Hello fanfiction! Thank you for the reviews, favorites, and follows. A special thanks to H mae, SVTFOEfanatic, Julie, fanfictionfordayz, guest and MCPlayer26 and I am sorry i hurt you. I think the original may have been worse.
I actually had a different idea. I was going to actually break the cliche. In the original ending i was going to have Star and Marco actually see each other for a brief moment. Marco, having already opened the portal, would've actually been so surprised he would've tripped and accidentally went through the portal. Both Funny and devastating at the same time...umm funvastating? haha sorry that was lame. In the end i decided them barely missing each other would hurt but still be completely understandable
Now this is the actual chapter this week. Since the dual journal entry worked so well, i am using it again for this chapter. Once again Marco is bold while Star is regular text. To make up for hurting you, i made this chapter cheerful. I also am going to tell you that this is the lift to the last hill that is the roller coaster of If i miss you. I've got another dual chapter planned, a star chapter and then the final story arc. I'm telling you now, it is going to be a wild ride.
Before i let you loose, one more announcement. in my other story, always a star and hoodie, i have just opened up to requests. Please check that story, chapter 14 i believe, for rules and guidelines. This will be opened until midnight monday.
Now thank you once again for your reviews, follows, and favorites. I am thankful for all you readers and very happy for the support you have shown me. It means so much to me. Keep being awesome you readers! Now enjoy this fun chapter because from here on out there'll be fun but not as much and it is going to get intense. Thank you again! Enjoy and I own nothing
….I'll...write in you in a second...I...need a moment...
Hey Journal, I'm back from dinner. Sensei asked me about my trip...
I told him I went to pick up the package, some extra stuff for the soup and came home...
He asked about Star.
Inanimate object. Marco was in Mewni...Marco was...hold on...
I told him I didn't see her, I just went shopping. He looked right at me...he knew I was lying.
Here was he...he was in Mewni.
Tony told me he ran into Marco just outside the palace. That was him I saw!
Poor Tony, I just kept pelleting him with question after question. I mean it's been a year and half! A YEAR AND A HALF! But Tony was understanding and answered whatever questions I had.
I asked him how he looked, Tony told me Marco was growing up to be a fine man. I...I asked him again.
I could feel my heart clench itself, my blood turning cold, I was so scared that Tony was going to tell me Marco was good, carefree...so much happier without me...
I decide to tell him I saw Star through the window of her room. He asked did I talk to her. I told him no. He asked me if she was still as adorable as ever...
I told him she's beautiful...
Tony paused, making me worry even more. He was happier with me. He didn't miss me at all. He...isn't...my best friend anymore. I swore I could feel my hearts on my cheek rip in two as a sudden despair came over me.
"Star, I watched you two grow up together for 3 years" Tony began, gently putting a hand on my shoulder "You two tormented me, made a huge mess of the castle every other week. I remembered how you two used to sneak into the kitchen for a treat only for the dinner to end up over the walls when you decided to make Marco admit you were cute. I remember hearing you two scurry across the palace roof, spending god knows how many hours up there just staring at the stars until you two fell asleep next to each other"
I stared at him, confused by what he was trying to say. I had forgotten a lot of that actually. Latest trend with me.
Tony gave me a sad smile "Marco was absolutely miserable. He looked like he had the world pulled from under him and was drifting around lost and confused. It's like he's lost his other half. His best friend. His Star."
"w-why..." I croaked out, tears in my eyes "How could he miss me? After what I did...how..." I ashamed to say I started crying.
"Star. This is Marco we're talking about it. You know him better than anyone else."
I stopped and began thinking about what Tony was implying.
I did know Marco. I knew him like the back of my hand. I knew him better than I knew myself. His dreams...his crushes...his hopes...fears...I knew Marco. And then the answer hit me like a narwhal nuclear blast.
"He blames himself..." I said slowly, unable to believe the words pouring out of my mouth "He blames himself...h-he doesn't blame me! He thinks it's all his fault..."
Tony nodded in agreement
"That's...that's why he didn't come to see me...he was ashamed..."
I couldn't stop the tear dripping down from my eye. All this time...
"Oh Marco..."
Sensei asked me what I meant by that...I said she looked amazing...beautiful. He said I better be careful, sounded like I was in love...
I said I was...
I wiped the tears from my eyes.
"I have to find him! I need to set the record straight and apologize to him!" I shouted, not even causing Tony to flinch. Years of experience.
"You can't. You must wait six months for him to return."
I could feel disappointment fill my body but my determination was still burning strongly "Oh right. When is he supposed to come back?"
