No Goodbyes
Chapter 9
Carrying on from the last part...
"Get off him!" Abi cried as she desperately tried to rip her husbands hands from her ex-boyfriend's neck. Yet he was relentless, seeing red he pushed Jay harder down into the pillow making Abi recoil her hands from his in pain. Straining, Jay rolled his eyes towards Abi, he could see the horror draped across her expression, seeing her this frightened gave him the strength to bring up his right fist and smash it straight into the left side of William's jaw. Abi looked down at William on the floor and then she looked to her left and stared at Jay, how could her life become so messed up and confused within a matter of days, she though to herself. She wasn't sure what it was but something needed to be done, so she leaned down and grabbed her silk floral dressing gown from the floor, and wrapped it around herself, tying it up tightly to hide her modesty. She stormed over to the other side of the room and pulled William up checking out the damage Jay had done in the process. "Downstairs, now!" She said to him sternly giving him evils at the same time. William looked at Abi and began to walk out of the room glaring at Jay, Jay glared back and Abi rolled her eyes at their immaturity.
She started to walk out of the room, picking up the bunch of cheap roses in the corner, "Abi?" Jay said, questioning where she was going.
"Get dressed!" She told him calling over her shoulder, Jay was confused, she seemed annoyed at him, he began to question what he truly meant to her.
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Abi strolled into the kitchen to find William pulling everything out of the freezer, trying to find something. "What are you doing?" Abi asked angry that he'd messed up her food system.
"Looking for an ice pack." He told her looking in her direction admiring her beauty with puppy dog eyes.
She noticed him doing this and bowed her head to the floor smitten as she always gets giddy when he looks at her with his flirtatious eyes, she quickly thought of Jay upstairs and snapped her head back up again, "Don't look at me like that, you know what it does to me." She spoke softly before kneeling on the ground next to him and pulling out an ice pack from the top draw of the freezer and slapping it into his palm. She wandered over to the table and sat down placing the roses in front of her staring at them sadly. He looked at her unsure what to feel and sat down next to her placing the freezing ice pack against his blochy red jaw bone before squirming at the pain. "Here let me do it." She said to him sternly before taking it from him and pressing it carefully on the area that was now starting to swell.
"Anyone would think you're the doctor in this relationship." He joked but she just looked blankly at him.
"What relationship?" She said to him putting more pressure onto his face, he flinched pulling his face away and looking at her confused. "Doesn't feel nice does it, being hit." She spoke with pain piercing in her voice.
"I was wrong to do all those things, it was sick, disgusting." He admitted to her. "But please, if you just give me one chance for me to show you that I've changed." William said, begging her.
"I give you chance after chance William, yet you keep blowing it! I don't want to be treated like a toy." She explained to him.
"You're not a toy baby, you're my princess."
"Why should I believe that?" Abi questioned him.
He thought for a second and said, "Abi, I may seem like a monster at times but my heart beats for you. I'm in love with you, I feel connected to you!"
"If you feel conneted with me then why get me the wrong bunch of flowers? You know how much I hate roses, lillies are my favourite, they always have been!" She revealed to him, tears beginning to burn her eyes.
William felt extremely guilty about making her come close to crying, but he wanted Abi back, he needed her back. "I'm sorry darling." He apologised. "I was going insane back at that motel. I wanted to make things up with you. I love you, I know we've both made mistakes but we can both overcome them!" She still didn't look conviced. "Abi. I need you. Without you by my side, I can do crazy things...very crazy things."
She didn't know whether to feel threatened by what he'd just said but she decided to ignore it, like she always does. "Look Will, I love you, you're my husband, of course I love you, but I've got Jay upstairs lying in our bed, and I'm in love him, I always have been!" She admitted to him. "And it's taken me until now to see it."
"You don't love him baby!" He said to her softly.
"I do!" She told him.
"He took advantage of you." He told her. "Upstairs in our bedroom, on our bed, he took advantage of you." Abi shook her head not wanting to believe him, but he knew how to manipulate her, he knew how her brained worked and he used it against her. "You were vulnerable, me and you, we'd just had a falling out, you didn't know what to do, or what to think, so you turned to the person who seemed to have all the answers, and he used you baby, I'm sorry."
"No, you're wrong, he'd never do that, he loves me." She said with confusion and disbelief of what he was saying.
"He just wants to be a Dad to JJ, he doesn't want you." William explained to her, lies seeping from his lips. "But I want you."
