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Chapter 9
I didn t know what to do I over examined things in my room trying to shut my mind off. First thing that was running through my mind was Demetri had just asked me to marry him, and I said yes. However, I was still married to Edward. Secondly, I was pretty sure Heidi hated me and wished to all the world that I would just spontaneously combust into flames . Thirdly, I missed everyone so bad, Ren especially. I even missed Edward. I didn t know how to explain it. A part of me would always love Edward. After all, we had been through so much together. He was my first boyfriend, my first love, my first sexual partner, my first everything. He was the one who changed me, and he is my daughters father. We would be forever bonded. I knew Edward would never talk to me again, and that killed me. I knew exactly what he was imaging would happen when he showed up here in Volterra and what actually did happen were two completely different outcomes. Edward was blindsided and knowing Edward, it wasn t going over well.
I thought of Emmet and smiled. I missed him and his goofy self. I missed Rose and her cynical mind set and her outspoken nature. I sighed and then went to the stained glass window that was in my room. It was too foggy to see out the window but the glass shone with a wonderful hue of a different array of colors. I ran my finger gently over the tinted glass. It reminded me of Esme and I frowned. She looked so disapproving and disappointed in me. Carlisle, I sighed again, Oh Carlisle. All that he did for me, all that they did for me, sacrificed for me. I just tossed it away. I hope they understood I did it for her, Renesmee. I had to get out of this room. I decided I was going to go for a walk to I grabbed a hooded sweatshirt and my hand bag and walked out of the room. I was walking down the long corridor to the outside world and Jane suddenly walked out of one of the side doors. Oh boy Jane always made me so nervous. I knew she couldn t hurt me. I guess I was nervous about impressing her. I wanted her to be pleased with me. I smiled at her and waved awkwardly.
"Hey Jane." I smiled at her.
Jane's usual stern scowl slowly melted into a smile, and she almost looked innocent. She kind of reminded me of Ren.
"Why, hello Bella." She walked up unusually close to me and wrapped her arms around my torso pinning my arms to my side. I kinda just stood there frozen anyway smiling as best as I could.
She let go of my and I nervously crammed my hands in my back pockets and smiled at her again, awkwardly. I pointed the direction I was headed and looked at her.
"I was just heading out for a brief walk" I rocked on my heels and looked dreamingly down the long corridor, longing to be walking in solitude and peace. Jane looked at me thoughtfully and smiled.
"Care if I join you Bella? I have been wishing to speak with you and I do think that now would be an appropriate time." She looked me over, I was wearing a pair of old holey jeans all frayed and faded, my favorite jeans, and a Ramones T-Shirt.
"Bella you cant go out looking like that." She said as she waved her hand at me.
I nodded at her and held up the hooded sweatshirt I had tucked under my arm.
"I know" I replied to her.
Jane smiled "Okay, just checking." She turned back and looked over her shoulder. I will be right back. She look off and within a moment was standing in front of me again.
"Okay, I am ready" She was now wearing a reddish orange hooded sweatshirt.
I laughed and headed back down the corridor with Jane now at my side. We walked in silence though and for this I was grateful. I turned and looked at her briefly and looked back at the fountain we were walking past. I wouldn t even have an idea what I would wish on, if I were to make a wish I shook my head.
"What seems to be bothering you, Bella?" Jane asked and then I noticed she was looking away from me as she spoke. I shook me head and laughed it off like it was nothing.
"Oh It s nothing." I looked at her and she still wasn t looking at me.
She looked at me briefly and she looked completely unconvinced before her eyes moved on to the next thing.
"Right, Bella." She sighed and sat down on a park bench. I followed her and sat down next to her. She was looking at a flower that hung down next to us from a large plant.
"Well Bella, maybe I will tell you something, a little of my background. Then maybe you will feel more comfortable sharing things with me." She peeked at me from the corner of her eye before she started. Her hand fell from the flower she had been touching.
She looked straight ahead and didn t move at all. She looked like a young girl who was about to cry. I looked at her wondering my self how she came to be.
"My father worked a lot, when I was a human. He was always away on business meetings far away and when he was home he was always at the office or shut behind his office door at home." Jane paused and stood up keeping her back to me.
"One day my mother left me and my older sister, at home, so she could go to the market to get some things." Jane slowly started walking to the railing next to the river that ran along the walkway. "I remember that day, I was outside playing on our old tire swing. Betsy, my sister, was sunning her self on the porch and listening to one of her favorite song on her new portable radio she had gotten for her birthday, a week prior." Jane turned around and leaned against the railing. I uncrossed and recrossed my legs listening to her story.
