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"Hey, what're you doing all the way out here?" Alex asks curiously as she spots Casey sitting on a secluded fence. "Are you alright?"
Casey shrugs her shoulders and refrains from looking at the blonde as she continues to stare out at the landscape. "I'm fine." She replies quietly, sniffling as her emotions start to get the better of her once again.
Alex winces as she climbs on to the fence and takes a seat. "Don't give me that. You've been crying again, haven't you? Oh god, it's because of Jen again isn't it?"
"She's just a little upset again…that's all. But she should be. I was doubting her again." Casey replies before she sighs shamefully. "It's my own fault. I shouldn't have asked you to talk to her. I made things worse on myself by doing so."
"You're making excuses for her again." Alex states quietly as she shakes her head in disapproval. She hisses and winces briefly before her hand travels to her abdomen. She attempts to play the gesture off casually, but unfortunately for her, it doesn't go unnoticed.
Casey frowns and tilts her head to the side in curiosity as she takes note of Alex's body posture. "I should be the one asking you if you're alright. What's wrong?"
Alex shifts uncomfortable before awkwardly shaking her head. "Nothing's wrong. I just got hurt tending to one of the horses earlier, that's all."
Hoping down frown the fence, Casey stands in front of Alex before she pulls her to her feet. Her hands travel to the bottom of the blonde's shirt before she looks up expectantly. "Can I see?"
Alex chews on her lower lip nervously before she slowly nods her head. She tries to keep her heart rate and breathing in check as Casey begins unbuttoning her shirt from the bottom up. Her breath hitches in her throat when she feels soft hands ghosting across the sore spots of her abdomen.
"Sorry if my hands are cold." Casey murmurs as she examines the bruising across the lieutenant's stomach. In her examinations, she can't help but see and feel the definition of well toned abdominal muscles beneath her fingers. She remembers that she thought the very same things when JJ made love to her the very first time and the thoughts alone cause her to shudder. "You should be more careful. I think it might help if you find something to put on it and it may help potential swelling if you go find some ice."
"Y-yeah…I-ice…" Alex murmurs as she continues to focus on the gorgeous woman that is now redoing the buttons on her shirt.
When Casey reaches the top button, their eyes lock deeply as if they're speaking to each other through their simple gazes. Slowly, Alex moves down slightly yet gradually to where their lips are only centimeters away from each other The breath of their air is commingling as they continue to slowly move closer to each other. That last bit of distance is closed and their lips meet one another in a soft kiss. The kiss is innocent, nervous, and light despite the power that it withholds.
Without thinking, Casey presses her self up and into the taller blonde, succeeding in deepening the kiss. She wraps her arms tightly around Alex's neck and her heart soars when she becomes well aware of the hands on her hips, continuing to pull her closer. Their hearts beat as one and Casey can't fight the moan that escapes her lips when she feels Alex's hands lightly grave the flesh just above the waistband of her jeans. Her moan deepens when their tongues meet and the talented muscles begin a synchronized dance for dominance.
Like a ton of bricks falling from a three story building, Casey suddenly becomes fully aware of what she's doing. She breaks the kiss and shoves her self away as her eyes widen in pure shock at what she's just done. "O-oh my god. Oh god I—I'm so sorry." she whispers as she places her hand over her mouth.
Alex runs her fingers through her hair and quickly shakes her head. "No, Casey. It's alright. Really. It's okay."
"No. No, it's not okay." Casey exclaims as tears slowly begin to well up in her eyes. "I just…oh god, I can't believe that I just. This isn't right. You're her sister and I'm…I…oh god, I'm sorry…"
"Look, Casey, it happened and it wasn't supposed to but it did. You don't have to be sorry because of that alright? It's going to be okay?"
"No! It's not going to be okay! I..I love her! And I just…I just kissed you! I can't do this right now. I need to go. I need to be alone."
"Casey, wait!" Alex calls out right as the redhead turns and sprints in the opposite direction. She goes after her but stops after a few meters when she realizes that she's most likely not going to catch up. She snatches her hat off her head and throws it to the ground in anger as she swears loudly. "Fuck!"
Casey sprints back towards the guest house until her legs and lungs can't take it any longer. She reaches the porch and immediately begins gasping for air and sobbing at the same time. Had she really just made out with her fiancée's sister? She had; and now she feels like the lowest scum of the earth for doing so.
She places her fingers to her kiss swollen lips as she still feels the tingling sensation flowing through them from prior events. The mere thought of how it felt brings tears to her eyes and her guilt slowly begins to swell up like a sponge. A strangled sob escapes her lips and she puts her hand over her mouth to attempt to keep from making anymore noise.
When she's finally able to calm her self down, Casey takes several much needed deep breaths and tries to will away the nausea from her guilt. She quietly enters the guest house, dead set on reaching her bedroom so she can curl up and cry by her self for the next few hours. What she doesn't count on is running into her fiancée who seems to be waiting for her.
