A/N Thank you so much to everyone who reviewed, alerted or faved my story, you guys are so great!

Many thanks to my dear Beta, All About Eric for her patience and support while writing this.

Disclaimer: none of these characters belong to me, they belong to Charlaine Harris.

A little warning: this story will change to M rating in the next chapter! Anyone younger than 18 years old - be aware.

I woke up with a start. I didn't know where I was at first, but soon all the recent events came back to me. Hadley sold me out to the Queen, Bill betrayed me, and I killed the Queen's child. Oh God! I felt my stomach tighten like I was about to throw up. My head began to spin and my mind got blurry. What would I do now? The Queen was going to kill me! And Eric! Oh God, Eric! He would know what to do… but…. where was he?

"Eric!" I yelled at the top of my lungs.

I looked around me but there was nothing to see. I was lying on the floor in a small room with nothing in it but me. Right in front of me was a heavy door made of something shiny. Silver, I mused. I am a prisoner.

Of course I was: I attacked the Queen and killed her child. I wondered if Eric was going to be able to get me out of this mess. If he would even want to help me. He'd told me that control was very important for a vampire and he was right. And now, because I hadn't learned this lesson fast enough, I was going to be punished, or even killed. And this time it would be for good.

I got up and started pacing. There was nothing I could do to change the things I'd done, but there had to be a way out. There must be a way for me to save myself.

The queen was smart and devious, or at least that's what Pam told me. She had to see that it would be better for her to use me than to kill me.

How strange this life had turned out to be…. Five nights ago when I first woke up in this existence, all I had wanted to do was end it all. I'd wanted to be dead, finally dead. But now I felt like I wanted to hang on with teeth and claws to this new life, to Eric.

I hoped Eric was okay and that he had not been affected by my mistake. I hoped he was safe. But if I was honest with myself I did not believe it. I reached through the bond to feel him, but there was nothing but a low hum from him. I did not feel any emotions coming from him, nothing. He must be asleep, so it must be daytime.

Oh shit! If someone saw me now, awake, I would be in more trouble than I already was.

Quickly I lay down trying to take up the same position that I had been in when I woke up. I reached out with my mental radar and I recognized a few Were brains. I got inside one and immediately I was surrounded by his thoughts. It was like being inside a scandal magazine: a lot of pages filled with nothing but bubbling. I tried to go through all the nonsense that was in there to see something that could give me a clue as to where I was, what was going to happen to me, and most important, where Eric was.

I discovered that I was locked inside one of the high security cells in the basement of the Queen's mansion, it was nearly sunset and Eric was locked in another cell, tied in silver. Oh my God! Why did they tie him with silver? I'm the one who attacked the Queen, he stopped me!

My body started glowing in the darkness of the cell. Golden patterns started showing on my hands. Calm down, Sookie. This is exactly what got you into this mess. Now remember what Eric said, control your emotions, they are weakness.

The bond inside me started coming to life. Eric was awakening! Pain shot through me and everything inside me burned. So this was what it was like to be silvered. How could anyone stand this much pain and not go insane? How could Eric survive this? He must hate me now; I'm to blame for all this. He once told me that I was so much trouble and I guess truer words had never been spoken. I was only a few nights old as his vampire child and look where I'd got him.

I reached though the bond and tried to push love and remorse towards him. I didn't know if it would work but I had to try something, to help him someway. But then I felt him shutting down the bond and I felt empty. He had left me alone. I reached again with my mind looking for him and I found him a few cells to my left but I couldn't get inside his mind. Why was it that I could read the mind of every creature in this world, but the one that really mattered to me had his mind forever closed? No attempt at breaking the barrier that surrounded his mind was successful. It was like an impregnable fortress. And I was locked outside.

Two Weres approached my cell and unlocked my door. I kept my eyes closed.

"She doesn't look very heavy; I'll throw her over my shoulder so we can get her to the Queen," one of them stated.

"Isn't she supposed to be awake by now? The sun has already set."

"She's very young; the young ones need a little more time to wake up. She should be awake by the time we reach the Queen's court."

One of them grabbed me roughly and threw me over his shoulder and they both started walking. I started struggling as if I was just waking up.

The Were holding me threw me to the floor and the other one held a gun to my face.

"Stop moving or I shoot you right now!"

"Who are you, where are you taking me?" I tried to look as frightened as possible.

"The Queen wants to see you, so you'd better start walking right now, she doesn't like to wait!"

"Okay, just let me get up."

They stepped back a little so I would have enough room to get up and then they both grabbed one of my arms and started dragging me towards a big door guarded by two vampire guards.

"This is the Stackhouse woman," one of the Weres stated.

"The Queen is waiting for her," said a vampire guard.

We went into a big room decorated in white and gold with dark wood floors covered with thick carpets. There was not a lot of furniture except for the throne that the Queen was currently occupying. A few vampire guards including the Berts were standing in front of her and Hadley was standing at her right with a scared expression on her face. I guess it was me that scared her that much. Good!

"Miss Stackhouse, you are here to be judged for your actions of last night. You are accused of treason, attempted murder of the Queen and murder of the Queen's child Andre Paul. Do you understand the accusations?" the Queen's voice boomed in the big room.

"Yes, your Majesty," I lowered my eyes so that she could not see the anger I held in them.

"What do you have to say in your defense, Miss Stackhouse?"

