Once again, I'm back. I wanted to reach at least a hundred reviews, but sadly that probably won't happen. I don't even know who is still reading this story. Uggh. Anyhow, I think I will be ending this in two chapters. The end has come and I am ready to complete this and move on to my other stories, that I have basically abandoned.

So yeah...thanks for those who have read it.

The song that I dedicate to this story is "Cancer" by My Chemical Romance.

Warning's: My spelling and grammar errors, hints of yaoi, Alfred's OOCness and other's OOCness. Yeah.

No flaming.

Disclaimer: I do not in any way, shape or form own Hetalia or the song.


We rushed to the hospital and hope settled in my heart. Maybe everything was looking up for once. But when I reached the front desk and asked for my brother, the nurse's face went pale. She told us to hold on and went to get Dr. Smith. Prussia sat down and studied me.

"Matthew, I know this isn't awesome of me to ask or anything, but why are you so angry with Arthur?" That stopped me from my pacing. I looked at him and frowned. "That's not really important...but he betrayed Alfred. That's something you don't do to someone who loves you."

I slapped my hand over my mouth, when I realized what just came out. Prussia smiled. "Of course. Everyone knows that those two are very much in love." Ludwig nodded and

Veneziano walked over to sit with him. I opened my mouth to speak when I noticed Dr. Smith hurrying over to me. "Mr. Williams thank goodness you're here."

Panic set in and I felt a hand grab mine. I looked down and sat that is was Prussia's, who squeezed it gently. "W-What's happened?" The old doctor looked at everyone one for a brief second and then back at me. "Alfred has woken up and has been asking for you." A smile reached my face for the first time in days.

"Alright." He then lead me to his room. Reaching the door, I stopped and took a breath. Gotta remain calm for my brother. I opened the door and what I saw made my heart stop. Alfred, so pale and thin laying in a giant hospital bed with thousands of machines hooked up to him. There was an IV pumping stuff into him and for a minute he looked dead. Until his dull eyes met mine.

"M-Matty" he coughed, "Come here." Tears welled up and I felt myself walking towards him. He smiled up at me weakly. "Why are you crying?" I couldn't answer him and just broke down again.

I felt a hand on mine and when I looked back up, he was smiling again. Damn his smile. "W-Why are y-you smiling Alfred?" I asked for the first time. Alfred just chuckled weakly.

"Matty...Matthew, why shouldn't I smile? I mean I lived a great life- well not all the time, but still. I've experinced all that I've wanted to and-" he broke off coughing. I patted his back and the nurse shot a disapproving frown at me and handed me a cup of water. Gently I place the cup at his lips and he drinks, before carrying on. "and I have you by my side."

Tears fall from my face and he reached up and brushed them away. "Stop crying baby brother." At that I smiled gently, before a thought stopped me.

"Uh...Alfred there's something I need to tell you." He looked at me patiently. "W-Well the thing is, Arthur and France discovered your diary and well by now all the nations, uh..know about your cancer." I whispered the last word.

A moment passed and I thought he wouldn't talk until I saw that he was still smiling. "Well at least everyone knows. Matthew is...is Arthur coming to see me?" The hope in his eyes killed me. And I didn't want to tell him. But I had to.

"Alfred I'm afraid that he isn't." The smile fell a little but he slipped it back on quickly. "I get it. Matty can I ask you a favor?" I nodded. "Can you get me my journal?" I grew puzzled but I nodded again. "Of course."


April 30th, 2012

I haven't really used this thing have I? Anyhow, I just wanted to write in you again because I know my days are numbered. I was told that I have a month left, but I don't think I do. I can feel it. My life is draining away and I know I will die before that month. It could be weeks or even days, but I know deep down in my heart that its going to be soon. I grow tired, and thin. My hair has all but abandoned me and I can't even keep down food or anything. The doctor has me being fed through liquids.

So yeah. Matty told me what kinda went down and I'm hurt. Yeah. I hid my hurt through a smile and I think maybe my brother saw right through that. I know Prussia did. All of the nations have come to see me. That makes me happy. They all come together for once and I'm the cause of it. This is all I every wanted. I take that back.. Arthur hasn't come. And I get that. He thinks that I betrayed him and lied. But I did it to protect him. Maybe I was being selfish and everything... but I love him to much. I wish I could tell him. Who knows, maybe I can?

Any how I think I have to go, the doctor wants to do something and I think it involves needles..yay! :9

Thanks for listening to me again.

May 7th, 2012

So here I am again. It's getting harder. I hate to sound like I'm whinieng and everything. But it is. My body is still getting weaker and I can barely move now. Everyone still visits me, but Arthur. I'm not sure if I should be happy or sad by that fact. Yes I understand that he's hurting, but I want him by my side. I want to tell him that I love him and I want- I just want him.

On another note Russia or should I say Ivan, has called me a good friend. He's even gone so far as to smile at me. I'm kinda scared.

