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Time: October 1993 (Eleven months later)

Missing

"Let me just go make sure my dad isn't home before I let you in"

Tara searched all the rooms of her house to make sure her father wasn't home although his cutlass wasn't there. She wasn't going to chance bringing someone home if he was there and out of his mind drunk. Everything was in the clear.

"All clear Wendy"

This wasn't Wendy's first time inside Tara's house. In fact, Wendy has stood over Tara's house numerous times since their first conversation in the cemetery a year ago. Strangely, these two opposite women seem to have found a common ground that they could tolerate together. Besides having one parent that can barely hold on their own without relying on their children, Tara and Wendy seem to have a lot in common. Music, movies, food and their hearts. Wendy may seem like your average easy A bitch but behind those layers Wendy isn't the young woman she makes herself seem. She is genuine, brutally honest, caring and just like any normal teenage girl, she's lost.

Since Tara, if you will, "took Wendy under her wing" she's brought Wendy into a new light for education. Tara does a lot of studying and reading when they're hanging out leaving Wendy no choice but to do exactly what Tara does if she was going to spend the nights there. Other nights, Tara would come home, clean up, do homework and cook dinner for her father with Wendy and Tara would make enough for Wendy to take home as leftovers for Wendy and her mother. After that, they would go over to the Winston's and spend the night. Some nights Jax would also spend the night after his late night hook ups with busty blondes.

"Hey how long we gonna be here before we pick up Donna?"

"Uh not too long, I just have to cook something up for my dad and I'll leave him a note saying I'm sleeping over Donna's"

"Your dad doesn't say anything about you staying the weekend?"

"Na, he's too busy drowning himself in his sorrows to even notice. And if or when he gets upset it's because he forgot I left him note and then thinks I left him" Tara shrugged her shoulders as she began to pack her clothes. Although she was saying she was spending the night at Donna's, Tara, Wendy and Donna were going to spend the weekend at Piney's cabin since the club will be away on some business in Eureka.

"Is this weekend plan even still on, I haven't seen Opie in school all week." Wendy threw herself on Tara's bed

"Yeah I believe so. I mean that's what Donna said..come to think of it the last time I saw Opie was Wednesday night." Tara stared in space thinking if something happened but then shrugged her shoulders. Surely if something happened to him she would have been told and all mayhem would have broken out. "Maybe he just skipped school with Jax. You know how those two are" Tara grabbed one of her shirts and hit Wendy with it. "Get off my bed and let's make something quick to eat before he gets home."


About an hour later Tara was wrapping up the food while Wendy was doing the dishes. The phone rang as Tara shut off the stove.

"That's probably Donna commanding to know where we are" Wendy hollered from behind her shoulder.

"Hello"

"Tara! Oh my god!"

"Donna? What's wrong? Are you okay?"

"It's Ope" Donna was sobbing uncontrollably.

"What do you mean? What's wrong with Ope?"

"His..mother.." Donna kept sobbing over the phone Tara could barely make out what Donna was trying to tell her.

"Donna…"

"Oh god Tara.."

"Donna! Stop. Where are you?"

"What the hell is going on Tara?" Wendy was now standing next to Tara.

Tara held up her pointer finger.

"I'm at Opie's with his dad and Jax"

"Okay, Wendy and I will be right there in a sec" Tara hung up the phone. "Let's go, something is up with Opie."

"What do you mean? What's wrong?"

"I don't know. Donna was crying too hard, I couldn't understand her. She's at Ope's with Piney and Jax"

Wendy ran to Tara's room to grab her shoes and jacket and ran out to Opie's behind Tara. Donna was sitting outside with Jax. Jax was holding Donna close while she was crying onto his shoulder. They both picked up their heads when they head running footsteps towards them. Donna got out of Jax's hold and ran up to Tara.

"Oh Donna" Tara brushed her hand on Donna's hair and rubbed her back with her other hand. After a couple minutes Tara lifted Donna's face between both of her hands. "What happened?"

"Ope's mom took him"

"What!" Tara and Wendy said in shock at the same time

"W-What do you mean she took him?"

Jax cleared his throat and walked up to the questioning girls. "Apparently, Piney and Mary have been going through some shit. She doesn't want Ope to be like her old man and took him somewhere with her on Thursday morning. Club's looking for her."

