Dean slammed the door open and walked up to his room without another word. The other three boys jumped slightly at the loud slam coming from Dean's bedroom door. Sam and Gabriel looked a each other before looking over to Castiel.
"Hey um...Cas...can we sleep in your room tonight...with how Dean is acting...we kind of don't want to be up there..." Castiel turned to his brother and brother in law and gave a small smile.
"You guys can move into that room...you're going to need it after all..." Castiel walked to his room and grabbed some clothes and his textbooks before heading upstairs to Gabriel's old bedroom.
Gabriel followed Castiel and pulled him into a tight hug, Castiel gave a small smile.
"You know you don't have to give up your room Cassie, it's just for the night." Castiel shook his head and pat Gabriel's cheek softly.
"You guys are going to give this marriage a try...that's more than I can say about me and Dean...So consider this my wedding present to you guys, after my test tomorrow I am completely free so I'll be switching rooms with you guys." Gabriel gave his brother another tight hug before wiping his eyes.
"Thank you Cassandra, and good luck with Deaniella" Castiel frowned at the names and smiled when Gabriel ruffled his hair and took off back downstairs.
Castiel sighed and ran his fingers through his hair before letting himself fall onto Gabriel's bed. He placed his hands behind his head and looked up at the ceiling. He thought about all the events that had happened. How Dean could switch completely and how everything Dean had said was merely an act. He felt a sharp pain and willed himself not to cry. He sat up quickly and shrugged off his tuxedo in favor for sweats and an old t-shirt. He closed Gabriel's door and sat with his legs crossed in the middle of the bed and started studying the textbook in front of him for his test.
Gabriel and Sam had just finished changing and were sitting on the couch getting read to watch a movie before bed. Gabriel scooted closer to Sam and let his head fall onto his shoulder, Sam smiled and wrapped his arms around his husband and pulled him closer.
"Thank you Sam..for what you told Dean, and for giving..." Gabriel was hushed by a pair of lips pressing against his.
"I meant everything I said Gabe, I don't need you to thank me for speaking what I feel." Gabriel smiled up at the boy and snuggled closer.
"Thank you anyways moose." Sam rolled his eyes and pulled Gabriel onto his lap before pulling the blanket over both of them that he made sure to grab from the bed.
"I hope Dean opens his eyes to the wonderful person he has...the look on Castiel's face earlier... I felt so horrible after what we witnessed..." Gabriel nodded and squeezed Sam's hand.
"I hope he does realize how great Castiel is because...I don't think Cassie can handle this type of rejection. He's loved Dean since we were kids you know..."
"Wow you brothers are a lot alike...how did we never realize your guys' feelings?" Gabriel chuckled and shrugged not paying attention to the movie.
"love you Sammich..." Sam smiled down at the sleepy Gabriel before kissing his temple.
"I know Gabe..." Sam silently shut off the tv and wrapped Gabe tightly in his arms and carried him to bed.
Dean was busy going through his phone and looking at all the pictures his mom had taken on it. He smiled at a picture of the whole family standing in front of the church and made it as his wallpaper. He heard Castiel and Gabriel talking in Gabe's room and paid attention to everything being said. These walls were super thin if he was able to hear their conversation.
"So Cas is now gonna be staying in the room next door...great..." he mumbled softly so they wouldn't hear him. He heard Gabe run off and all the shuffling in Gabe's room told him Cas was getting ready for bed.
He scrolled through more pictures and found himself smiling at them. He finally threw his phone to the other side of his bed and sat up. He could very faintly hear the sound of pages being turned and he figured Cas was busy studying so he turned on his side and thought about their conversations.
He looked at the wall and smiled a little, he felt like he could just see Cas sitting on the other side of the wall with his brows furrowed and a pen in his mouth as he marked the important things. He bit his lip and spoke softly.
"Cas?" Castiel looked up and turned his head towards the wall behind his and quirked an eyebrow. He looked at his phone and shrugged, he must be imagining things. He sighed and closed his book before setting it on the desk and getting up to turn off the light. He flopped back onto the bed and pulled the blankets over him.
