sigh sorry again for the delay I've been really busy lately with work and starting school so i apologize and im also sorry this chapter isnt very long either. Thank you all very much for your wonderful reviews they really are what keep me writing so thank you again. Please let me know what you think of this chapter though, again it was not one of my favorite but i had to write to keep things going and finally get to the twist and all that good stuff lol. I think of it kind of like a bridge chapter, its not that great but the story wouldnt make senes without gets you from part to the next, but thats just me. Anyway, please enjoy and review!

I awoke, though I wish I hadn't, to the sound of a hissing vampire

I awoke, though I wish I hadn't, to the sound of a hissing vampire.

"When!?" I heard.

"…Edward?" I mumbled, but again I wish I hadn't, my throat ache more with the slight use of my voice, it was really rather irritating to not be able to talk, for once I wish Edward could read my mind.

"Yes my love?" Edward said, suddenly beside me. Even after all this time I was still not use to his ability to just suddenly pop up out of nowhere, I wonder if that would change once I was changed.

I tried to prop myself up, but failed too. I felt as if I had no energy at all, like all I could really manage to do was lay there. If something was about to hit me or fall on me I would not be able to move out of the way I would have to just wait for the pain.

Realizing how weak I was, Edward put his arm under me and helped me up. He cradled me in his arms and I leaned into him as much as I could using some non-existent strength to move closer.

"What is it Bella? What's wrong? What do you need? What can I get you?" Edward asked. His voice was full of worry and panic, it sounded as if he was having difficulty talking…like he had something in his throat…like he was about to cry.

I've never seen Edward looked so hurt; his beautiful topaz eyes were full of pain, my heart ache at the sight of them. His eyes were one of my most favorite things about him; I never wanted to see so much pain in them.

His angel like face was covered in agony, hurt, fear and just about every other emotion that could describe his pain and worry. His body seemed unsteady, like he was trembling maybe even shaking.

"Edward…what's wrong?" I choked out while I weakly reached out for his face, sadly my hand barely made it an inch off the bed, but he saw what I was trying to do and moved it up so my palm was cupping his cheek. I managed to move my fingers slightly to stroke his soft hard cheek while he leaned into my palm.

This is exactly what I was worried about happening, him becoming a complete mess over me. I can't stand this why does this always have to happen? Why must I always hurt the ones I love? I don't want him to worry about me to the point were he's like this.

But then a thought came back to me, the thought of him being the one laying in his bed well I held him up. I would look the same, no, I would look worse. I guess I can understand his reaction, but I wasn't that bad. Yes I have yet another illness and no one knows how or why they are all happening so quickly but I would be okay, it's not like I was going to die from this. Edward and Carlisle would heal me before that happened I would be fine, I just want him to be okay once I get better.

But he wasn't acting this worried before he left, yes I could tell he was concerned, but he was hiding it from me and he was doing his best to make me feel better. Now he was beyond the point of simply being concerned, he was practically crazed with the way he looked. So what happened while he was out to make this occur? He wasn't even making an attempt at hiding it.

"Nothing Bella I'm just worried about you"

"You weren't this worried before"

"You weren't this sick before"

"Edward" I said trying to sound a little more firm, I didn't want to hear his lies.

"…Bella…please" I could tell by his tone, that he was asking, no begging me to not make him tell me what happened.

I sighed a burning sigh; I didn't want to make him any worse so I just nodded. Maybe he could tell him once this was over, but he caught me by surprise when he picked me up from the bed and headed toward the garage with me in his arms. I could tell how carefully he was being while he carried me by his slow pace; he cradled me so close to him almost like I was a newborn.

He got into the back seat of Alice 's Porsche, who was already backing out of the driveway by the time he shut the door. He gently sat me across his lap while holding me close to him in his arms. I managed to move a little so I could lay my head against his rock hard shoulder, it was so comfortable, better than any pillow.

He gently rocked me back and forth while humming my lullaby, stopping every now and then to kiss some part of my face. I was beginning to feel a lot more like a newborn with the way he was treating me, still, I didn't really mind to be honest. I had missed Edward dearly even though he was only gone for a little while; I closed my eyes and just tried to enjoy the moment.

I don't know when or where he got it but I suddenly felt him wrap a blanket around me while still holding me tightly in his arms, when will he learn that he is better than any blanket?