Jane continued with her story "I remember hearing a man saying hello, and I ran and told my sister someone was there." Jane paused with so much hurt on her face she looked down.
"It was a police man coming to tell us our mother was involved in a serious car crash and we had to go to the hospital with him to join our father, who would be flying in within a few hours." Jane turned back around so her face was hidden.
"We got to the hospital and mum was bad." Jane shook her head making her perfect pony tail swish back and forth. "She didn t know who we were and she kept shaking and her eyes would roll in back of her head." Jane paused.
"She died before our father arrived." When he showed up she was so grief ridden he acted as if we didn t exist, Betsy and I. Betsy was the one who held me, and told me that she would always be with us, and she would be in a better place " Jane trailed off for a moment. "She told me someday, we would all be together again." Jane spun around and walked back over to me and sat back down on the bench, still avoiding eye contact.
Jane sighed and continued with her story. "Well father, he hired us an au pare to take care of us, and he became less visible. He also established a drinking habit. We hated it when he was home. He would get all sloshed in his study and then come and harass us. Eventually the harassment turned into violence. He started the beatings one day while Betsy and I were playing hide and seek. Betsy accidentally broke one of mums vases." Jane cringed and looked away. "Father was absolutely livid and took his belt off and beat Betsy till she was purple and welted all over."
Jane went back to examining the droopy flower and started her story again. "He must have liked it, beating us, because it became and everyday thing. I think once he started beating us, he was home more and more. He was addicted to the drink and abusing us. He then took to sexually abusing me and my sister. We hated it at home and we vowed we would escape one day." Jane looked at a butterfly that went floating by and suddenly if fell from the sky and laid on the ground twitching. I looked at Jane and she was smiling. I was glad she couldn t hurt me. The butterfly lay on the ground for a moment before twitching to life and flying away wasting no time.
"As time went on, I was so hurt, and so angry. He seemed to pick on Betsy more than me, maybe because she was older, maybe because I looked just like mum and he didn t want to hurt me, I don t know, never will know." Jane looked at me. "He killed Betsy one night. He came home from work, already three sheets to the wind. I was practicing my piano and Betsy was preparing dinner. He came into the kitchen and raped her, with me in the next room, listening. I hid under the piano and covered my ears with my hands and closed my eyes tight, praying that it would be over soon, and that Betsy wouldn t have to suffer much longer." Jane stood up again. "She had pork chops on the stove and whilst all this went on, the pork chops burned. He picked the cast iron frying pan up and hit her in the head with it." Jane stood completely still hugging her self.
"I didn t see it, but I heard it. The doffing cracking of bones, the ear piercing scream my sister let out right before the cast iron skillet smacked her in the temple, it was the last breath she ever took." Jane slowly walked up to a tree and leaned against it, her back to me. "He left the house, most likely to get more beer. I left my hiding place and crawled to the kitchen. Blood was every where, and there lay my sister, my only real friend, and the only person left in the world that I truly cared about, with her eyes rolled back in her head, body completely lifeless, in a pool of her own blood on the kitchen floor. I was filled with so much rage. I kissed her forehead and shut her eyes and whisper how I loved her in her ear. I stroked her hair and I left. I took off out of the house and into the woods. I traveled on foot for hours, through almost the entire evening and well into the late night early morning. I had no destination, only to get as far away from that house and that life and that monster that my father had turned into."
Jane turned around and faced me again. She looked pure evil. Once again glad that she couldn t hurt me.
"I remember falling down, twisting my ankle on two rocks. I was sitting there crying to my self, holding my knees, sobbing into them. I just wanted to kill my father, I wanted my mother back, and most of all I wanted Betsy. I could hear her words of wisdom in my head, saying its okay Janey, everything will be okay, we can make it through this." Jane looked at the ground. I stared at her my jaw gaping at her.
Jane smiled "Four men came out of the shadows, circling me. As the got closer I could tell one of them was younger, around my age, he was beautiful I thought." Jane looked up and smiled. I was thankful the evil looking Jane was gone.
Jane walked back over to the bench and sat back down looking slowly to me. "They asked me if I was lost, and I told them I ran away, they asked me where my mum and father were and I told them my mum was dead and my father had just killed my sister and was probably looking for me so he could kill me too." Jane focused her eyes past me and watched an elderly couple hand and hand walking down the path, she waited until they were out of earshot before she continued again.