Ludwig has tried to be gentle, but after a day, I told him to stop.

France has surprisiling less prevey. And Matthew has been the strongest of everyone. I'm proud of him.

I'm getting tired again, I think I'm going to head to bed.

Night.

May 12th, 2012

My body is offically shutting down. I can't even lift my hand anymore. You're probably wondering how I'm writing then. Hhehe you silly diary. Anyways, Veneziano offered to write for me. He and I have become really close. Veneziano is like my little brother and now he is hugging me gently.

Anyways, back to my body shutting down. Yeah the doctor confirmed my fears. I don't want to die, but at least I will be surrounded by those I love. I have given up hope that Arthur will come to his senses and come see me.

Going to go try and eat something. Maybe I can keep it down.

May 13th, 2012

This is going to be my last entry. I don't really have much to say and I grow tired and weary. After I pass, and I'm telling Matthew to tell everyone this, I want them to read my journal. Maybe it will help with the closure and everything. Cause I know that this won't be easy for most. Though I feel like not everyone will be upset.

I just want everyone to know, that these few weeks have been the best of my life. They made everything easier and helped me smile even more. It has been hard to smile through it, but they helped me. And I hope that after I pass, they come together and not fight all the time. I know its a long shot and will take time, but its time for everyone to just grow up.

But thanks to everyone they have made my last days here on earth enjoyable. Although I wish Arthur would still come and see me.

I love you Arthur.


I put down the pen and watch as Alfred's breathing becomes more shallow. "Alfred?" I asked softly, panicing. He opens his eyes. "M-Matty?" I nodded and tears stream down my face. "You okay?" He nods softly.

"Please get Arhur" My heart stops. "He won't come Alfred." He looks at me softly and smiles.

"Please try Matty." I nod my head. "Of course"

Walking out of the room, heads all turn to me and I shoot a small smile at them. Picking up the phone, I diall his number for the hundreth time. A couple of rings pass before he finally answers.

"What do you want Git?"

"Get your ass over he idiot. He keeps asking for you." Silence. "I don't want to see him."

"He's dying asshole. He probably won't make it to the end of the week." There's a long pause and finally Arthur speaks. " I will be there in three hours." With a click, he hangs up.

I walk back into the waiting room and France looks at me. "Iz he coming?" I nodded and Romano shouts. "It's about damn time the bastard comes!" I nod and go back into Alfred's room.

He doesn't look to be breathing and run up to him. "ALFRED? ALFRED?" Finally he opens his eyes. And I hug him to my chest. "I-Is he coming?" He asks quietly and I nod. "Yeah."

"Good"

*Arthur*

I reach the hosptial in disary and run to front desk. "Alfred Jones!" She nods and points at the lobby and I run over to were the other nations sit. But as I make my way over, something doesn't seem right. Everyone's crying. Oh god.

Running over to them I yell frantically. "WHAT HAPPENED?" Most didn't turn around and I felt a sting when I realized the Veneziano punched me in the jaw. "He's dying you bastard. Right now he's dying and where have you been? He's been asking for weeks for you to come and you now decided to show up!" I look away, ashamed. "I know, but I couldn't stand to him him that way."

Italy hugs me softly. And Matthew comes out of the nearest room, eyes red from crying. He looked at me and points. "Get in there now." I nod. And go in.

When I walk in, my heart stops. There is my love dying, possibly dead. He looked so small and pale. Machines hooked up all over him and the tears fall down. "A-Arthur?" I hear a weak voice ask.

Beep, Beep, Beep, Beep, Beep.

I walk over to him and he smiles. "Y-You made it." I nod. "Of course" I take his hand.

Beep, Beep, Beep, Beep,Beep

"I'm sorry I haven't been here for you." And he just smiles a little. "It's okay I knew you would come." I bend my head down. "How can you forgive me so easily? After what I did and said."

Beep, Beep, Beep, Beep, Beep.

He tries to push my head up. I pick it and stare at him. " I forgave you because I love you Arthur." A gasp escapes my lips and he smiles even more. "Yes Arthur I, Alfred F. Jones have been in love with for a hundred years."

Beep, Beep, Beep, Beep, Beep.

I look at him for a moment not saying anything. "It's okay if you don't love me back." came a weak reply. I stare back down and him and before I know it, I place my lips over his.

"I love you too." His famous smile reached his face.

Suddnely a loud beeping surrounded the room and his eyes closed. . "Alfred? ALFRED? ALFRED?" Nurses and Doctors rush in and try to push me away, I don't budge. His hand still in mine. He opens his eyes one more time.

"Arthur I love you so much and I'm- I'm glad that I got to tell you." His eyes slammed shut and the heart monitior flatlined. I fell to the floor sobbing. Alfred was dead.

So yes. There y'all go. This chapter was hard to write. I wanted to cry so much and I almost did as I listened to Cancer. Arthur made it on time. Finally.

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