Abi was believing what he was saying, just like she had everytime that he lied to her. She didn't know what to do next, go with the husband who never treated her right, or go with the ex-boyfriend who said he loved her but could possibly be lying for the sake of their son. They both said that they wanted to be with her but she wasn't sure who really meant it. Then she thought for a minute and said, "How can you still love me?" She questioned William, he looked at her blank, not completely sure what she meant, she saw the puzzled look on his face and said, "I just slept with my ex!" She explained to him, "How can you forgive me that quick for sleeping with someone behind your back? If I did something like that before Jay came into the picture than you would have killed me, literally!"
He looked down at the floor unsure of what to say, he looked back into her eyes and held her hands, "Abi, I've completely changed, I know it's only been a couple of days but I needed that time to think about what I'd done to you, and it sickens me." A lonely tear then rolled down his cheek, Abi had never seen him cry and he knew this, he was starting to become an expert at deceiving his own wife but Abi had no idea of this. "We've both made mistakes, yours is lying upstairs, but we can overcome them because we love each other, right?" He waited anxiously as Abi made her decision.
"I love you to." She whispered. She wasn't sure if she meant it, but when she looked into his eyes she saw the love he had for her but she hadn't seen the deceit and lies hidden in behind that false love.
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After making up with Will, Abi remembered Jay upstairs, the man she loved but Will's web of lies made her blind to the fact that she loved Jay.
She knocked on her bedroom door, she was petfrified of the conversation that she was going to have in the next few minutes, so she closed her eyes and opened the door. Not wanting to see his face she kept her eyes closed and said, "Jay there's something I've got to tell you, I don't want to look at you because I know it'll be hard for the both of us, I love Will, he's my husband and no matter what he's done I still love him. So you should get your clothes on and go." She heard silence, he must of been in shock she thought, so she turned on her heels took a deep breath ready to walk back out the door, she opened her eyes and squeeled in shock to see Jay stood in the door way, now fully clothed. She turned back to look at where she orginally thought Jay was and realised that she'd been talking to an empty bed for the last minute or so. Abi stared at him, she couldn't help but feel envious for the woman that gets to spend their life with this amazing and beautiful man, sadly it couldn't be her, not anymore.
Jay looked down at the floor and Abi could see the pain in his eyes. "You're getting back with him?" He questioned her. Not looking into his eyes Abi nodded. "But he's sick, he hit you Abi?" Jay said, disgusted by thought of William touching the woman he loved.
"He's my husband." She said to him, her voice quivering as she closed the door behind Jay.
"And what am I?" He asked her, worried of her response.
Abi looked up at him and told him bluntly, "A mistake." She didn't like what was coming out of her mouth, it was William's words, not hers.
Jay was shocked, he couldn't understand what was going on, "You don't mean that. Please tell me you don't mean that." He begged her.
She took a deep breath in and said, "You can still see JJ whenever you want, I promise." She saw the confusion and hurt on his expression, "We're having a big dinner on New Years Day, you can come spend it with him, he'll want you there." This was breaking both of their hearts, but Abi knew that she had to be firm with him, William would want her to.
"So that's it." He said between taking sharp breaths to hold in pain he was feeling through this muddled conversation. "What about me and you? I love you!"
"And I love you but-" She was cut off by Jay's lips crashing into hers, Jay turned Abi so that her back was against the bedroom door and they kissed for a while, tresuring the moment before Jay felt Abi's hands press softly against his chest, pushing him away slightly and catching her breath briefly before saying, "But I'm married to Will and what we did earlier, it was wrong."
"No, Abi, no it wasn't, please." Jay pleaded.
He was silenced by Abi placing her finger on his lips, "It was a mistake Jay. A very pleasing mistake!" She said raising her eyebrows as she thought back to the events that had occured earlier in the day before snapping out of her trail of thought. "But nonetheless, a mistake!" She smiled at him sympathetically before she heard something, she placed her ear to he door and gasped slightly and mouthed to Jay, 'He's outside, he's listening.'
Jay saw the fear on Abi's face, he thought to himself that if Abi was so afraid of Will, the man she claimed to love, then why did she choose Will over him? Jay knew he had to do something so he pulled Abi away from the door carefully before placing, much to Abi's suprise, another kiss on her lips. Abi was confused, did he not hear what she'd just been telling him? Why wasn't he angry at her? She moved him away with a puzzled look on her face, Jay just smiled at her before opening the door which startled William."Hello!" Jay said cheerily to Will. William and Abi looked at eachother baffled, what was he doing? "Come with me!" Jay said still with a crazy grin on his face, William wasn't moving so Jay grabbed him by the arm forcefully and yanked him downstairs.
