot Chocolate with extra marshmallows please." "IS THAT ALL YOU EVER TALK ABOUT! Food!" "Food" "Food""FOOD""FOOD" "FOOD!"
With a groan, I rushed off the floor and over to the counter. There sat a beautiful cherry pie with two pieces cut out. I forgot forks and just scooped up a handful and shoved it in my mouth. MMMMMMMM! God! It was glorious! I scooped up another handful and another and another! Soon my face was buried in the pie like a dog. Once that one was gone I reached for the turkey. My cherry stained fingers turning the meat pink were I touched it. "OHHHHH! It's sooooo good!" I moaned with a full mouth. I began tearing the meat off the bone like an animal and shoving it into my mouth. Barely even taking time to chew! I'm SO hungry! Once I was ready for a different taste I began on the potatoes. Grabbing the bowl and cradling it in my arms like the precious thing it was! Then I began filling my mouth with the soft texture. Tears ran down my cheeks but I didn't care! I'm hungry and tonight I'm going to eat! I threw down the bowl of potatoes not caring when I heard the bowl break. I rushed over to the gravy bowl and chugged it down straight. It was the best gravy ever! I went to run over to the stuffing when I slipped over spilled gravy and landed on the floor face down hard!
That's when I realized what I had just done. I sat there on the ground looking around at the mess I had made. Then I saw my reflection in the metal on the stove. My face was a blur of cherry and gravy and other food going all the way up into my hair. My eyes were red and puffy making the face I saw scare me. It didn't look human! I saw the fat on my face and body. What have I done! I curled up into a ball and silently cried.
What have I done! My head began swimming as I shivered on the floor. Blaine kissed Sebastian and I just stuffed myself with every reason for him to walk out the door! What have I done! Instantly I crawled on all fours over to the trash can. With blurry tear filled eyes I looked at my fingers. I studied the way they shook before I placed them down my throat. Clinging desperately to the trash, I heaved the contents of my stomach into the trash. My body shook with shivers as well as sobs. My head started spinning and I felt like I was going to die. But I had to do it! I could NOT be a fat ass! Blaine is leaving me! As I finished heaving I looked at my stained hands but my eyes went to the small gum wrapper ring on my finger. "Wear it as a promise, that whenever you're sad or alone and I can't be there to physically wrap my own arms around you, that you'll look at it and know that I love you and I'll always have my arms wrapped around you and my heart."
"Blaine." I whispered, brokenly, before dissolving into sobs and resting my head on the trash bin.
*OUTSIDE*
I grinned as I watched the scene before me."I've got you now Kurt Hummel. Blaine is so mine!" I said before running across the neighbor's yard toward my car.