"Piney didn't notice anything last night?"

"He didn't come home. He stood at the cabin and when he came back today he saw her and Ope's shit was gone" Jax hung his head low. Tara got out of Donna's grasp and gave Wendy a look to comfort her as she made her way to Jax.

"I'm so sorry Jackson." Tara hugged Jax. At first, Jax didn't reciprocate the hug. He just had his hands in his pockets as she held on tight to him. "I'm so sorry baby" Tara whispered in his ear. And that was the key that unlocked his statue position. Jax wrapped his arms around Tara's waist and held her more tightly than her hold on him was.

"Alright nobody died here, so you kids can cut the shit. We'll find my son" Piney pushed his way through the teens and went to bike.

"Where you going old man?"

"Clubhouse. JT thinks he has a lead"

Tara looked up to Jax and then Donna. Both eyes filled with hope.

"We have to go to the clubhouse!" Donna held to Jax

"I don't have anything to drive Donna and I'm sure the four of us ain't gonna fit on the back of Piney's bike."

"We can walk" Wendy shrugged as she shared her option.

"Then let's get a move on it!" Donna demanded as she grabbed Wendy by her arm and charged forward with her.

Jax and Tara gave each other a look and chuckled. Jax held his hand out to Tara and she laced her fingers between his and the four of them walked towards the clubhouse.


As they entered the SAMCRO lot, the four of them were shocked to see how empty the garage was. There was no mechanics on site. Gemma's office door was closed, the bikes of the members were aligned in their assigned spots but there was not one soul on the property. Or so it seemed like. As they entered the clubhouse, it still seemed so quiet.

"They must be having church" Jax let go of Tara's hand and took a step further in to look around.

"Oh baby" Gemma made her way to Jax as she threw her arms over his neck. "I'm so sorry"

"It's okay ma, JT and Piney will find Ope." Jax gave his mother a kiss on her cheek. "Where is everybody?"

"Your dad sent the workers home and called church. Some of the girls are in the back getting ready for dinner"

Jax nodded his head as he made his way deeper into the clubhouse. Gemma made her way to Tara.

"How you doin baby?"

"I'm okay. Shocked that Mary just took him away"

"Don't you worry bout that baby. She'll get what's comin to her. No one takes a members son away from their father." Gemma placed her hands on her hips and gave Tara a reassuring stern look. Only that look sent chills down Tara's spine. The way she spoke about Mary and how she implied "She'll get what's comin to her" made Tara realize to never cross any SONS member or her. Gemma looked away as she caught the eye of a very pink and puffy Donna.

"Oh baby, it's gonna be okay" Gemma took Donna into her embrace and held her just as she did Tara and her son moments ago. "Everything is going to be okay darling. They will find him and bring him back to where he belongs. Right back to you" Donna looks up at Gemma in awe. Donna loved Gemma. She was so strong, mentally, physically and emotionally. She was her idol.

Donna knew that if one day she was going to be Opie's old lady, she needed to be strong. And what better way to learn than from the queen herself? Donna had dreams of her own and she had to remind herself that she was only fifteen. This thing she had with Ope could either be her high school sweetheart or the love of her life.

Jax reappeared in the bar lounge and took a seat right next to Tara. The double doors of the church opened up, each of the members had a look of determination on their faces. Piney however, appeared to look drained out. Jax thought maybe it was the amount of alcohol Piney consumes on a daily basis. Gemma got up from where she was sitting with Donna and Wendy.

"What's goin on baby?"

"We think she took Ope somewhere in Phoenix"

"Phoenix? Arizona?" Gemma looked confused

Jt nodded his head. "We're gonna head up there now before it gets too late. Hopefully will be back in time tomorrow to pick up what we need for Eureka."

Gemma nodded her head. "Prospects going with you?"

"Na were gonna leave them here with you and the kids." Clay made his way over into the conversation.

"Yeah. Clay thought it'd be best for them to keep an eye on things here, you and the kids. Make sure Tara stays with you tonight baby" JT gave Gemma a kiss. But this kiss wasn't the kiss they shared since Thomas passed. It was more feeling into it. It took Gemma by surprised. She couldn't help but wrap her arms around him and give him a kiss she has wanted to give him in a long time. When they pulled away Gemma noticed JT turned to Clay and gave him a glare. Clay bowed his head with a smirk and walked away.