"They asked me if I wanted to come with them, and I agreed. They took me here." Jane waved her arms around. "They introduced me to Marcus, Aro, Caius and Carlisle." Jane smiled at my reaction to Carlisle s name. "The beautiful vampire introduced himself to me as Alec, he said that he was very interested in me and would like to introduce me to his lifestyle. Three or four days later, I woke up a newborn vampire." Jane looked at me and smiled innocently.
Her sweet features were adorable. Although, I would never tell her that to her face. I looked at her and smiled back. "Jane I am sorry you had to go through all of that, it sounds very traumatic." I really didn t know what to say to her. Jane just told me her life story. I had to tell her what was bothering me.
"Well Jane " I began. She looked at me and walked back to the bench and sat down closely next to me and she put her hand on my leg. This made me feel a little uneasy but I did let it slide. "Demetri asked me to marry him," I started "But, I am still married to Edward." I sighed. "I feel like my whole life has been uprooted and I have been thrown into a completely different life." I ran my fingers through my hair.
Jane looked thoughtful for a moment.
"Well you kind of did, you were pulled from Forks with no warning, brought here, but you made the choices that led up to today." Jane said waving her hand.
I nodded "I know" I said. "I miss everyone, though" I looked away from her. "I even miss Edward, and he hates me, he said he wished I was dead." I dropped my head wanting to cry.
"Bella, you proclaimed your loyalty to us, you are a part of this coven now. You will always miss them and you can still talk to them, but this is your family, and this is your home. If you are uncomfortable about anything, just let us know, we will try to accommodate you." Jane said once again avoiding eye contact.
"Thank you" I said looking at my hands. I looked at her with a serious face. "I don t want to eat people" I watched her head slowly turn and she looked at me for a moment before bursting into a fit of laughter.
"Well, we will have to see what we can do, for you then!" She said still laughing through her words. She then stood up and held her hand out to me. "We should probably get back, before they get worried." She looked to the clock tower and it was almost sunset.
I nodded and stood up with her.
"Your right we should" I started walking back with Jane on my side, now feeling a little closer to her. "There is something else" I said looking at her out of the corner of my eye.
The sides of her mouth curled up into a smile. "Heidi right?" she said in almost a giggle.
I gaped at her. "How?" I said stumbling over my words. Yes even as a vampire I get tongue tied and triturated. "Did you?" I swallowed hard.
Jane laughed and gently touched my shoulder. "Heidi talked to me the other day about it. You know, her and Demetri were always kind of an unofficial thing. Now she feels that she was thrown away the second you came in the picture. She really can t stand you." Jane looked at me after saying the last part. "Don t worry, Heidi is harmless, that s why we use her as bait." Jane laughed.
I laughed with her. I still felt unsure about the situation. I would get over it, I just needed to sit Heidi down and have a long talk with her. Maybe I would ask Jane to sit in on that conversation, as a neutral voice.
We returned to the castle and Demetri was pacing the entrance corridor. Gianna threw her hands up in the air. "See!" She said loudly as we walked through the doors. "I told you she was with Mistress Jane, she was fine!" Gianna shook her a head and went back to typing something into a computer.
Demetri hugged me tight and picked me up and spun me around. "I was nervous about you baby." He said looking deep into my eyes.
I laughed "nervous about what?"
Demetri looked away "I was afraid you fled on me. To run home to Renesmee and Edward and the rest of the Cullen's."
I pulled his face back to looking at me "Baby, I would never do that to you!" I said to him. I was shocked that he would even consider the idea let alone think and worry that I would follow through with it.
He picked me up and cradled me in his arms and we flew through the long corridor. I played with the small curls of hair around his ears. I loved him, of this I was certain. Everything else, was lost somewhere deep inside my head, and I needed to figure it out.
We got back to the trophy room and everyone was gathered there. I smiled at everyone and Marcus looked absolutely pleased by the sight of me.
Jane rejoined me and handed me a yellow package. I recognized right away that the handwriting was Ren's I jumped and ran over to a vacant corner and sat on the floor. Demetri and Jane came and sat down next to me and watched as I opened the package. It contained five letters two pictures and a cell phone. I glanced at the letters, One was from Rose telling me of all the new things that were going on around Forks. One was from my mother, wanting to know what was going on in my life and blabbing on about how her and Phil were going to Figi for Christmas, but if I wanted to come home she would cancel the trip. Another was from Jake. I set that aside because it was a couple of pages long and I wanted to read it in private. One was from Edward, I set that aside as well, it was only one page and it wasn t too long, but again, I wanted to read it in private. Finally the last was from Ren. I held it up and began to read it .
Dear Mom,...
Chapter 9 done and chapter 10 is not far away..I hope you enjoyed it!
Love Demetri and Bella!!