Tony glanced around, warily watching out for someone
"You didn't hear it from me" he told me in a conspiratorial whisper "But rumor is he is coming back on your birthday"
I couldn't stop the grin on my face if I tried "The best birthday gift ever."
I feel good. I mean I still feel guilty but now I knew why Marco was avoiding me. He thought it was his fault. The worst part was I knew where he got a silly idea like that...I remembered how childish and unreasonable I acted...
My sensei asked how could I be in love with a girl that hurt me. I told him she hadn't hurt me, I had hurt her. I broke my promise to her...I didn't understand how she was feeling at the time...after what had happened to her. I mean at the time I was just so caught up in me...but now, that I look back, there's no way I could blame her for acting like she did...it was scary what happened and no one came out of it okay. Even I wasn't okay for a while...
I retreated to my room though my sensei just slipped me a letter. Let me see what it is. Probably just some ads. Seriously, how do I still get ad mail in a dimension no one knows about?
It feels nice to have a plan. To have an idea what to do. Six months. Six months and Marco is back. I'll apologize like I should have and I'll finally get my Marco back.
Did I just write...you know what I did! I'll get MY Marco back.
Just six more months. You'll keep me company until then right? I still need to talk about it but...not today. Soon. I'm feeling better so...soon.
Oh, I got a letter. Hold on a bit inanimate object.
I feel so old right now. You'll never guess what it is. It's a wedding invitation. A wedding invitation to Eugene and Rapunzel's wedding. Wait, Rapunzel's 18 now! Her birthday passed a while ago. Oh god I can feel my skin wrinkling.
I'm so excited! Rapunzel's getting married! Some time after my birthday! I'm so happy for her, maybe Marco and I can go together. N-not like a date o-or anything. As two reunited best friends catching up on lost time...I can feel your disbelief book.
I can't believe Eugene finally had the guts to ask Rapunzel. Good for them. They were perfect for each other...somehow. Maybe Star and...I'll have a fun time if I go by myself right? Maybe I can ask to be a groomsman. I mean I've been stuck in dimension for a year and half but who knows, Eugene...I mean FLYNN RIDER always liked me since I met him at the sleepover.
I remember when I first officially met Rapunzel. I mean I always heard about her given that our families had an alliance but I hadn't actually met her until the sleepover at her castle
I remembered how surprise it was for both Marco and me to be dropped off at the same castle. We'd had been to sleep overs but always boys or girls only. This was the first time we were at a coed sleepover...even if it wasn't exactly what it was...
I remembered Rapunzel walking up to me sometime before the sleepover took place and ushering me to meet her father, Star closely rather closely behind. She was practically stepping on my toes when Rapunzel pulled me away.
Princess Elsa and Anna were there too! Then out of nowhere Rapunzel just grabbed Marco's arm and began dragging him off. I felt a spike of...umm...annnoyaanceee? Yeah that thing as I chased after them.
Then I felt bad for Marco.
Rapunzel begged me to convince her father to let Flynn and his friend Kristoff sleep over, albeit not in the same room as the girls. Apparently the coed sleepover was a cover to get me to come so I can convince the king for prince Eugene to sleep over...
I remember how calmly Marco told the king who he was and how he would personally assured that the boys would cause no trouble. I mean I forgot how much pull Marco had with the adults. I mean we always got in trouble, fights, adventures, places we weren't suppose to be but Marco was so responsible that he had no trouble convincing the adults we were in good hands. I remember how calm, cool and confident he was speaking to the king.
I could feel the sweat running down my back as I nervously tried to convince the king to let the boys stay. I was furious at Rapunzel's last minute bait and switch but it was too late. Nothing left to do but play the hand dealt to me. The king looked at me thoughtfully and agreed. The boys would stay in the guest room, the girls in Rapunzel's.
The moment the king had agree, the boys grabbed me by the arms and started dragging me away while the girls did the same to Star heading in the opposite direction. "NIGHT STAR!" I called to her.
"Night Marco!" she called back.
"Don't worry!" The boys called back to us "We'll take good care of your husband!"
I glanced at them utterly lost "Husband?"
"And don't worry Marco, we'll take good care of your wife!"
"W-wife?" I muttered, turning bright red at the notion they were implying at.
"Giiiiirls?" I asked playfully "Why did the guys call Marco my husband? And why did you call me his wife?"
The girls giggled a bit "Because..."
"You two are practically joined at the hips!" Eugene teased as they dragged up the stairs.