Abi was following behind, "Jay, what do you think you're doing?"
The two men reached the bottom of the staircase, they both stopped and looked up at Abi who was stood on the third step from the bottom, "Tell me that you love him." Jay said, "Tell me that you love him more than me. Tell me that you don't want their to be a me and you. Tell me that what we did upstairs on that bed meant absoloutley nothing to you and i'll leave, i'll walk right out that door and only come back when JJ needs me, not because I will fall out of love with you, but because my heart will be too broken." A tear began to run down Jay's cheek.
Abi was also in floods of tears, she didn't know what to do, now that Jay had layed out her option to choose him, she didn't want to let him go. But William seemed to persuade her everytime and he'd promised her he'd changed. There was an awkward pause for a few minutes, the two people that both wanted her waited anxiously while Abi stood, still only in a robe, crying and slightly shaking at the decision that she had to make. She knew what she wanted to do now, so she walked towards her front door where the two men were and opened it before saying, "Sorry." full of tears and looking toward Jay.
"You're making a mistake Abi." He whispered to her, pain seeping through his voice.
"He's going to change Jay." Abi said between tears. "He promised me. I have to give him a chance, he's still my husband."
Jay turned to William and pointed a finger towards him, "He will never change Abi."
Abi bowed her head, she knew that Jay was right, but she just covered Will's behaviour up with excuses in her mind. William could see Abi begin to unravell, he was beginning to become afraid that she'd change her mind so he said to Jay, "I think it's time for you to go, come and see JJ whenever." William didn't want to say that to Jay but he knew it would make Abi happy and trust him more.
Abi smiled at him while Jay rolled his eyes, "Don't worry, I will come and see my son whenever I want! Also I'll see you on New Years Day, make sure my son is safe with his step Dad." He said glaring at Will and looking scared for Abi and JJ as he walked out the door and into his car, he rested his head on his steering wheel before weeping slightly and driving out of the drive way.
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Back inside the house...
"New Years Day?" William questioned Abi. "You know my family's going to be here New Years Day!" He said furiously slamming the door.
"I'm sorry." Abi spoke quietly as she was choked up from what had just happened.
Will could sense that he was beginning to frighten her again. "Never mind." He said as he wrapped his arm around her. "If JJ needs him there then I'm okay with it."
Abi was confused, this wasn't the same man she knew a week ago, had he changed? Or was it just an act? She thought to herself as she nodded to what he'd just said.
"Anyway, you go and get changed and have a shower, you look awful." He said as he looked her up and down, she began to feel self conscious, he always wanted her looking like a perfect housewife. "Once you've done that you can cook dinner." Will told her before he pecked her on the lips and walked towards the lounge to watch sports.
"Can't you cook, I feel quite tired." Abi asked him politely.
"That will be all the sex you were having while I was gone." He said bluntly before turning around and giving her a spine-chilling stare and then he carried on walking into the lounge and laughing, "Water under the bridge now, we can forget forever about you and him together." He called over his shoulder.
Abi closed her eyes, maybe he hadn't changed, she thought, or maybe that was just him.
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Abi was sat on her bed after getting out of the shower, an outfit had already been layed out on the bed, William had put it there, he seemed to choose her clothes quite often, it was a part of the perfect housewife act she figured. She walked over to where Jay had been layed earlier in the day, she grabbed the pillow and smelt it, it had his scent on it, it was manly and gorgeous. Abi put it down quickly as someone entered the room. She breathed a sigh or relief when she realised it was JJ and not William.
"Mummy." JJ said. "Where's my Daddy gone?" He questioned her.
"Daddy not here, he won't be living with us anymore." Abi said upset.
"Why? I liked him!" JJ protested.
"You can still see him whenever you want." She said as she gave him a kiss on the forehead. JJ began to whimper. "Hey don't cry baby!" She said before pulling him into her embrace. "You have William still here, he's your step Daddy."
"I don't want him!" JJ said angrily "He's not nice, I prefer my other Daddy!" JJ thought while he cried. "Who do you prefer Mummy?"
Abi looked down at her young son and without thinking she said, "Your Daddy, Daddy Jay." She thought about what she was saying, "Oh I mean William, I prefer William." She said as she desperatly tried to persuade herself that it was true. William knew he had to persuade her as well, he knew this because he'd heard everything she'd just said. It seemed lurking behind doors was becoming his evil trademark...
Author's Note:- Hello, sorry it's been a while, hope you enjoyed the chapter;)
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