Castiel froze when he head his name again, he stopped moving and listened to Dean talk. "Hey Cas...I don't know if you can hear me right now, or if I'm being stupid and talking to a wall but um...I just wanted to say I'm sorry for our argument and everything I said..."
Dean waited for a response and when he didn't get one he turned onto his back and looked at the ceiling, "I don't know how I should feel about being married to you...I can try to see if I can deal with it...until then...I'm going to keep treating you like just my friend...I'm sorry I can't offer you anything more." Dean bit his lip and closed his eyes and smiled when he heard a response.
"Dean...I don't know what you're going through...but hopefully one day you can tell me...for now being friends with the same last name and matching rings...is perfectly fine..." Dean smiled widely and nodded.
"Goodnight Dean." He looked over to the wall again and gave a small smile.
"Night Cas..."
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Castiel smiled as he hugged Dean tightly from behind, he bit his lip and gently placed a kiss onto the back of Dean's neck. Dean chuckled and rubbed the back of Castiel's hands before flipping the page in a car magazine. "Good morning sleeping beauty." Castiel smiled and kissed the back of his neck again before Dean turned in his arms and gave him a soft kiss.
"Gross guys, get a room." Sam shuffled into the kitchen in a jacket and jeans with Gabriel attached to his hip still dressed in his pajamas.
"We have a room, thank you very much." Castiel smiled widely and reached around Dean to grab the coffee.
"Hey Dean, we gotta go to the store." Dean sighed and nodded he reached into his jeans pocket and pulled out his keys. He grabbed his jacket from the chair and kissed Castiel softly again.
"We'll be back, you and Gabriel go get dressed. We'll go out for dinner tonight. We're also gonna stop at Bobby's on the way back from the store so be ready by 7." Cas smiled and kissed Dean again before pulling away. Gabriel pulled Sam into a huge hug and make out session. Dean groaned and pat Sam's back.
"Let's go Romeo." Sam blushed and pulled away. He gave Cas a small hug as he passed by and followed Dean out. Castiel looked over to Gabriel who smiled widely.
"Well seems like things are better between you and Dean." Cas nodded and bit his lip.
"Let's go get ready."
After a few hours Castiel and Gabriel had managed to eat breakfast and clean the whole house. it was now 15 minutes to 7 and the boys hurried up to shower and get ready. When they had finished they both made their way to the couch and sat there. They talked about random things from spiders to why the boys were being taken to dinner. after about 45 minutes of random conversations Gabriel frowned.
"Didn't they say 7?" Cas nodded and checked the time.
"Let's watch tv while we wait." Gabriel sighed and turned his attention to the tv while Cas went to get some water. "
"CASTIEL!" Cas jumped and ran to the living room where Gabriel was watching the news in tears.
"We have just gotten reports that the two males involved in the car accident earlier today were none other then Dean Novak-Winchester and Samuel Winchester-Novak. Both boys were rushed to South Central Medical Hospital a few hours ago and-" Castiel dropped onto the couch next to Gabriel and pulled his brother into a tight hug as they cried their eyes out waiting for the reporter to continue talking. "Oh...I'm sorry...we've just gotten reports that both boys...have passed away...We ask that your prayers be sent to the families of both boys..." Gabriel wailed at the news and cried into his brothers chest as Castiel felt tears run down his face and rocked his brother.
"Cas...I can't live without them..." Castiel nodded his agreement and bit his lip.
"We can...we can join them...if you'd like..." Gabriel looked up to his brother and nodded. They both got up and made their way to Dean's room. Castiel reached into the closet and opened Dean's safe where he had his gun. With shaky hands he loaded the pistol and looked to Gabriel.
"You first or me?" Gabriel bit his lip and took the gun into his hands.
"Me first." Before Castiel could object, Gabriel lifted the gun to his head and fired. Castiel watched with teary eyes and caught his brothers body. He lifted him up and carried him to Sam's bed. As he finished laying him down he picked up the gun and went back to Dean's bed.