I shouted "We are not joined at the hip"
"We are not fused together" I pouted at them
Rapunzel, her long blonde hair tied up in a rather thick umm...ponytail? turned around, walking backwards while peering at me quizzically "When was the last time you two didn't do something together. And I don't mean when you two are at your own homes" Rapunzel cut me off as I opened my mouth to answer "I mean when you two are together, minus bathroom breaks, how often are you apart?"
I opened my mouth and closed it. We practically spent every second together.
"So what? I like hanging out with Star" I muttered, cheeks bright red.
Eugene and Kristoff grinned at each other "See! Married. Let me guess, when she's mad at you, she makes you do something for her." Kristoff interrogated with a knowing smirk.
"Well..." I started uneasily
"But Marco's nachos are the best! They are so delicious!" I whined "Is it my fault I love triangle food?"
The girls grinned at each other while we entered Rapunzel's massive room "See, married"
I turned bright red. The idea of marrying Marco was...was...
I remember flushing even worse "So what are we doing?" my eyes glancing at the ground."
Rapunzel gave me a huge smile as she tore away a curtain to reveal a blank wall "Right now, we are painting."
I yayed and clapped while briefly wondering what the boys were up to.
I ducked under Eugene, his deadly weapon in his hands. He gave me a sly smirk as he swung the weapon in his hand, aiming for my head. I dove to the floor, the soft thud of his weapon crashing against the wall as it missed my head.
Eugene wasn't finished though. Using all his might, he swung his weapon over head, ready to crush me under its weight. I rolled out of the way before sliding my legs under a table. As he ran towards, a manic look in his eyes, I gripped the edges and launched myself forward below table, skidding to the other side to the waiting Kristoff.
Kristoff lifted his weapon high and brought down with tremendous force. I lifted my pillow just in time to absorb his attack. Kristoff staggered backwards as Eugene leapt off a nearby desk, his pillow connecting with Kristoff's head. Kristoff went down with a dramatic flair but I was already slamming into Eugene, pillow against his stomach.
"There is no way the girls are having this much fun" Kristoff called from the floor.
I slowly tried to regain my balance as Elsa twirled around me "You can't hesitate. Keep your momentum moving."
"Easy for you to say" I muttered as the icy floor reflected my scared face "You're the one that lives with snow."
Elsa gave me a nonchalantly shrug as she magnificently took to the air, spinning repeatedly mid-air before landing with a flourish.
I rolled my eyes as Elsa's little sister Anna had the same problem I had. Well she was a little more skilled, especially Elsa stepping in here and there to help straighten her out. It was no surprise that Rapunzel, who knew more things than wikipedia, may have not been as gracefully as Elsa but was just as expertly gliding through the ice covered room.
I glanced over to the wall, our newly created paintings freshly drying against the cold night air. Anna had drawn a pudgy snowman she lovingly referred to as Olaf. Elsa had completely cheated and sprayed fantastic ice crystals before simply tracing over them and coloring them in. Rapunzel had gone wild drawing a small green chameleon riding atop a white stallion over a bright yellow sun.
I drew a star and a small spider.
I remember Elsa accidentally spraying me in the face with icy as she came to a stop.
"O-oh" she said nervously, quietly approaching me "I-I'm so sorry Star."
I smiled at her as I drew my wand "Ice cream cupcake blast!"
"Seriously?" Eugene asked me in disbelief.
I nodded, pulling out my nachos from the kitchen's stone oven "Yeah. That's it."
Kristoff stared at the food, not sure if he really believed me either. "it is literally just chips and cheese"
I laughed at them "Your ignorance is laughable. I should know, I just did! HA! You foolish mortals know nothing of Marco's super awesome nachos!"
Both looked at each other before reaching one and taking a bite.
I could see the tears in their eyes as their face's twisted in sheer bliss.
"How is this so good?" Eugene cried, quickly reaching for another.
Kristoff nodded happily "This is amazing!"
I grinned proudly as I heard the approaching footsteps. I turned to find the girls covered head to toe in ice cream and frost.
"Did an ice cream twister hit?" Eugene teased, gently moving a finger against Rapunzel's cheek before eating it.
Rapunzel was bright red as she slapped his chest.
"only after a blizzard" Kristoff muttered as he walked to Anna, handing her a small towel to wipe her face. He gave her a smile before hastily handing another towel to Elsa.
"Staaaar, what did you do?" I asked, peering carefully at her.
"Elsa started it!" I whined
Elsa scoffed "Mine was an accident. Don't go be running to your husband because you were losing."
"I was not losing!" I playfully yelled, completely ignoring my heart beating rapidly as I purposely ignored her comment.
"Star" Marco called to me, clearly warning me.
I pouted a bit, pretending to be angry.