"Your Majesty," I kept my voice low and pleading and my head bowed "I did not plan for this. I didn't even know that I was capable of this. I just saw Hadley and remembered the last time she left Bon Temps and never came back and my Gran was so worried about her; she thought that she was in some trouble, and aunt Linda got cancer and suffered and Hadley didn't even call and now she's dead, and Gran is dead too and all this time Hadley was here. So I felt very angry. And then it just happened. I'm very sorry your Majesty"

"That's your explanation? You got angry because Hadley didn't call?"

"Your Majesty, I know it doesn't make sense now, but I'm not very in control of my emotions. The tiniest thing makes me cry and I get angry for no reason. I'm very new to this. I did not control my emotions very well. The first thing my Maker told me was to keep my emotions in check and I failed him." I raised my eyes towards the Queen and give her a pleading look. "He must be very disappointed in me."

"He should be!" the Queen shot me a glare. "Your mistake has cost him everything, including his freedom!"

"Please, your Majesty! Don't punish him for what I did! He was not aware of what I was capable of, and he stopped me. Please!" I threw myself on my knees and begged. "Please don't punish him! I'll do anything!"

The queen stood and waved the Berts away. She came closer to me and grabbed my chin to look at my face. By then my bloody tears were flowing freely.

"Anything? Really?"

"I swear I'll do anything you ask of me, just let him go, please!"

"You there!" she spoke to a vampire standing behind me. "Bring Northman!"

The vampire left and another one came to stand behind me. He was holding a sword in his hands, ready to cut my head off at my first movement.

It wasn't long before the vampire came back with Eric. I turned my head slowly and then I saw him. He looked pale, paler then usual, with stripes of burned flesh across his neck and hands, his back was hunched and his head was bent like he was carrying a big weight on his shoulders. He did not look at me. He went to one knee and rested his elbows on his knee.

"Your Majesty," he spoke.

'Sookie nod slightly if you can hear me.'

I was lucky that I was still on my knees and with my face turned towards Eric otherwise the Queen would have noticed the look of joy that crossed my face. Barely moving my head I nodded.

'Good, now I want to know what you told the Queen. I told her that I knew nothing of this power that you had and I didn't know what came over you to make you act like that, did you say anything more?'

I held my head still so he would know that I didn't say anything.

'Now try not to say anything unless the Queen asks you something and then you listen to what I tell you to say, you understand?'

I nodded. I felt inside me the bond open just a little. He was still in a lot of pain.

While we were having this silent conversation, the Queen took a laptop and hit a few keys and then she came towards Eric turning the laptop so he could see the screen.

"Explain this!"

She hit a key and Eric watched the screen intently. A few moments later he answered.

"Your Majesty, I can't explain this. It has never happened before. Sookie has been a vampire for only five nights, she is very emotional still. I remember that I warned your Majesty that she was too young to come before you, that she still had a lot to learn before being in such high company, but your Majesty insisted."

"I am aware of that Northman," the Queen snapped "but I don't recall you telling me that your new child was this dangerous! Not to mention that she is immune to silver! How could you miss this?"

"I did not know; I'm sorry I failed you, my Queen."

He bowed deeply, still on his knee. I am immune to silver? I guess that explains why I was not wrapped in silver chains when I woke up.

"I am very disappointed in you. You were my most trusted sheriff and yet your child tried to kill me! My child had to sacrifice himself to save me! That should have been you!"

"Yes, my Queen."

"You know I should end you for this?"

"I know."

"But I can't help but realize what a great asset Miss Stackhouse would be for me with the proper training. And who better to train her than her own Maker?. Do not think that I will forget what happened, Northman, your position and financial holdings are still under suspension. Do you understand my offer?"

"Yes, your Majesty, I am very grateful that you are giving me this opportunity to prove that I am your loyal subject."

"Do not fail me again, Viking!"

"I will not."

"Good, now command your child never to attack me or mine again."

"Sookie, as your Maker I command you never to attack Queen Sophie- Ann or her subjects."

I felt the familiar ropes of his command tying me, suppressing my freewill. The Queen was not stupid, nor did she take any chances.

"Good, now you and your child will be hosted in a special apartment that has its walls and door lined with silver, just in case; Rasul will lead you," she smiled an evil smile. "Tomorrow night you will begin your training, until then, rest and feed well; you will need all your strength in dealing with your child."

"Yes, my Queen, thank you for your thoughtfulness." Eric bowed. I followed his lead and bowed to the Queen and then we walked after Rasul.

The apartment was very luxurious, decorated in rich colors with a four-poster bed draped in sapphire blue and thick carpets with beautiful dark blue patterns and a vanity table with a small stool upholstered in blue velvet. It would be a fantastic apartment if we were not prisoners in it. Rasul left without so much as a word and locked the door behind him.

'Do not say anything to incriminate yourself, the room may be bugged' Eric thought at me.

I nodded and then I approached him and lifted my hair off my neck.

"You need blood, please take mine."

He looked deeply into my eyes and sighed, then he took the base of my neck in his right hand, circling my waist with his other hand and buried his fangs in my neck.

Everything seemed better, easier. I knew that I had Eric so the rest didn't weigh as much. Whatever happened I knew that we would be together and somehow we'd get over this.

He ended his feeding and licked my wound closed. Then he took my hand and led me towards the bathroom where he turned the sink taps and the shower too.

"This way they cannot hear what we say," he whispered in my ear. "Now tell me, little one, what exactly did you see in the Queen's mind that made you go ballistic on her?"

TBC

A/N Special thanks to Jaxg and Jan of Arc for their help with some phrases that I was struggling with.

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