"Wait for me Dean..." Castiel took a deep breath before laying down on Dean's side of the bed and brought the gun to his head.
"I love you Dean..." Before Cas could chicken out he tightened his hold on the trigger.
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Castiel bolted upright and placed a hand to his chest. He ran his fingers through his hair and tried to catch his breath.
"Just a dream Castiel...only a dream.." Castiel threw the blankets off of his body and quickly went downstairs to check on Sam and Gabriel. He sighed in relief when he saw them cuddled together on the bed. He slowly backed out of the room and went to grab a glass of water. Once he had his water he went back to Gabriel's bed and tried to fall back asleep, he sighed as he kept seeing images of the dream whenever he closed his eyes.
Dean was awoken by someone stumbling into his room, he grabbed his phone and groaned at the time. He rolled over and sat up rubbing his eyes before looking up and meeting blue eyes.
"What the hell Cas...its 3 in the damn morning." Castiel rubbed his arm and bit his lip as he stood at the foot of Dean's bed. Dean furrowed his brow and stood up instantly.
"Cas...what's wrong, what happened?! Why are you crying?" Castiel reached up and blushed lightly feeling his wet cheeks.
"Oh...no nothing Dean, sorry for waking you..." Dean pulled Castiel into a hug and rubbed his back.
"Did you have another nightmare?" Cas tensed and slowly nodded. "I thought you stopped having those when we graduated.." Cas bit his lip and shook his head.
"Come on," Castiel let Dean pull him towards the bed and watched as Dean lied down and scooted over. He reached over and pulled Castiel's hand lightly. Cas bit his lip before laying down next to him.
"Just like old times...remember how I would always do this when we were younger?" Dean smiled against Castiel's temple and pulled him close before rubbing Cas' back.
"This doesn't bother you?" Castiel mumbled softly into Dean's neck and Dean gasped softly before tensing.
"N-No Cas...this is me comforting my best friend after a horrible nightmare. I've done this since we were younger...this doesn't bother me." Dean smiled as he realized he was telling the truth and he was extremely comfortable. He relaxed and gave a small smile when he felt Cas wrap his arm around his waist and press his body close.
"Can you set an alarm for me? I have to be up early to get to my test." Dean nodded and kissed Castiel's temple.
"Get some rest, I'll wake you up when it's time." Castiel blushed and snuggled his face into Dean's neck even more before slowly reaching over and taking Dean's hand in his. When he didn't feel any resistance from the green eyed beauty, he interlaced their fingers and gave a small squeeze.
Dean chuckled and squeezed back. "What are you doing after class tomorrow?" He knew his plans but he wanted to make sure he heard right.
"Moving my things into Gabriel's room..." Dean nodded and smiled
"I'll help you Cas...there's too many things for you to carry on your own." Castiel smiled and nodded before yawning.
"Go to sleep now." Castiel nodded again and let his eyes fall shut as he focused on Dean's breathing and heartbeat.
Dean bit his lip and rolled his eyes. He cursed and mentally kicked himself for leading Castiel on...It was only going to hurt Cas more when they got divorced. He said he'd be his friend...this was what they always did minus the hand holding when they were younger. He heard a soft snore and smiled as he looked down at Cas, Dean gently and slowly raised his hand to run his fingers through Castiel's hair.
Dean didn't want to admit his feelings for Castiel, he knew they were something he shouldn't feel. To Dean it was unnatural...he was teased when his other friends had found out he was in love with the blue eyed boy. The things that happened to him when his feelings were out really hurt, and he didn't want Castiel to have to go through the same thing. So Dean laughed off his feelings and started dating other girls to keep his mind occupied. He knew if Cas had ever found out about his feelings they would both be bullied and he didn't want that. At least not for Cas. Now as Dean lied down with the same blue eyed boy he couldn't help but wonder what would happen if he let his feelings show.
"Dammit Cas...what the hell are you doing to me..." Dean sighed and set an alarm on his phone before closing his eyes and falling asleep.