"Star." I repeated "Clean everyone up"
Star turned to me, pouting but I could see the twinkle in her eyes saying she was just playing.
"Clean everyone up or no nachos. They are freshly made."
Star rolled her eyes before letting out a giggle "Haha okay Marco. Super cleany bubble storm!"
Maybe I should've tried the spell out before releasing it all over the kitchen. I remember how everyone was completely covered in bubbles and we all just laughed as played around with them.
When the bubbles finally disappeared, Marco kicked us out of the kitchen, scolding us for ruining his nachos. I remember sharing a smile with him before leaving with the others.
We decided to head outside the castle so the smell of Marco's nachos didn't make us realize there was no way there was enough for 7 people.
It was a lot colder inside the castle than outside. I knew castles tended to be drafty but sometimes I wish someone could just magically change the temperature in a room from hot to cold or the other way around.
As I stood next to Elsa, I couldn't help but glance over at the others. Kristoff was lightly teasing Anna about how she fell into a snow bank while Anna countered with the time Kristoff had ran face first into a tree. Despite being Eugene's friend, Kristoff clearly had a history with Anna.
Eugene was just watching Rapunzel as she ran around on the grass, tumbling this way and that, his normally defensive and sly eyes softening at the sight of her.
I totally called it they were going to get married.
Of course the peaceful night hadn't lasted long.
Without warning a portal had opened just a few feet from Rapunzel and Ludo, Buff Frog, Bearicorn and large amount of monsters I had never seen before came strolling out: Ludo's clearly been saving up to hire new monsters.
"Rapunzel I'm here for your magic hair!" Ludo cried, using the same tone and pose he used when he announced himself to me.
"Ludo!" Rapunzel said, in the exact same way I usually answered to Ludo.
Eugene stepped closer to Rapunzel, their bodies in a fighting stance as Rapunzel pulled a frying pan from out of nowhere.
I couldn't stop the words from coming out of my mouth "This is the weirdest thing to see. Is this how Marco and me look when you do it to us?"
"I don't know..." Marco replied as he stepped next to me, clearly in shock as much as I was.
"What?" Ludo looked around angrily "Who said...! Star Butterfly!"
"Ludo" I answered confused.
There was an awkward silence in the air as the monsters glanced at each other uneasily.
"What are you doing here?" Ludo questioned.
I replied "Sleepover. You?"
Ludo peered at Rapunzel "Umm magic hair"
I nodded like I had a clue what was going on.
Rapunzel inched over to me "You know him?"
"Yeah. He tries to steal my wand from time to time"
"Really? He tries to steal my hair and its magical powers."
"Cool, cool. This is really awkward..."
Ludo crossed his arms "I have a lot of evil schemes in the works. You aren't the only magical princess I'm after."
I nodded in understanding "I figured. It's just...a little weird to actually see it you know?"
"Completely" Marco agreed.
"look" Rapunzel sassed towards Ludo "I'm having a sleepover, can we hurry this along?"
"What?" Ludo looked surprised "oh, of course."
Ludo raised one little hand to his mouth and coughed before shrieking loudly "GET ME THAT WAND!" He stopped, lost before shouting out "I MEAN THE HAIR! I MEAN...GAH JUST GET ME BOTH!"
The monsters roared loudly before changing straight for us.
Eugene yelled at the type of his lungs "Avengers assemble!"
We all let out a groan
"Just stop dude" Kristoff chastised him.
"I..." Eugene started but Rapunzel was already pulling his ear to get him to stop "Elsa!"
Elsa raced forward "On it."
With one wave of her hand, the entire field ahead of us was covered in a slippy ice surface. The monsters began slipping all over the place. And without missing a beat, Elsa waved her hand towards us, each of our shoes growing a set of ice blades as a beautiful wave of ice passed through us.
Eugene, Kristoff and Rapunzel wasted no time, leaping straight onto the ice and expertly began rushing towards the near helpless monsters.
I tried to follow but I could barely keep my balance on the ice. I nearly fell face first when I felt a hand wrapped around my waist, steadying me on my feet. I turned to the smiling face of Marco next to me, holding tightly as he guided me on the ice.
I don't know what I was thinking. I just wrapped my arm around her waist. I mean I didn't want her hurting herself and Star's never really ice skated before.
I remembering holding her weight up, guiding us as she attacked the monsters with narwhals and bashing a monster's head with her wand whenever they got too close.
Elsa and Anna were on the snowbank, off of the ice. Elsa created blocks of ice and snowballs for Anna to toss towards the monsters we couldn't reach in time, keeping them distracted as we worked our way through the small army.