I didn't need to ask where we were going, but the drive to the hospital ended rather quickly thanks to Alice 's insane driving, I was grateful my eyes were closed I'm sure that if I so much as glanced out the window I would have puked all over her car.

And trust me, sick or not, that would not have gone over well with Alice . Normally I would have put up a fight against the hospital, but with Edward like this I decided its probably not a good idea, and I will admit I was sick…

Alice dropped us off at the entrance and Edward proceeded to carry me all the way up to the room at his human pace. I knew he could tell I wasn't asleep, he always could, probably because I wasn't mumbling embarrassing things, but neither he nor Alice had said anything the entire ride and he was still silent as he walked.

I peaked one eye open to look at him and almost regretted it, Edward was staring straight ahead with a look on his face as if he just saw someone murder his entire family. I don't understand, what happened to cause him this much pain? Was it really that difficult for him to see me like this? I would get better why couldn't he see that?

We eventually made it to the room. Carlisle was already there along all this medical equipment.

"Is all this really necessary?" I managed to ask looking at it all, I knew he probably saw me peak before so it was pointless to keep them closed.

"Yes" Carlisle and Edward and answered firmly in sync.

I sighed a burning sigh as Edward laid me down and tucked me in, but even then his arms refused to leave me as he climbed in and held me even tighter to him, but still not to tight. I leaned against Edward's perfect granite hard chest and Carlisle proceeded to hook me up to all the devices, I didn't any pain or if there was suppose to be any, I was too focused on Edward, who was still focused on what ever occurred before.

"If you feel worse or need something please ask" Carlisle said before leaving, he was such a good man and was going to make a wonderful father to me.

I really hated hospitals, they reminded too much of the incident with James, whose mate we only managed to just recently kill. I never thought I'd be relieved over someone's death, but I couldn't help it knowing Edward and the Cullen's were truly safe…at least I hoped.

I glanced at Edward again only to see him focusing intently on the floor with the same look on his face as before. I was about to start questioning him again when my cell phone suddenly rang.

"Hello?" Edward said, answering it for me. His acting abilities never ceased to amaze, he sounded as if nothing had ever happened at all, like everything was perfectly fine,

"Bella?" I heard a man say.

"No Charlie its Edward" oh wonderful, he was just the person I needed calling in the midst of this, it was bad enough Edward and the family was freaking out over me, now we get to have Charlie too, and when he tells Renee! Ugh!

"Oh…" Charlie said disapprovingly, I really wish he'd accept Edward, you think he'd realize that after we told him about the proposal Edward wasn't going anywhere so he should just get use to him.

"Why are you answering Bella's phone? Where is she?" Charlie asked, luckily the hospital and this room was quiet enough for me to hear this whole thing.

"It's just like the note says Charlie" Note? What note?

"Well still I wanted to check in with her and why doesn't she have her phone with her?"

" Alice 's rule, she didn't want any interruptions during there shopping spree" what in the world was he talking about?

"Hmph..." I heard Charlie grunt; I knew he would not be acting like this if it was any of the other Cullen's on the phone.

"Well tell her to give me a call when she gets in" Charlie said.

"Ill see if I can you know how Alice is she'll probably have to carry Bella in"

"Well then have Alice call at least I just want to make sure she's alright"

"I assure you she is and will be" he is def the world's greatest liar, much better than Holden Caufield, only a few of us could tell when he was doing it.

"Bye then" Charlie said hanging up.

Edward let out a sigh and before I could even ask began explaining the situation.

"Alice decided it would be less stressful for both of you if he didn't know about this. She left him a note saying she kidnapped you for a shopping spree and slumber party" his voice had gone back to that of someone who recently lost a family member. Still I would have to thank Alice , again she was right and had anyone else written a note about my absence I knew there would have been a lot more questioning.

"Edward…" I croaked. I couldn't take this any longer I needed to know what ever it was that had happened to make him like this, I needed to know so I could comfort him and make him feel better as best I could, I cant stand to see him like this.

He squeezed me in response as if he just didn't want to use his voice.

"Please just te-" before I could finish Edward suddenly left the bed and was near the open window, I didn't even see him move.

I looked over at Edward as he looked out the window, his topaz eyes that were so sad and hurt a moment ago had suddenly turned the darkest black and were filled with anger and rage.

"Edward…?"

I heard a growl rip through his chest.

"Stay here" he growled with that he left through the window in a fit of rage.

Again, sorry about any grammar or spelling issues.