CPOV
OH Shit! that's the easiest way to sum everything up right now. Jace and I had almost kissed and now everything is going to be awkward. I mean, yeah I wanted him to kiss me its all iv ever really wanted but I don't want our friendship to get screwed up in the process.
I stepped into the shower and turned it on letting the warm water wash away my thoughts. It must have been and hour or so before I realised that the water was beginning to turn cold. I turned off the shower and grabbed a towel before opening the bathroom door and checking to make sure Jace was nowhere in sight. I tiptoed down the hall and as I turned the corner, I ran straight into Jace. The only downside of living with your male best friend is the off chance he sees you emerging from the bathroom in only a towel. Great life just got more awkward.
"Um… sorry Clary" he sad averting his eyes.
"Its ok" I said, blushing furiously. I stepped away from Jace and made a beeline for my room.
JPOV
Well that was…awkward to say the least. I wandered to my bedroom and shut the door behind me and sat down on the edge of my bed. What was happening. Was I beginning to feel something towards Clary? No, not possible she's my best friend for crying out loud! You don't feel this way about your best friend. I looked at the digital clock on my bedside table, it read 01:32 am. Next to it sat a picture of Clary and I mugging at the camera. I picked it up and stared at it.
I was so engrossed in the picture and remembering the day it was taken that I didn't hear the knock on my bedroom door.
"Jace?" I looked up startled and found Clary standing in my door. I put the picture back in its place.
"Hey Clary, everything ok?" I ask her, puzzled as to why she was standing in my room doorway. She laughed sadly to herself.
"No, not really" I got up alarmed.
"No, no im fine I just wanted to confess something else iv been hiding from you" she's been hiding more things from me?
"Uh…ok come sit" I gestured to the place beside me on my bed. She walked over and sat drawing her knees up so her chest and resting her head on them. We sat in silence, Clary looked like she was having an internal debate.
"Clary, you know you can tell me anything right?" I enquired. She laughed that sad little laugh again.
"Yes, but this…im not so sure about. All I know is that I don't think I can keep it a secret any longer" a tear slid down her cheek and she quickly swiped at it. I took her hand in mine and held on tightly. As I held her hand I felt a tingled where her skin touched mine. What the hell?
"Jace I…I love you" she said quietly, so quietly I almost didn't hear her.
"Clary, I love you too you're my best frie-"
"No, not like that, well yes like that, but more than that as well" I sat, dumbfounded at her confession. Clary, my best friend Clary, loved me? In more than a best friend kind of way?
All of a sudden Clary got up from my bed and turned to leave, I heard her sniffling.
"Im sorry I bothered you Jace" she said before opening the door.
"Clary, wait!" I grabbed her arm and spun her around. She stared at me with wide eyes that clearly showed she was surprised. I glanced down at her lips once before crashing mine onto hers. The kiss was slow and passionate and I couldn't believe what was happening. I was overwhelmed by the need for her and it was then that I realised that yes, I, Jace Herondale, have feelings for my best friend.
All to soon Clary broke off and gazed up at me. She opened her mouth to say something but I stopped her. I turned around and began to pace the floor, thinking that this couldn't be happening, I couldn't have feelings for her, I just couldn't. but she has feelings for me, she just confessed that she loved me.
"Jace? You ok?" I heard Clary ask.
"Uh…yeah, I think" I turned around and she stood in front of me, concern written plainly on her face.
"Look Jace, if you want to forget this ever happened, its ok, I realised a while ago that you would never love me back" and with that she turned and left the room. I heard her door slam shut.
"Way to go Jace" I told myself, "You handled that brilliantly. Idiot." I picked up our picture from my bedside table and stared at it before placing down again and, leaving my room, went to make amends with Clary.
So…um…yeah. They kissed! And I know Clary seems to run off every time something dramatic happens, and I apologise if this is beginning to irritate anyone. It looks to be that Jace is finding himself in a bit of a predicament. Idiot! I cant believe how badly he handled that! I mean come on! I could have done better.
Jace: Hannah, you had better watch that mouth.
Me: your just jealous that I could have handled that better than you *sticks her tongue out at Jace*
Jace: Hannah! Im warning you!
Me: fine!
Jace: good, glad that's settled.
Me: I still think you're an idiot.
Jace: Hannah! *I run away* anyway folks, update soon! I wanna know what you thought of my performance and not what Hannah thinks!