"Let's get a move on men. Prospects you remember your jobs?"

"Yes sir" Kozik nodded

"Absolutely" Tig nodded his head but said it with a lot more reassurance.

"Well alright then. Let's go."

"Call me to let me know you're alright baby" Gemma grabbed JT's hand as he walked passed her.

"I will" JT turned to step out when he saw his son. "Jackson."

Jax got off of the stool and made his way over to his father.

"You alright son?"

Jax didn't give a response he just nodded his head.

"Look, we're gonna find him and bring him home. Tara is spending the night with you and Gem. You look after the girls. I love you son" JT embraced his son into a man hug.

"I love you too pop" As JT left Jax felt a pull on his hand.

"Did he just say I am staying with you and Gemma?"

"Yeah babe"

"But I was thinking of staying with Donna. You know she needs me and Wendy."

Jax took a step closer to Tara, ignoring that all eyes were on them. "I need you babe" Jax said it low enough for only Tara to hear.

Wendy and Donna both watched Jax and Tara. "Hey Tara, I got this. Stay with Jax and Gemma. I'll stay at Donna's"

"Are you sure"

"Sure. Me and Wendy will be fine. I'll call you tomorrow or you guy's call me as soon as you hear back about Opie."

Jax nodded in appreciation. He always tried his best to hold what he feels about Tara to himself. Donna and Wendy made their way over to them and said goodnight.

"Uh girls" Gemma called out to Wendy and Donna. "The prospects are going to gift you a lift after we eat dinner"

"Oh it's okay Gemma. Wendy and I can walk"

"Nonsense. You'll eat here and they'll take you home no excuses." Gemma gave them a look and turned to walk in the kitchen with the rest of the old ladies.

'Well guess we're eating here" Wendy shrugged. "Anyone wanna play a game of pool?"

Jax, Tara and Donna nodded.


"Tara you can stay in Thomas's old room" Gemma nodded even though she seemed a bit unease with that statement.

"You sure? I can just sleep on the couch Gem"

"Or with me" Jax offered but that got him a glare for both the women of his life.

Gemma shook her head at Jax and turned her attention back to Tara. "No baby, it's okay. In fact, a couple months ago I redid his room. Turned it into a guest room."

"O-okay" Tara felt a bit uncomfortable with staying in Thomas's old room even if it was redone, his presence still felt alive in this house.

"Come, I'll show you how I redecorated"

Tommy's room was beautiful. You can tell Gemma did everything she could to wipe away the memory of a little boy. The walls were a cream color, cherry wood furniture with a full size bed and the curtains held up was a deep red. It was absolutely beautiful. Gemma embraced her territory by placing some of her plants in the room.

"Oh wow. Gemma. This is beautiful. You did such a beautiful job."

Gemma can see Tara's look of awe she had for the room. Gemma nodded and smiled. And then a thought appeared. Gemma hasn't seen Tara's room in years. Did her father even bless Tara with renewing her room as she got older? What kind of bed did she have, did she still have the lavender color on her walls? Gemma didn't know. But the that thought that appeared in her mind satisfied her.

"It's yours."

"What?!" Tara and Jax's face was priceless. Both unexpected looks.

"Originally this was to be a guest bedroom. The guys sleep at the clubhouse, Jax is here or at Opie's, and you. You're usually home or at Opie's as well. But I want this room to be yours. Whenever you feel you need to escape, you can come here. This is your home too baby"

"Gemma.." Tara was shaking her head in disbelief. Gemma held up her hand to stop Tara for rejecting.

"Look, I'm not saying to move in, just if you need somewhere to go.." Gemma shrugged her shoulders. "You can come here"

Tara was quiet for a moment. She looked at Gemma and to Jax. Both eyes filled with hope in their eyes. She wasn't sure if this was a good idea considering things with Jax. The past eleven months since last Thanksgiving, things have been smooth sailing between them both. It would be nice to know she has other options besides the Winston's.

Tara walked over to the bed and placed her sleeping bag on the floor. She took a walk around the room. She placed both of her hands on her back as she observed the room. Tara made her way back to the bed and hopped on.