"Where've you been?" JJ asks seriously, though her tone is even and void of the anger that had been so eloquently displayed later.
"You needed your space, I needed mine." Casey responds with a small shrug, refraining from looking the blonde in the eye. "What's it matter to you anyway."
JJ sighs and folds her arms as she casts her gaze towards another side of the room. "Listen, about what happened earlier. I'm sorry okay? I don't ever really get angry like that."
Casey bites her lower lip and nods her head before looking down at the floor. "I know you don't…you were scaring me…" she mumbles honestly. "You came in here yelling and angry and I didn't know what was happening simply because you never act like that."
"I'm sorry. I had no intentions of scaring you and I had no intentions of making you think I was upset with you. I was just upset and general and I guess it just kind of bled over. I really don't want to fight with you anymore, Casey. I love you and it kills me every time we fight like that."
"I know…" Casey replies quietly once again. In all honesty, if she had a dime for every time Jennifer told her that she was 'sorry', she would be able to quit her job and live entirely off of those dimes for the rest of her life. The sad thing is, she doesn't know whether or not that's a bad thing or something that she should just learn to deal with. "I don't want to fight either." She concludes, pausing before she looks up again. "Will you…will you hold me for a little while? Please?"
JJ closes her mouth and nods her head as she takes Casey's hand, quietly leading her back towards the bedroom. She lies down on the bed and opens her arms for Casey where the redhead silently crawls into them.
Casey rests her head on her lover's shoulder and takes a much needed deep breath. Unfortunately, with this deep breath, comes tears and she finds her self sobbing quietly into JJ's shoulder where the blonde begins to softly stroke her hair.
"It'll be alright." JJ says quietly as she continues to run her fingers through her lover's hair.
Casey fights the urge to respond with a sharp 'no it won't' simply because she doesn't want to explain to her fiancée why she is crying. She knows that she probably should tell JJ what happened, but what with everything that's going on in the moment, she just can't bring her self to do so.
She also knows that this puts her into a very compromising position. What is she supposed to do now after what happened? Despite the dire consequences, Casey can't help but feel like telling would be the right thing to do. But at the same time, she doesn't want to. She doesn't want to deal with the massive explosion that would occur from what she's done.
Later
Later on, JJ opens her eyes and yawns to realize that she had fallen asleep. Judging by the weight on her shoulder and the even breathing on her neck, she can only assume that Casey did as well. Quietly, she gets out of bed and tucks her fiancée in warmly before she turns to head out and find her sister.
It doesn't take long for her to find Alex who is typically somewhere near the horses. She finds her sitting on a fence near the stables watching Allegra run around freely and do whatever it is that horses do.
"I don't need you apology." Alex says stiffly without looking at her sister but acknowledging her presence. "I don't need your apology to know that you're sorry for what you did. That's your signature move. You do something rash, then you apologize for it later, so it didn't take a nuclear chemist to figure out that you were going to come and apologize."
JJ hangs her head and leans against the fence her sister is sitting on. "I'm not sorry for what happened; I'm sorry for how it happened. You really hurt me with what you said Alex. You hit a really sore spot and while I did let my anger get the best of me, you shouldn't have been pushing like that to begin with."
"I had to know, JJ." Alex replies, still not looking at the younger blonde. "Casey is…she's a good person alright? And I know how you get sometimes. I've known you all your life, remember? I just don't want you to…hurt her." she trails off, blushing as she recalls what had happened earlier in the day.
Now she knows why she can't look at her sister at all. How could she after she had betrayed her like she had? She had done the one thing that she had promised her self that she wouldn't do; and that was let her emotions get in the way and cloud her judgment. She let her emotions take over and in conclusion, all she ended up doing was violating the trust the she shared with one of the most important people in her life.
"I'm not going to Al." JJ states with a small shake of her head. "There's no other woman I would want in my life other than her and I don't know what I would do with out her. We're getting married now and I promise that I'm going to do better but I just…I just need her to trust me, you know? I need her to trust me like I trust her. She's been nothing but faithful and there for me this entire time and I guess I just…I have taken her for granted haven't I? I haven't mean to, but I guess with work and everything, it's just happened. But I promise I'll do better from now on, simply because I don't want to see her hurting anymore."
"That's a good start for you." Alex replies as she hops down from the fence. "The two of you make a great couple."
"Thanks. It's good to know that I have a sister like you I can trust, you know? Some siblings don't get along at all…ever, and they borderline hate each other, but I'm glad we aren't like that. I'm glad I can trust you with pretty much anything and you'll still be there for me, just like I'll be there for you."
Alex can't help but hang her head as she nods slowly. "Yeah, same here." she murmurs as she starts to rub the back of her neck. "Same here…"
Hmmm, leave your thoughts?