Kristoff would charged directly at the monsters, shoulder tackling any of them that stood in his way (Given how much they were sliding around, I doubt they had much of a choice about getting out of the way) If a small monster was in his way, Kristoff sent them flying through the air and I felt a little pity for them when I heard them crack against the ice. When a big monster was in his way, Kristoff would literally knock them off their feet before rubbing his shoulder before continuing his assault.
Eugene and Rapunzel were a deadly pair. Eugene was constantly guiding Rapunzel, hands tightly intertwined as he swung her around like a dance partner. As Eugene flung her past monsters, she would smack them with a frying pan as hard as she could before the pair twirled away in a different direction and a different target.
The battle was going great until Anna had accidentally knocked a monster out right in front of our path. I barely registered her "Sorry!" as I felt Star stiffen under my grasp. Without warning, I turned to her and placed both of my hands on her hips.
Before I could ask what Marco was doing, he lifted me high into the air and launched upwards. I remember feeling an odd sense of calm as I fell back to Earth. No panic scream, no yelling Marco's name. Just Star tumbling back to Earth.
I knew I was safe the moment Marco caught me bridal style, gliding through the ice as I wrapped my arms around around his neck.
Ludo retreated, dragging all his monsters off the ice until he was left. He glared at every single one of us before raising his hands in defeating and sulking angrily into the whirl vortex.
It was nice to have back up.
I let Marco skate us off the ice, a rapid heartbeat pulsing under my fingertips. I was so sure Marco could hear my heart ringing in his ears.
As I held Star tightly, my heart racing, I tried my hardest not to think how light she was. I could easily carry her. As we approached the others who were already off the ice, I tried to slow my heart down. It didn't work.
No one seemed to notice what had happened between Star and I. They were more concerned with each other.
Eugene and Rapunzel shyly shared a smile together, quietly telling each other how good the other was at skating.
Anna was checking Kristoff for injuries. Kristoff had been downed during the fight and hit his head the ice pretty hard. Anna's finger brushed against where Kristoff's head collided with the ground and he let out a sharp wince before quickly trying to shrug it off. Elsa simply rolled her eyes, creating an ice pack for Kristoff's head.
I gently put Star down and she happily twirled to face me.
"You okay?" I asked quietly
She nodded "You?"
"Yeah. I'm okay" I told her with a smile.
We made our way back to the castle, Marco promising to make us nachos. Turns out he brought a lot more than we thought. I remembering entering to the kitchen to ask Marco something
"Marco...can I ask you a favor?" I cheerfully asked.
Marco turned to me "Sure Star, what is it?"
"Could you maybe put some nachos aside just for us? S-so we don't have to fight the others for them?"
Marco grinned brightly, revealing two bowls, a large massive one that was easily bigger than my head and a smaller one that I recognized as the one from home he always uses for us
"Way ahead of you Star"
We didn't sleep until the sun was rising. I, unfortunately, had the honor of being woken up to explain to the king why 7 teenagers were asleep in the main hall surrounded by empty bowls and nacho crumbs. I told him the truth about the attack and we were all just too full of adrenaline and worry for each other to properly sleep. The king nodded. Elsa, Anna and Rapunzel sleepily made their way back to the girls room and Eugene and Kristoff went grumbling to the guest room.
I tried to wake Star but she was fast asleep. I rubbed my eyes tiredly before lifting her off the cold floor.
I bit back a yelp when she wrapped her arms around me and cuddled into my chest. I tried to pry her off but she just clung on tighter.
I didn't have enough strength to carry her back to Rapunzel's room, so I asked the king if there was a spare bed room on the bottom floor.
Each time I tried to lay Star on the bed, she just hung on tightly, refusing to let me go. I took a deep breath, gently maneuvering myself and her onto to the bed. As she nuzzled against my chest, my eyes felt heavy and before I knew it I was asleep.
I knew Marco trying to get me to go to bed but he was just so warm and the castle was so cold. So I maaaaay have purposely hung onto him until he gave up. And as he wrapped his arms around me, I snuggled against his warmth before drifting off to a peaceful sleep.
Why is this so hard? Why did I have to see Star today? I just...maybe I shouldn't go back. I hurt her so badly. She has every right to be angry me. I am the worst person ever...I'm so selfish and idiotic. I...I need to sleep.
I miss Marco. I drove him away. I own that. But I refuse to let him blame himself!
6 more months. 6 more months. 6 more months.
Good night journal
Good night Star...I'm sorry for everything.
Good night inanimate object
Good night Marco. Se you soon. You have no idea how bad I want to see you. I'd give anything to have you here right now.
