I am going for an angst this time where we find that Ezra is scared over fire and the reason behind why. I intend to very soon release one of the stories behind the scars. The idea about the fire was suggested by a Guest on chapter 2 for suggesting it.


For many people fire was a source of warmth and a nice way to lightening things up. For Ezra it was a thing associated with destruction and dead. The crew had been hunted a lot lately and they had flown to a new planet Ezra did not know but it was beautiful. They were sitting on a green grasmark surrounded by trees and a darkening sky which had started to show its stars. It had been one of the wonderful stress free moment where the crew just enjoyed each other's company and did not worry about the Empire and running away from emperials.

At least the moment had been stress free until the darkness had started to linger and Kanan had lit a small fire to give them some warmth and light. For everyone else they had happily moved closer to the sourcer but for Ezra it had made his nerves set on edge. Ezra had hated the fire ever since … no he did not want to think of that.

The wind blew to the fire and it flickered and Ezra felt fear and scooped away from the flames not willing to come to close. Ezra felt scared and a part of him wanted to run away he did remember the fire. The smell, the heat, the …. no Ezra would not allow that memory to resurface he still remembered the screams, panic and effort to …. NO. Ezra shivered and held his arms around himself for comfort.

"Ezra what is wrong I can feel your fears. There is no danger here Ezra" Kanan tried to calm him.

Ezra felt no need to explain the real reason that he was afraid and smiled his best smile to Kanan.

"Yearh must have slipped my mind" Ezra said trying to cover up.

Kanan looked worried at him before returned to look at the fire. Ezra felt the panic creaping right back at him . Ezra closed his eyes but all he saw was flames and the smell of burning metal … and screams.

Ezra opened his eyes just a new wind making the fire coming close.

"AAarrgghh" Ezra screamed and moved away and curled together.

"Ezra" the crew called.

For Ezra it was like a sound from far away as the memories overwhelmed him.

Fire.

Smoke.

Screams.

People running around screaming, trying to get out as the flames came closer. The air was heavy with toxins from the fire and the terribly smell of burned flesh.

"AAAARRRGGGHHH" Ezra screamed while he heart was pounding so fast that it felt like it would pop out of his chest.

"Ezra" was voices saying.

Ezra was gasping for air as he opened his eyes and saw the crew standing over him but he had difficulty focusing on them. A light breeze was felt and suddenly he saw the flames flicker again. Fear reached him again and he tried to crawl away from the flames while also curling together.

"Ezra easy" Hera said as he tried to curl up together.

Suddenly Ezra felt a gentle warm feeling smooth him through his bond with Kanan and slowly he started relaxing a little more. With relaxing he was able to refocus and watch at the crew which was all havering over him.

"Ezra what is wrong?" they all asked.

Ezra opened his mouth but not a single sound came out, the fear still holding on to him. Suddenly Ezra felt someone scoping him up into his arms, and he realised it was Kanan that carried him on board the Ghost. Ezra saw the fire …. fire, smoke, screams. Ezra felt it like the ir was heavy, he could not breath .. air … AIR he needed to get away, screams.

Ezra was only half aware that he was laid down on a bed as he gasped for breath.

"Ezra try to relax, slow down your breathing and try to relax" Kanan smoothed.

Slowly, very slowly Ezra managed to refocus and saw that Kanan had taken him to his cabinet.

"Ka …. Kanan" Ezra managed to get out.

"Easy Ezra try to relax and when you are ready, then we will talk" Kanan said.

Ezra tried to make himself relax but his memory was threatening to overwhelm him. Suddenly Ezra felt warmth and comfort through his new bond with Kanan. Ezra realised that Kanan was trying to help him and he relaxed a little more and focused on getting his breathing even. Ezra was laying there for a while trying to reorganise his world. Ezra knew Kanan would not let him talk his way out of this one all though he really did not want to talk about it.. Kanan looked at him.

"Are you hungry?" Kanan asked.

"Yes please" Ezra said.

Kanan left and Ezra looked around desperately trying to find a way out of there. Even so there wasn't any way out besides the door and he was forced to wait on Kanan which came back with a tray. Ezra slowly ate the food when it was offered and Kanan kept an eye on him. First when he had have some food and relaxed did Kanan adresse him.

"So Ezra what happened out there?" Kanan asked.

"No please I don't want to talk about it" Ezra said.

"I know you won't but you need to. I am here to help you and I can only do that if you let me help you" Kanan said.

"I...I" Ezra began but could not find the words.

Love and reassurance reached him through the bond. Ezra took a deep breath and began talking.

"It was some years after my parents was taken and I had started calling the streets my home. The empire was looking for a rebel sympathiser and people started getting nervous about it so Governor Pryce called in extra troopers. I had gone to an arena where the was a concert. I could not afford the ticket but I had found that by climbing the vents I could get in. My thought that inside I could snatch a few credits from people's wallets because they were more interested in the music than me. However as I crawled through it I heard shouts and shots. It turned out the rebel sympaniser had sneaked in to disappear in the crowd. The troopers chased him and shot left and right and some of the shots hit a fuel tank for a part of the show where fire was meant to be projected. It exploded and started burning. People was panicking and running out and I saw it all. I remember the flames, the smell, the toxic air and people screaming. I have been scared of fire ever since" Ezra whispered looking completely white in the face.

"I am sorry Ezra" Kanan said as he gently brushed Ezra over the hair. Physical contact was something he wasn't fond of but Ezra would sometimes allow it.

"It is just every time I se flames it is all I can remember. Kanan why did it happen to me? Why?" Ezra sobbed and shuttering at the memory.

"Sometimes bad things happen Ezra. We can't control everything even so I am grateful that you made it out. I know the force sometimes puts you through hard situations but it is also in those moments we grow the most" Kanan said.

"It feels so wrong. I made it out but not everyone did. People was pretty angry over it but as always the Empire held their hands over Pryce the troopers" Ezra said.

"I know it is not fiar and I wish you did not had seen it but I know you can overcome it. You are stronger than most" Kanan said.

Ezra leaned into him and Kanan held him in an embrace silently, trying coming to terms with it.


A/N There it is, my first take on angest version. I do hope it is not to dark, I originally made it much darker.