"Okay" Tara nodded. "I would love to stay here whenever I need to escape. It's an honor to have a place here with you guys" Tara hopped off the bed and hugged Gemma and Jax. Gemma kissed Tara on the top of her head as she smoothed out Tara's hair with her hand.

Gemma took a step back and looked at her son and her daughter. "Now you two, there are rules with you two. Do I have to explain them or can you two compose yourselves?" Gemma had her pointer finger out but the direction of her finger and her stern mama bear glare was to Jax. Tara let out a light laugh.

"We'll be fine Gem. Scouts honor."

"Yeah yeah. Well goodnight babies." Gemma kissed both her children and headed towards her room surprisingly at the far end of the house.

Tara turned around to see Jax sprawled out on her bed. "Hey! You heard Gemma, no monkey business"

"Come on babe, I'll behave" Jax shrugged his shoulders and smirked to Tara. Tara was grinning like a school girl. Tara had one of her knees on the bed. Jax took this opportunity to reach out for Tara's hand and pulled her down to him.

"JAX!" Tara yelped as she fell onto Jax's chest. Tara tried to pull herself up but Jax already had his arm wrapped around her bottom waist holding her in place. "Come on Jax, I need to shower"

"Already you're handing out an invitation? I gotta say babe, we'll get along just perfect if you're offering shower time with you"

Tara slapped Jax's chest. "Ugh! I'm not offering anything. Now get out" Tara tried her best to give Jax a serious stern look but he just kept smiling like a big goof and her serious stern look was broken off quickly.

"You're adorable when you try to play dominate babe, but you gotta know by now I will be the one who tells you what I want you to do to please me"

"Oh yeah? And what in your right mind makes you think I'll do what you tell me to do?"

Jax rolled himself on top of Tara and she took the chance to throw him off the bed.

"SHIT!"

Tara was on the bed hysterically crying from laughter that she hadn't noticed Gemma come running to the room. Gemma looked worried when she saw Jax on the floor.

"What the hell happened?"

"Nothin we were just messin" Jax got up and shrugged off the pain he was feeling on his back

"Actually, your little prince was refusing to get out of my room." Tara batted her eyes to the two.

Gemma slapped Jax upside the head. "Shithead! What did I just say Jax? Enough goofin around and go to bed"

Tara stuck her tongue out to Jax who in return flipped her the bird as his mother and him walked out of her room.

"Goodnight Teller" Tara said oh so innocently

"Night Knowles" Jax hollered as he walked to his room that was just across the hall.


Although this room was redecorated gorgeously, Tara couldn't find her place. She kept reminiscing of the times she shared in this room with Tommy, Jax and Opie. The four of them were absolutely inseparable. She was happy to have a new place to call her home and with people who actually gives a rats ass about her, but this didn't feel right. Tara didn't want to feel like she was replacing Tommy.

How would JT feel about this? Did Gemma talk to him about it? Were they both in the place to redecorate the room? Or was this something that had been put off for years and they realized at some point they had to face this? How would this work with Jax? Should she tell her dad?

Tara's mind was absolutely going out of control with questions. Maybe she should just talk to Gemma in the morning about this and ask her if JT would be okay with this as well. Tara turned to look at the time on her nightstand, 3:07 am.

Jesus was it late. Tara felt a bit hungry and thirsty. Just as she was about to get up from the bed she heard a light knock on the door. It scared the shit out of her. Got her so freaked out to the point where she thought some paranormal activity was going on.

Tommy? Tara's eyes got so big. She pulled the covers over her head and turned the opposite way from the door.

"Tara?" Jax whispered. Tara didn't turn around. "Tara you up?" Jax whispered again, this time placing a hand on her shoulder that was hidden by the sheets.

"Jax?" Tara whispered in question as well as in relief

"Yeah"

Tara pulled the sheets down and turned to see him. Surprised he was shirtless and just had pajama pants on. Tara now thought she was dreaming.

"What are you doing in here?"

"Couldn't sleep." Jax just shrugged still standing on the side of the bed.

"Me neither. Kinda hungry."

Jax smiled spread across his face. "Let's go to the kitchen babe" Jax held his hand out to Tara and she gladly took it.

Jax noticed that Tara was not wearing her bra. He also took noticed Tara seemed to be cold. Jax smiled even wider.

"What?" Tara looked at him confused. Was her hair that messy?

"Nothin, cute shorts babe." Jax turned Tara towards the door as he pushed her out with him following with his hands on her back.

"I gotta pee first"

"Want me to just grab stuff and meet you back in the room?"

"Yeah sounds good" Tara hurried to the bathroom. Her post paranormal activity freak out almost got the best of her.

Tara climbed back into her side of the bed when she heard Jax walk in. Jax's hands were completely full of drinks and junk. Tara giggled as she saw him struggling not to drop anything.

"Here let me grab some things there macho man"

Jax grabbed some fruits, chips with dip, cookies, soda, juice and water.

"Man you really have an issue with over packing munchies Teller"

"I didn't know what you were in the mood for so I grabbed a couple of things" Jax just dropped on the food on Tara's bed

"Hey! Watch it! Gemma will kill me if I got any stains on the sheets the first night I spend here!"

"Babe she'd kill you on any day if you leave a stain on her new sheets" Jax chuckled


Tara and Jax stood up in her bed just talking about everything they possibly could. Some was just talk about things that seemed so irrelevant. Like "I wonder why the sky is so blue" Tara turned to look at the time 4:28 am. Jeez it was really late.

"Do you ever think about what other things you can do or want to do besides become a SAMCRO member?"

"Na. You kidding? I'm like heir to the throne. My father started this amazing life. Brotherhood with an edge. I love it. I can't wait for me and Ope to pick up our cut and patches." Jax noticed that Tara just smiled and nodded. But there was something more. "Why? What do you think about?"

"I want to do what my mom did-"

"Nurse right?"

"Well yeah, she was a Neonatal nurse practitioner. I want to take it to a whole new level" Tara eyes gleamed with ambition.

"What do you mean?"

"I want to be a doctor, a surgeon Jax. I want to help people, I want to heal. I'm going to become a neonatal specialist, perform surgery. I know it's something my mom always dreamed of before she had me"

"Tara, you're not the rea-"

"I know that. She's told me a million and one times that before. This is something I shared with her. Science. Health. Helping people. And I'm promising you, Gemma and JT one thing. I'm going to find out how to cure and prevent your mother's condition. Kids, who have that, like Tommy. I don't want to feel useless. I want to save lives."

Jax heart skipped a thousand beats when he heard Tara mention Tommy's name. But, it skipped a thousand more when she made a vow to help people with conditions like his mother's, his and Tommy's. Jax was about to lean in and kiss Tara like a boy who hasn't eaten in days but was cut off when Tara spoke.

"I just need to get outta here first you know?"

"W-what? What are you talking about? You can't go anywhere Tara."

"Sure I can. I can go to school down in San Diego, then transfer to a four year school, do my internship, residency and then develop my practice"

"How long does that take?"

"Well schooling takes a couple years. Internship is a year, residency is three to five years depending on what you study and to develop a practice is even longer. Takes a lot of hard work and dedication. Overall, ten to fifteen years maybe twenty."

"Jesus Christ Tara!" Jax was mortified

"What?"

"Ten to fifteen maybe twenty years? Are you out of your mind? What about your family here? What about me? You're just going to leave this all behind?" Jax was angry, she hasn't even thought of her family let alone him

"Jax this is what I want to do. My family will always be here, you will always be here. I'll always be here for you"

"But you won't Tara. I mean hell, do we even matter? Do I even matter to you?"

"Of course I do! How dare you ask me that!" Tara's eyes was getting a bit watery. This was her dream. She was sure she can have this in Charming. Was she wrong? Why would he think differently? "Jax I want to be a doctor here, practice medicine just like my mom did. Of course I want to be here with my family and with you. I would just have to go to school first. I'm sure there is something around here."

Jax shoulders seem to have relaxed a little bit. He thought maybe he did get a bit carried away. She never said she was leaving for good. He just needed Tara to know that he needed her and she couldn't go anywhere.

"I'm sorry Tara. It's just..with Ope being gone right now..I don't want to lose you too. You need to know how important you are to me. I got a bit carried away"

"A bit" Tara let out a light chuckle. She moved closer to Jax and grabbed his hand. "Look, I didn't say anything was official. There is still a lot for me to figure out. But I do want to be here with my family. You guys mean the world to me" Tara lifted up Jax's hand and brought it to her lips just like she did the day they spent together.

Jax grabbed Tara's face with his hands and kissed Tara. This kiss beyond deep. Beyond passionate. It was beyond anything. What their kisses were was just beyond the abyss deep. Only they could feel exactly paired. Tara returned Jax's kiss. There was no tongue. Just their lips, together. Jax let go while still holding Tara's face into his hands. "Don't leave me, please"

"I won't" Tara stared deeply into Jax's eyes as she stated her words to him. "Come on, we gotta go to bed. It's late"

To Jax's surprise Tara pulled him down beside her and fell asleep together.


Gemma was up by seven in the morning. She took a quick shower and got dressed. She made her way into the kitchen to make some coffee and start breakfast for the kids. Pancakes, bacon, eggs and toast. Gemma made her way into Tara's room first knowing she would be less trouble to get out of bed. But to her surprise, she walked into the room to see food and drinks all over the table. But what was most concerning to her eyes was her son. He was in bed with Tara. Normally she would have let all hell break loose if she found her son in bed with a girl. But this was Tara. And her son. He was spooning her. She noticed how tightly her sons grasps was on this girl. Tara has been in his life since they have both been born. The sight of her son and Tara actually warmed her heart. But there are rules Gemma thought to herself.

"Come on kids! Get up!" Gemma yanked the sheets off of them both

"Jesus Christ ma!"

"'Jesus Christ ma?' Are you kiddin me? I told you two no monkey business and yet I find you here, in her bed. Get your ass up, wash up and let's go eat some breakfast. Your father is on his way" Gemma turned and walked out the room with a smile on her face.


Jax, Tara, Donna and Wendy all met up at the clubhouse while they waited for SAMCRO and Opie's arrival. When they all heard the sound of multiple Harley's rumbling each of them shared a smile. Donna hopped off the bench while she waited for Opie to come into her arms. They watched as each member passed by waiting to see a van pass by which they all assume Opie would be in. But there was nothing. Both Donna and Jax's facial expressions changed from anticipation to worry.

Gemma came out of her office and walked to JT. "Where is he?"

"I let him stay" Piney answered

"You what?" Gemma stared at Piney in disbelief

Piney didn't have a response he just walked towards the clubhouse.

Jax walked up to meet Piney but was cut off by a running and worried Donna.

"Where is he?"

Piney looked annoyed but let out a breath as he scratched his head. "Listen darlin, I let him stay with his mother"

"W-why? Why wouldn't you bring him back with you?" Donna sounded like she was performing a theatrics show. Jax walked up behind her and put his arm over her. Donna turned to cry in his shoulder once again.

"Why didn't you bring him home Piney? He belongs here, with his family." Jax was fuming. Piney could see Jax was becoming livid and although he felt bad for Jax, no one tells Piney where his son belongs.

"Listen up kid, you don't tell me where my son belongs. Ya hear me?"

"Son, listen to Piney." JT put his hand on Piney's shoulder.

"My son does belong with his family and his mother in case you forgot how genetics work shithead that makes her his family."

Jax sucked in his breath and nodded. Every member crowding them thought for one second Jax was going to do something stupid.

Piney took a step closer to Jax, JT took a step closer to Piney taking Piney's movement for something else. Piney lifted his hand and wrapped it around the nape of Jax's neck and pulled him in. "I'm sorry son" Piney looked down to Donna "I'm sorry darling" Piney pushed his way through into the clubhouse.

Donna made her way over to Wendy and Tara. Both of them embraced her and apologized immensely to her. As the three of them held each other, Tara looked at Jax. He looked lost and broken. His other brother was suddenly taken away from him. And Tara felt the same way. Opie was her brother and she was going to miss the hell out of him.

Tara walked to Jax and grabbed his hand. "I'm here. I promise" Tara stared into Jax's eyes deeply as she made her promise to him.

Jax nodded his head. He looked so hurt. And for the first time, Tara wanted nothing more but to kiss away his pain. "Yeah" Jax agreed as he embraced Tara into his arms once again. "Me too"